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There's a darkness in me and I know it
That's why I want her away from me..
b-but...
I can't...
I can't take a single day without her..
she's been my everyday..
I'm going to be honest..
why I had her as mine
She seemed different with me..
she's unique
we usually understand each other
she appreciates the things I do
But we didn't talk much..
I used to not have feelings for her..
But then..
one night came..
The perfect night for the two of us..
I felt something I never expected to feel from her..
I'm not sure what that feeling was but..
That's the reason why it's so beautiful,
I can't explain it..
[Casa de Kim y Valencianna]
Valencianna: I just wanna eat manggo!
Kim: Hehe..
let's go on a date.
with mango
Valencianna: mamayang gabi na yung date
Gusto ko maggang hilaw
pwease..
Kim: yes..
we'll go out..
Valencianna: You go buy!
I don't feel like doing anything now bae..
Kim: oh yeah..
I guess I'll go now..
I stood up from sitting on the couch
but then she also stood up from the couch then ran to the comfort room
Kim: huh? bae..
I was confused and curious so I walked to the comfort room's door and asked her if she's okay
but she replied
Valencianna: U-uhmmm... yes!
Kim: uhhh you want anything else other than buying you a mango?..
She then got out of the comfort room and told me
Valencianna: I don't think so, but can you also buy PT?
..
Kim: uhh.. you're..
she's pregnant?
Kim: I-I would..
It was confirmed that she was pregnant from the Pregnancy Test
[Somewhere in roleplay dimension]
San: She's pregnant what!?
Kim: yes!
I said smilling..
San: that's fast..
Kim: huh? why?
San: y-you really did the thing already?
Kim: uhhh yess?...
San: oh...
even Lea and I haven't done it yet after all these years..
you were supposed to be married first..
Kim: oh sorry..
San: but it happened..
*/sigh..
tho that's a blessing..
I would just like to congratulate you for now..
..
when did you first find out?
Kim: just today..
San: are you sure you're it's---
father?
Kim: huh?
yes of course
San: you should marry her.
ugh..
*/sighs
He stared at me for a few seconds
Kim: hm?..
sorry.. maybe it's just different here in roleplay..
San: hmm...
Kim: so you've located Lucifer and Kye?
San: we can't
with Lucifer's magic..
it's a very hard work..
after all these centuries
he did earn alot..
Kim: and lost alot..
Mathew: Kye will be safe..
Kim: huh?
Mathew: what we'll have to keep focus for now is Kim's
you don't wanna die right?
-Said by Mathew while looking at me with a straight face
I was confused about what Mathew just said
Kim: huh?
I looked at San and he looked confused too
Mathew: hehe
let time pass..
San: uhh...
you mentioned dying?..
Mathew: oh yeah..
Kim:It-
Mathew: It's about Kim...
Kim: uh...
Mathew: I didn't have to say this but..
just like me..
he'll die..
...
Kim: wh-what do you mean?..
Mathew: I just wanna laugh at it..
it only just begun..
nothing's ending here..
San: is this why you've been acting weird these past few days?...
Mathew: hehe..
Mathew just walked away and didn't say anything..
Kim: well that was weird..
San: he said something about you dying..
Kim: I'm already dead..
San: but you're reborn..
huh..
speaking of reborn..
it must've told Mathew about something..
Kim: something?
San: it's like I should believe Mathew...
We then just stared at Mathew walking away..
-A few hours later-
-Somewhere in roleplay dimension-
Here I am now..
sitting on a bench..
looking at the sky..
it's not really the real sky..
it's in the roleplay dimension
but It still looked realistic..
and it's night
I've thought alot about it..
if I die..
where will I go next?..
the last time I died was a few centuries ago
my name was Khan..
then I got to Heaven,
but instead of going to the next life
I became an angel because I was chosen..
to this..
I can't die a meaningless death..
I looked at the side and stared in the darkness..
it made me imagine things quicker..
I remembered Mathew's death..
He had a meaningful death..
He died for his love and for his world..
Kye was corrupted by evil and anger...
His death was not a waste..
When Kye saw him dead that time..
she laughed and cried at the same time..
I know it affected her..
I can read it on her face..
she regretted it..
Mathew really did it for her.. with love..
*/sigh
when will I be better?..
I've thought of doing it but..
it never really happened..
I can do it, but how?..
I started with her and with no feelings for her..
that night told me something..
..
but I hate it..
I just wish on dying and being reborn into someone better..
someone better...
,
-days later-
-on bench de Kim y Valencianna-
Valencianna: Yeah alright
So yeah uwi na tayo baka malamigan si baby.
Kim: hehe sige..
I offered my hand for her and said-
Kim: my love
she then took it and slowly stood up
I then continued holding her hand..
Kim: are you okay?
Valencianna: I'm more than okay..
I then chuckled and so we started walking..
-a few seconds later-
we were just walking
Kim: hey..
Valencianna: hmm?..
I then patted at my shoulder
Valencianna: Hmm?
What am I gonna do with it?
Kim: hehe I'm not sure massage it, kiss it or maybe lean on it?
She then thought for a second and leaned on my shoulder while we're walking
Valencianna: I love this bae
I then smiled and Imagined her cute face so I looked at her face
it was near mine and I just can't afford but to like the moment..
she then realized I was looking at her face so she looked at me
Kim: you do know that everypeople actually has a different feeling
when they touch other people depends on how they feel about that person right?
now as I touch her , I feel her sweetness and love mixed with the calm environment...
Valencianna: Of course
Kim: yeah I just got that information from my observation
Valencianna: What kind of feeling did you feel about me?
I mean can you explain it to me?
I was shocked by her question..
I don't know what love is..
love is spiritual
you can't really explain it..
but maybe I can explain the feeling?..
I'm not sure if what love really is but..
Kim: hmmm I think I can explain but I'm not sure if it's really accurate or full detail..
not full detail?..
Valencianna: just tell me..
Kim: hmm..
I feel..
what is love?
happy?
I feel happy with her..
focused?
Everytime I'm with her, I just forget the world and just stay focused to her
she's my everyday now
and important..
she makes me feel important even if how a disaster I am
I kept on giving her problems..
Valencianna: because of me?..
oh.. it was more like explaining my feelings with her..
Kim: My heart beats faster for you every time bae..
Valencianna: Have you ever felt that way before?
Like in with past girlfriends?..
oh I still don't know love..
how do I explain it?..
but the feeling I've had for her..
hmm..
past girlfriends?
I forgot my feelings for my first girlfriend in roleplay..
MinJi..
hmmm....
I really forgot..
move on to the second one..
Dara..
uhmm..
I just felt.. uhmm... happy I guess?...
was it happy? it didn't really last long..
maybe I didn't have a feeling for Dara?
I don't know.. I forgot.. that was years ago..
move on to the third
Sooya
hmmm...
Sooya was okay..
I felt warm and comfortable..
but her being fake.. nahh...
move on to the fourth one
Daisy..
wasn't serious on me..
she left me
I just felt happy I guess like Dara..
move on to the fifth one..
oh don't you dare judge me for having many girlfriends..
ahh so...
uhm..
it was Cassandra Smith..
was my bestfriend
I felt comfortable but she was kinda irritating sometimes
well it's fine for me.. it doesn't matter but..
she broke up with me..
she had a feeling for a different person so yeah...
but I wasn't really affected much by her
but I do still treat her as a bestfriend these days..
I don't really call her bestfriend anymore since we're not that close now so yeah..
move on to the sixth one..
Hailey..
uhmmm..
I formed a heart but I broke it..
I meant to broke it and burn it to ashes and hide it to the dark and ... hmph...
speaking of love ..
I didn't really know if I can define it..
not until I met her...
hehe
my love..
Valencianna..
I doubted at myself..
that maybe I didn't love her..
but I remembered the purpose..
I started with her with no feelings but a tie..
I felt like I needed to leave her as early as I could cause maybe I'll get to hurt her..
I care..
I've been hating myself all these times without knowing..
I'm already really falling inlove with her...
now .. I can say..
my love for her is..
Ethereal..