- " 𝙄𝙡𝙡 𝙣𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧 𝙩𝙧𝙮 𝙩𝙤 𝙗𝙚 𝙡𝙞𝙠𝙚 𝙤𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙧𝙨... 𝙊𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙧𝙨 𝙖𝙧𝙚 𝙡𝙤𝙪𝙙 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙞 𝙖𝙢 𝙦𝙪𝙞𝙚𝙩. "-
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in·se·cure
/ˌinsəˈkyo͝or/
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adjective
1.
(of a person) not confident or assured; uncertain and anxious.
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After that, me and Von were going to the water park place
I was putting on my bathing suit in the bathroom..
Despite how my shape is, I have a bit of a tummy,
And I hate it. In all my pictures I suck it in, so it doesn't show,
When Von got me a bathing suit, it was a 2 piece.
Meaning my stomach would show.
I didn't want to embarrass myself,
So I put on shorts and a T-shirt instead.
I walked out and Von was confused.
"Why you not wearing your bathing suit ?"
"I-it didn't fit" I lied.
His face to me:
"You lying" he said,
"I'm not..."
"Yo shirt say the same size right now, and you wearing it fine." He said
I shifted, and changed the subject.
"You didn't like it ?-" he questioned
"No ! It's beautiful, it's just um... I have an issue that I don't really wanna discuss right now..." I assured, walking to get a towel.
"What issue ? What's wrong ?"
"Umm, you have my charger ?" I asked.
"I said what issue ?" He asked
I sighed, "I'm not how I wanna look right now and that's it- ready to go ? Because I'm ready to go and-" I said really fast.
"What you mean ma ? You look fine" he said.
"You don't understand.."
"Help me understand then" he said.
"Von I'm 𝙞𝙣𝙨𝙚𝙘𝙪𝙧𝙚... and I have a problem with how my body looks right now... so I cannot wear it, I'm sorry, I'll just go in this ..."
"You can't go in that Ki. Let me see.."
"No ! And embarrass myself ? I think tf not." I said, grabbing my phone.
He sighed, "I don't judge." He said
"Let's goooooo" I said
"Come here." He said
"Von !"
"Come here !" He said,
I went over to him and he laid me down.
"Boy if you boutta eat me out, Ima fight you - come on-" I said, being stopped when he lifted my shirt.
"Dayvon-"
"Awwww 🥺 it looks cute ma-"
"What ?!"
"I like it like this, ain't nothing wrong." He assured
"No. No. And no" I said putting my shirt back down.
"Want me to kiss it ?"
"What ?! no " I said in confusion
"But you feel bad..."
"I'll get through it, I always have-" I said being cut off by him lifting my shirt and kissing all over,
I started giggling, because it tickled.
"Aight aight, get up 'fo I end up pulling yo panties down." He said
I kissed my teeth.
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Long story short, Von made me wear the 2 piece and I feel better now.
We went on a lot of slides and there was one of them, that was very long and huge... just scary.
We were in line,
"O-okay, you go first.." Von insisted.
"Why ? 😏" I said
"Cuz... I wanna be behind you." He said staring at the slide stiffly.
"You're lying. You scared 😏 ?"
"Nahhhhhh. Ion get scared."
"Aight let me push you in then-"
"Nah-nah... y-you ain't gotta do allat na." He said
"So you go first..." I said.
He kissed his teeth.
"Please go first." He begged
"You scared for real ??" I asked in shock.
He didn't say anything.
"I thought you was gangsta." I said
"I am... but that's a death trap and I refuse." He said
"Awwww, you scared ? You scared ? Don't worry I got you ! 🥰" I said, hugging him..
"Can y'all go ?! 🙄" the person who monitored the slide said.
" 🖕🏾"
I sat down in Vons Lap, and we slid down, Von was digging his fingers into me, holding on to me.
Gahdamn, this shit fast asf.
I ain't even get to blink yet.
I saw this lady's eyelash fly off, I guess from the wind and water-
Wait why the hell would you wear that to a water park ?!
After me and Von got off the ride, he didn't say much, he was just shivering, because the water was kinda cold.
I gave a him a towel and we went on more rides,
After an hour we got food and went back to our room.
It was about 5:46 right now.
Me and Von took a shower, to wash off the chlorine- Separately ofc
Then we laid in Bed and turned on the tv.
I was laying on his chest and I got a text- from Nia and 2 missed calls, in 5 minutes.
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"Mmcht hello ?"
"WHEA YOU AT ?!" She questioned
"Ummmm...with my nigga -and you ?😌" I said purposely, seeing Von in the corner of my eye smiling.
"KIMANI !" She yelled
"SHANIA !" I yelled
"Me and Jayla and Eli and 𝙮𝙤𝙪𝙧 𝙢𝙤𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙧 been worried sick ! WHERE ARE YOU ?" She said
"Outta town." I said nonchalantly
I heard my mother snatch the phone from Nia.
"Listen little girl, I don't know who the hell-" She said angrily
"Aht aht ! I'm grown 😌" I said
"Well if you so grown, stay the hell outta my house when you come back" she said and hung up.
My mood changed instantly,
I wanted to cry. I'm grown and I don't have any place of my own...
I could stay at Jayla's for a while, but I don't wanna freeload.
Shit ! No matter where I go, the stress always follows...
"What's wrong lil folks ?" He asked.
"My mom just kicked me out and I have no where to go at the moment" I said laughing while slightly crying.
"You can come stay with me!" He suggested.
"That's okay... thanks tho... I'll figure it out on my own."
He sighed, "you know... yo daddy used to always say to be independent but only when you can. It's okay, you can stay with me. You always tryna be miss independent and do everything alone.. that's actually damaging to yourself and it's not okay... if you can get the help why not take it ?-"
"Because... if we ever fall out I don't need anyone rubbing it in my face."
"I wouldn't do that." He said
"They all say that." I said lowly.
"You moving in with me.. fuck them."
I just smiled lightly and thanked him.
I was still stressed though... me and my mom ALWAYS had a tight bond.
But now it's like-
"You still stressing ?! I brought you here to get away from that" he said
"I know ! Im sorry Von 😞, I've been so used to being stressed that I already know how it goes,"
He just thought hard.
Then he got up and turned off all the lights, and the tv.
"Umm sir ? I know I'm annoying but you ain't gotta murder in the dark-" I said
"Shutup, and take yo clothes off."
" *extra gasp* we're gonna do the nasty ? Ewwww." I said, like a little kid.
I FELT him mugging me.
"Shiiii. Yo shit probably small.. 😭.. it is ain't it ?" I teased.
"Kimani..." he said real low.
"What is it peanut size ? Bet you can't make scream 🤣 AHAH-" I said, feeling him grab me.
"-OOP- Nah ion need no ride thank y'all. Not them tryna pick me up" I said .
He kissed his teeth and pulled my pants down.
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