Warning very heavy mentions of suicide and drug use, please read with caution
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You got up from the ground and kept your hands where Stanley could see.
"W-why are you doing this" your voice cracked and you felt your knees weaken under the stress you were feeling
"Get down!" Stanley grabbed Spencer's shoulder and shoved him to his knees, he was standing behind Spencer holding the gun to his head "I was supposed to get recognition for working with the FBI but now imagine the recognition I'd get for killing 2 federal agents, that were married! What a tragic love story" he laughed
Your body shivered and you felt goosebumps rise in the back of your neck, you were there again. Back in the same fucking room trapped. It was happening again and all your memories came flooding back.
"You don't have to do this, there are other ways" you pleaded
"No you don't have to do this" you tried to move closer but you couldn't
"That's what all of this is for" Spencer turned his head to the side "Fame"
"You're sick" your voice cracked "We can help"
"I know exactly what I am doing" he began to yell
"Imagine all the storylines of the detective that held 2 FBI agents hostage, isn't that enough" a tear fell from your face and your hands were shaking
"Y/n" Spencer called for you and you looked down "I love you"
"Spencer stop it" more tears fell down your face and you looked back up "Stanley come on you could get so much without killing us, I can make sure that every news outlet and every newspaper knows your name"
He walked over in front of Spencer and pointed the gun towards you, shaking "Do those words of encouragement really work for other people" he laughed
"Well aren't those some nice words of encouragement" he smiled
"Just hold on we can keep talking about what you want, you don't have to hurt us or him" you pleaded
"Cute but that doesn't get you or him out of this" he turned around to face Spencer and pointed the gun to Spencer's chest, he stepped to the side so you could see. So you could witness the most horrendous thing ever.
"But that still doesn't get you or her out of this" he raised the weapon above his head
"Y/n" Spencer's eyes were glassy and his pain shattered through you. His lip quivered and you could see him trying to stay strong for you
"Y/n" Claire's hope disappeared. You watched her eyes glisten with tears.
Stanley released the safety and pressed his finger on the trigger. Firing the shot. Twice "Wait!" you screamed out
"Wait" you screamed out. But it was too late
"No!" you shrieked and moved towards him but Stanley turned around and you fell to the ground when he fired at your shoulder. From the floor you watched him run out of the room and disappear into the hallway. All the pain you felt in your body was gone, you mustered up the strength to crawl your way back to Spencer
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"Y-Y/n" tears fell down the side of his face and you crawled to your knees to see him. Once you looked over his body you noticed he was bleeding, fast
"You've been shot"
"I'll be fine"
"This isn't going to end well" he breathed out
"Spencer you're going to be okay" you spit out trying to stop the bleeding with your hands
"No I'm not" he whispered
You quickly turned your head to look at him "Yes you are, you are not leaving me" you choked out and tried to hold pressure on the wound
"You're getting your ring bloody" he still tried to joke around
"I'll get it cleaned" You stifled a laugh, it gave you hope
"I'm pretty sure he hit a major artery near my heart and he also hit my liver" he began to ramble "No liver no Spencer" he choked out a broken laugh
"No stop it" you gasped
"Remember I'm a genius and I know things" he attempted to hold his hand out to you "I'm going to bleed out in minutes" he frowned and tears fell from his eyes
"You are not going to die" you reached over and rested your palms against his face, kissing him
"I love you Y/n" he smiled
"I love you too" your tears mixed with his "Stop saying stupid corny things, we are not finished, we just got started"
"In the short time we have been married you have made me feel things that I never thought I could feel" he swallowed the lump in his throat and struggled to keep his eyes open, his breathing was shallow "Every day I am so proud to be your husband"
"When I agreed to till death do us part I meant when we were old and wrinkly" you wiped away the tears from his eyes but realized you had wiped his own blood on his face "I never meant for it to happen in less than a month"
"You have been the greatest love of my life" he reached up and held on to your wrists, his eyes were half-lidded "I love you so fucking much Y/n"
"Spencer please" your voice cracked and your body shivered
"Thank you" he smiled, he smiled through the pain "Thank you for being my wife"
"Spencer I love you so much and you aren't going anywhere" you reached down and kissed him again, prolonging the kiss as much as you could "We have a baby waiting for us" you whispered "They are waiting for their new mom and dad to sign some papers and pick them up"
He smiled and squeezed your wrists as hard as he could, your palms still rested against his face "I love you"
The grip on your wrist loosened and his eyes wouldn't open again "Spencer?" you whispered
"Spencer" you shook his head a bit, you pressed your head against his chest and didn't feel anything "Don't leave me please"
"Why aren't you breathing?" you yelled out and buried your head into his chest, forgetting about the bullet in your shoulder "Why aren't you breathing!" you screamed
"This isn't funny, please please please I am begging you to just breath" you cried into his chest and held on to him for dear life "This isn't funny please"
"Just wake up baby please!" you cried "I swear to God if you don't wake up I will-" the words got caught in your throat "Please!" you begged
"Oh my god" it was Luke's voice
"Somebody help him!" you looked up and screamed at them but they didn't move, why couldn't they move, why couldn't they just do something
"Y/n we have to get you to help" Emily calmly walked over to you
"No help him!" you yelled at her "Help him please!"
"Y/n" she frowned
You looked back down and noticed that he was already turning pale. You leaned back down and buried your head into his chest and sobbed. After a couple of minutes of you not budging Tara came up behind you
"They have to take him to the hospital to call time of death" she rubbed your back "You need help too"
You didn't say a word, you sat up and just stared at her with puffy eyes and blood on your hands. You just stared at her until the world fell into darkness.
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You woke up to the sound of a machine beeping steadily. JJ was at your bedside, once she saw your eyes open she got up and called a nurse over.
"Where's Spencer" you croaked, your throat felt raw. You wanted it to be a dream, you so desperately needed this to be a dream
"I'm so sorry Y/n" her eyes were watery and she squeezed your hand "But we did get his killer"
A tear fell down your cheek and you watched a nurse walk in with a syringe. "Would you like anything for the pain?"
You looked up to the ceiling and felt a new pain, a pain you never thought you could experience "Yes please"
"Alright" she smiled and did whatever she was doing, you didn't care
Your best friend, your husband, the love of your life was dead. And there was no way of feeling better. Ever.
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"Are you still in a lot of pain?" the nurse grabbed the discharge papers out of your hand and pulled out a clipboard
"Yes" you frowned
"Well I will prescribe you with some meperidine, by the time the bottle is empty you shouldn't be feeling any pain" she smiled and wrote down a prescription
Meperidine you thought to yourself, also known as Demerol
"Thank you" you gave her a small smile, you felt like you were dying inside
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You were sitting on your kitchen counter with a bottle of vodka and a bottle of pills to your side. Also sitting in front of you was your marriage certificate. You stared at the paper that had both you and Spencer's signatures. Spencer Walter Reid and Y/n Y/m/n Y/l/n.
It had happened again. You were a failure. The person you loved died in front of your face and there was nothing you could do. You had no control and the unsub still gets to be alive. While you suffer. It should have been me, you thought to yourself
You emptied most of the contents of the bottle and shoved it into your hand and studied it. Life was nothing. There was no light at the end of the stupid tunnel. There is no happy ending. There's just nothing. And everything just comes back around. Everything just comes full circle. Like no time had passed.
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JJ knocked on Spencer and Y/n's door, well now just Y/n's door.
"You were right about being friends, I was stupid and should've seen the bigger picture" JJ shouted through the door "Open up I can't leave you in there alone"
She sighed and used the spare. She felt awful for treating Y/n like crap and now Y/n needed her more than ever. But it was too late. When JJ opened the door she could never unsee what she saw. Time was frozen and she couldn't move. Everything had imploded.
The End.
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There will be an epilogue coming up. I basically balled my eyes out while writing this. These were very heavy topics and it was even hard for me to read myself. These topics are to be taken seriously. <3
Btw thank you for the support, I love all of you <3
Also this ending was my plan since the beginning :(