Adam and i have been together for a year now, living in his gorgeous apartment with our lives entwined everyday. Sometimes i can't believe this is real.
Oh and we also graduated almost a month ago. Do i know what i wanna do? yes and no. I worked way too hard for this degree, i realized i need a break. Not too long of a break but just a small one. A breather.
It's a little overwhelming to see everyone else in the Kings know exactly what they need to do, it's been set in stone for them probably when they were all toddlers.
Adam is in the process of transitioning into taking over the family business, which means he's going to singlehandedly own 80% of everything. Since his dad is 'over it' and ready to retire and cruise the Atlantic with Adam's mom. Such a cute couple, really goes beyond me why their son grew up to be such a whore for the early part of his twenties. Before we happened of course.
Rhiannon is going to work with her dad on their designer clothing line, who's already in business with Adam.
Erika has her own business, she started not too long ago. Topped with her own family stuff. Not to mention, James being hopelessly in love with her. They're definitely not signing a prenup. Meaning half of his shit, already belongs to her too. I'm starting to think she's going to overpower Adam in becoming the richest in the Kings.
She wanted to be engaged as long as possible, We don't even know when they're getting married. I don't think even she knows to be precise. Just basking in on being a fiancee as much as she can.
Liam still hasn't been back, the last of his letters being months ago. Sometimes i forget he even lived at Goodman's but the cats haven't forgotten him. I know they don't extensively meow at my presence but hoping he's right behind me.
And Edward? he was going to wing his life until it's time he started work too. Which is joining his mother in exporting expensive cars and owning most of the luxurious car dealerships in the country.
And me? Just binging netflix, don't know what's gonna come up tomorrow or day after. I'm just winging it.
"See you later babe" Adam lands a quick soft kiss on my forehead, chuckling to himself before heading out the door. Shaking his head in disbelief seeing his girlfriend in one of his oversized hoodies, a face mask over her face as she munches on Tim Tams watching Haunting of Hill House for the 20th time because she misses the Crains.
I nodded my head to acknowledge his presence and him leaving for work. As i laid lifelessly on the couch, my eyes glued to the fat 70 inch TV mounted to the wall with one leg over the headrest.
Does he regret dating me? The good the bad and the ugly i guess. I haven't been like this throughout our entire relationship. It was exciting and eventful almost everyday. We would go to places, do the most activities.
But it started to die down eventually, with him getting more involved in work and missing out on most of our planned activities.
It upset me at first, but it's something he's gotta do. And as his girlfriend, i have to be okay with that.
Fuck he even talked me into hiking once. HIKING. And i despise hiking because- The Ritual, The Blair witch project, Cabin in the woods, Skinwalkers, Wendigos
Literally every fucking horror movie i've ever seen. I love horror movies but i don't want to live in one.
I spent the entirety of nightfall jumpy at the slightest creek, my nails digging into his toned large biceps every few seconds. Of course Adam has the largest tent where we could actually stand inside with enough space to dance around. He had the map and the directions, he's planned everything but this was life and death. And i did not trust him one bit.
"I love you i really do, but if i in any way see so much as a fucking shadow outside i'm leaving you here i don't care if you can't catch up. Literally Good bye" He chuckled as he unpacked his massive backpack, pulling out blankets for the two of us.
"Why are you so scared i'm right here" He affirmed, draping me with a blanket to keep me warm.
"Like you can take on a Wendigo" I scoffed, yeah i've seen Until Dawn. It traumatized me.
"What happened? i thought you weren't easily scared" He teased, attempting to tickle me.
We spent one night in our hiking spot because i had to pee at night, and pissing out in the woods wasn't already caveman like enough. I made Adam stand guard as i did so, only to hear a loud creek and a growl not so far off. That did it for me.
I almost cried and he had to cut the hike short and take me home early morning. Of course i set myself up to be scared of the woods because of all the horror content i intake on the daily. But i also may have potentially saved both our lives from a fucking skin walker.
I laid on the couch, letting out a deep sigh realizing i'm wasting everyday with no goals, no plans, just vibes.
The girls pleaded me to come work with them, a higher up position too but it just didn't seem right to me. It's not like Adam wasn't the first to offer me himself, but dating him and being their friend was more than enough.
I didn't want things handed to me by default, just because I'm connected to them. That's cheating. Although Anna says differently.
"Bitch you literally just got handed 4 golden tickets to living a stress free life. Use them!" She urged, annoyed that i'm not choosing to work with Adam.
It's not out right like a sugar baby but it kind of felt like it was. Last thing i need is people turning around pointing fingers at me saying i'm using Adam. When i make money i want it to be on my terms, by my own hard work. Putting this damn degree to work that i slaved off for.
We grocery shop together and do all those things and we always split our costs, although sometimes Adam stacks our fridge and cabinets with all the essentials and more in secret. Really unfair if you ask me.
ding
My phone rang, the group chat between the girls and i popping up on my screen.
"Bitch it's your birthday in tomorrow, you know what you wanna do?"
i've been rotting away for days how did i even forgot my birthday is coming up. Turning 24 felt as useless as the P in raspberry.
"Doesn't matter i have something planned" Erika joined, adding covered eyes monkey emoji.
"That's not how surprises work stupid"
I chuckled at the girls' interaction. Well it seems as if i don't have a choice but to go along with what the girls have planned for me.
"We're gonna get hammered in a very nice place"
huh. Seems about right.
Giving me the details on where to show up and how to dress, i was nervous but excited. Well at least there's something to look forward to, for 24 hours at least.
I literally cannot sit around on my ass all day while everyone i know is doing something with their lives, this is nothing short of embarrassing. Having some sense knocked into me, i searched up career opportunities on my laptop. Applying for a dozen at once with having little to no interest in even double checking what the job is even like.
That's how desperate I've become.
The amount of rejection emails i read after i just graduated was nothing short of depressing. I was excited to start working and ready to start my life, but all i saw was - ''unfortunately'' on every email. It can dampen anyone's spirits after a while.
I crossed my fingers, any of these could be the one.
This isn't something i should be doing on a whim, i need to fully focus on it and when i get through, even an interview, if, i can surprise Adam about it.
My last last resort? working with Rhiannon. Although let's hope it doesn't come to that. Because working under your boyfriend sounds sexy at first, but when it comes down to work? I don't want him seeing me lacking and clumsily messing up. Mixing your personal and your professional life together is a concoction for chaos.
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Adam got home later in the night around 10. Which seems to be the usual lately. It doesn't bother me much now as opposed to how it made me feel at first.
Did my trust issues hit the fan? of course it did. But since we've been together for this long i had to take that leap of faith and believe him. And i sort of eased into it eventually.
He always comes home giving me a bear hug the first thing, "Which episode did you stop" his muffled voice snuggled on my neck. He sounded exhausted, as if he'd fall asleep right here on me. He always asks me what i watched today or what episode i'm in as if i haven't watched this show a dozen times and he's gonna get the same answer.
"Luke withdrawing and feeling Nell's death" I replied, engulfed within his bear like arms.
Of course he came home starving, he refused to eat from outside
"If I ever eat out it'll only be you" he smirked, winking at me. Making me furiously blush when I asked him this one time why he won't have dinner early without coming home starving to death like a grizzly bear.
Making sure he comes home to eat with me, possibly feeling guilty due to the less time we spend. I don't mind waiting for this long since i spent the entire day indulging in unholy amounts of junk and soda.
What has become of me?
We had dinner together, watching the rest of Hill house. Which of course scares him although he refuses to admit it. It's funny, I'm afraid of real life scenarios but i'd happily watching anything horror. Meanwhile he's the total opposite.
"What are we having tomorrow?" I eagerly asked him, excited to prepare us a full meal. I gotta find something to do.
"I uhh- i'll let you know" his answer was rushed, giving me a small smile before turning his attention to the TV.
Looks like i won't be seeing him for dinner anymore. I internally sighed, he's basically disappearing. I cuddled onto him, feeling a little upset from barely being around him anymore.
An hour, maybe even less time has passed and i could feel light snoring coming from him. He's so cute, why does he have to work so much. On one hand i wanted to gently nudge him awake so he can sleep on the bed comfortably, but i also don't want to disturb him sees he's clearly too tired.
Softly breaking free from being under his arm, i got up from the couch to reach out for a blanket.
I immediately turned around to see him tightly gripping onto my wrist stopping me from walking away. His eyes were barely open, pulling me closer to him immediately.
"Happy birthday" He whispered groggily, slowly sitting up to kiss the tip of my nose. His hair was all over the place, it's as if he doesn't even know what century he's in. "I have something for you"
"Adam" I protested. "nooooo"
He pulled out a small jewelry box absolutely out of his pocket, and all this time i thought it was something else that was poking me.
Where's the shame
I audibly gasped as he opened the box. "Oh my god it's beautiful"
"It's both of our birth stones together" He cooed, taking out the necklace as he proceeded to put it on me.
Oh my god
Citrine and Diamond.
My heart was ravaging inside my chest. I don't know what's holding me back from crying, because i am internally a massive wreck.
"I love you so much Antheia" He professed, his chocolate brown eyes staring into mine longingly.
"I love you more, and thankyou... this is so fucking beautiful" I pounced onto him, wrapping my arms around neck. Never having felt this much love before.
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