Games to the Mind ✔

liquor of pain

You came home
With liquor on your lips, stumbling to the ground
And since you fell
You made mommy fall too.
"Go to your room sweetie"
Mommy choked to say with your hands around her neck
But you said to come out
& to wipe the tears away.
The tears came pouring out
so you said that you would give me something to cry about
as you threw a vase to my head
& told me I'm just like my mom.
10 years later I no longer wonder where you are
or why you weren't there to tuck me in at night.
10 years later I no longer wonder why you won't come to my birthday parties
or who that naked girl was in your bed
when you thought I was asleep.
10 years later I no longer cry "daddy stop it hurts."
10 years later
and I no longer need you..
Although I never really did.
10 years later and I stopped feeling the shards cut my heart
like that damn vase cut my fucking head.
10 years later and I realize-
I am just like my mom & I rather be like her
than you.