EP 18 महसूस करना
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#Deami
----KINN----
"Who the hell gave you permission to quit!?"
My voice echoed throughout Porsche's living room. He stood still pinned on the floor, looking at me flabbergasted. I stomped inside his house furiously and he instinctively took a step back. The apprehension on his face is something I didn't get to see everyday. The slyness and even his arrogance is nowhere to be found.
"Kinn..." He softly muttered, making me pause. I stared at him for a second and that is all it takes for me to immediately realize how different he looks now, so unlike before. Having a fever after his first time doing it with a guy is common, but that wasn't the only case.
He's definitely hiding something from me. And I am here to find that out.
"I said, who gave you the permission to quit!?" Even thou the expression on his eyes is pulling at my gut, I couldn't contain my self anymore.
I'm feeling guilty all over again damn!
Earlier, when I came back from the university, Paa summoned me to his office and asked me about Porsche. He interrogated me if I've done something to Porsche that made him decide to quit the job.
I didn't even let my father finish his query and immediately drove fast, arriving in no time at Porsche's doorsteps. My blood is boiling. I ticked like a time bomb who's ready to explode anytime, and he is the trigger.
"Don't you dare do anything to my brother!" I was a step away from getting close to Porsche, when a young boy appeared before me. It was Porsché, Porsche's younger brother.
"Porsche! What did Vegas told you!?" I said in anger, not paying attention to his brother that keeps blocking me.
"'Ché, go up first." He averted his gaze from me and directed to his little brother. Gesturing him to go up the stairs.
"But hiia who is this bastard!? He just barged in our house and now he is threatening you!" The younger boy protested and hold his older brother's hand.
[T/N: Hia or เฮีย-term used also as elder brother in Thai.]
"It's nothing! Just do what I ask of you, okay!?" Porsche said in a commanding tone.
"But-"
"Do as I say!"
Porsche insisted. His brother was taken aback and glanced alternately between me and him. Porsché was about to say something again but realized what his older brother said and stomped his way to the upper floor.
As soon as the door from the second floor closes, Porsche walked pass my direction hitting my shoulder with his.
"Where the fuck are you going!?"
I asked while following the bastard.
"Can you shut up!?" he replied rudely. And when we finally reached the front porch of his house, he turned to look at me.
"Let's talk here! I don't want my brother hearing us."
"Who the fuck gave you permission to quit!?"
"Can you stop yelling at me?!" he replied with irritation.
"It's because of Vegas, right? He convinced you to come with him and you agreed. That's why you're gonna quit!" I said in frustration.
Porsche only gave me a disaproving look as I feel my anger rushing towards my head. The moment that I learned about him quitting, I just lost control of my emotions.
That time when I saw them talking at the garage of my club, is not the first time that I felt this anguish. And the mere sight of how Vegas gave him suggestive looks, is enough to make my blood boil and send my emotions on outburst. Most specially the fact that Vegas is a psychopath, who doesn't care for someone's death and even kills while looking them in the eye.
I'm already willing to acclimate to whatever terms Porsche may like just to keep him away from them, but that bastard is way too cunning and this one is just utterly stupid.
"What does this got to do with Vegas?!" He gusted while furrowing his brows at me. Confusion and irritation fired his eyes looking like a set of flaming black balls.
I rolled my eyes in disbelief. I don't know if this bastard is pretending or just completely unaware of what I am saying. But after the situation at the shooting range, I ordered Pete to follow Porsche around wherever he go.
"Then if it's not about Vegas, why would you quit!?" I gnarled in reply, staring at his aghast black orbs with my seething ones. He didn't let go of my gaze as if I've done something wrong to him. I only stared back, waiting for him to reply. The bastard slightly turned while clenching his fist tight, averting my gaze and murmuring incoherent words-probably curses, to me. My ears tingle as the level of angst in my mind escalated with every erratic move Porsche make.
"Porsche."
"......."
"Porsche answer me."
"..."
"Answer me!" I shouted and yanked him close to me.
"It's because of you!" He pushed my hands away together with a nudge on my chest, as he grips my collar in full force. I staggered back and looked at him bewildered.
"How is it because of me-" I wasn't able to finish what I am gonna say when Porsche's fist intercepted with my broad cheek. A searing sensation immediately creeps through the sides, down to the rims of my jawline.
"That's right you fucking bastard! It was all your fault! How dare you! How fucking dare youuu!!!"
Porsche took a fist again and was about to aim it back to my face, but I grabbed him tightly by his wrist and pinned him to the wall.
"What the fuck did I do to you!?" I asked, thou I know quite well what he's pointing out to.
"You still dare to ask me!? You fucking asshole!" Porsche flicked my hand and succeeded in getting out of my grasp.
"If this is still about last time, you know that I don't have any choice."
I replied on my defense. Reaching out to grab Porsche's hands again.
"You don't have a choice!? Then what about last night!? Is that still considered 'no choice'!? You're completely aware that I'm against that shit, but you still continued messing me up!!" He snapped back at me, jerking my hands every time I tried to grab his arm.
"Why do you still overthink about it Porsche? It has already been done. And we can't do anything about it anymore."
"I know! I fucking know! It's done and we can't do anything about it! But you can't blame me if I can't bare to see your face, thinking that.. that shit.... that fucking shit really happened!" Porsche's voice echoed through the pavement of the front porch, making his neighbors silently open their doors and peek on us. I tried to calm him and hold his hands, but he refused my gesture and swat them away.
"Porsche, I think you should calm down.” I said in a low voice, enough for him to hear, but Porsche seems so angry that he didn’t paid much attention to what I am saying and continued ranting, cursing and pushing me away every time I tried to get closer to him.
“How could you? How could you do this to me Kinn? My body, including my dignity was ruined because of you!” Tears started to form at the side of his red rimmed eyes that look at me full of disgust. I stared back at him speechless. I couldn’t do anything; say anything that could ease down his pain. When our eyes met, I knew that I completely fucked up.
I used to treat my new lovers heedlessly as I would treat a toy car, never giving so much attention to their feelings because it is their body that I only wanted. But this time, it’s different. Porsche is different.
I don’t want to lose him like my previous boy toys.
I am so possessive of him that every time I see him talking with someone or ignoring me because he is too pre-occupied, it annoys me. I can’t figure out this feeling yet but I know it’s far from just being concern. And now that I have done something inappropriate to him, I have no idea what to do.
“Porsche, I'm sorry, I didn’t think that you’ll feel bad like this-"
“Everytime I close my eyes and tried to sleep.. It haunts me. And even when I’m wide awake..It’s always there, lurking in my mind.. I tried so hard to bury the memories Kinn, but I just can’t do it! It wouldn’t stop. It wouldn’t leave me alone. So stop forcing me to act normal cause this is already driving me insane!” Porsche’s raspy voice hits me differently this time. It made me feel the guilt deep down to the core. His teary eyes barely hanging on a thread and he grips on his head, resting his back on the wall weakly.
“Hey, listen to me. I didn’t mean to hurt you Porsche, Please listen to-"
“I don’t plan on ditching my work because I make a deal with your father. But don’t you dare touch me again! You fucking psycho!”
“Porsche, calm down.”
“Let me go Kinn! I can’t stand seeing you right now. So please just go!”
“Porsche!” My patience snapped. Took a grip on Porsche’s wrists and slammed both of it on the wall. He tried to resist, but every time he did, I just pushed him even harder. Unable to compete with my strength further, Porsche rests his head weakly on my shoulders.
“Porsche,” I called his name again, with a gentle tone this time. I want him to know that I am concerned. He didn’t replied and just stayed silently on my shoulder. Porsche was too close that I can feel his breath on the hollow of my neck. I immediately shivered from the sensation and would’ve called his name again if not for the searing pain that I felt after.
“Aaah!”
I shrieked coz he fucking bit me.
“I hate you.” He muttered as his face was still buried in my neck.
My gaze never leaving his nape, I realized that those were so thin as if they’ll break in a single touch.
“Come back with me.” I said as my hand travelled behind his neck, gently running my fingers into the soft curls of his baby hairs. My focus was all on him when I noticed an unfamiliar face watching over us from my peripheral vision. Porsche stiffens and probably recognized my gesture as he slowly raised his head, meeting my eyes.
“You see them too right?” I whispered to Porsche.
“You’re not with them?” He asked in an equally low tone.
“I came alone.” I said gripping his arm tightly. My eyes wandered from left to right as I discreetly scan the area to know if that person is alone or with someone.
I admit on being careless when I thoughtlessly stormed out of the house without a single bodyguard with me. I got scared that the thought of loosing Porsche is so frustrating, I never thought about my safety and him. This wasn’t the first time that my men quit, but this is the first time that I over reacted because one happens to think about quitting.
How crazy was that?
After scanning the area, my eyes fell on Porsche’s face, his cheeks flustered and his ears are flaming red even thou he already calmed down.
“You’re still sick Porsche. Please come home with me.” I said looking at him still but his focus wasn’t on me anymore, instead it was directed to the situation that we are facing at the moment.
His eyes fixated on the main road, his body stiff and suddenly on a fighting stance. I do the same when I saw a group of five people immerged from both sides. They were armed with knives and rushed over to attack us.
As soon as one of them managed to get close, I landed a punch on his face making him twist his jaw from the impact. Porsche did the same, kicking and jumping all over the place as the bastards roll on the ground one by one.
The front porch of their house became a battle ground in chaos as mixture of grunts and groans masked all over the place. It’s raining punches and kicks. The neighbors were too afraid to interrupt as they see the armed bastards, they just kept yelling and screaming inside the safety of their houses.
Porsche and I were both distracted, managing to way off these bastards when suddenly footsteps from inside the house came into the scene and we were halted from the fight
“Hia! What’s happening here?!” His younger brother yelped. Completely shocked on the situation we are currently in.
“Go back!” Porsche shouted to his brother, while throwing punches among the men. One was thrown to the wall and was about to run towards Porsche but I grabbed the bastard by the arm and tossed him to the side.
"But Hiia!! I'll help you! " Che said and I immediately halted him, holding his shoulders fast. I came closer and instructed him what to do.
"Your brothers phone is inside right? Open it, find Pete's number and call him to come over. As for you, escape from the backdoor as fast as you can, If you wanted your brothers safety, just do as I say. Now Go!" I tell him in details, emphasizing that his brothers safety is in his hands. He was hesitant at first but we didn’t have much time to waste so I shove him inside the house, and locked the door from the outside. The younger banged the glass door, but eventually realized the situation and left to do my bidding.
I turned back and saw Porsche barely hanging on, while holding up two guys on each hand. He was trying his best to prevent the bastards from reaching his brother and me a while ago.
"You're good." One man said wiping his bleeding mouth with the back of his hand. I picked up the spare knife from the ground and was about to charge when I caught a faint scent of a steel.
"Put down your knife." A voice from one of them echoed through my ear and when I turned around, I saw a gun pointed at Porsche's head.
My vision went blurry with the sudden surge of anger that runs cold up from my fists to the blades of my shoulder and as I get ready to charge forward, I felt a gun's tip brush over my nape.
"Drop it." The man from behind me yelled. I gritted teeth, I followed him and slowly drop the knife on the ground, gradually holding my hands up.
"Heh, that was too easy." After his sentence was said, I felt a heavy force jabbed at the back of my skull, knocking me out as I fell on the ground. I heard Porsche being hit too and I grunted helplessly.
How I want to break this bastards neck from doing that to him. They seem to be unsatisfied that they started to rain kicks and punches on us. I am furious but I can't do anything as I crouched weakly on the ground. I felt my guts being hit multiple times until I felt numb and loose conciousness.
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"We were ordered to take Porsche alone. Why bring Kinn with him?!"
"Ha!? Why? Its just like hitting two birds with one stone! You should be happy I took Kinn too!"
"You fucking lunatic! What would you do if boss gets angry?huh?!"
"Come on, I assure you, Boss will be delighted to see both of them."
"If boss throws you out, don’t get me into your shit. I just caught Porsche alone and you stupidly drag Kinn along with him."
I slowly opened my eyes to the bickering of two unknown men. The back of my head is still sore from the hit awhile ago but I managed to regain my consciousness and start to accsses the surroundings. I squinted my blurry eyes, trying my best to get a grasp of the situation.
We're inside a moving car, where the windows were completely tinted with black curtains. The stench of mixed sweat and leather making me dizzy. I lingered my gaze a bit more until I realized that both my wrists were tightly tied, a piece of cloth nuzzled across my mouth. I tried to look for Porsche, and saw that he was still unconscious in the same situation as I. The ride was bumpy and shaky, giving me the impression that these bastards are taking us uphill.
Slowly, I reached for Porsche. Hopeful to wake him up by poking my fingers on his arm. The bastard immediately sensed my hands and gradually narrowed his eyes. He was about to look around the space that we are in but I halted his movement and gestured him to lower his head because the men that kidnapped us were just a wall away.
"Hey. I think they're already awake." The other man said and I immediately pressed Porsche's head down.
"Hm?"
The other man hummed then poked his head to look at us. Porsche and I shut our eyes and pretended that we're still asleep.
"No. I think they are dead."
"Bastard! Kinn dying doesn't really matter. But if Porsche did, we're better off dead!"
"Hey! Don't say that! Kidnapping Kinn is just the same as getting Porsche! His men could've killed us!"
"Oh brother. Stop worrying to much! And just think of the extra salary we might get because of what we did!"
The two bastards laughed like a bunch of hyenas lurking around their prey. I looked at them again and made sure that they were too preoccupied with themselves before turning my gaze to Porsche. He raised his head and immediately his brows frowned tighter than before. It's clear as blank paper that Porsche was thinking about what the bastards talking a while ago. And I'm not gonna lie, I too was curious as well. This wasn't the first time that Porsche was targeted by those people and I badly wanted to know who the fuck was desperate enough to meet satan and try to take away Porsche from me.
My eyes met Porsche and we both nod in sync. Planning our escape now is better than reaching the location this louts are taking us to. Because if we plan later than this, we will definitely be screwed.
I then reached out to untie Porsche's roped hands and he do the same to me as well. The bastards tied Porsche's hands way to tight, but I still managed to remove them out from the knot. He then took time to untie mine and when he already did, we positioned ourselves. Waiting for our chance to charge.
I silently got up and gestured Porsche to do the same, he managed to rest his other knee on the floor, but the bastards outside caught us and pressed the car breaks hard. We both stagger but still able to stand up.
"Fuck! Those two were awake all along-"
The bastard didn't even finished his sentence when Porsche grab him by his neck and twist it hard. I then took the liberty of gripping the other one on his hair, and slammed its face to the glass window. The car was in chaos as the other men try to hold us around. I kicked the other man's face and Porsche punch on the other.
"You fucking bastard!" Deep voice echoed from a man and he was about to pick up a gun, but Porsche kicked him by his wrist and the loaded gun was thrown on the ground. I immediately picked it up and pointed it to them.
"Don't move! Or I'll shoot everyone of you!" I shouted, then pulled Porsche out of the van. The bastards were startled and didn't move an inch, afraid that I might really shoot them dead.
Much that I want to do that, but Porsche's safety is my number one priority. I pointed the gun at them, turned my gaze behind and saw that there's no other view but trees and a forest. We stepped back even further from the car and hurriedly ran towards the forest.
They were dumbfounded for a second when suddenly one of them gained his sense and shouted over the other men.
"Bastards! What are you all waiting for!? Follow them!!"
They pulled out their guns and hurriedly followed after us in the forest. I grabbed Porsche by his wrist and ran towards the side of the forest to find cover. The bastards didn't let us go and even exchange gun shots whenever they have the chance. The sky was dark and there's definitely a chance of rain so I my main goal is to find a place for both of us to take shelter and hide.
"Kinn! It's too dark!" Porsche spoke to me in the middle of continued running and gun fight.
I huffed and just kept on running to hopefully wave these bastards off. Their footsteps and even the sound of their voice are getting close to us so I hasten my pace. I was busy dodging and dragging Porsche to safety that I didn't even noticed where am I heading.
"Shit!"
I stumbled on something hard and in a blink of an eye my body was falling. My hands immediately reached for Porsche, caging him in protection with my arms. Sounds of cracking branches, a mixture of grass and the scent of dirt hit my face as we roll down on a stiff path. My arms were fixed around Porsche until a solid matter hit the back of my head and left me unconscious.
"Fuck! You killed them!!"
"I only told you to shoot to stop them, not to fucking kill them both!!!"
"We're so fucking screwed!"
"You are screwed! You fucking bastard!"
Fuck! How many times will I be losing my consciousness before I learn who the hell is trying to abduct us!?
I grunted, as rays of the sun hits the lids of my eye. I slowly opened them and was immediately greeted by the pain rushing through my body. But what hurts the most is the back of my head that I probably hit on something hard again. I let my eyes adjust to the light and scan the location.
Took my gaze from left to right and slowly upward. I can't believe how in hell did I survived. The height of the fall was quite high and the impact could've broken my bone but luckily it didn't. I was about to stand up, but noticed that there is something heavy, pressing me on the ground. I tilt my head slightly and saw Porsche lying on top of me.
"Porsche!" I shook his hands vigorously and immediately took a hold of his pulse. I sighed in relief when I realized that he's still breathing. But when my hands touched his head, something is not right. His skin is burning.
"Porsche! Porsche wake up!" I nudge him again and shook his arms.
"U-uhmm.." He softly mumbled.
"Are you okay?" I asked him.
"What happened?" He muttered while slowly lifting his body up.
"We were chased and fell off a cliff." I replied and help him raise his body from me.
"Are you okay?" I added.
"My arms hurt a little." Porsche replied. My gaze then turn down to his limbs and saw that both of them were covered with scratches and bruises, probably because he only wears a t-shirt. A long-sleeve could've prevented this from happening but that wasn't the case now.
I was busy checking Porsche up, when a horde of footsteps came from above. I immediately took the gun from the ground and hold Porsche's body close to me.
"Did you see them!?"
"No signs of Porsche and Kinn yet brother."
"Then get some ropes and go down. If you didn't find their body then that definitely means they are alive!"
The bastard command his men and everyone of them followed.
My eyes glistened in anxiety and get my attention to Porsche, who is currently leaning against me.
"Can you walk?" I whispered to him. Porsche look so tired and exhausted but still nodded to me.
"Lets go over there." I said while holding Porsche by his wrist, slowly walking and scanning the site cautiously.
"They're not here too!"
"Then find them! They won't get that far!"
As soon as I heard the man's voice, I took Porsche wrist and hasten our pace to hide. I didn't waste any time because I know we can't take them, most specially not in this state.
"A-ah!" Porsche suddenly grunted, making both of us halt on our steps.
"What happened Porsche?" I asked in concern.
"I-I can't.. It hurts." He took a grip on his arm and stagger a bit with his walk.
I look at him helplessly, concern building in my chest. I'm undecided what to do. If we stop here they will definitely get us but if we continue, Porsche will surely suffer.
"Hey! That way!" The voice of one of the bandits echoed, as if they are already around us.
I was startled, leaving no choice but place my arm around Porsche's waist and lift his one arm to my shoulders. We then made our way as fast as I could to be able to find a shelter we could hide and stay. I kept on running even if I don't know where this path would take us and at the same time check on Porsche. He was panting hard and his face is as pale as hell. When we got far enough, I relaxed my pace a bit and took a hold of Porsche's face.
"You're hot again. Did your fever came back?"
"I-I don't.. know.. My arm.. It still hurts.." Porsche muttered between deep pants and eventually give up and fall on the ground. I was shocked with the sudden movement and immediately hold Porsche on the shoulder to support him. My gaze then wandered over the place, checking if the bastards from a while ago saw us.
"Porsche just hang in there." I said to him. But he only shook his head, while breathing hard from his mouth. I looked at him with pity and suddenly the harsh rain poured down. Making the situation we are in now even worst than before.
"Porsche please, just a bit more."
I told him again, but he stayed seated on the ground tiredly. When I realized that he won't be able to stand up anymore, I grabbed him by his arms and slowly lift him up to my shoulders.
We walk for almost half an hour and was glad that my luck haven't run out. A nearby cave appeared before me so I didn't waste anymore time and head to that direction.
When we reached the cave, I then slowly put Porsche down and he instantly leaned in to take a rest on one of the rocks, not minding if its clean or not. As for me, I took off my shirt and squeeze the water out before placing it over the nearby rock. I looked over Porsche's direction, paced close to him and remove his top as well.
"What the hell would I do next?" I muttered but Porsche was too busy rubbing his arm between his skin to warm up. His gesture immediately give me an idea and gather some materials to start a fire.
It was raining heavy outside, so the possibility of me getting woods out there is negative. I took a good look around, and was glad enough that there are a couple of dry branches located inside the cave. I gathered those and line them up to start a bon fire.
With every branch already set up, all need now is to start a fire. I then rethink what I've watch on the TV that they use stones to start a fire, but the rain was to heavy and it will be impossible for me to find a dry one. I looked at Porsche again and remembered that he smokes whenever it's their free time.
I tried to pry on his pants and my hands quickly met with his lighter. It was wet because of the rain but it's a lot better than nothing.
It took me quite some time for the fire to finally set up. And grabbed a bunch of small sticks and let it burn first with the fire before placing the larger ones. I stood up, rest my hands over my waist and let out a victory sigh. A smirk playing on the corners of my lips.
Way to go Kinn.
"So cold..." My mind was torn from my thoughts of a victory dance when a hoarse voice came out from the lad beside me.
I came closer to him, and lead my hand over his forehead. Those were too hot as if he was poured in with hot water all over his body. I frowned and looked around, trying to find something to cover him. My eyes landed on my clothes, but those were too wet to help Porsche dry. I pat his shoulders and gestured him to come closer to the fire.
"I set up a fire. Come closer." I told him, but was only greeted with a half opened eyes and droopy mouth.
"Its.. so.. cold..." Porsche muttered again, making me frustrated as hell.
"I know. But please don't be stubborn like this because I don't know what else to do to help you Porsche." I replied in frustration while looking at him in pity.
Porsche threw a glance at me and then turned his head to the side, still caressing his arms to keep him warm. I sighed. Then make my way further closer to him and sat beside his shivering body. I grabbed his waist and slowly guide his body into mine. I let him rest his head over my shoulders and wrapped my arms around his upper body to keep him warm.
"Better?" I asked him in a soft voice. I was expecting a protest, but was surprised when he nodded and even nuzzled his head further into my neck.
"P-Porsche..." I gasped.
He kept silent and then eventually fallen asleep. I recollected my thoughts and let the past events sink in. This wasn't the first time I saw him in this state, but it is the first time I saw him looking this vulnerable.
I admit, what I've done to him is wrong and I don't have any excuse on that. I'm completely aware that he's straight but still have my way on him. I don't know what got into me that whenever he does something, it always throws me on edge. It is known to me that he wasn't my type, but I cannot deny the thrill that I felt when we make out.
His smooth tan skin, his plump lips and even that tattoo...specially that tattoo. Just the mere thought of it makes my mouth water and its driving me crazy. I want to touch him, do nasty things on him, make a mess all over his body but at the same time... I want to take care of him. And do things that'll make him comfortable and healed.
I know I succeeded on taking him, but this wasn't a victory that I want to celebrate at all.
Ahhhh. Fuck Kinn, what the hell did you got yourself into?
I was in the middle of my mental dilemma, when Porsche softly muttered...
"Pa... Ma.... Please help Porsche..." I tilted my head to look at him,
"..Ma...I miss..you..Miss you...so..much.." He softly said, making me shut my mouth tight. He was sleep talking, and it was all about his late parents. The way he sounded, pleading for his parents to come pulled something in me.
My gaze never left his face as he reiterate every word he wish his parents could've Heard. His face has every inch of it covered in sadness and I unconciously grabbed the back of his head to hold him closer to my chest.
I let my hands rest on his nape and gently caress it every time he furrow his eyebrows. A faint smile masked on my face as I gaze down to the sleep-talking Porsche. Realizing that even he's stubborn as hell, he still have a soft spot on his heart. I can't believe that the outspoken, bad mouthed and headstrong Porsche could be this soft.
"You missed them. Don't you?" I whispered upon his ear and added,
"Don't worry. I'm here." Gently pressing a kiss on his forehead, before fixing our position to sleep.
I still can't believe that with a build like this and a cruel tattoo to boot, Porsche is like a small kitten when he sleep talks. But what I can't believe the most is that, whatever he do, I can't take my gaze off him. I stared at him for the last time and rest my chin on his head and said...
"Good night. Porsche."
----PORSCHE----
I woke up in a daze, as my eyes slowly wandered around and found myself rested on somewhere dim, like a medium sized cave. There is a fire pit nearby and the sky outside was completely dark with tiny beads of raindrops falling down.
The warmth from behind made me slightly frown and was about to lift myself, but was taken aback when my body was held tight. Someone's legs were stretched across my body as I tried to push it away and lift those up. I then turned my head to my back and was immediately greeted by the sleeping face of Kinn.
"Shiaa Kinn!"
I called the name of the person behind me and my gaze abruptly shifted from his body to mine. I am naked as well as Kinn. My mind is in complete shock as my eyes linger on Kinn's statue while only thinking of one thing.
Have we done it again!?
"Uhmm.. You're already awake... Did the rain already stopped?" Kinn pushed himself away from the rock and rubbed his eyes while facing my direction. He then turn to see the burning fire, stood up and walked over to get some spare woods to let the fire continue burning.
"It's still cold outside." He muttered while crouching beside the rock, trying to light up the bonfire.
When did this bastard took my lighter?
"Where is my shirt?" I asked him. He then pointed at the other side of the rock with his clothes and mine resting beside each other.
"It's still wet. Don't wear it yet." said Kinn, and yawned.
"What did you do me?" My eyes dig deep into his back as accusations run down with my tone.
"What did I do? " He replied and tilted his head to look at me.
"My clothes were there and when I woke up you're hugging me. What's up with you again!?"
"It got wet because of the rain. And then you complain that it's cold even I already set up a fire. I don't know how else would I help you warm up, so I sat beside you. And share my body's warmth." At the last word of his sentence, Kinn gave me a cunning look. Wishing that I can extend my foot and slam it directly to this bastard's well built face. But my body said otherwise and still felt a little dizzy at the back of my head.
"And w-who told you to do that!?"
Fuck! Now I remember! I remembered that we were driven into the middle of the forest by bunch of unknown men and suddenly the rain pours out. I felt the cold air rushing to my body and I couldn't stand it. And then I remembered Kinn.. he was asking me how would he be able to help me so...
FUCCCKKKKKKK!!!!!Again?! Porsche?!Really??
"Porsche, do you think I'm still in the mood to do anything to you? Look around you. I don't think someone will be turned on with this kind of situation." He said while laughing, but I didn't mirrored his gesture.
"Who knows? Maybe people like you loves the thrill of getting caught in situations like this."
"Ohoo. You can run your bad mouth now huh? That probably means your fever already went down." He muttered while facing the fire again.
"Damn it! Where the hell are we?"
He added, but I didn't pay attention to him.
I just hugged my knees and focused on the burning fire. Figuring out why the hell am I stuck with this bastard again.
"Fuck! my phone was lost too. I just hope Pete will be able to find us before those bastards do." Kinn walked to the front of the cave and reach out his hand to check if it's still raining hard.
"I'm thirsty.." I muttered to myself and tried to look for things around me to catch some water from the rain. But the bastard must have heard me and answered.
"What are you going to do? There is no glass." I turned to look at this Kinn with a frown.
Of course there's no glass here because we're in the forest you fucking dumbass!
"Get a big leaf and clean it. Then find a water source that is flowing over a clean leaf." I replied in detail hopefully this bastard will get my point.
"That'll be hard because its raining hard outside."
I rolled my eyes in reply and ignored what Kinn said. I just kept on looking for other things to build up our camp, but there's nothing here but branches and leaves.
"But if you're really that thirsty... You can drink on mine first."
The bastard said and I looked at him confusedly. I was in the middle of processing about what he just said, when the bastard lean down his head and poke it on the middle of his crotch. His gesture immediately registered on my mind and gave him a disgusted look.
"Fuck you!"
"Hehehe." He cunningly giggled before walking outside the rain. I looked at him in surprise and watch if the bastard get what I've said. He was gone for a minute or two and suddenly came with four or five large leaves rolled into cones.
"Here. " He held one in front of me. I gave him a look first then eventually took and drank it away. After sometime, He took his and drank it as well.
"What's up with you? Do you have to wait for me before you drink yours?" I asked him when I noticed that he didn't open his until I'm done with mine.
"I'm just checking if the water is safe to drink. If you die then it's not, but you seem okay so I just drank it." This fucking asshole tricked me and let me drink mine first before taking his. Am I a fucking cupbearer? That's why he kept on looking at me a while ago.
Wait 'till we got home Kinn. I'll fucking poison you myself!
I moved closer against the fire and hold my knees tightly. Questioning why is my whole damn life have to be this tragic. Being chased by bandits was enough, but getting stuck in this forest with this bastard of a Kinn is just way too much!
"You heard what they were talking in the car right?" Kinn came closer and sat across the bonfire.
"Um."
I silently replied, without looking directly at Kinn's location. I just regard him at my peripheral vision and saw that his eyes were fixated on the fire. I was not directly in front of him so a sneaky attack on his face would be just a piece of cake. I just wished that we're not in this kind situation so I can just smack him right up on his face.
"They specifically wanted you, and not me." He said in a still voice.
"I don't have enemies anywhere. Except you." I answered, still not looking at his direction.
"Hahaha. You really are stubborn Porsche." Kinn laughed and again, this time I gave him a look.
Why does this bastard play casual on me even if he's completely aware of everything he have done.
"It has been two times in a row that unknown men tried to abduct you. If it was me, the reason will be crystal clear. But their target was you and I don't have a clue why they have to do that." Said Kinn, while scratching the base of his jaw. I would actually say the same thing. If their target was Kinn, then that will probably because of the nature of his work and family. But this time it wasn't him they want, but me.
"Let's settle this next time and just focus first on finding a way to get out of here. After that, I'll get someone to investigate who the hell wanted to get you and even wanted me dead." Kinn said rather seriously.
I then got into my senses and remembered what the bastards talk about in the car. Once again I tried to recollect my thoughts if I got enemies other than this fucking bastard, but I just can't remember anyone.
I was in the middle of my contemplating, when suddenly Kinn caught my attention.
"Do you feel a lot better now?" He asked.
"Um."
"You should thank me. My warmth soothes you and now you feel way better." He raised the corner of his mouth and smiled wickedly.
My brows immediately formed a straight line when I heard what Kinn said. Unable to control my boiling temper, I threw some branches on the fire until it sparks around like fire works. Kinn only giggled on my gesture and kept on looking at my direction.
I was pissed and amazed at the same time with his reaction. I never seen him like this. Calm and relaxed, just way far from what he always do. Maybe because we're far from home and his office, where he usually wear neat clothes and fake smiles. He was hard and brutal on the outside but behind those facade, he's just a normal college boy like me.
"You sleep talked about your parents too.." The smug look on his face eventually faded and changed into a soft one. I lifted my gaze up and gape at him a little before staring on the burning flame.
I know that he wasn't lying to tease me, because just a moment ago I dreamed that my parents came back and hugged me tight. The warmth in my heart that I hadn't experienced for a long time, along with the feeling of security, were just so pure that I didn't want to wake up from that dream anymore.
"Yea." I replied to him.
"How many years have you been alone with your brother?"
"Nearly ten." I said in a low voice.
"It's probably nice to have a mother to take care of you, even just for a moment.. As for me, I don't even remember my mother's face."
Said Kinn and gently laughed.
"Why?" I didn't know what got into me, but I just asked him in pique.
"Pa divorced my mom since Kim was just a few months old. And I was very young, that the memory of my childhood doesn't have her at all." He replied and fixated his gaze on the flame against me.
"Why did they decided to get... divorced?"
Fuck Porsche! What's got into you that you suddenly wanna know about Kinn's life??
"I don't know. I never asked for it, or probably don't remember it at all. Maybe because, I'm already satisfied just living with my Dad."
He said in a normal voice but when I looked at his eyes, something about those makes me a bit sad. Like deep down, he probably thought about it. But just didn't dare to reveal much of his feelings.
"Hmmmm."
"You're amazing, raising you're younger brother alone and even managing to give him a comfortable life... Just thinking about me raising my younger brother on my own, already sends my head to hell." Kinn said and laughed. I accidentally thought of the picture and then smiled a little as well. We were busy talking when I realized that I've forgot about something...
Shit! I forgot about my brother!!
"Kinn! My brother. Do you think he'll be safe? " I unconsciously ask him. I really don't know what's happening to me that I trusted Kinn with my younger brother's safety.
Is it because of the rain? Or do I still have a fever? I don't know. What I know that I should be furious with him, but I just can't be angry at him right now.
"I told him to run and escape to the back of your house."
"Then, is he safe??"
"I also instructed him to get your phone and call Pete. You saved his number, right?" I nodded in response. But still terrified and worried about my younger brother.
If something happened to him, what should I do?
"Don't worry. Your brother is definitely fine. Besides, those bastards were too stupid to catch him." said Kinn, analyzing the incident. I agreed with him because those men were too sloppy in their acts. Tying both of us alone and even letting us sat together, those bastards were just too simple I cannot bear to see.
"If he doesn't call Pete. I'm sure he'll call either Tem or Jom." Kinn nodded and gave me a warm smile. And because I accidentally raised my head and stared at him without even realizing it, I couldn't help but feel comfortable whenever he smile at me like that.
It's like we're not in a dark forest at all being hunted by bunch of armed men. Those smiles always caught me of guard and whenever I tried to take my eyes away from it, I always fail.
I'll let you win discreetly now Kinn. But when we get out of here, I'll hate you with all my heart again!
"You should sleep now Porsche. The rain probably won't stop till tomorrow." I nodded slowly, and positioned myself again on the rock.
I still feel quite dizzy up until now. And another rain will come before us.
Will I be able to get well in this situation? Ahhgg. I just hope my brother is safe until we manage to get out of here.
I leaned on the cold rocks and immediately my body shivered from the cold temperature penetrating the skin of my back. Without any other choice, I took out my hands and vigorously rubbed my side to keep myself warm. I continued doing my thing, when suddenly a shadow came from afar and lay down beside me.
"What the hell are you doing?"
It was Kinn, sitting behind me. I turned away my gaze from him, but the bastard grabbed my shoulders and pulled me hard to his chest.
"Will you be able to sleep in this cold?" His face was unfazed and didn't hold back on his action at all. He only pulled me further to his chest and hugged my body tight.
"Let me go! What the hell are you trying to do!? " I wrestled him with all my strength. But Kinn held me so tight that I couldn't move an inch.
"I'm not gonna do something bad to you, so lie still!" said Kinn in a serious voice. I calmed down a bit, and tilted my head towards him.
"Let me go Kinn."
"Your body is hot again. If you die here because of colds I won't carry your body out. So behave yourself and sleep well." Kinn laid his head on the rock and held me tight. I was about to move again, but the sudden sting on my head prevented me to do so.
It was annoying that he keeps on bothering me. But to be honest, sleeping beside him wasn't that bad after all. His warmth is way better than the searing coldness of the hard rock. And the feeling...
The feeling of security he gives off also soothes my mind. I don't know if it's just only me or he really just gives off that kind of aura. And his breath, whenever it touches the back of my neck, I just can't help but blush. I know I should be cautious whenever I'm with him, but situations like this makes me question my own sanity.
I was lost with my thoughts and noticed that the surroundings around me is slowly fading to black. Without even realizing it, I already fallen asleep.
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