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DESCRIPTION: Months after Chaennie broke up, Rosé saw Jennie with somebody else.
Song: Somebody Else by The 1975
[Bold and italic words are lyrics. The lyrics aren't place in correct order]
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So I heard you found somebody else
And at first I thought it was a lie...
Rosé's POV
It's been months, I don't like counting actually. I've been busy with my paper so I can finally graduate and just by mention of numbers I can feel my guts wanting to come out of my mouth.
It's been months, and I haven't eaten a proper meal. My blood probably taste like coffee, chinese takeouts and fish and chips. Bet my organs will cause havoc if I intake one more milligram of caffeine.
It's been months since I talked to people. Lisa is a type of an evolved microorganism, so no, she isn't counted. Well, she at least made me stay sane. Keep me company in times that I can't seem to find my purpose in life. Ooh that's deep.
It's been months and I think I'm healed. My heart was broken but I think I am indeed healed. Because the moment I heard her name, my heart didn't clench or stopped beating. It just continue doing what it's supposed to do.
Beat for the purpose of keeping me alive.
"So, have you heard about Jennie and her new girl?" Lisa asked me.
"Huh?" I asked.
"Jennie is in a new relationship or something" Lisa said.
"Hmmm. Really?" I asked.
"Yeah" Lisa said.
I just shrugged after that. I don't know what to react or feel. Do I even have to? I don't know, really.
Because it's been months since we broke up. I'm not sure if I still have the right to feel things for her or her to me. I was hurt, yes. She broke up with me and I think I kinda wanted it too during the process of forgetting and moving on.
I felt free.
So, I guess hearing that she has somebody else didn't really hit me that hard or maybe because I don't believe she was in a new relationship. And knowing Jennie, she'll be bored with the relationship sooner or later.
No, don't get me wrong. I don't feel any resentment towards Jennie. It's just that, that's how we broke up. She got bored and I think I was too. But, okay I won't judge her basing on how I've been through.
I finally had the chance to just chill and not think of anything. My paper's almost done, there's four months 'til graduation and I think everything is going well for me.
I get a piece of nachos and dip it in salsa when we heard the café chimes made a sound. New costumers entered and I wished I didn't see who it was.
It was her.
But what baffled me was why do I feel my stomach's been stabbed. That suddenly it was hard for me to breathe. That my heart feels like burning I'm afraid that any second it's going to stop beating because suddenly it hurts.
I feel pain.
Seeing her with somebody else.
"Uh- L-lis, I'll be g-going" I told Lisa, not really sure why I am stuttering.
"Huh? Chongah you just came! And you only ate a few not even a meal. That's not totally you. Look you've got thinner" Lisa told me while raising my obviously thin arms waving it like a Jell-O.
"Seriously, I need to go" I said while standing up.
"Chae-"
"I'm fine Lis. I forgot to feed Joohwangie. You know how she is when she don't eat" I said.
"Ugh. Fine. I guess I'll see you later" Lisa said.
"Sure, Lis" I said and left.
I don't want your body
But I hate to think about you with somebody else
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I arrived at the comforts of my apartment, I still feel nauseous. I went to my room and changed into comfortable clothes not realizing that I wore her favorite hoodie.
I didn't even realized that it was still there. Maybe because I always wear it and thought that it was mine. She didn't even bother taking it when she retrieved all her stuff in my apartment, maybe she didn't remember it.
Or maybe she left it on purpose. I'm not sure. Why would she?
I lie down on my bed and tried to sleep it off but the pain I'm feeling is still there. And I feel that it's getting worse every minute.
I thought I was over it. I was over her. But turns out, I can't take it.
Our love has gone cold
You're intertwining your soul with somebody else
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Third person POV.
"Lalisa!" A girl shouted.
"Jisoo!" Lisa waved and Jisoo went near her and sat on the vacant seat.
"You're alone?" Jisoo asked.
"Yes. But Chaeyoung was here a while ago, she needs to go home early though" Lisa said.
"Aww I've missed Chaengie already I haven't seen her since... You know?" Jisoo said.
"Yeah. But you know? I think she's doing fine now. I told her about Jennie's new girl and she didn't seem to be bothered by it" Lisa said.
"That's a good thing, right?" Jisoo said.
"I think so, yes" Lisa said.
"I'm proud of her"
"Me too"
A comfortable silence dawned over them. They shared the snacks on the table after Jisoo's order came. They were talking about other stuff when someone greeted them.
"Uh... Hi girls" they heard.
It was Jennie.
The two awkwardly greeted back. They were just talking about her and Chaeyoung awhile ago. Lisa didn't noticed that Jennie was in the café neither Jisoo.
'Is that why Chaeyoung hurriedly went home? But she's over Jennie right?' Lisa thought.
"Uhm... I want to introduce my girlfriend. Uh, girls this is Irene. Irene these are Jisoo and Lisa. My friends" Jennie said.
'oh yeah, we're friends' Lisa thought again.
"Hi, nice to meet you" Irene said.
'she seems nice' Jisoo thought and smiled.
Suddenly Lisa's phone rang and immediately answered it when she saw that it was Chaeyoung.
"Hello? Chaeyoung-ah?" Lisa said.
'l-lis...' she heard her say.
Chaeyoung's voice sounds like she's feeling pain. She knows because for the past months while Chaeyoung is trying to get over Jennie she constantly checks on the girl or Chaeyoung always calls her when she cannot take it anymore.
"Chaeyoung? Are you okay? What's happening?" Lisa stood up from her seat.
'I-it h-hurts' she heard Chaeyoung said.
She even heard the girl winced in pain and her muffled cry.
Lisa frantically went out of the café, Jisoo felt the need to follow Lisa.
Even Jennie was contemplating if she'll follow, after all she's been friends with Chaeyoung even before they got into a relationship and eventually broke up months ago.
"You want to follow them?" Irene asked her.
"Huh?" Jennie asked.
"I know you want to make sure that Chaeyoung is fine. You follow them. I'll stay with my friends for a while" Irene said sincerely.
"You want to go with me?" Jennie asked.
"No need. I'll wait for you" Irene smile genuinely and kissed Jennie's lips.
Jennie said thank you and went out of the café she heard Lisa still asking Chaeyoung what's wrong.
"Chaeng? Answer me. What's wrong? What's hurting?" Lisa is freaking out already.
'hnng- I-i can't t-take it-'
Chaeyoung is getting harder to understand she really sound like she's in real pain, Lisa can hear her sobbing and wincing.
'l-lis it hur-'
The last thing that Lisa heard was the phone hitting the floor.
"CHAEYOUNG!"
"Lisa what's happening?!" Jisoo asked.
"Call an ambulance!" Lisa shouted and they ran.
Chaeyoung's house is just two blocks away from the café it was actually pretty close if they just make a run.
Jennie heard all of it and decided to make a run also. Jisoo and Lisa didn't notice that Jennie was following them.
When they reached Chaeyoung's apartment Lisa immediately get the key under the pot near the door. Jennie was a little surprised since she thought that Chaeyoung will change where she hides her spare key.
The three of them went inside frantically looking for Chaeyoung. Jisoo checked the kitchen, Lisa checked the bathroom and Jennie walked straight to Chaeyoung's room.
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Jennie's POV
The house was too quiet. Chaeyoung used to leave her stereo on and let it play some music that can be heard all over the house.
But now, it's just too quiet. And it's deafening.
All I can hear is Jisoo and Lisa's voice and the beating of my heart which is beating louder and louder as I get closer to her room.
I gulped as I felt a lump on my throat as her name rolled out of my mouth.
"Rosie?" I called.
It's been months since I last said that name out loud. I didn't know how much I've missed saying it. It was addictive, so I said it again.
"Rosie?" I said.
There's still no answer so when I finally gets to her room, my feet automatically moved towards her body that was on the floor.
"ROSIE!" I shouted.
She was unconscious on the floor with only my hoodie on. And I didn't noticed that I was already checking her body for any signs of cuts, bruises or wounds. I know that I was exaggerating but I was just scared that she hurt herself.
When I found nothing, I felt relieved. But she was sweating so bad and I think she might be running a fever. Jisoo and Lisa came in the room and saw Rosie in my arms.
"What did you do?!" Was the first thing that went out of Lisa's mouth.
"I didn't do anything! I found her unconscious!" I defended.
"Guys shut up! I think the ambulance is here!" And Jisoo was right.
The medics put Rosie on a stretcher and wheeled her out of her apartment. We weren't allowed to accompany her to the ambulance so we just hailed a cab and followed them to the hospital.
I texted Irene and told her that we're going to the hospital because we found Rosie unconscious and we didn't know the reason yet.
I can't think of anything that can cause Chaeyoung to get sick. And if ever, I only got myself to blame, I think.
Come on baby
This ain't the last time that I'll see your face
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Rosé's POV
I woke up in an unfamiliar room. The smell of antiseptic is everywhere, so I'm guessing I'm in a freaking hospital. I'm even wearing an ugly hospital gown with an IV drip stuck on my wrist. I swear I can feel my blood welcoming the healthy fluids with open arms. If they do have arms.
Then I remembered that I was wearing Jennie's hoodie! If I see a dirt or even a tear or rip on that hoodie I swear I'm going feral at these medical people!
Okay, so, I don't remember exactly what happened to me but I remember how badly my stomach was hurting. It felt like I was being stabbed a hundred times, I felt a burning sensation from my stomach to my heart.
Was it because of Jennie? Was it because I saw her with her new girlfriend?
But I've moved on.
I felt a subtle pain in my stomach again just by thinking of Jennie and her new girlfriend. What the hell is happening to me?
No, I don't want your body
But I'm picturing your body with somebody else
And it fucking hurts.
Suddenly someone entered the room where I'm in.
"I see you're awake Miss Park" the doctor said.
"How are you feeling?" He asked.
"Uhm... I'm good just a little pain but I think I'm fine" I told the doctor.
"Hmm. I suggest we run more tests but for the mean time I'm prescribing you some acid blockers, it reduce acid production and relieves gastritis pain and heartburn. Also it would be a great help to lessen the attack if you avoid alcohol and caffeine intake. Avoid fatty and oily foods and start a healthy diet with exercise. I know college students these days are so stress but it would be nice to take a breather every now and then" the doctor said.
It was a lot to take actually but I felt relieved that it was gastritis and not Jennie having a new relationship that caused me pain. Weird yeah?
"Thanks doc, I'll keep that in mind" I told the doctor.
"Then, I'll schedule you for a blood test and upper gastrointestinal series. For the mean time no solid food intake for 24 hours, water is fine since you're in IV. We'll release you tomorrow if we don't see anything alarming" the doctor said.
The doctor checked my vital signs and went out afterwards. My fever had gone down and my heart rate is normal, my breathing is fine and I feel my tummy getting happy.
I nodded at the realization. So, I'm stuck here? Where is Lisa anyway? I remembered calling her before I fell unconscious.
As if on cue my lovely evolved microorganism best friend entered my room, followed by my prettiest girl Chichu unnie and another... what the fuck is she doing here??
"H-hi" I said.
"Chaengie, are you okay now?" Jisoo asked.
"Yes. Just a little tummy problem" I told her.
"From now on, I won't buy you Chinese takeouts Chaeng. We won't eat in a café and won't be going in the bar" Lisa said.
"Woah there doctor quack. Chill, you can always go with Chichu, I'll be good" I said, I don't want her to sacrifice her fun time because of me.
Then I felt the air getting awkward. Then she spoke.
"Can we have a moment?" Jennie asked.
"And why would we agree to leave you two alone?" Lisa answered with another question.
"Lis" I said.
"Whut?" She asked me.
"Go, I'll be fine. It's not like she's going to murder me, eh?" I told Lisa.
"Ugh. Scream if she does something bad" Lisa said, I only smiled and I nodded.
"Hold the scream if she does something good" Jisoo unnie said.
"Kim Jisoo!" The rest of us shouted.
"Just saying" Jisoo unnie said while Lisa dragged her out of the room.
When they left. It was just me and Jennie. And I'm not going to lie, I kinda miss the times when it was just the two of us.
"You haven't been taking good care of yourself" she said.
"I just don't have time. I'm working on my paper you know?" I said.
"Still" she said.
"Why do you care Jen?" I asked her.
I don't understand.
"Because I never stopped caring" she said.
"Why would you? We're done. I'm just your boring ex-girlfriend you should not care for me anymore" I said and I knew I sounded bitter.
I can taste the bitter words out of my mouth. Caring for someone means you love them. And if she cares for me does it mean that she still loves me?
"Because I'm still your friend" she said.
Oh...
I just don't believe that you have got it in you 'cause
We are just gonna keep 'doin' it' and everytime
I start to believe in anything you're saying
I'm reminded that I should be getting over it
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Jennie's POV
I do care for her. I never stopped. I know I'm being irrational. Who would still care for their ex?
Well, me.
Rosie is different from the others. Too cliché but it's true. She's someone who's hard to forget. Someone who will stay in your heart for a life time.
Everything about her is perfect. Except for me. No one might believed me but I was a wreck when I broke up with her. But it was my fault, I bet she felt even more pain than I did.
Bet she cursed me, said that I'm such a bitch or worse than that. And I deserved it, I deserved every hate.
I just don't think that I'll be able to live up with the pressure of being Rosie's girlfriend. She has something big for her future and I don't think that she'll be able to reach that if I'll continue be an obstacle for her.
I was too needy, too greedy. I only wanted Rosie for myself that I didn't realized that I was pushing away everything from her.
So, I did what's best for us.
I might not be the best for her but I'm sure she'll find it in someone else.
Come on baby
You said you'd find someone to take my place
"Because I'm still your friend" I told her.
I saw that same expression that I saw the day that I broke her heart.
"I don't think I still want to be friends with you, Jen. After all what happened" she said.
"I understand" I told her.
"You don't" she said.
"Rosie-"
"I thought I was over you. That I've moved on but I saw you with her. And I can't take it. I thought maybe because I still feel something for you, but I was wrong. I just- I just don't want to see you with somebody else" she said.
"I was fine when I didn't see you for months. But now I- I don't know anymore" she added.
"I'm sorry. I know it won't suffice for all the pain I've caused but I'm sorry for hurting you" I told her.
Maybe this is going to be the last time that I'll be seeing her.
"I'm sorry too. But I also want to thank you for making me feel like a person again. That I'm capable of loving, feeling pain and getting mad. Don't think that I hate you, I don't, Jen." She said.
Glad to know that she doesn't hate me, because I don't know what to do if she does.
I felt my phone in my pocket. I told her excuse me and checked my phone, it was Irene. She's asking if Chaeyoung is okay and if I still need time with her.
I texted a reply and she immediately called.
"I'll be going, Rosie. Take care of yourself, please" I begged her.
She nodded and I went out as I answered Irene.
Bye, Rosie.
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I'm looking through you while you're looking through your phone
And then leaving with somebody else
No, I don't want your body
But I'm picturing your body with somebody else
Rosé's POV
I watched as Jennie left while she talked to her girlfriend on her phone. And I felt it again.
I can't really picture her with somebody else.
And I hate myself for it.
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Again, if it looks familiar, it's because it's from AMPLIFY (For new readers I wrote that too but I unpublished it)
HAPPY CHAENNIE DAY!! ❤️❤️
Yeah, I remembered I wrote this for Chaennie day, last November 24, my first ever Chaennie day as an author 🥺
Will repost YOU AND I later, the last one 🥰
Hope you guys enjoyed the story.
Thanks for reading, loves! ❤️