// in which jennie, a popular girl in their school, was bad-mouthed my nerdy lisa //
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LISA
"HEY, WATCH OUT!" it was so stupid of me to look instead of ducking. i saw the football speeding towards my face and closing my eyes is my only option.
i almost prayed to the god above for i might skip some school days because of a black eye, but it never happened. i saw a girl infront of me instead of the ball.
she was facing the side i'm facing so she has her back on my front. her skirt and the way she dress looked like she belongs to that certain group of girls, the popular ones.
and i was right. when the girl turned around, i saw her face. good thing we are under a tree and the shade of it is cooperating with me. as i looked up, jennie kim's pair of eyes is something you can't just ignore, it was just simply captivating.
"are you alright? sehun and his friends really like to joke around" i surely have my jaw dropped when she leveled my line of sight. i couldn't help but to stare.
"i'm lisa manoban" i heard her chuckle when i unconsciously said my name, and i don't also know why i did it. she is so beautiful and i really want her to know me.
"silly" her cheeks looks so puffy and her eyes shines when she smiles. "i know who you are, you tutor for one of kai's friends, right? i heard you're one of the best" i couldn't focus on what she is saying because i am only looking at her face. her face lights up more when she tucked a strand on her hair to her ear, she is breathtakingly gorgeous.
"oh my gosh, are you even listening? maybe i should take you to the clinic" i shook my head as i escaped on the trance. "SEHUN, LOOK WHAT YOU DID TO LISA!" she looked back at the playing boys and back at me again.
i felt my arm burn when she touched me. "let's get you to the clinic, okay?" she pulled me and i towered over her when we stood up. she looks so cute and i swear, i wanted her to be my girl right at this point.
the way to the clinic feels so long, and try to add the burning feeling of her touches, it was excruciating for me to keep quiet when the girl beside me is just so damn perfect.
"could you assist my friend? i think she was shocked, a ball almost hit her" i turned my gaze to her when i hear her say i'm her friend. what in the world of fantasy is happening?
"HEY, LOOK AT ME" the nurse almost shouted. if it weren't for jennie's insistence, i wouldn't want to be here,. that middle-aged lady nurse is just a nightmare for almost the whole campus. "she can hear me, she saw where i am, she's fine, you can go now"
i heard jennie sighed at the nurse's remark. she stared at me while i ready myself to leave.
"what's with her? she's so grumpy" she ranted about the nurse as soon as we got out the clinic. she even rolled her eyes in a manner i couldn't help but blush to, which she noticed as she looked at me.
"are you sick? why are your cheeks red? are you sure you're okay- OH" she was caught off guard as i am. she almost touched my cheek and i don't know what to do other than to swerve and avoid her palm.
"i'm sorry, i- i just, you know- not good with people uh- touching me" her gaze softened as she hear me stutter.
"hmmm okay lisa"
"do you want to go now? i think you're just staying with me because you think you hurt me-"
"hey, i don't think that way" she cut me off. "do you think i'm that kind of person?"
"i couldn't help not to" her eyes went a little wide when she heard me.
"well, i beg to disagree. but i think you made your point. you don't want me near you. i can feel you flinching when i try to touch and you and you are looking at me like i would hurt you." i looked down. what she is saying is the opposite of what i'm thinking about her.
"i didn't know being popular equates to being a bully in someone's eyes" i want to defend myself and tell her what i think of her but i saw her walking away from me.
i just let out a sigh.
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the day passed by without me seeing jennie again. i didn't see her eat lunch with the girls she is usually with at the cafeteria. she's also absent on our music class, the subject where we are classmates.
it started to rain when my last class was about to end. i don't like it when this happens. the gates of the school become crowded and people will be everywhere, so i choose to go up the rooftop and just stay there until the crowd below diminishes.
i brought my umbrella as i went up the building. since the rooftop was not covered, i will need to use it. it was fun to sit on the railings and observe the people.
i am always alone when i go up here. i don't have friends that i could go here with, and i also prefer this way as this is closer to a solace. i thought i am always alone here but maybe, not today.
as i walked nearer, i saw how drenched the girl is. i knew it was jennie even if she is turned away from me. her clothes were dripping and she was just standing there and looking nowhere.
she must be confused when an umbrella shielded her from the rain, so she looked back at me. her eyes were puffy and she looked like she just cried. i thought she would be surprised when she saw me but she just looked at me with a straight face as she turned her body towards me.
"why are you here? i thought you don't like me, what are you doing?" she pushed my hand that was holding the umbrella. it was raining heavily and she is getting away from the shed of the umbrella.
"you're gonna get sick" she just glared at me as she continue pushing me away.
"does that matter? you think i'm bad? then so be it. everybody think so anyway" i sighed. she totally misunderstood me.
"JUST GO AWAY, LISA-" i didn't let her finish. i pulled her into a hug with my other hand. i didn't care if she was drenched or if i will be wet too. i just felt like a hug is what needs right now.
i heard her sob on my chest as she hugged me back. she feels so vulnerable, and the only thing i can do right now is let her in.
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"wear this" i took my sweater from my bag and gave it to jennie.
"why are you doing this?" her voice still cracks but she stopped crying.
"i do not hate you, jennie. i'm just not used to you giving me attention" i opened up to her.
the rain had subsided and we were both sitting on the railings. her hair is dripping and so is her skirt. my sweater looks big on her. i smiled as a look down the crowd that is already thin.
"do you want to go with me? my apartment is near and you can go change there" she just looked at me and she hopped down the railings.
"i would think you like me now" i saw her smile the first this whole time.
"i won't disagree" i smirked at her as i walked past her, when i turned back, she was looking at me confused.
i offered her hot chocolate when we arrived at my apartment. we talked about things and she changed into the clothes i gave her. it was dark outside when she told me she was going home.
"can i keep this?" the sweater was somehow wet, but she still wore it again.
"wear that when you feel lonely. remember that everybody may not like you, but there is someone who will be willing to give you a hug when everything falls apart" i smiled at her as she bid my goodbye.
i spend the night thinking about her.
the next day, i saw her wearing the sweater, but i haven't had the chance to talk to her.
i saw her again wearing the sweater the day after that, and the days after those days. but we still haven't spoken since that day. she just smiles at me sadly everytime we bumped into each other.
we both know that what we shared is genuine. and even though we don't speak, she knows that i am that person who will be willing to give her the hug she needs, as long as i see her wear my sweater.
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