You're going to tell people I never loved you
& i'm going to keep screaming it even in my sleep
You'll tell people "thats the girl that broke me"
& I'll wonder how you could even think that when i tried to make you whole with all of my broken pieces
You're going to say i never cared
& I'll laugh because it's been 8 months since you have left and to this day you are still all i care about
You'll say i never meant anything i said about you
But i still see galaxies in your eyes and fire in your heart
my heart craves your love and i can't understand how that is any type of secret
How can i explain to everyone that every time the lights go out that I turn my flashlight on
& the first thing i'm guided to, well I see you there
You told me I was weak for losing myself, when I lost you
but as the blade went across my skin I didn't feel half of the pain I did when I saw you with her
And when I passed out because I couldnt keep anything other than vodka I drank in order to drown you out,
the fall to the floor was nowhere near comparable to the memories of falling into your arms
You say i'm weak as if i don't already know
So I'll keep carving your touch off of my skin just to show you I'm not as weak as you think
Maybe that will make you come back
You lit the fire in my heart,
but chose not to watch it
I've been burning ever since.