IM FAILING SIENCE HELPPP
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"mom...."
She stayed frozen in her place. shocked. Junkyu wanted that look of shock to disappear with every passing second. But it never did. Mashiho closed his eyes, still pretending to be asleep. Junkyu noticed how tense he got when his mom walked in. Before he was relaxed .
She slowly straightened down her shirt trying to make some sort of movement to appear normal. Now her assumptions were becoming more likely to be true. They've always been touchy with each other but she assumed they were just friends. And the look of surprise on Junkyu's face confirmed her assumptions right. If they were just friends, he wouldn't be so shocked when she walked in.
Not knowing how to feel about what she saw, she didn't know what to say to Junkyu. Her son. She didn't want to ask him about what she saw, she felt too afraid of the answer. It was too confusing to stay in the room, so she turned her back to the door. Abruptly leaving.
Junkyu noticed her expression when she walked out the door. His stomach tied itself into knots and his heart was beating out of his chest. He left Mashiho's embrace and got up to leave after his mom.
"Wait!" He called after her. Mashiho finally opened his eyes when they both left turning on his back. He stared at the ceiling with stern expression. What had he just done It was all his fault.
"Oh my god." He said to himself and buried his face in his hands.
He could've outed Junkyu by accident. He felt a lump stuck in his throat. left a bitter taste from his tongue from the guilt slowly eating him up inside.
"What did I do?" He questioned himself. All the possibilities ran through his mind. Would his parents approve or will his mother pretend to forgot everything she saw? Both his hands ran through his hair. A pang hit his heart when he heard Junkyu speak with his mom in the distance.
"Mom wait." He said when he got to her, she was in the kitchen making her self look busy and evidently avoiding eye contact with Junkyu . He let out a sigh, sounding more nervous than he thought.
"What do you need?" She asked hastily . He was taken back by her tone. So it was actually what he really feared. Now that he thought about it, he didn't know what to ask her.
"Why...why did you leave like that?" He finally asked. The question was stupid but what else would he ask?
"I....it's nothing." She answered, briefly side eyeing him. Junkyu sighed and rested his arms on the counter. His mouth went dry.
"Mom seriously , are you mad at me or something?" He asked, his mom went over that question in her head. Was she mad at him? At the moment, she didn't know what to feel. Just shock. Anger was too strong of an emotion. She didn't know if she was angry.
"Junkyu please go." She told him with her brows furrowed. His nerves weren't getting calmed by anything she said. She sounded angry. He took a deep breath to try and relieve his sinking heart.
"Please... just tell me." He begged.
"Go. Give me some time to think." She ordered. Her tone was demanding, Junkyu knew she noticed something.
"Think about what?" He asked. She put the knife in her hand down harshly , finally looking him in the eye. He didn't know it would be that stressful to look her in the eye. He felt like he was shrinking under her glare.
"Everything okay." She admitted. "I'm confused."
"mom." He whispered. She started to put the pieces together and it was entirely his fault. He was the one to blame. He went over his mistakes in his head and cursed his stupidity.
"From the moment you two walked in through the door you've been a little too close." She said, looking strictly into his eyes. She noticed him take a shaky breath in. He flexed his hands that were put on the counter. His heart beat painful fast.
"It's not like that..." he tried to say convincingly . But by the stern look on her face, she wasn't buying it. She narrowed her eyes at him.
"Oh really ? All the cuddles, hugs, piggyback rides, late at night trips and forehead kisses. Was all that nothing too?"
" Really mom it's not like that." He said with a voice getting more stern. His fear was facing him right now and all he wanted to do was run away.
"Please don't tell me that." She whispered, tilting her head to the side. What more was he supposed to do. She wasn't believing him at all. He was starting to lose all the hope he had.
"Me and Mashiho aren't a couple." All his efforts were going to waste. She wasn't believing anything he was saying. She scoffed and looked to the side. He payed close attention to her expression, in hopes of her finally believing him.
"I'm not stupid Junkyu." She said instead. "i've been in relationships before I know how they look like." Were they that obvious?
"How am I meant to prove it to you?" He gave up, he didn't know what else to say to her.
"You don't need to because I already know." She crossed her arms and told him.
"Me and Mashiho aren't a couple and we'll never be...we're just friends." A pang hit his heart when these words came out of his mouth. He hoped Mashiho didn't hear their conversation.
"All you can do for me now is say the truth." She finally said.
"I am telling the truth." He told her trying to sound more convincing. The possibilities were scaring him he couldn't come out to his mom. Especially not now.
"Don't lie to me." She shook her head.
"Well then what am I supposed to say." He sighed and fiddled with his necklaces, twisting the little heart between his fingers .
"Just tell me the truth." She said again.
"We're..." he said, not knowing what to say after. Should he say the truth? Or should he continue to try and convince her of a lie?
"You guys are what?" She asked keeping the stern look on her face.
"We're not a couple." He shook his head with his eyes closed.
"Is that a necklace?" She asked. His fingers stopped fiddling with his necklace, he felt his heart stop in his chest. "You think I haven't noticed that you two wear the same heart necklace?"
"Please..." he whispered and looked down, his mind shaken with fear. He couldn't look her in the eye.
"Please what?" She asked.
"Promise me one thing...please." His heart sunk to his stomach. He hoped he would never have to say anything like that.
"What is it?" She asked again, adding onto his nerves.
"Promise you won't hate me....or Mashiho...please." He felt somber that he was asking his mom not to hate him now. What has everything come to? Her eyes slightly widened and she sucked in a breath. She knew they were a couple already. But she wasn't ready to hear it from Junkyu.
"He's my boyfriend." He admitted.
Her body tensed up with his words.
"And I love him..."