Type POV
I still can't believe that Lhong can do that to Tharn and Me... No matter how much he loves Tharn!! He shouldn't have done that!! That is too much!! I feel so guilty that I hurt Tharn again!! I doubted his love for me again!!
GOD!! Why am I like this!! I will never forgive myself if there is something bad that happens to tharn because of me!! I shouldn't have believed what I saw and just believe what Tharn said to me... He swears that nothing happened to them but I still choose to believe in Lhong's act!!!
I hate myself, I started to pull my hair which Hai instantly saw...
"Type!! Stop hurting yourself!! This isn't your fault!!" He said to me while still focusing himself on driving...
"How can it not be my fault!! I doubted him!! I shouldn't have doubted his love for me!! I should have believed in him!!" I irritably said to him
"Don't blame yourself Type... Anyone in your position will do the same... It's just that lhong succeed for his pathetic act. You and Tharn are both just a victim here!! Stop blaming yourself... What's important here is for you to fix everything with Tharn!!" Hai seriously said to me
"I can't help it, Hai!! If only I listened to him! This shouldn't have happened!! If ever we find Tharn and we finally be okay again!! I want you to do something for me... I want to stop this thing from happening again!!" I firmly said to him
"What is it Type!! Whatever is it!! I will do it!!" He smilingly said to me...
"Here is what you have to do....."
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
When I and Hai finally arrived at my mother's rest house, I didn't wait for hai anymore and proceed in going outside of the car and run to search for my Tharn!!
I need to find him before it's too late!! You're not hurting yourself Tharn right?? Please no!! Please don't!!
I quickly enter the house and but was disappointed when I didn't saw Tharn there... The house looks so dark and sad... I saw so many beer bottles on the floor!! Type!! What have you done to him!! Tharn!! Where are you!!
I hurriedly run outside to search for him. I literally search everywhere but still can't see him. I already asked all the people that I can see if they saw a man like him... I keep describing him to so many people but they only said
"I don't know" or "I haven't seen that man!!!" I'm starting to panic already... I don't know why but I feel like there is something terribly wrong with him!! I can feel it in my guts!!
"Tharn!! Where are you!!" I repeatedly yelled without minding anything or anyone... I just need to find him!!
I was running all over this place when I remember to check the seashore. I run into the seashore, I run and run. I don't care if I may look like a crazy person right now!! I have to find Tharn!! I can't lose him again. I can't.. I'll literally go crazy if it happens again.
I arrived at a very far part of the seashore, It was near to some stoned cave. I searched again for him, that's when I saw a man walking into the sea.
He looks so lost and not himself. He keeps on walking not minding how deep into the sea his walking goes.
OMG!! Tharn!!! Tharn!!
IT'S Tharn!!
I run faster and go after him!!!
"Tharn!! WHAT ARE YOU DOING!!! Tharn!!PLEASE DON'T DO THIS!!" I shouted not minded if I may attract other people's attention here at this place.
"Tharn!! Tharn!! COME BACK!!!"
"Tharn!!!"
"Tharn!!"
I keep on calling him but he doesn't seem to notice me know...
OMG!! The water was about his stomach now!!!
"Tharn!!! PLEASE STOP!!! Tharn!! DON'T DO THIS!!" I shouted at him
I SWAM FASTER TO GET TO HIM!!
Fortunately, he was walking in the sea slowly, the reason for me to be able to go near him faster.
When I'm finally was near him. I immediately hug him from behind. I hugged him for a good minute. I need to calm him down.. I need to stop him.. I know he is not himself right now.. He looks so lost.. freaking lost like a child..
"Tharn, please stop... Please come back to me.. come back to me!! Please Tharn!! I'm begging you please don't do this.. I can't lose you again, you know how much pain I faced when you left me the first time but now your doing it again?? You're going to leave me again? Please come back to me!! I know how much I hurt you.. I'm so sorry Boo!! I didn't know!! I'm so sorry!! Please Tharn!! don't do this.. Please don't do this... please Tharn!!" I'm crying again.. I'm literally begging them right now to him... I just keep begging him to stay.... I tried to pull him into the seashore...
He still looks so lost so I don't have a choice but to do this to wake him up!!! I slapped him!! I slapped him really hard!!! He looked so shocked upon seeing me!!!
"TYPE?? YOU'RE HERE??" He looked so happy upon seeing me that he was about to hug but I just slapped him again then I started to cry so much!!!
" WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU TRYING TO DO THARN!!! ARE YOU REALLY TRYING TO KILL YOURSELF?? IS THAT IT?? YOU'RE JUST GOING TO GIVE UP?? AND FOR WHAT?? JUST BECAUSE OF THAT LHONG?? JUST BEACAUSE I SAID I DON'T LOVE YOU?? BECAUSE I SAID I HATE YOU?? YOU ARE HURT RIGHT?? YES!! I CAN SEE AND UNDERSTAND THAT!!! BUT KILLING YOURSELF JUST TO RUN AWAY!! THAT DIFFERENT THARN!!!
I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU THATN!! I DIDN'T KNOW THAT YOU'RE THIS SELFISH!! YOUR SELFISH THARN!!! YOU HEARD THAT ?? YOUR SELFISH!!! DIDN'T YOU THINK WHAT WILL I FEEL IF YOU DIED THERE?? DIDN'T YOU THINK ABOUT HOW AM I GONNA CONTINUE TO LIVE IF YOU LOST YOUR LIFE JUST BECAUSE OF ME!!! DO YOU WANT ME TO KILL MYSELF TOO!! BECAUSE I WILL DO IT AGAIN THARN!! I CAN F*CKING DO IT AGAIN!! AND THIS TIME, I WILL MAKE SURE TO SUCCEED!! I WILL KILL MYSELF TO BE WITH YOU AGAIN!! DID YOU KNOW THAT HUH THARN?? ANSWER ME THARN!! F*CKING ANSWER ME!!!" I angry said to me but instead of answering me... He just pulled me into a tight hug
"I thought I lost you already bii! I thought you will never want to be with me again... I already told you right?? I can never continue to live my life if you aren't here by my side anymore... I can't continue to live!! I love you so much!! Please don't leave me again!! please don't push me away again! Please marry me still!! Please bii!! I'm begging you!!" Tharn said in between his tears... I quickly pulled away from him and started to caress his face to wipe his tears away...
"I should be the one asking you that Tharn!! Please forgive me for doubting your love... It will never happen again!! I promise! Please marry me still even though I hurt you too much again!! Please boo!! Please marry me!!!" I'm said to him in between my tears... I can't imagine myself living in this world without him...
I tried... Promise, I tried living without him to past week... I tried my very best but I feel like I'm just a living corp already!!! I can never function without him...
Tharn then just held my face and gently pick his lips into mine... Then he put his forehead into mine while putting my hands into his chest...
"It will always be you baby!! Nothing can replace you here and Yes!! I will always marry you!! Only you!!" He smilingly said to me
I can't help but feel so happy while hearing what he just said that I immediately pulled him into me and hug him so tightly
"I love you boo!! I love you so damn much!!" I said to him
"I love you too bii!! I love you too so damn much!!" He answered me...
A/N
Do you love this chapter!!
Last 1 chapter to go!! or maybe I will add 2 or 3 more, it depends 🙂🙂 what do you think??
Comment and Vote are so welcome!!
Love lots...