**BRIAR'S POV**
Tulala ako sa kawalan habang patuloy Ang pag agos Ng mga luha ko and i really think na hindi na sila titigil
Hindi ko na Alam Kong ilang oras na akong nakatulala sa kawalan, I'm not even sure Kung may isang oras na ba talaga akong nakaganito after Ng mga kalapastanganang ginawa nila... I already lose the tract of time...
I feel nothing... As I'm like nothing... Wala na akong matinong naiisip at Hindi ko maatim Ang mga nangyayari
Nangingilabot ako dahil paulit ulit na nag rereplay sa utak ko Ang mga ginawa nila...
Disgusted, Pain , angry, hopeless, frustration, stress... Halo Halo na Ang mga emosyong nararamdaman ko at sumasakit Ang ulo ko dun
I smile bitterly... I guess it's already time to give up... Stop hoping na may tutulong sa akin.
nabalik ako sa reyalidad then flinch Ng maramdaman ko Ang braso Ng lalaking katabi ko na walang iba kundi si lyde, his hugging me tightly while his sleeping na para bang takot itong mawala ako
And how I wish na ganun talaga, but sad it isn't...
And yes, hindi Ito umalis after Ng nangyari at nanatiling asa tabi ko and even sleep besides me, and i hate him...
I hate him not because on what he just did to me just this few minutes or hours ago, I hate him because his reminding me how death left me after getting me...
I hate him because his reminding me Death...
Haha... I'm totally crazy I'm still thinking about that after just what Happened to me... Well I guess this is how hopeless people think... And i already lose it anyway whats the difference?? Wala namang magagawa Ang panglalaban ko..
It's hard to fight when your fighting for nothing... And after everything I think I don't care what can ever happened to me...
Stupid!! How can you think that way!!?? Did you ever think how will people who knows you or your friends, family will feel and react if you give up here??
And you already said it, you already lose it once, losing it twice is not that hard to deal with!! You've gone through this before remember?? You just need to go through it again!!
Your world isn't just rotating for Death... There's still people out there who's caring and loving you!! And they might be so worried sick about you knowing that your gone!!
Ano nalang sasabihin nila sayo Kung susuko ka dito?? Marami ring Tao Ang dumedipende sayo briar!! Zack is there! Ezra too! Oh of course don't for get the little one, your Zefria and the whole hospital where thousand of people live is in with!! Their still waiting for you to came back, their still depending on you!
Common!! Are you even thinking Kung anong mangyayari sa kanila pag sumuko ka na dto??? And where's the briar who was known as the most aspiring Doctor who fought against all odds before?? Tatalikoran mo nalang ba Ang lahat dahil Lang dto???
Your better than this briar... Your better than this! Now move! And get out of here!! Stupid!!!
Tuya sa akin Ng inner self ko, at pinamukha lahat sa akin Ang mga katangahan ko, agad Lang Naman akong natawa duon
Well I guess I gone through much pain and all I can do was to laugh at it
"I'm already crazy" natatawang sabi ko pero agad na napailing, but I still have some point... I still need to fight a little longer...
Making may hopes high again I just wish na Hindi ko pag sisihan... Last na to promise, pag di to gumana I'll accept my faith and just live with it
"Last na to" bulong ko sa kawalan, humugot ako Ng malalim na hininga at marahang bumaling sa tulog na si lyde
I'll be needing him...
" L-lyde..." Mahinang tawag ko dto at nilunok Ang Kung ano man ang bumabara sa lalamunan ko
I can do this... Breath in... Breath out...
" Lyde..." Tawag ko ulit dto at marahan syang inuga, agad Naman nag mulat Ang mga mapupungay nyang mata
" Hey..." Mahinang Sabi nito at bahagya ulit na pumikit... ni di man Lang nito tinanggal Ang pagkakapulopot Ng mga braso nya sa bewang ko
" Lyde I wanted to pee " marahang inform ko dto, and as expected ay agad itong nagmulat at kinunutan ako Ng nuo, but I just smile at him faintly Kaya mas ikinakunot iyun Ng nuo nya
"You totally lose your mind don't you?" Di makapaniwalang tanong nito natawa Naman ako dun
Well his totally right, I'm insane already, but I have no choice is still need to move and leave
"Yeah... I just wanted to go to the bathroom please, I don't plan to scape, and thank you for staying with me after what happened, but don't get me wrong I still hate you" marahang sagot ko dto
Well at least he didn't abandoned me after getting what he needed and wanted...
" I can't believe your talking to me like that, I totally hurt you you know... You must hate me to hell by now.. " kumikisap Ang mga mata na sabi nito at mukha talagang nawiwirduhan sa Akin
"It's fine, it already happened, and let's be prank I have nothing to lose in the first place anyway, I mean it's not my first, I just panic... I have a harsh experience" I explain, Half true and half lie...
Just doing it cool, let the pain slip aside
" How can you say such things?? I'm here to ruin you, why aren't you hating or angry at me??? " Naguguluhang tanong nito, nag kibit balikat Lang Naman ako dun
" I don't know... Maybe I'm too kind... Or maybe it's just the fact na I know that na your just been drug Kaya mo nagawa iyun.... " Nakatitig na sabi ko sa kanya, gulat Naman Ito sa sinabi ko and as expected ay agad na lumuwag Ang pag kakayakap nya sa akin at bahagyang bumangon
Yes... His been drug, and maybe Yun Ang pinaka main reason Kung bakit Hindi ako ganung kagalit sa kanya after everything, how did I know na his just been drug?? Well madali Lang sabihin dahil the evidence was on his neck
Marami Duong marka Ng injections, and the way his veins look, I am so sure na tinuturukan sya Ng droga to lose his self like that.. his viens is a little greenish because of the drugs na tinuturok sa kanya Ng paulit ulit... Napansin ko iyun Nung time na yumuko sya sa akin para halikan Ang leeg ko kanina
Hindi ko iyun na pagtuonan Ng pansin kanina dahil I'm totally going panic that time, at Ngayung kalmado na Ang lahat ay mas nakakapag isip ako Ng maayos, and everything was connected
The drug must run and gone off dahil iba na Ang aura nya ngayun, he look like a loss person like me, at naging maamo Ang aura nito, but he still remember everything what happened na malamang ay ikinakokonsensya nya ngayun
I can tell na he suffer more than I did...
" How did you know... " Mahinang bulong nito at nakatitig sa kawalan
" I'm a doctor..." Marahang sagot ko pero nanatili paring nakahiga dahil nanakit lahat Ng kalamnan at katawan ko
I feel worst than before dahil ngayun Parang buong katawan ko na Ang nananakit dahil sa nangyari, di tulad before na Yung paa ko lang Ang sumasakit
" Hmmm... That's why..." Sagot nito, still spacing out, nag buntong hininga Lang Naman ako dun
Nakikita ko Ang sarili ko sa kanya na kanina kanina Lang din nangyari sa akin, losing hope is really hard to deal with
And I don't blame him, parehas Lang kaming victim dto
"How long have you been here?" Mahinang tanong ko, napatingin Naman Ito sa akin at napailing...
" 17?? Or 15?? I can't really remember... All I know is this is how my life works... I grew here, doing this job... " Sagot nito, mas naawa Naman ako sakanya gawa duon pero nag iwas sya Ng tingin
" I'm sorry... I kinda judge you" paumanhin ko dto dahil totoo iyun
" It's ok, I'm used to it, I should be the one saying sorry Even though it's already useless" kibit balikat na sabi nito at paumanhin, nagulat naman ako Ng marahan itong lumapit sa mga kadedang asa kamay ko at tinanggal iyun
" What are doing??" Takang tanong ko sa kanya but he just smile at me
" I thought your going too pee?? You can't pee here, I'm bringing you to the bathroom" sagot nito, napa oh Lang Naman ako
" A-ahmm yeah.. " pilit na sabi ko, marahan Naman ako nitong binuhat habang nakabalot sa sapin Ng kama, medyo nag iwas Naman ako Ng tingin dahil naka hubad parin sya
" Your a doctor you should be use seeing it" Sabi nito Ng mapansin Ang ginawa ko
" I know... It's just weird ok? I mean I still hate you" sagot ko dto but nag hummed Lang Ito at tuluyan na kaming pumasok sa cr
Ng maisara na nya yung pinto ay agad nya akong hinarap at medyo naging seryoso Ang mukha nya Kaya kinabahan ako dun
" Your planning to scape don't you??" Tanong nito, agad Naman akong napalunok duon
" I.... I---"
"Don't worry I'll help... At least Yun Lang Ang magagawa ko para sa mga nagawa ko sayo" putol nito sa sinasabi ko, medyo na napakisap Naman ako sa mga sinabi nya
" Why..? " Natanong ko nalang, I mean his so suspicious... Parang Ang bilis naman...
" I don't know, it's just that I think I needed to help you some how, and yes I'm totally crazy dahil kamatayan Ang hinahanap ko" pailing iling na sabi nito
Ok... This is getting much better than I thought
" Y-you know... Why don't you come with me incase na makatakas talaga ako dto??" Nasabi ko sa kanya, gulat Naman Ito dun
" I don't think so if I can..." Pailing iling na sabi nito pero hinawakan ko Ang kamay nya
"Your a good guy lyde... I wanted you to come with me, you don't belong here" Sabi ko dto, nginitian Lang Naman ako nito
"ok" maliit na sagot nito obvious na nag aalinlangan pa rin
His worth keeping after all, why not give him a chance??
I'm totally crazy and kind
" Trust me we'll get out of here, asan nga pala tayo??" Tanong ko dto
" We're still in Philippines that's the good news, Palawan, secret base, nasa underground tayo, the security is so high so that's the only problem" paliwanag nito, tumanggo lang naman ako dun
" Lead the way for me lyde " deretsong Sabi ko
" But there's no assurance na makakalabas ka or maybe us Ng buhay" iling na sagot nito pabalik
" We will " nakangiting sagot ko dto, nangunot Lang Naman Ang nuo nito
" How??" Takang tanong nito
" You'll know, but first please get me a pain killer for my body, and some... Ahmmm did y-you??? Did you ahmmm e-explode it... I-in side me?? I mean you know" nahihirapan Sabi ko sa kanya, Ng marealize Naman nya Yun Ay parehas kaming nag iwas Ng tingin at namula
Ok, that's imbarassing
" I... I kinda really don't know if I did, but I'll get you some pills for it, just incase... " Pahinang Sabi nito at lumakad papunta sa kabinet na Hindi kalayuan sa amin, ibinaba na kase nya ako kanina pa dto sa sink
In some reason he reminded me about Mathew...
After kong makainom Ng gamot ay nag rest ako Ng kaunti, nag bihis narin sya sa tulong Ng ilang stuck na damit na andto sa loob, ganun din Naman ako, Ang pinagkaiba nga Lang ay naka t-shirt Lang ako Ng malaki and nothing more, kase Wala nang available na kahit na ano pa dun
Nilagyan nya rin Ng bandages Ang mga binti at paa ko, at kahit papa ano ay medyo naging ok Yun pero andun parin Yung sakit, he also informed Me nawag masyadong mag salita pag nakalabas na kami Ng cr dahil nakamonitor kami, and I also needed to act na galit ako sa kanya para di kami mahalata
This is our last shot, pag pumalpak to we're dead
"So what now??" Tanong nito sa Akin after naming mag ayos Ng kaunti
" There..." Turo ko dun sa malaking salamin na kaharap Ng bathtub, naguluhan Naman Ito dun
" Just bring me Infront of that mirror..." Marahang Sabi ko dto, naguluhan Ito dun bat Hindi na nag tanong pa at sumunod nalang
Nag buntong hininga naman muna ako bago harapin Ang salamin Kung asan makikita ko Ang aking repleksyon, nakatitig Lang Naman si lyde sa mga ginagawa ko so i let him be
" Cloudine..." Marahang tawag ko sa repleksyon ko
And as expected ay lumabas dun Ang hinahanap ko
" Well well well.... Long time no see briar... " Nakangising bati nito at tulad ng dati di parin nag babago Ang ugali nito, masasama parin Ang titig sa akin
" Hello cloudine... I need your help" pahayag ko dto, agad namang nangunot ang nuo nito but ngumiti Ng nakakaloko after
" That's new... Why change your mind?? Feeling tired already??? " Tuyang Sabi nito pero umiling ako dun
" No, I simply needed you, I think you'll enjoy warm ups after being lack for almost 3 years?? Right?? " I offer, mas lumawak Naman Ang ngiti nito
" So what's the deal...?? " Tanong nito, nag buntong hininga naman ako dun
" I'll let you out, but promise me you'll bring me back after..." I said kahit na di sigurado kase Walang kasiguraduhan Kung mapapagkatiwalaan sya
But this is the only way to get out... I needed her...
"That's a deal" nakakalokong ngiti na sagot nito
" How can I trust you with this?? " Tanong ko
" Well I won't let anyone hurt you, I mean I can't get out if something happened to you, your a big benefits for me, I won't let it slip, how about that?? " She offered
" That's the deal, you'll let me scape from this place for your freedom"
" As I secure your safety... Deal " pag dugtong na sabi nito, tumango Lang Naman ako dun
Ahmm did I ever mention ba na nag undergone Ako for may treatment last two years ago? Namention ko Naman right?? I did say na ' it went well ' pero Wala akong sinabing I've been cured....
And yes... I can completely communicate with her properly, Hindi na ako natatakot sa kanya... It's crazy but I did.... And as you can see we're having a deal...
Wish me luck!
" So... Will you take my hands now??" Tanong nito at iniabot Ang kamay nya sa akin, nag buntong hininga naman muna ako dun
" Yes..." Sagot ko, ngumiti sya then di na ako nag alinlangang ilapag Ang kamay ko sa salaming kaharap ko at pinag dikit Ang mga palad namin.....
" You did the right choice " nakangising Sabi ko, sa wakas!! Nakalabas ulit ako!!! Almost 3 years huh??
Goodness I've been so bored I thought I'm ganna die there...
" Don't worry briar I'll take good care of you " nakatinging Sabi ko sa aking repleksyon at inayos Ang aking buhok
Lovely...
"B-briar??" Someone call from behind, agad Naman akong napaharap duon only to see a familiar face
" You must be lyde.... I'm cloudine, nice meeting you" I introduced myself at him, he just farrowed his eyebrows in confusion, but I just smirk
" It's about time baby, fun time is over... It's our time to make this place burn " I playfully said then lick my lips in excitement
Let's get this over with!!
** END CHAPTER**
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