A/N: I would like to clarify that in this story you are 20 years old. Enjoy :)
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Laying in my bed, staring straight up at the ceiling, I let the tears roll down my cheeks. I'd lost count of how many times this had happened, but here we are once again. I turned to my side and looked at my bedside table, which had a tiny plastic ring on it, and I cried more.
Five years ago
I ran around the park with Harry having the time of my life when suddenly I fell and scraped my knee. I started crying so much and he sprinted over to me and hugged me, and put a plaster on it.
H: "Does that feel better?"
Y/N: Yes. Thank you, Harry, you're the best." I smiled widely.
He grinned, showing the dimples indented into his little cheeks, and then kissed me on the cheek. He held my hand and ran over to a tree, with me very close behind.
Y/N: "Our parents are going to wonder where we are..." I whispered.
H: "Shh, that doesn't matter right now." He groaned.
I nodded my head.
H: "You know how we've been the bestest friends forever now?"
Y/N: "Yeah...?"
H: "Well I was wondering if now we should get married!" He said excitedly.
He then pulled out a plastic ring from his pocket, and I giggled.
Y/N: "That's perfect!" I grinned.
I took the ring from him and put it on my finger.
H: "Now we are married forever." He said proudly.
He closed his eyes and puckered up his lips and leaned his head right forward towards me, when suddenly:
A: "Harry, sweetheart, time to head home!" His mum called.
He huffed, crossed his arms and stomped his foot whilst frowning.
H: "Ugh, I have to go." He sighed.
Y/N: "It's okay, we can see each other tomorrow." I grinned.
H: "Yeah! Bye Y/N, I love you!" He called and ran away.
I giggled and ran back off to my mum.
Present Time
Oh, how I wish we were still like that. It breaks my heart knowing that Harry is somewhere right now in the world having the time of his life. Ever since he left for X Factor, he's been completely different: at the beginning, he was great, but he started getting more famous and was busier and therefore wasn't spending as much time with me as we used to. It got to the point where we could spend no time together, and he would barely text: he had forgotten me.
It was hard to come to terms with things, but I did it. I was also the one who called him and ended things, but only because I couldn't go on any longer. He was a bit cold to me and didn't seem to care, almost like he wanted it. I should've known that fame would take over. How could I be so stupid?
I looked around at the walls and looked at the photos of us. We were so happy. What did I do wrong? What did he do wrong? What did we do wrong? He's moved on now, and he's made new friends and probably found girls that are so much better than me; I feel so insecure right now. Right now would be a perfect time to be in his arms and have him whispering in my ear that everything will be okay. Yesterday I decided to take off the cross necklace that he gave me a while back; I've never taken it off before, only when I shower, and I keep it with me at all times.
Three years ago
Harry had managed to get some time off so that we could spend some time together and so that he could see family and other friends. He'd just turned 18, and I felt young now, considering I'm still 18.
H: "Hey, love, come here." Harry called from the living room.
I left the kitchen and went over to him, sitting down beside him.
Y/N: "What's up?" I asked and looked at him.
H: "Okay, so...As you know, I'm going on tour again soon..."
I nodded my head slightly: he knew I didn't like it when he went on tour, because I couldn't go with him and it meant spending very little time together.
H: "I know you don't like it when I go on tour, so I've decided that this time, I'm going to try and spend a lot more time with you. Whenever I have free time, I will try and spend time with you." He smiled.
Y/N: "Thank you, Harry." I smiled back.
H: "I also want to give you my necklace. I know it's nothing much, but it's something that I always keep with me and brings me luck. I want you to have it because it means a lot to me, and I know that if it means a lot to me then it will mean a lot to you."
He then took off the necklace and carefully placed it in my hands.
Y/N: "Harry, are you sure?"
H: "I'm more than sure. I know nothing will happen between us, but you can have this as a constant reminder that I'm always here and close to your heart."
I hugged him tightly. I was speechless.
Y/N: "I have no words. Thank you so much, I love you so much."
H: "I love you too. I want you to know that I won't let anything happen between us, you're too special to let go of." He whispered.
Present Time
Liar. It was all bullshit. All of it. He did let me go, and he didn't even try to fix things. He just let it happen. That's why I took off his necklace: it reminded me so much of him, and the reason why he gave it to me meant nothing to me now. It was so ridiculous.
I groaned and stared at the ceiling. I never thought I'd say this, but I need some fresh air. I got up out of bed and made myself look a bit presentable, and then left my house and wandered around the area. I decided to head to a park nearby, which is the one Harry and I used to go to. I let the gentle breeze brush through my hair, and just let my feet take me wherever.
Suddenly, when I looked up from the ground, I saw a familiar figure in the distance. I squinted my eyes a bi,t and they were fairly tall with long, and kind of curly, hair. I tried my best to work out who it was, but when the figure turned around, and I saw the emerald green eyes shining in the sun and his wide smile with dimples, I knew who it was: Harry Styles.
My heart started beating at a rate it probably shouldn't be beating at, and my mind was all over the place. I was completely numb right now and found myself staring at him in shock. Ironically, he looked at me, and we made direct eye contact, and he froze in his position as his face fell. I couldn't read his face, meaning I couldn't get any sort of idea of how he was feeling. I kept telling myself to walk away, but my feet went from carrying me to wherever to not moving at all.
Suddenly, he started moving towards me and I began to panic more. It felt like it took forever for him to get to me, and it felt like we were the only two people on the planet. Eventually, he was stood in front of me and he was looking down on me, clearly examining me.
H: "Y/N?" He asked, even though he knew it was me.
Y/N: "Um... y-yeah..." I mumbled.
H: "It's been quite a long time." He chuckled.
Does he think this is funny? I looked up at him and scowled.
Y/N: "So this is funny to you? You know what Harry, it has been so long since you've spoken to me. I was beginning to think that you'd forgotten that I existed and that I am a human too. You just never had time for me anymore and constantly pushed me away, hence why I ended things between us because it was ridiculous!" I ranted.
I took a deep breath and bit my lip, trying to hold back my tears. His face had fallen again, and I could see the sadness on his face. He looked down, stopping at my chest, and looked back up at me.
H: "The necklace is gone..." He said quietly.
Y/N: "I know."
H: "You took it off?" He asked, and he seemed quite hurt.
I sighed and nodded my head.
Y/N: "Yes, as a matter of fact, I did. There was no point in me wearing something that was given to me as a meaningful thing, but then turned out to be bullshit."
He stared at me in shock, and I could see some tears in his eyes.
H: "Y/N I'm so sorry." He sighed.
Y/N: "Really? And what are you sorry for?" I asked.
H: "Well, you know..."
Y/N: "If you can't be a fucking man and own up to the shit that you've done, then I'm going to walk away." I said sternly.
H: "Okay fine. I'm sorry for breaking your heart: I'm sorry for barley speaking to you at all, I'm sorry for barley spending any time with you, I'm sorry for being such a shit boyfriend-"
Y/N: "Ex. Ex-boyfriend."
H: "Right, yeah... Y/N, my job has been so hectic. I've been under so much pressure from management, and I didn't want to disappoint the fans, and neither did the other guys. We've been trying our hardest, and I wanted to speak to you so many times, but I couldn't." He sighed.
Y/N: "Why didn't you talk to me?"
H: "Because I had no time! I was also so busy, and I would've preferred to talk to you in person and talk things through."
Y/N: "Harry, you've completely broken me. I have barely been doing anything because I don't have the motivation to do so. I've hated it."
H: "I am so sorry. I don't expect your full forgiveness, but please just at least try and understand where I'm coming from. I came here to try and visit you, but I've been walking around this park for an hour trying to build up the courage to do so." He smiled a bit.
I crossed my arms and frowned.
Y/N: "Why? Because you knew that I would be really upset, hurt and angry when I saw you?" I scoffed.
H: "Well yeah, but also the fact that I do love you. I know it doesn't seem like it, but I promise you that I do. It's been hard trying to gather my thoughts together and figure my shit out and figure out what I'm going to say to you." He sighed.
I thought about what he'd said, and we stood in silence for a few seconds.
Y/N: "I'm just now sure if I can ever recover from this." I sighed.
Harry slowly nodded his head.
H: "I get it. I want you to know that I still love you, and I'll never stop. Please can we try again?"
He looked at me in a pleading way.
Y/N: "I don't know if I can. I love you, Harry, it's hard not to, but a heartbreak like that can damage someone badly. I want to forgive you, but I don't think I can."
He nodded his head and was about to speak when suddenly I heard a voice in the distance, and they started getting more clear. Harry frowned and turned around, and I saw Louis, Niall and Liam approaching us.
Y/N: "What the hell?" I asked.
H: "Shit."
Louis: "Hey love birds! Have you kissed and made up and are getting married now?" He grinned.
I was extremely confused.
Y/N: "Excuse me?"
Louis: "Has he proposed?" He asked.
Y/N: "Proposed?! Why the hell would he propose?" I asked in disbelief.
Louis: "Oh..."
Harry glared at Louis and he went back off to the others quickly.
Y/N: "What was he talking about?"
H: "Nothing..." He lied.
Y/N: "I know when you're lying." I said and rolled my eyes.
H: "Okay fine. I bought a ring and I was going to propose to you."
Y/N: "Harry! What the fuck?! I broke up with you ages ago and we've been on shit terms and you come back and finally speak to me and wanna get married? Are you insane?!" I almost yelled.
H: "I'm sorry, okay?! I just thought it would be something nice and could get us back on track, you know?"
Y/N: "By proposing?! So what, you just thought I'd completely forget about how heartbroken I am everything will be fixed with some little ring?!"
I was starting to lose my shit. What kind of idea was that?
H: "Okay, I'm sorry I will admit that it was a little far fetched, but it was the ring you said you would like. It was the one you said you'd like as an engagement ring." He said quietly.
I can't believe he remembers that.
Y/N: "I can't believe you can remember that."
H: "I remember everything about you. When I say everything, I mean everything." He said softly.
Damn, I wonder if he can read minds or some shit.
H: "And no, I can't read minds."
Well-
YN: "That's super sweet of you, Harry, but marriage is extreme." I sighed.
H: "Yeah, you're right, I'm sorry..."
We stood in silence again until I decided to speak up.
Y/N: "Look, how about we spend some time together and start from the beginning? We can sort things out, maybe and talk more."
H: "Really?" He asked, excitedly.
Y/N: "As much as I hate you, I also love you, and I can't get enough of you. You mean the world to me, and I'm addicted to you." I smiled a bit.
H: "I feel the same. I promise you that I won't hurt you ever again, and I'm going to make sure of that. I'm here for you now no matter what. I'm going to experience the rest of my life with you." He grinned widely.
He always acts like a child.
Y/n: "Let's not get ahead of ourselves. I still haven't fully forgiven you."
H: "Oh yeah, you're right..."
Y/N: "I need to head back home. I guess I'll see you later." I smiled.
H: "Oh, yeah, of course. I'll see you later."
I hugged him and walked away back home. Maybe I was letting my guard down too easily for that man, but there was just something about him. To be honest, I can tell he doesn't want any other girls. If he breaks my heart again, then I'll beat him up. This time we will hopefully be bigger, better and stronger.
A/N: hey guys, gals and non-binary pals :) I just want to say I'm sorry for not updating as regularly. I have been having a bit of writer's block, and when I have an idea it's at a time I can't write it and then I lose motivation. anyway, I hope you're all doing good. Stay safe, drink water and tpwk <3