Hard to Love (Bucky Barnes fa...

By Hoe4BuckyBarnes

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A/N: first few chapters are a bit 'cringy' with spelling errors (I write this on my phone) but if you can get... More

Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Chapter 24
Chapter 25
Chapter 26
Chapter 27
Chapter 28
Chapter 29
Chapter 30
Chapter 31
Chapter 32
Chapter 33
Chapter 34
Chapter 35
Chapter 36
Chapter 37
Chapter 38
Chapter 40
Chapter 41
Chapter 42
Chapter 43
Chapter 44
Chapter 45
Chapter 46
Chapter 47
Chapter 48
Chapter 49
Chapter 50
Chapter 51
Chapter 52
Chapter 53
Chapter 54
Chapter 55
Chapter 56
Chapter 57
Chapter 58
Chapter 59
Chapter 60
Chapter 61
Chapter 62
Chapter 63
Chapter 64
Chapter 65
Chapter 66
Chapter 67
Chapter 68
Chapter 69
Chapter 70
Chapter 71
Chapter 72
Chapter 73
Chapter 74
Chapter 75
Chapter 76
Chapter 77
Chapter 78
Chapter 79
Chapter 80
Chapter 81
Chapter 82
Authors Note...
Chapter 83
Chapter 84
Chapter 85
Chapter 86
Chapter 87 (FINALE)

Chapter 39

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By Hoe4BuckyBarnes

*** This chapter will be in Amelia's POV ***

I end the call and can't help but to smile giddily before opening my bedroom door to reveal Natasha holding a small-ish camera bag

"You're lucky Wanda didn't toss this yet." She steps in and I close the door, locking it behind her

"I knew she wouldn't just because she got a new one." I take the bag from her and open it, pulling out the Polaroid camera and the packet of film for it

"Black and white? She didn't have any colored ones?" I ask

Natasha shrugs. "Maybe he'll like black and white better. Now come on, get changed while I figure out this thing." She waves me away and I start rummaging through my dresser

I quickly realize that I only have one set of lingerie and suddenly my whole plan starts to crumble along with my hope. But I never even really thought to buy lingerie, the only reason I have this one is because Nat dragged me out shopping one day. Plus, Buckys never complained about me not 'dressing up' for him before so I never went out of my way to do such. I grab the sheer lacey black outfit and turn to face Natasha, defeat written clear as day on my features. She just finished putting the pack of film in the camera and saw my expression

"This is all I have.." I state, looking down at the bra, thong and thigh highs in my hand. Natasha pauses for a moment before making an 'ah-ha' sound

"We can use his shirts! Men love when their partner dresses all sexy with their clothes." She beams, clearly happy that she found a solution

I reach into his designated drawer and pull out the first thing my hand touched, which happened to be his red Henley

I can make this work

Natasha smiles and motions for me to head for the bathroom and change. I follow her silent order and nearly skip out of the room. I strip of my baggy sweatpants and fitted long sleeve, tossing them to the floor

"Are you sure you're okay with doing this for me Nat?" I call through the bathroom door to her as I slip on the lingerie set

"Wouldn't have agreed to it if I didn't babe." I hear the smile in her voice and it eases my nerves in the slightest

A moment later and I finally get the thigh highs on and look at myself in the mirror. My makeup was fine, Bucky says he likes the more natural look so I didn't go crazy with it when he left. And my hair, well it's clean and brushed but I didn't care to style it since I'll probably be messing with it frequently

The bra part of the lingerie was sheer and had some kind of flowery lace design to cover the nipples, low cut in the center but seemed to 'scoop' the sides of my breasts and hold them together in such a way to make them look rounder than what they were. It also helped that there was an extra strap coming from each shoulder strap that went over each mound and connected between my boobs. I really liked that it was a front clasp as well. The thong was your typical black sheer thong with a 'y' back to accentuate the curve and roundness of my ass

Even though I personally think I don't have much of an ass to begin with but Bucky fights me on it every time I say something. I'll admit I don't look half bad right now though I'm not sure how Bucky sees me as anything remotely 'sexy'. I pinch some skin on my thigh, watching my leg jiggle for a second when I release it

"How's it going in there? Let's see it!" Nat calls from the other side of the door

I sigh and slowly open the door, revealing myself to her. Her eyes scan me over as I stood in the doorway feeling both insecure and self conscious the more Nat looked at me

"Wow... I'm surprised Barnes hasn't ripped any of it yet to get to you." She sounds awestruck and amused. I awkwardly rub my arm

"That's because he hasn't seen it yet." I state. Natasha smirks which turned into a smile as she held up the camera

"Then let's make a good first impression. Lean your shoulder against the doorway and pop your hip out for me please." She instructs while bringing the camera up to her face

I do as she says, making small adjustments to my stance when she says. I bring my hands together in front of me and gently grab onto Buckys dog tags like she wanted and suddenly I'm flashed by the camera as she takes the shot. A moment later the Polaroid started coming out and we were forced to wait since everyone knows you're not supposed to shake them. Natasha made me stay exactly where I was incase the photo didn't turn out right and we'd have to retake it

After a long minute, Natasha smiles at the small square in her fingertips. She stands and walks over to me, flipping the film around for me to see the now developed photo

And it looks... good!

I didn't think I was going to like the black and white but now that I see it, I absolutely love it

"Alright, keep your lower half the way it is but now I want you to raise your arm by the door so your armpit is almost against the frame and reach down to comb a hand through your hair. Rest your other forearm on your hip." She takes a step away, again raising the camera to her face and again I follow her instructions

With little tweaks to my stance, I'm again blinded by the flash from the camera and we play the waiting game once more. Natasha shows me the photo once it's ready and again, I love the way it turned out

"Should we do a back shot next?" Natasha asks. I bite my lip nervously but nod regardless. "Okay so grab the doorframe as if you're just walking into your bedroom." Natasha states at she walks past me to be in the bathroom

"Like this?" I ask over my shoulder as I nonchalantly place my hand on the doorframe and bring a leg forward to make it look like I'm taking a step towards my bed

"Perfect!" Nat squeals behind me. The flash briefly illuminating my room. A moment later and I get nothing but silence from her which makes me start to worry

"How'd it turn out?" I ask nervously. I hear Nat walk towards me and suddenly she reaches in front of me to reveal the photo

"You have a really nice ass girl holy shit!" She laughs. I roll my eyes playfully at her

"Oh shut up I do not." I elbow her before turning so my back was resting against the frame

"With a butt like that, I bet Bucky loves hitting it from the back." She teases, swatting at the side of my ass

"No comment. Let's continue, yeah?" I laugh with her as I feel my face flush

"Fine, fine. So for this one I want you to squat down on arched feet and spread your knees as far as you can to each side of you." She squats down to show me the position while also bringing up the camera

I do as she says and look to the camera with hooded lids and parted lips. Natasha smiles widely and I'm blinded once more. When the photo is revealed we both smile at it before I'm instructed to get on the bed

"Okay what I want you to do is get in downward doggy style basically. But cross your arms and lay your chin on them to look at me." Natasha states while pulling my comforter back and fluffing it in front of me. I get on the bed and do as I'm told while Natasha kneels a few feet directly in front of me

"Arch your back just a bit more." She fixes her stance while I arch my back further and make my butt stand out more. She lowers the camera to look at me and I can tell she's thinking

"What?" I ask. She tilts her head slightly

"Take off your bra and move your hair a bit." I sigh and sit back on my knees. Natasha watches me for a moment

"Mind turning around then?" I chuckle out. She rolls her eyes playfully

"I've seen boobs before ya know."

"Just do it." I chuckle again. She reluctantly does and I remove the bra, throwing it to the floor and getting back into position. "Alright I'm good."

Nat turns back around and kneels, aiming the camera. I again part my lips and hood my lids, staring at the camera. The flash does off and we wait yet again. When it's finally developed we look at it and decide to redo it since my hair was a little weird. The next one comes out to my liking and we move on to another position

Pose. Adjust. Click. Flash. Wait. Repeat

After a couple more shots with just the lingerie, Natasha has me change into just Buckys shirt but keep the thigh highs on. I unbutton all the buttons I could and have her instruct me on what to do. We take a handful more pictures before she seems to get an idea

"Get in the shower but use cold water." I give her a questioning look but follow her back into my bathroom

I step in and wait for her as she steps onto my towel shelving to get a more above shot. I gasp loudly as the cold water hits me, soaking both me and Buckys shirt. Goosebumps riddle my body and my nipples harden

"Perfect! Now run your hands through your hair like your actually showering and try not to frown." She spoke. I position myself facing the shower head and closing my eyes doing my best to look somewhat normal, hoping this is good enough because this water is freezing. The flash goes off and I immediately turn off the stream, shivering as I do

"H-how's i-it look-k?" I stutter out, hugging myself for some form of warmth

"See for yourself." She beams, holding out the picture for me to see

Water droplets were all over my face, my hair was slicked back from the water with my hands combing through the sides, and the shirt was suctioned to my body and my erect nipples were very prominent thanks to the flash from the camera

Oh he's gonna LOVE this one

I try to conceal a smirk as it just dawns on me that this was Natashas plan all along

"Alright, I think we got enough. Unless you have more ideas?" She asks, hopping down from her position. I grab a towel from where she just was and quickly strip of Buckys shirt behind the shower curtain, wrapping myself in the warm dry material

"I think we're good." I state as I exit the shower. "Thank you again Nat." I slide out of my thigh highs before following her back into my bedroom where she places the new photo with the pile of other ones

"Any time beautiful. But I gotta ask," she starts putting the camera back in its carrier, "what are you gonna give him at the team holiday party? Cant exactly give him these babies in front of everyone." She starts to giggle towards the end of her statement

I pause for a moment to think. This was really my only idea for him but yeah I definitely can NOT give him these in front of the team for more than one reason. New training shirts? Running shoes? Boxing tape? Maybe some new razors? Or movies he doesn't have nor seen yet? But then I remember something he's been complaining about more recently

"Bucky's mentioned a few times that his shoulder hurts so I'm thinking of getting him some lotions and essential oils to help ease everything." I kneel down at my dresser and pull out another one of Buckys shirts along with a set of shorts to slip on

"I was gonna get you both a couple of candles. Steve says you guys smell after a night together." She teases, elbowing me lightly. I feel my cheeks get warm at her comment but simply shrug

"Damn serum." I laugh, Natasha joining me

Once she has the camera and the remainder of the unused film pack tucked into the case, and I have my photos put away in a secret box behind my shirts in my drawer, Natasha bids me goodnight and leaves. I thank her one last time down the hallway and close my door with a smile. All my anxiety about the photoshoot leaving my body and now I'm actually excited to give these to him

I clean up the shower, ringing out Buckys shirt and hanging it over the curtain rod to dry over night before curling into bed and browsing the Internet for everyone's gifts. Steve will get some new records that I know he doesn't have yet. Nat will get some packs of ground coffee I think she'd enjoy along with a set of lush hair care products. Clint will get a hay bale target dummy for him and the kids. Bucky gets the lotions and oils. Bruce will get some more chamomile tea and a new mug that looks like a beaker

I get a good chunk of the team done before I notice I'm yawning more and more. Bucky messages me saying the mission went well and that they're headed home. He asks to call me in a couple of minutes which I agree to but know that I'll probably end up falling asleep on him

Sure enough fifteen minutes later, just when I'm about to topple into blissful slumber, my phone buzzes in my hand, jolting me awake. I look to my screen and smile at Buckys contact photo as it fills my screen and clear my throat to rid of any evidence I'm tired

"Hey baby." I half whisper into the phone after accepting the call

"Hey doll." I could hear the smile in his voice and it honestly melts my heart

"How'd the mission go?" I roll onto my back with a sigh

Obviously it went fine if he's calling you, idiot

"Got what we came for and a bit more. Easy in and out job." He responds with a huff

"Are you able to elaborate on that for me?" I speak through a yawn. I hear Bucky lightly chuckle on his end

"Just some blueprints of another building and extra info is all. Not sure if I'm at liberty to say more." Bucky breathes out the last bit. I hum in response, concealing yet another yawn

"So-" he continues, "what did you and Romanoff get up to while I was away?" He asks

I giggle, rubbing my eye. "I had her take nude photos of me for a few hours." I bite my lip as I wait for a reply. Technically I only told a half truth

I wasn't completely nude

Buckys silent for a good minute while I stifle more giggles. I open my mouth to ask if he's still there but my phone again buzzes in my hands. I pull the phone away from my ear to see Bucky now video calling me. I roll my eyes with a big dumb smile, accepting the call and watching as Bucky now filled my screen

"Hi baby-" I start

"Are you serious?" He asks, glancing around the half lit jet and area he was in

I breathe out a laugh with a shake of my head. "No I'm not serious." I gaze at him through the screen and watch him relax his shoulders at my words

"Good-"

"I wasn't completely nude." I state. Buckys eyes flicker to me as he tenses his jaw. I couldn't contain the laughter that bubbled out of me at his reaction. He didn't seem as amused as myself though

"You're going to be the death of me babydoll." His eyes trail down my neck and partially exposed collarbones. Even behind a screen I could feel his gaze burn my skin

"Oh calm down drama queen." I again spoke through a yawn

Buckys stern features quickly change to one of concern. "Am I keeping you up?" He asks, sounding worried about him keeping me awake. I wave away his words

"No.. no I'm just-" I'm cut off to yawn once more, cursing myself as I do. Bucky gives me a knowing look through the screen

"Get some sleep doll. I'll see you in a few hours, okay?" He tilts his head towards the screen with that 'don't argue with me' gleam in his eyes

I sigh, combing a hand through my hair. "Fine, fine. Just really wanted to talk to you." I stretch one of my arms above me. "I love you baby. See you in a bit." I smile towards Bucky before blowing him a kiss

"I love you too doll." He responds before the call ends. I note the time as it's now midnight and roll onto my side to fall back asleep

Unfortunately for me, it wasn't a peaceful slumber.

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