Chapter 36
Red Montereal
''Felixx, please!'' Maggie begged as we walk outside the bar.
Patuloy sya sa pagsunod sakin hanggang sa makalabas kami. I walked towards the side walk where my car parked.
''Felixx naman eh! Just give me an hour.'' She added desperately, mabilis syang naglakad at tumigil sa harapan ko. ''Please.'' She pleaded.
''No.'' I declared with a period, facing her.
She stumped her feet like a trantrum kid, ''Felixx naman eh! Minsan lang naman to!'' She's reaching her temper as well as mine.
''Tss, as if your parents knows about it.'' I commented irritatedly shaking my head with disappointment.
''Because they won't allow me!'' She almost cried.
''That's it. That's why I should not tolerate you.''
''Kung makapagsalita ka naman parang di mo to naexperience nong college ka.'' She crossed her arms facing other side, pouting.
''Stop comparing us.'' I retorted annoyingly.
''Kuya! Uuwi din ako agad, and besides it's Zoey's birthday. I won't drink any alcoholic drinks too. You see naman diba, I am just having an 'ice tea' inside the bar.'' She explained mockingly, trying to convince me, keeps on tugging my tshirt.
This brat! Earlier she's just calling me Felixx! What a brat!
Maggie was my cousin from my Mother's younger brother. She's just 17 for Gods sake and partying in the bar at late night! For sure her parents doesn't know that she's at the bar at this very moment. Thus, I can't let her stay here without her parents permission.
''No! Go home!'' I said in a period. ''No more buts Maggie. I'll send you home.'' I added with my period as she attempted to speak again.
''Kuya naman eh. Napakakj mo naman!'' she almost cried with frustration.
She can't change my mind. There are alot of jerk in the bar, mostly at this late hour.
I glared at her and rolled my eyes, facing other direction with irritation, the conversation is making me sick!
My eyes unconsciously landed directly to someone. A stunning appearance that automatically made me froze.
My brows knitted subconsciously, at napatitig sa babaeng naglalakad papalapit sa kinatatayuan ko.
''B-Brina?'' I muttered surprisingly silently, throwing a censorious stare to check if its really her. I even thought that the little alcohol I had earlier is just giving me wild hallucination.
Subconsciously, I am staring at her angelic and innocent face, I know it's not impossible to see her around but what's making my arch brow is seeing her outside at this hour.
In a swift moment, there, I confirmed, it's her. Of course, I will definitely know.
In a surface, her angelic and innocent face stands out, but wearing a frown face, that looks pissed and annoyed, I can tell.
My gazed followed her until she went inside the convienient store na malapit lang sa kinatatayuan ko.
What is she doing at the convenient store at this hour?
I can't stop to grit my teeth as I witness how the teenage boy group inside drop a jaw by her presence. They followed her every move since she opened the front door until she reached the fridge. Irritation immediately built up in me. I am so wanted to rip those hanging mouth! I ball my fist to control the ignation.
''Kuya? Is there something wrong?'' Maggie asked with confusion as she tugged my shirt deliberately that made me back to my senses.
''Get your bag. I'll send you home. Now!'' I declared. She looks surprised as she saw my dark face.
However, she immediately oblique despite of her confusion, I followed her as she walks inside the bar. She went straight to the table where her friends was, as she speak and get her bag they intentionally look to my direction.
I rolls my eyes with visible impatience. Ang tagal naman ng batang yon! I am so itchy to go out.
''Hey Felixx! What are you doing there. Hero is looking for you.'' Hunter said as he saw me in the island counter, a blonde girl was clung at his arm.
I roll my eyes on him boredly, isn't this jerk get tried to bang different woman every night? Tss
''Just tell him that I went home. I have something to do.'' I said boredly.
He look at his wrist watch, ''At this hour?'' He asked mockingly with a smirk. I just ignore his malacious look, that made him shrugged playfully before leaving and went to the vip private room where Hero reserved for his party.
That jerk! Wag nya ako itulad sakanya.
Hero is celebrating his birthday tonight, he is my friend way back college days, we met through families and business, we have different Universities and I seldom hang out with them since I am busy in my life back then. In my complicated college life.
We have small group, including Hunter and Hero Garcia, they are brothers, Callix Agustin, Alex Gutierez, and Gego Chan. And all of them are bachelor, excluding me. Married early and annuled. And I don't care.
Maybe it just happened that I found my other half earlier than these bastard however separated early.
Gego is getting married, and I guess he will going to have a nice and fair married life since he will going to marry her childhood sweetheart. I guess 19years of being together is long enough for them to know each other well. Enough time to convince theirselves and ended up deciding to be together for the rest of their lives.
What a fairy tale-like life. Tsh
Childhood sweetheart. Unknowingly, that squeeze my heart. Tsh unknowingly?
All of the sudden, I fall in daze.
What if Brina did not use me,
what if I did not fall for her,
what if I did not forced the fate to get her pregnant deliberately and forced Brina to marry me,
will she going to end up with Lucas? Will she possibly be happy and grateful to be married with him? Does she will possibly enjoying that fairy tale-like married life?
Heavy sigh came out. Why not? For sure she will end up with Lucas. Not mentioning if she used me or not, Lucas always choose to be beside her. Even to the extent that I got her pregnant, he desperately choose to stay with her and foolishly accepted my child.
But I am not that crazy enough to let the latter.
Siguro if I did not went low to beg and plead him to let go or should I say, pushed Brina away , for sure he will definitely and accept Brina fully sa kabila ng kanyang nagawang kasalanan.
And I am certain about that. I saw how great and exquisite his love for her.
If I am the one who's in his shoe that time, I will bravely and undoubt to turn my back to her immediately. Hindi ko ibababa ang sarili ko para sa taong nagtaksil saakin regarding what ever her reason was.
Cheating is always a choice anyway.
And that makes me and Lucas different.
Siguro nga, if she ended up marrying him back then, she will definitely happy and beyond grateful today.
Definitely way too far from where and what she is today. Separated early.
Maybe she's right. Our love after marriage don't have strong foundation that's why we easily collapse when problem came.
We aren't strong enough to face it together, and choose to turn our back instead.
On that part, I know I have the big responsibility. Losing our child is the initial reason kung bakit kami nasira, kung bakit nagkalamat ang relasyon naming matagal kong pinaghirapang makuha at mabuo. And turning my back to her at that hardest times of our lives ang mas lalong nagsira at nagtapos ng aming pagsasama.
And that hits my chest.
Can you blame me?
Para na rin akong namatay ng mawala ang aming anak, at dahil yon sa kapabayaan nya.
I let out a deep sigh and composed myself as I saw Maggie coming.
''Is it really that hard to take a leave?!'' I asked irritatedly. That sudden thought seriously make me in rage. Not knowing exactly for who.
Agad akong naglakad palabas ng bar and I can feel that she is mimicking me with my annoyed face. Tsh This brat!
''Wait here. I'll book a cab for you.'' I announced as we finally clear from the bars loud music.
''I thought you're going to drive me home?'' She wondered.
''I have something to do.'' I just said and open the grab app on my phone to book immediately.
''Is that so? Then you don't need to book for me. Ako na bahala Kuya. You can go.'' She said bubbly trying to push me away.
''Tsh. I don't trust you.'' I answered seriously without looking at her as I book a cab for her.
''Wow. Such a heartless!'' She scrunched up her nose crossing her arms.
For sure, she will go back inside if I let her. I know her.
Nakaramdam ako ng pagkainip ng makita ko na dalawang minuto pa bago makarating ang pinakamalapit na cab.
I keep on glancing to the convenient store na di kalayuan sa kinatatayuan namin ni Maggie. I am so itchy to go inside but I can't leave Maggie here.
I tsked. 1 more minute before the cab will arrive.
''What's bothering you Felixx?'' Maggie asked frowning, she's also looking to my eyes direction.
''What's in the store?'' She added confusedly. Gusto kong pagalitan ang sarili ko. My impatience can't be hide to her curiosity.
A horn from the car that just park on our front divert our attention.
''Get in.'' I opens the door quickly.
Maggie stumped her feet as she hopped inside the cab. Her brows are knitting but I don't have a time to comprehend the brat.
''Take her home safely. Don't dare to touch her even the strands of her hair. Or else, I'll kill you.'' I leaned on the back seat door to see the middle aged man driver, giving him a serious warning.
''Kuya!'' Maggie stops me.
''Call me as you arrived home.'' I demanded and closed the door immediately.
I am not comfortable to let her ride a cab at this hour but I have no choice. I am so desperate to look for Brina.
I walked briskily to the store as I closed the car's door, Maggie looks confused but choose to stay still until the car left. I quickly glance around as I reached the establishment to check for her but she left with no trace.
And ended leaving the place calling my lawyer. Earlier, I heard the group of boys talking about a picture they've taken about someone and found out that it was Brina.
I was about to leave when the same group of boys gets my attention.
It's making my blood boiled to see and reminise how these bastards hang their jaw as admiration to Brina.
''Napicturan mo ba Dude?'' I heard the guy with a varsity jacket asked to the other guy.
''Oo Pare. Grabe! Tignan mo. Ang ganda nya and shit! sexy pa!'' The other guy exclaimed exagerratedly and face his phone to his friends.
''Oh shit! Sarap!'' Sabi naman ng isa nilang kasama. Nanginig nginig pa ito ng titigan ang nasa screen ng kaibigan.
''Whooah!'' They all reacted fantasizing someone in the screen.
Instictively, my blood boiled higher as I see how bold and nasty their reaction was. Subconsciously, my feet dragged me to their table and immediately snatched the fvcking phone they are feasting.
''Hey! What the!'' The owner of the phone reacted surprisingly. Their eyes automatically followed the phone as I get it.
''Wow. She's seriously fvcking sexy. No wonder you are all drooling.'' I reacted dreamingly as I look at the picture.
There, the picture is on its zoom and focus to the subject. Medyo nakatagilid ang babae unintentionally facing these bastards direction and with her unbutton cardigan, a small part of her cleavage is exposed behind her silk top.
''That's my phone! Who the fvck are you?! Get your own picture!'' The owner said angrily and stood up to get his phone that I am holding. I lifted it immdiately. Surprised is visible as he found how big our height difference was.
The top of his hair is just reaching my shoulder.
I lowered down my gaze glumly,
''G-Give me back my phone.'' He said stuttering.
I am glad that aside from the one cashier and one guard, we are the only one inside. The guard did not allow some customer to enter as he found the commotion.
''This?'' I asked mockingly waving the phone in his face. Without any hint, I drop it to the cup in the table. It's an instant noodles in a big cup, big enough to soak his fvcking phone. The steam from the cup shows that its still hot.
''What the.'' They reacted astonishly.
''W-What's your problem! It's bullying!'' His friend back up.
''Bullying?'' I sneered almost laughing. ''Then what can I call you? Harrasing and taking picture of someone without her permission?'' I pretended thinking. ''Now, I am thinking what kind of criminal case I'll sue you.'' I nod mockingly. ''9995 or 7877? Or both?'' I added calmly controlling my temper.
''W-What are you talking about?'' The jerk with the varsity jacket asked foolishly.
I am amused with this young bastards to have the guts to interfere with me.
''You look like on your 20's. So I guess the jail will definitely welcome you.'' I declared. ''I feel pity for you parents, all you know to do is to waste their hard erned money and jerk around.'' I grit my teeth surpressing my rage.
''W-What are you saying? And t-the hell you care?'' the owner of the phone asked.
The side of my lips twitched. These assholes don't know who they are dealing with. And I am quite amaze. Tsh They doesn't know the danger they are facing.
They startled as I slamed my both hands to their table that made it almost collapse. ''The hell I care?'' I retorted scanning them with my murderous glare that made them tremble.
''You assholes, you are talking about my wife!'' I hold him in his collar. By our big height difference he almost tiptoe para mahabol ang pagkakaangat ko sakanya.
They all look surprised and frightened about my words.
''Stay here and wait for my lawyer!'' I declared murderously, and pushed him that made him fall on the floor. He is almost panting trying to catch his breath.
''You!'' I called the guard's attention na kanina pa nakatingin lang samin. I am certain that the staff know me, I've been here for several times with their boss, which is Calix. ''Make sure no one of these bastard will escape, look for them and wait for my lawyer.'' I exclaimed, with my visible anger.
''Y-Yes Mr. Montereal.'' The guard answered and salute as I went out.
Kunot ang noo akong lumabas, kita ko kung pano magsisihan ang mga loko bago ako tuluyang makalabas.
I have a bad temper, however its not me na patulan ang mga gaya nila. Pero ibang usapan na kung may kinalaman ito kay Brina. I don't know what I'm capable of when it comes to her. I can even easily break their neck!
I texted Attorney Sandoval as I went out, giving him the address. He has his own ways to know the details though.
Where did she go?
I asked impatiently as I glance around, trying to look for her. But her trace can't be seen anywhere.
Those bastards! They waisted my 5minute!
I released a deep sigh to removed my annoyance about them, and let my attorney to give the justice.
I stand beside my car and fish my phone inside my pocket.
Did she went home? If that's the case then no reason to be bothered. To find out with assurance, I open the my tracking app.
My eyebrows knit deliberately as I see the pinning location of the map. The red icon is pinning to the park nearby.
I want to let a sigh of relief knowing that she brought her phone with her. But I can't, hindi ako mapakali sa isiping nasa park sya sa dis oras ng gabi.
What is she's doing there? May kasama ba syang iba?
That thought, make my anger deeper. I clenched my fist. I will kill whoever that bastard is! Who the fvck he is to bring her in that place at this hour??! Gago ba sya? At anong ginagawa nila don sa gantong oras???!
Nagmamadali akong naglakad patungo sa park na tinutukoy ng mapa. Its nearby kaya naman di ako natagalan sa pagdating dito. I keep on glancing on my screen to see the track, following the direction its heading.
I am glad that she brought her phone, the phone I bought as the exchange to her phone that I'd thrown. Before giving it to her, I registered it to a tracking app. I thought she will throw it away as she tried to give it back to me, fortunately, she did not. Good thing, I can easily find and tail her where ever she is.
I found her at the middle part of the park where the basketball court located. My brows are knitting as I found her in the bench under the street post with a dim light.
Ang lalong nakapagpakunot ng noo ko ay ang makita syang nagsasalita. I glances around to check kung sino ba ang kausap nya. However, I found no one in the area aside from the small group of boys who are playing basketball.
''Kapag nakita ko ulit yong mokong na yon, ipapakita, ipapaalala at ipapalashap ko sakanya na ako lang ang kailangan nya!''
She said, then drink the beer can na ngayon ko lang napansin na nasa harapan nya pala. Does she really drinking beer? At sa gantong lugar pa? O baka naman may kasama sya kanina, as I was looking at the two beer can in the table. I don't think she had that alone, with the fact that as far as I remember, she don't like to drink beer as it tastes bitter as she said.
''Talaga!'' She exclaimed, sounded full of determination.
By her moves and the way she speak, I can easily state that she is so damn drunk. Ni hindi nga nya maiangat ang ulo nya. Nakayuko lang sya habang nagsasalita. Seriously? Is it really Brina?
I take time to confirm, to my surprised it's really her.
''Fvck!'' I suddenly reacted as I feel something hard landed on my forehead. Napahawak ako dito, I can feel a cut. I look down with my little annoyance to check and found out that she just throw some beer on me! Tss Bakit nya ako binato? Nakayuko akong hinawakan ang tinamaan ng beer.
''Shuit you right beer in can!'' Brina said annoyingly, almost shouted.
What? Is she taking with the beer all this time?? What's gotten into her to act like this? Did she took some drug??? What the!
''Baka nga kung papatulan ko e shiguradong magkakandarapa sakin ang mga batang to.'' She said shaking her head, with a giggled on her voice while facing the boys in her front.
My brows furrowed. What is she talking about? At bakit nya papatuluan ang mga mokong na to???
My questions stops me as a matter of fact popped up on my mind.
Wait! Is she acting like this because we are got annuled? Seriously Brina? Kaya ba sya nagpapakalasing because she is single now? Kaya nya naisipang uminom sa labas ng gantong oras at nagpapacute sa mga mokong na to??! What the fvck!
That thought sends shivers in me. Nanginginig ako sa inis, no sa galit.
They are look like on their 18! And she wanted to be notice by them? Seriously? Kaya ba sya nagdemand ng annulment ay para makapagpacute sya ng ganto? At sa di hamak na mas bata pa sakanya?!
So what? She looks 18 as well.
My mind reacted. And that makes me angry moreover.
I admit, Brina don't look like at her age. She looks like on her 20. She had that baby face ever since that's why, and she maintained that.
Her face always looks so innocent and fragile. Reasons why some of the business industry doubt her. However, I am glad that slowly, she's proving herself.
''Hay Red. You just did the biggesht mistake of your life.''
Her words turned me back to reality and froze to process her words.
Did she called my name? What does she mean about biggest mistake I have done?
Is it the annulment?
I released a deep shy. Yes Brina. I think I really did another mistake in my life. Giving you that freedom, na sa totoo lang ayokong ibigay sayo.
If it was just me, kahit anong gawin mo hinding hindi kita pagbibigyan sa annulment sa sinasabi mo. The first time I heard it from her, it really breaks me. At that moment, I know I'll go crazy if she will.
I can't afford to lose her again. Sobrang hirap. Sobrang hirap ang mawala sya sa tabi ko, sa buhay ko. But the reason why it all happened awakens my small anger to her, again.
Until now, it hurts me evertytime I remember what happened to our child. Honestly, I want to shout on her, I want to throw all the anger I have for her para gumaan ang pakiramdam ko, but I can't. Cause I know, if I did, I'll her hurt agin, even more.
Hindi ko kaya.
At ito ang dahilan kung bakit hindi ako makalapit sakanya ng tuluyan. Everytime I attempt, the pain I have for losing our child always builds up that made me stop.
I am torn.
I am torn between my love I still have for her and for the anger I have for her for losing our child.
Those are the absolute reason why I can't get her again, why I can't claim her again. I know in my heart that she is still the one who holds it, she's the one I always wanted to be with.
But I guess this is not the right time.
That's why I choose to file that fvcking annulment.
Our last is full of lies, our relationship is full of mistake and that's the reason why we can't be genuinely happy, even if we tried.
Sabi nila, hindi maitatama ng isa pang pagkakamali ang isang mali. However, I did all my might back then to prove it wrong. Mostly, kung ang panibagaong pagkakamali na iyon ang maaaring maging daan ng isang pagtatama.
But I am wrong. Kahit anong hirap at pagssakripisyo ang ginawa ko noon para itama ang mga mali namin, para itama ang relasyong nagumpisa sa kasalanan, we still ended up being broken.
And that's because of another mistake she have done.
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Published: March 16, 2021
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