I woke up to Matteo stroking my hair. Immediately a smile made its way to my lips. Whenever I sleep next to him my nightmares seem to stop and disappear. He makes me feel safe and protected.
"Good morning angel.", he said with a sleepy voice.
"Good morning Matteo." Looking up at him I saw a bright smile on his face. "Someone's in a good mood."
"Always when I see you and hear you say my name." A boyish smile was still visible.
"What are we doing today?", I asked him curiously. His smile quickly vanished.
"I'm sorry you'll have to stay here alone. I need to take care of a few things.", he said coldly.
"Of what exactly?"
"You're my date to a ball remember?" I nodded and he continued. "The ball is a get together for mafia groups. It's a tradition. Every year another mafia holds the ball and this year it is my turn. I still have to prepare everything and there's only one and a half week left."
"Isn't it kind of dangerous to have a ball with enemies? No offense but I don't see that working out.", I said furrowing my brows.
"We hold the ball to form connections or alliances. During the whole day of the ball no crimes of any kind are allowed. If someone doesn't follow that rule he or she will be killed by the first person getting to them."
"Did someone ever broke that rule?", I asked and raised one of my brows.
"Once, yes. He killed one of our guards. Another mafia found him and then tortured and killed him."
"That makes sense..I mean who would be stupid enough to mess with a couple of mafia families.", I chuckled.
Matteo leaned to my forehead and placed a kiss there. "You messed with me and I'm the most dangerous one.", he whispered in my ear.
"Oh, yes you're so dangerous.", I said sarcastically.
He got up and went to the bathroom. A couple of minutes later he came out dressed in a black Armani suit. His hair were still wet from the shower he took making him even hotter.
"I'll see you this evening." He placed a soft kiss to my lips and left the room.
I spend most of the day wandering around the garden and drawing again. Surprisingly I missed Matteos presence. The past days he was always by my side and I have to admit that I got used to it. Still sitting on the bench in front of the sea I started drawing Matteo sleeping in his bed. Last night I woke up needing something to drink and I couldn't help but stare at him. He looked peaceful and happy. His usual cold or aggressive facial expression was replaced with a cute little smile.
After about an hour I was done with the drawing of him and walked to my room to hide the sketchbook. Even though I know he liked my previous drawings he will probably think this one is weird. Weird because I watched him sleep. I mean who does that?
Looking at the clock I realized it was almost dinner time. I quickly went downstairs and started preparing some spicy chicken with baked potatoes and a salad. Then I went to the living room and made the table ready.
I waited a couple of minutes for Matteo to come home. Minutes turned into an hour. And finally I heard the door open and footsteps enter. Smiling I went to the door to greet Matteo.
"Hey.", I said placing a kiss on his cheek. He wrapped his arms around my waist and held me for a minute.
"Sorry for being late.", he apologized.
"It's ok I understand. Now come with me let's eat something."
We went into the living room and started eating. Matteo told me that he loved my food causing me to smile the whole time. When we finished eating I got up and cleaned the kitchen while he went into his office. I tried to clean everything as fast as I could because I was desperate to spend time with Matteo.
Soon I was done and went to his office. I heard him talking on the phone with someone about business. Deciding it would be best to leave him alone I walked into our room got ready for bed and laid down . Then I heard him entering the room and stared at him.
"It's pretty late already. We should sleep.", he said while undressing and laying down with grey sweatpants on. Matteo wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me against his chest like he always does.
"Goodnight.", I whispered quietly hoping the sadness wasn't visible in my voice.
Yes, I was sad because I missed him and he didn't really pay attention to me nor did he really talk to me. I felt like I was unnecessary. Today when I needed him the most. But how could he know that? After all I didn't tell him.
Trying to sleep was useless. I don't know why it affected me so much not seeing Matteo all day and when I did he barely spend time with me. Looking up at him I saw that he was already sleeping.
I wiggled out of his hold and walked downstairs into the flower garden. After I made a bouquet out of red roses I walked to the sea and got on my knees. Still holding the bouquet in my hands I looked up to the sky.
"Hey mom. I miss you so much. Today is the day heaven gained another angel a couple years ago. I got a boyfriend now. Can you believe that? He actually treats me nice. Well not today but he has a lot of work to do. You would probably love him." I whispered and paused a moment. Tears were already building up in my eyes.
"I think about you everyday. John is dead and my father is in prison which means they won't ever be able to hurt me again. Life is good now. You were right when you said I should never lose hope. I just wish I could hug you again. Or see you. Or just hear your voice.", I said while my voice began to crack. "I miss you mom. I just miss you so much."
While crying I placed the bouquet of red roses on the sea and watched it slowly floating away. Suddenly I felt big arms pulling me up and against a hard chest.
"Why didn't you tell me angel?", Matteo asked me concerned.
"Y-you were b-busy.", I managed to get out between my sobs.
"I'm sorry. The next week will be hard and yes I won't see you much. But if you need me I'll be there for you. Especially today you should have told me.", he said. And he meant it. I was able to hear the seriousness in his voice.
Pulling away I stared into his eyes and frowned. "What are you even doing here? You were sleeping an hour ago."
"I was. Then I woke up and the bed was empty."
"And you searched for me? You know I could have just walked into the kitchen to grab some water."
"I thought you were gone.", he said staring deep into my eyes. His eyes held worry and another emotion I couldn't make out.
"What do you mean with gone?", I asked raising an eyebrow.
"I'll tell you another time. Right now we should get back to our room and sleep."
When I nodded he gently grabbed my hand and we walked back inside and upstairs. As soon as we laid down he pulled me against his chest again and stroked my hair. After a few minutes I felt myself slowly falling asleep and my breathing got heavier.
"Your mom would be proud of the woman you've become. You're the strongest person I know. People treated you with hate but you're the most lovable human being I have met. How could anyone hate my little angel? You smile so much even though you've faced a lot of horrible things. And your smile is like sunshine to me. I can't get enough of you.", Matteo whispered and I was sure he thought I was already asleep.
Who knew a cold hearted killer could be this sweet? His little speech made my worries of being unnecessary fly out of the window and I was finally falling asleep.
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Matteos POV
"Your mom would be proud of the woman you've become. You're the strongest person I know. People treated you with hate but you're the most lovable human being I have met. How could anyone hate my little angel? You smile so much even though you've faced a lot of horrible things. And your smile is like sunshine to me. I can't get enough of you.", I whispered.
I knew she was asleep but I needed to get my thoughts off my chest. Those thoughts were in my head all the time waiting for me to finally say them out loud. And even if she did not hear them I felt lighter somehow.
Today was a shitty day. I spend most of the time organizing the ball and doubling up my security team. Despite the rule that there are no crimes allowed I couldn't help but feel uneasy. After all the Russo's are still after my angel. I will do anything I can to protect her even if that means dying myself. We haven't been together for long or should I say we haven't dated each other for long. But the first day I met her I immediately liked her. She is different. Those past weeks with her have been amazing and she made me the happiest man alive. I have never been that happy my whole life yet simply seeing her smile lights up my dark world.
The next week went by quickly.
I was working most of the time and came home late everyday. My sweet angel waited for me everyday and greeted me excitedly. Once I even came home and screamed "Honey I'm home." like married couples do. She laughed at me before placing kisses on every inch of my face. Other than that we barely got time together. We didn't even ate together...all we did was sleep and a couple of kisses here and there.
To be honest I miss her so much. I feel like I'm pushing her away. We don't talk a lot, we don't do a lot and the reason is my work. That stupid ball and my fear of losing her. I can't stop thinking about the dangers.
Today I finally finished planning the ball and everything that was necessary. It's Wednesday which means the ball will be in three days on Saturday evening. Three days of finally getting the chance to spend more time with my angel. She doesn't know that I'm done with work yet.
As much as I just want to spend time with her and talk I also miss teasing her. I miss her moans and can't get my mind off her stunning curves and face. Hopefully I will get the chance to make her scream my name soon.
I was so eager to go home that I may or may not have broke the speed limit. Reaching the villa I quickly jumped out of my car and went to the door. As I opened it my face fell. She wasn't coming to greet me like she usually does...
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Why didn't Emily come to the door?
What do you think about Matteos thoughts?
Hope you liked this chapter... I have to admit writing a guys POV is kind of weird. However I know from reading other stories I always enjoy them.
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