Harry
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I go back and forth in my room wondering
Why you're so caught up in his lust
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Esme and I left the hospital with Ember and Louis last night, Esme left with them and she said she would call me in the morning, I just woke up so she should be calling me soon, I had an okay night of sleep but I wanted Esme next to me for comfort, I also need to call my mom today for our once a week calls, I miss her a lot but I should be in London soon for tour so I can stop by and see Gem and my mom
I roll over to see Ripley snoring laying on his back and his paws are in the air, I laugh and I rub him belly waking him up, he jumps but when he feels his belly being rubbed he relaxes again, I hear my phone buzz and I turn over quickly seeing Esme's contact name pop up, I put it as Goldie of course, I swipe It open and I put the phone to my ear
"morning Smiley" she answers and I hear her soft tone captivate me, I sit up against my head board and I laugh, "Morning Goldie" I say and she giggles making my stomach do flips, "how do you feel?" I ask her and she sighs, "very sore but my cuts and bruises don't hurt it's just my ribs" she says and I nod, "you need to ice today" I say and she laughs, "yes dad" she scoffs and I feel myself tighten at her words, Harry stop
"what are you doing today?" I hear her voice speak again and I look up to my ceiling, "nothing yet, I have to call my mom soon but probably just chilling around my house" I say and she doesn't say anything, "would you like to do something goldie?" I ask her and she laughs, "we can do something if you'd like" she mumbles and I smile, "come over at one, we can hang around the house and watch tv, I don't want you to move around too much" I say and I stand up out of bed and I stretch
"okay I'll see you then" she says sweetly and I nod and I hang up, I walk to the kitchen and I make myself some eggs and bacon, I dial my mom and I hear the phone ring for a few seconds, "Harry!" I hear my moms voice ring through my ears and I smile, "Hi mom" I say excited and I hear her smile, "I missed you how's everything?" I hear her ask and my stomach sinks a lot of shit has happened, I've always talked to my mom and sister about things since I didn't have a dad but this is a lot to put on them, "it's good just getting ready for tour now" I partly lie and I sit down taking a bite out of my eggs
"thats good hon, I'm so excited for you to come to London" I hear her get happy and I smile, Esme reminds me of her, just the way she talks and the way she gets excited and gitty about the little things, "I know we come to London November 11th I'm pretty sure" I say, "thats a couple months away, I can't wait for you to be on tour I know it's your favorite thing to do" she says and I nod.
"it is, how's gem?" I ask her, "gem's good just trying to get though school right now, she's a little stressed but she told me to tell you she misses you" she says and I feel my heart warm up at my sisters sweet words, "tell her I miss her as well and I'll call her when I get some time" I say and she awe's
"I'll call you next week alright I have to go grocery shopping" I my mom say and I nod feeling sad that she has to go, "Okay love you" I say and she kisses the phone, "Love you H" she says and I hang up the phone, I look at my stove and I see it's eleven-thirty-seven, I wash my plate and I walk to my shower, I walk into the shower turning on the water to warm up and I take off my black cloth shorts and briefs I had on underneath, I leave my clothes in my room and I walk past my toilet and sink once again, I step into the steam of the shower and I rest my hand on the brick wall, It has different shades of grey and it is different sizes of brick as well as an accent wall
I feel the hot water burn my body and I lean my head down so the water seeps into my skull, I feel the water all over me and I grab my shampoo from the ledge, I pour some into my hands and I scrub it into my hands and I run my hands through my hair making sudds everywhere, I step back into the water and I let it wash out
I think of Esme and that she will be here soon, I know that she doesn't want to do anything or act on anything but I know we both know there's something here, it's definitely too soon but I wish fucking Patrick never existed it would of made her and me a whole lot easier, I grab my blue loofa and I squirt some of my vanilla body wash onto it rubbing it over all of my body, I step back under the water and it washes it all out, I turn off the water and I wrap the towel around my waist and I walk into my room once again
I walk to my drawer and I pick an outfit for myself something comfortable of course, I put on one of the new hoodies my pr manager sent me for the tour, it's a simple black hoodie and it says Harry Styles love on tour 2018 in the corner by the heart, I put on some black Addis sweatpants and some black socks and I run my fingers through my hair, I walk back to my sink and I brush my teeth real fast, by the time I get to my phone to check the time I see it's almost one which means she should be here soon
I walk to my front room to see Ripley laying by the door, I hear the front door ding and Rip barks very loud, I rub his back and I laugh, "it's just goldie rip don't worry she's harmless" I say and I open the door, I see her face and she looks down at the dog that is probably the size of her, she smiles and walks towards the dog
"and who are you mister?" she asks in a higher pitched voice and rip loves it, "that would be Ripley the king of the house" I say and she looks up at me, "Ripley you are very cute" she smirks at him and he leaves his tongue out for her and he walks inside
I look down to her and she smiles, I open the door wider and she steps forward
"come in" I say and she does
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