Ace POV
We are currently in a two-story house somewhere I don't know. This house looks so sad, I don't know, but this place gives me melancholy vibes. He is currently guiding me to enter the house, but I stop him before fully entering.
"Babe? What are we doing here? Whose house is this? Babe? Are we trespassing or something!! God!! Babe!! I don't want to go to jail!!" I nervously said to him. Even we are rich. I don't think my parents can save me from going to jail if they caught us trespassing!! I was shocked when he suddenly laugh at me.
Did I say something funny!! I glared at him!! My nervous feeling turns into annoyance!!
"Are you laughing?? Are you really laughing!!" I asked him
"Hahaha, I'm sorry, baby!! I couldn't help it!! Here I am so nervous about bringing you here, but as usual, you still manage to make me happy!! I'm so fortunate to have you!!" He smilingly said to me, which only made me more confused. Why is he nervous about bringing me here
"So, babe! Where are we really? Whose house is this??" I asked him
"I lived here!!" He seriously said to me
"Oh, okay....." I casually said at first, but when I realize what he said.
"WHAT? You lived here?? Gosh! Why didn't you tell me?? Are your parents in!! God!! Babe!! Why didn't you..." I started to feel slight panic, but Damon didn't let me finish and just kissed me on my lips. I was shocked by what he did that I can't help but punch him on his chest a little
"Babe!! Why did you kiss me?? What if someone will see!! What will your parents see me as!!" I seriously said to him. Damon is so shameless sometimes!!
"Hahaha, don't worry, baby!! You don't have anything to worry!! I brought you here today cause I know how much you want to know me as a whole! I know how much you've trying to surpass the feeling of being curious of knowing all about me. I know I've been so secretive and haven't been fully open to you!! I know this is the reason why you've been feeling unsecured about our relationship!! This is why you asked me those questions earlier, right??" He seriously asked me. How did he know?? Am I obvious
"Ahh, Babe. I didn't mean to pressure you!! I admit I want to know all about you, but I know I need to trust you and wait for you to tell me all about it yourself too!! I realized that if I really love you! I should be more considerate of you! Of your feeling! I shouldn't push you into doing things that you aren't comfortable doing! I can wait!! I promise I can! I also have things that I'm not telling you yet, so It's okay for me now, even if you didn't tell it all to me for now." I said to him. He smiled at me then held my cheeks before speaking. He caressed it gently and remained looking at me like he was memorizing every part of my face.
"Babe??" I can't help but asked him. The look in his eyes is so different from the usual. I can see sadness and fear in it. I held his hand that is caressing my face. He looked at me straight in the eyes
"I'm just afraid, baby!! I'm sorry if I keep delaying this, but I'm just afraid about what your reaction will be!! I don't want to share this part of my life because this part of me is the thing that I never want to let other people know, especially you! It's the darkest part of my life that I'm too afraid that it will make all the people that I care about leave me. To lose all of the people I love because of this. You are the most important person to me, baby, besides my mom. I don't ever want to lose you! I'm scared that if you know this part of me, you will see that I don't deserve you!! That you and I are so far from the perfect couple. I don't want to see you ever go!! Ever!!" He sadly said to me. I can feel the tremble in his voice. He is petrified!!
I just pulled him into me and hugged him so tight to calm him down. I can even see that his hands are shaking a while ago while saying those words to me. When I felt that he stopped trembling, I pulled away from him and made him face me, but I'm still holding his hands
"You don't have to worry, babe!! You don't have to be nervous because no matter what you tell me, no matter what thing I learn today, I will always stay by your side and choose you!! I will always choose you as a matter of fact! I'm already your baby, and it will never change no matter what your past is. I don't care about anything, and don't you ever think that whatever you say to me will make me love you less because it is the opposite, babe! It will only make me love you more?? Don't be too hard on yourself, babe!! I know whatever it is! Whatever your past or your present is, it will never be the reason for me to stop loving you." I smilingly said to him. I can see the sudden change on his face. He is now smiling so widely at me!!
"Thank you so much, baby!! I love you so much! You are the one person besides my mom that I want to be with me forever, so please stay. Please don't ever let me go?" He asked me sounded like he was begging me
" I love you so much, babe!! Like what you promise me earlier, babe! I will stay too. I will always stay by your side!!" I smilingly said to him. He formed a big smile on his face
"Thank you, baby!! My mom is inside. I would like you to meet her at the same time. I will tell you everything about me. I would answer any of the questions you might have for me. But first, let me ask you this! Are you ready to meet the whole Damon?" He smiling ask me. He handed his arms to me. I looked at it for a while. Then I smiled at him. I repeatedly nodded as my response to his question then hold his hands tightly.
He smiled back then he started to guide me inside. This house inside is just like what I feel on the outside. It feels like no woman is living in this house. It is very different in the vibes of our home. Even though my mom is not a woman, he loves to decorate and fix the house to make it homier!!
"Babe? You said that your mom lives here, but why..." He didn't let me finish
"Why does this house feel and look this way??" He asked him. I looked around. There is no picture frame anywhere in this house, no living plant. It's clean, but it feels empty. I nodded repeatedly.
"It's because my mom is not living here. My mom lives here physically but emotionally, and her presence was already long gone a long time ago. I don't know when she will come back or if she will ever come back at all." He sadly said. I was confused about what he meant by what he said
"What do you mean, babe?" I asked him, but instead of answering me, He guided me to a room here on the first floor. But before he fully opened it, He faced me again and smiled at me before speaking
"Are you ready?" He asked me again, so I just smiled at him.
"Always as long as it's with you!" I answered back. He smiled at me again then he speaks
"I will show you!" He said to me. Then he proceeded in opening a door in front of me. We both enter it. There I saw a woman, I think on her 40, sleeping on the bed. She looks thin but still beautiful. I saw how Damon, go by her side and sit beside her bed. He started caressing her face before looking back at me
"Who is she, babe?" I asked him
"She is my mom, Baby!! She is the most caring, beautiful woman I have ever met in my whole life. She is my one and only protector in the whole world. She is my mom!!" He smilingly said to me, but sadness lingers in his eyes while looking at me. I walk to his side. I look at her. Even though she was thin, I can see the overflowing beauty on her face. Damon looks like her.
"Is she sick? Why is she like this?" I sadly asked him. He held my hand and guided me to sit on his lap. I just encircle my one arm on his nape while still not looking away from her mom.
"Yes, she is. There is nothing wrong with her physically. It's more like mentally. She had been like this for years already. It's like she had given up after all the years of hardship she had to go through to protect me!!" He sadly said to me. I was shocked when I suddenly saw some tears starting to fall from his eyes.
"Babe!! Are you crying??" I was shocked seeing him like this. I can see how much he was hurt and sad for his mom!! I just put my hands on his face and tries to wipe his tears away.
"Please stop, babe! You don't have to tell me, anything babe! Especially if it will only bring you into tears like this. I can still wait!! this is enough for me!" I said to him. I can't see him be like this!! I don't want to.
"No, baby!! I have to do this!! You don't deserve just enough! You deserve more than that!!" He firmly said to me while trying to make himself look strong. I just smiled at him
"When I was a child, my mother told me that I have a disorder called Dyslexia which is a learning disorder that involves difficulty reading due to problems identifying speech sounds and learning how they relate to letters and words, also called reading disability, dyslexia affects areas of the brain that process language. My intelligence is normal, and I have normal vision. Still, I have symptoms like late talking, Learning new words slowly, Problems forming words correctly, such as reversing sounds in words or confusing words that sound alike, Problems remembering or naming letters, numbers, and colors, Difficulty learning nursery rhymes, or playing rhyming games. Many people think of me as stupid. One of those is my dad. He never likes me, especially after he knew about my condition. Actually, I have an older brother who doesn't have the condition like me. My dad loves him so much, but he died the day that I was born. My mom was in the market that day when her water broke, signaling that I'm about to be born. My brother was still a kid that day, so he wasn't aware of what's going on. He started to run around the place and away from my mom. Then the next thing my mom knows is she is now looking at her son lying in the middle of the road soak in his own blood. He died on the spot! The day, the hardship, and the struggles of my mom started. My dad's behavior changes drastically, and it made my mom's life so miserable. He started to hurt her physically and emotionally!! He started to abuse her sexually. We all know that even though she is his wife. A man can never force himself into her. My mom had to suffer for years because of what happened. She suffered miscarriage multiple times because even though she was pregnant again, my father didn't stop hurting her. My dad also beats me and curses me to death!! He said that he doesn't want me and he doesn't need a stupid son like me. Even when I was only a child, he was hurting me. He doesn't care about me. He never took care of me. He even started to get addicted to alcohol, drug, and gambling. My mom had to do everything to provide not only for me but for him because if she didn't give him money to provide for his addiction, he would turn his anger on me. For more than ten years, my mom had to go through all of that until years ago. She finally gave up!! Her mind suddenly shuts down because of those hateful things that happen to her in the past. She remained still. She never moves or speaks again!! She will only look straight or sleep. Sometimes I blame myself because if I weren't born in this world, nothing of this hardship would ever happen to my mom. My brother should be alive, and I will never have to witness all those things that happen. This is why I'm trying my best to graduate and have a good life in the future for my mom. We can't leave here even though my douchebag dad is still here. Until now, He only knows how to make my life and my mom's life miserable. If only, not to those people who care about us, I don't know if we will be able to survive at all!! My life is full of darkness and hardship, which resulted in me being what I am in the past!! The douchebag and heartless man who loves to inflict pain on others like how my father inflicts pain on me. My life is full of hurt and hardship!! I live this way, baby!! I was born this way!! So tell me!! Can you still love someone like me!! Can you still love me even though you already know that being with me, you will also have to be with all of this darkness and nothingness!! I don't have anything to offer to you, baby! I have nothing!! I only get to live and continue to study just because of my scholarship, my winnings during my underground battle. All of the things that I have right now are all hands out. I have nothing but pain, baby!! Do you still want me??"
I don't know what to say to Damon. I was shocked by all the things that he said to me. I can't believe that these kinds of things are real! I thought it was only into the movies!! How can someone get through all of this!! I feel so hurt and sad for him!! I can't believe that he had to live this way!! I now understand why he was like that before. Can anyone blame him for choosing to live that way in the past? After all the things that he had to go through his entire life.
Damon is looking at me while his tears keep flowing from his eyes!! He looked hurt and in pain!! I know he is also scared that I might leave him after everything he said to me.
BUT HOW CAN I DO THAT!!!
How can I leave him after all the things that he said to me!!
I can't ever not want him!!
So what I did next is I just put both of my hands on his face and tries to caress his face to wipe those tears away. I feel so hurt and sad for him!! My heart is aching while seeing him like this. I looked at him intently. I never look away from him while I slowly brought my lips into his.
My lips are just feeling his. No one is moving; it's like we are both just feeling the moment. Feeling the overflowing love and want for each other.
Words aren't enough!! It will never be enough!
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"LOOK WHO WE HAVE HERE!!!" someone speaks from the door of the room.
To be continued
A/N
Gosh! I know this chapter will be long, but I never thought it would be up to 3K words!!
What do you think will happen next? Be ready Mi - Loves!
Waanjai MJORA