Gerard lay on his bed with his eyes staring at a stain on the ceiling. He hadn't blinked in some time and only did so when a stray tear rolled down the side of his face, sliding down his neck and landing on the pillow. Now he had blinked, more tears fell from his sad eyes, and he couldn't stop them. Nor did he want to. He needed every drop to leave before Frank came by his cell.
He didn't want to cry in front of Frank today. He didn't want their last day together to be filled with sadness and sorrow. Even though he knew he would feel that way, he didn't want to project that onto Frank.
So he allowed himself to pour his sorrow out now; let his tears spill freely down his cheeks. He felt exhausted half an hour later when his eyes had finally run dry.
He got up and splashed water on his face. He didn't go to get breakfast that morning, instead staying in his cell to finish a drawing he had been working on for Frank. He also didn't want to risk getting upset in front of anyone - he was Gerard Way and he couldn't show any vulnerability whatsoever. The vultures would smell his weakness a mile off.
Adding the final touches to his artwork he heard a tiny tap against his wall. Looking up he saw his beautiful fiancé with a sad smile on his face.
"Why weren't you at breakfast?" he asked walking into Gerard's cell and sitting by him.
"Wasn't hungry" Gerard smiled back, opening his arms up to Frank.
Frank happily snuggled into him, feeling Gerard place a soft kiss on the top of his head.
"Are you ok?" Frank asked.
"Yeah" Gerard lied. "Bet you can't wait to get out of here huh?"
Frank simply looked up to his soulmate and felt tears threaten his eyes.
"I don't want to go Gee" Frank stated; his lip trembling. "I don't want to fucking leave you."
He pulled Gerard tighter to him and began to weep into his chest. It took everything in his power not to cry too, but Gerard was determined. He wanted to put a positive front on for Frank. This was supposed to be a good day for him, not a fucking shitty one.
"Hey! You listen to me!" he held Frank out at arms length. "You're gonna be fine. You're gonna go out there and start building a great fuckin' life for yourself."
"A life for us" Frank corrected instantly.
"Yeah" Gerard sighed quietly. "A life for us."
Gerard's biggest fear about Frank leaving was that he would move on without him. That he would be snapped up by someone worthy of him and forget about Gerard, realising that he was nothing special. He was afraid that once outside, Frank would come to his senses and see that Gerard would only hold him back. He wished he was a better person and actually want that for his boyfriend, because he really did deserve better, and he should have someone who could give him a better life. But he was selfish, and he wanted Frank for himself. He wanted them to be together even if it wasn't the future Frank deserved. He imagined a perfect life with the man he'd asked to marry him, picturing them living in a normal world, with a job and a dog and each other. But he wasn't stupid - he knew he was unlikely to be given much of a chance because of his violent criminal record. At least Frank had a job ready and waiting for him. Ray had got him fixed up at the record store where he worked, which would suit Frank perfectly.
"I mean it Gee" Frank pulled him from his thoughts. "I'll work every hour I can to get us a place to call home. I'll have it nice for you."
God. He was so cute and adorable and thoughtful, and any other word that meant basically 'perfect', and Gerard couldn't help but lean towards him and slowly kiss him.
He kissed him carefully, wanting to remember the feel of his soft lips. Needing this kiss to be etched into his memory forever.
"I love you Gee" Frank whispered as they pulled apart. He looked deep into Gerard's eyes as he said it, hoping he truly felt all the love he had for him. Then he stroked his face and kissed him once again.
Gerard closed his eyes to contain any stray tears. "I love you too."
Frank pulled Gerard towards the bed, knowing this would be the last time they would be together until Gerard came back to him. He lay his lover down and slowly climbed on top of him. He pushed Gerard's shirt up and stroked his hands over his skin, enjoying the feel of goosebumps that rose to the surface. He caressed his torso, taking in every blemish and freckle. Then he leaned down and carefully kissed along Gerard's scar. It was fully healed now but still a little red and raised. Frank often kissed it, as though to kiss him better, and it had become somewhat of a sweet spot for Gerard. He closed his eyes and surrendered to the feel of Frank's soft lips. He threaded his fingers through his messy brown tresses and slowly traced them down his back, dragging his t-shirt up as he reached the hem. Frank sat upright and pulled it over his head before dropping back down to kiss Gerard.
Frank was rolled over so he was on the bed, and Gerard began his descent to his pants. Gently pulling them down, he kissed up along Frank's indented 'V', down over his hips and finally to his eager erection. Sweeping along the underside, he savoured every inch of his boyfriend's manhood. God, he didn't want to ever forget his taste and how he filled his mouth perfectly. He slipped his lips over the head and excruciatingly slowly lowered himself down. Frank clutched at the bed below him as Gerard sank down.
He looked at the red vision between his legs and almost broke down. How would he cope on his own? How could he leave Gerard in here? He should've been in ecstasy right now, with Gerard pleasuring him in all the right ways, but he just wanted to cry. As Gerard looked up, he saw the sadness in the eyes that met his own, and lifted his hand up to hold Frank's. It was such a simple gesture but it meant so much to both of them as their fingers entwined together, never wanting to let go.
Gerard continued to bring Frank closer to his undoing before slowing down and slipping off him. Frank sat up and pushed Gerard's legs wide before pushing two greased up fingers into him. He licked over his firm nipples as his digits worked their way deeper. Gerard rolled his head back allowing Frank to change his position and dive right in to mark him up. He sucked harshly yet tenderly at Gerard's neck as he continued to sink his fingers deep within him, stretching him wide at a gentle pace. Gerard moaned loudly as he pressed down onto Frank's fingers.
Laying him back, Frank slowly eased himself inside of Gerard.
It was just taken as given that Frank topped Gee. He didn't mind, but in all honesty, he would have loved to have experienced Frank intimately the other way around too. He never asked though, knowing Frank had endured being used in here and probably needed some form of control of his own. Still, Gerard would sometimes fantasise about how it would feel to be inside of Frank. To love him in in that way. But he would never ask. Never want to make Frank feel obliged or uncomfortable. So he would happily allow Frank to take him instead.
Frank pushed all the way in and moved at a slow and easy pace. He and Gerard gazed at each other as they moved in sync. It was true lovemaking- not fucking or screwing, but a real show of love towards each other.
Frank dipped his head and kissed Gerard sloppily, earning moans from Gerard to spill inside his mouth. He was still moving slowly and his hands thrummed through Gerard's hair at the same speed. Slightly picking up their rhythm, Gerard reached down to stroke his aching cock. Normally Frank wouldn't allow this, insisting he be the one to get Gerard off, but he was so caught in the feel of the kiss that he didn't notice.
Both climbing higher towards their orgasms, Gerard jerked faster and faster, crying out as he came between their bodies. Frank followed soon after, pouring out deep within Gerard.
They both pulled apart slightly, knowing their time was coming to an end and simply stared at each other. Their eyes conveyed exactly how they felt. The bond that connected them and the absolute mutual love they shared. It was a bitter sweet moment.
Usually, they would dress immediately, but today Gerard pulled Frank into his arms, not caring about their sticky bodies. He tugged the blankets up around them and held Frank as close as was humanly possible.
They lay silently in each other's arms for some time, both breathing heavily and clinging on to one another, before Bob appeared at the entrance.
"Hey Frank! You got ten minutes ok?" he smiled at his little friend.
Frank nodded silently and Bob walked away.
"Gerard?" Frank looked up solemnly.
"I know Frank" Gerard kissed him on the temple. "I know."
Neither wanted to say goodbye, and Frank asked Gerard not to come and see him out. He didn't want to have to see his face as he walked away for the final time. Gerard agreed and they kissed one last time before Frank reluctantly left.
As tears rolled down Frank's cheeks, matching tears rolled down Gerard's. An ache in both of their hearts more painful than they could have ever imagined.
"Goodbye Frank" he whispered to nobody. "Please don't forget me!"