I woke up to my annoying alarm. I turned it off and looked at the ceiling. I don't want to go to school. I'm gonna be lonely all day. I don't even have any friends anymore.
I sighed and got up. I went with the sweatpants and sweatshirt again.
I just put my hair up in a bun and walked to my bathroom to cover up my bruises.
I walked downstairs and my dad was in the kitchen.
" I made you eggs." He smiled
" Thank you." I smiled scraping them onto a plate.
I ate a few bites and threw it away. I wasn't hungry. I grabbed my keys and walked to my car. I played dollhouse by Melanie Martinez and drove off.
• skips drive•
I pulled into the school and I instantly saw Iris, Jordan, Addie and Paisley.
I got out of my car and walked inside.
" I bet she's going to find Austin." I heard Addie whisper.
" Probably." Jordan whispered.
Tears filled my eyes but I held them back. I'm not about to cry at school.
I felt my phone go off and It was a message.
From : Austin.🔥
Stay strong today. I know it's gonna be hard but you can get through it.
To : Austin.🔥
Thanks..
I locked my phone and went to my locker. I opened it and grabbed my stuff.
I felt my phone go off and it was another message.
From : Iris.😔
Where's your boyfriend ?
I looked at her and slammed my locker.
" I HATE HIM IRIS ! " I yelled
" Bullshit." She said
" It sad. How long have we been friends ? 5 years ? And you don't even trust me. " I said
" Whatever. You need to stop lying to us. If you would just tell the truth we wouldn't be in this fight." She said
" I am telling the truth." I said
" Bullshit." She said
" Whatever. " I said walking past her.
I felt my phone go off and it was another message.
From : Paisley.
I believe you..
I locked my phone and put it in my pocket.
• skips to lunch•
I sat down at an empty table and the girls kept looking at me and whispering. It's amazing how you can go from best friends to this.
I felt someone looking at me and I looked at the girls. They weren't. I looked at Austin and he was.
" Are you okay ? " he mouthed.
I shook my head no and put it down.
I unlocked my phone and got a message.
From : Austin.🔥
Have you tried talking to them ?
To : Austin.🔥
Sort of. They don't believe me.
I felt someone sit next to me and i saw Sophie and Kaleb.
" What the fuck do you want ? " I said
" So how was fucking my boyfriend.?" She asked
" What the hell are you talking about.?" I asked
" I saw the video you little whore. You know how weird that is ? My boyfriend and you own dad. That's gross." She said
" I didn't even want too." I said
" Sure you didn't." She said
" I didn't !" I said
" Your a little whore. " Kaleb said.
" What do you guys want ?!" I asked
" For you to kill yourself you worthless piece of shit." Sophie said.
I didn't say anything and looked down.
" Drink bleach." Kaleb said
" Cut deep." Sophie said
" Here's some pills." Kaleb said.
I grabbed the pills and threw the at Kaleb.
" Fuck you." I said then stormed out of the school.
" Already did sweetie ! " he yelled behind me.
I ran to my car and quickly got in. I can't take this shit anymore. I can't do this. I quickly drove to my house and ran upstairs to my room. I grabbed a bottle of pills and dumped them into my hand.
I looked at them for a second and hesitated.
No one will miss you.
But my brother..
He doesn't care about you.
I put them in my mouth and turned on the water .
" ASHTON NO ! " I heard someone yell.
They squeezed my cheeks and all the pills came out.
I looked over and saw Austin.
" WHY DID YOU DO THAT ?!" I screamed as tears fell from my eyes.
" Remember what I said last night."
" I don't want to be here anymore Austin.." I said crying harder.
" You can get through it." He said pulling me into a hug.
" No I can't.." I said
He held me and I continued crying.
Why did he stop me.. Why did he follow me .. Why..
" I have to go back to school.. " he said
" I can't go back.." I said
" You have too.. " he Said
" I cant.." I said
" Yes you can." He said
I sighed and followed him outside.
I got in my car and drove to the school.
I walked into the school and sat back in the lunch room. We can leave for lunch so I'm not gonna get in trouble.
Iris walked up to me and said ;
" Are you crying ?"
" Why do you care ? You won't believe me ." I said
" What's wrong. "
" I want to die Iris. Kaleb and Sophie kept telling me to kill myself and I couldn't take it anymore. I went home and tried to kill myself.." I said mumbling the last part.
" What stopped you ?" She asked tears in her eyes.
" My mom caught me.." I lied.
" I'm so sorry Ash.." She said
" It's fine.." I said
" No. I should've believed you." She said
" It's fine Iris." I said
She hugged me and said ;
" Please forgive me ?"
" Of course." I said
She smiled and we sat down.
I still didn't feel right though. Like I feel like she's just saying it.. Like she doesn't really mean it..
" So why were you at Austins last night ?" Jordan asked
" My parents said that since they haven't talked to his mom in forever they felt we should all go over there and talk I guess. I thought it was irrelevant. " I said
" So they made you go over there.?" Addie said
" Yeah." I sighed.
" I'm sorry." She said
" It's fine." I said
" How bad was it ? " Iris asked
" I didn't really talk to them. I listened to music the whole time." I lied
" I would've." Jordan said.
The bell rang meaning we had to go back to class.
I stood up and walked with them to our lockers. It doesn't feel the same. Something is wrong.
• skips to the end of the day•
" Hey do you guys need a ride ?" I asked
" No paisley is gonna give us a ride." Jordan said
" Well do you wanna hang out ? " I asked
" I don't know maybe." Addie said
" Oh well let me know." I said quietly.
" We will !" They said then walked to paisleys car. I got in mine and drove off.
• skips ride•
I got out and walked inside. No one was home which I was definitely glad about.
I walked up stairs and there was a note on my bed.
They're lying to you. -Anonymous
I brushed it off and found another one on my dresser.
They are gonna trick you. -Anonymous.
" What ?" I whispered to myself.
" Hey Ash." I heard a familiar voice say from my balcony.
" Hey Austin." I smiled looking up.
" Did the girls make up with you.?" He asked
" Yup." I said
" That's good." He smiled
" Yeah. We might hang out later." I said
" There all at Iris house right now." He said
" Wait how do you know ?" I asked
" Zach told me." He said
" Oh.." I said
So did they lie to me or not text me yet ?
I looked at my phone and I had a message.
From : Addie.😊
Hey sorry we can't hang out.
" They lied to me.." I said
" Hm ?" He asked
" They all are Iris and Addie texted me and said They can't hang out." I said setting my phone down.
" Well we can hang out." He said
" Why are they doing this ? " I asked
" I don't know." He said
Before I could say anything I heard a knock downstairs.
" Who would be here ? " I asked
" I don't know go check." He said
" Stay here." I said
" Yes ma'am." He said
I walked downstairs and opened the door. It was another note.
I grabbed it and it said ;
You're gonna get hurt.
I looked around and saw no one.
" Who is it ? " Austin asked
" No one." I said closing the door.
" What's that ? " he asked referring to the note.
" A note. I've gotten 3 today. " I said
" What does it say ? " he asked
" Didn't I tell you to stay upstairs.?" I said
" Yeah but what fun is it to listen.?" He asked
" Go upstairs child." I said
" I'm not a child. I am older then you." He said
" Go upstairs boy." I said
" Come at me bro." He said
" Nah. I'm to tired." I said then walked to my kitchen.
I heard him follow me and I walked to my fridge.
" You want something ?" I asked
" Nah I'm good." He said
I grabbed a pop and opened it.
I leaned against the counter. And Austin stood in front of me.
" So what do you want to do ? " he asked
" I don't know what do you wanna do.?" I asked
He just sat there looking at me for a second and smiled at me.
" Whaaat ?" I asked
He hesitated at first then crashed his lips onto mine.
I hesitantly kissed back and our lips moved in perfect sync and his tongue glided my bottom lip asking for entrance. I opened my mouth a little and his tongue explored every inch of my mouth. He puts his hands on my waist and I wrapped mine around his neck.
I heard a knock at the door and we quickly parted.
" Who the hell is that ? " I said angrily.
I WAS IN THE MIDDLE OF MAKING OUT WITH A HOT GUY THIS BETTER BE IMPORTANT.
I walked to the door and saw 2 cops.
" Hello officers." I said
" Hi are you Ashton Dawson ?" One asked
" Yes sir." I said
" Your mother has been in a fatal car accident. I'm afraid she didn't make it." He said
" You mean my moms dead.. " I whispered.
" Yes. I am sorry for your loss." They said then walked to their cars.
I mean I hated my mom but I didn't want her to die.. I need her..
" Who was it ? " Austin asked from the kitchen.
I couldn't speak. I regret everything bad I've ever done to my mom..
" Ashton ? " Austin said
" My mom is dead.." I said
" What ?! " he said
I turned around and tears slipped out of my eyes.
" Austin.. " I said
He ran to my a rapped his arms around me.
" What is gonna happen to me now.. My dad can do whatever he wants to me and whenever he wants.. " I said
" I'm so sorry Ashton.." He said
" I'm not gonna be able to handle this Austin.. " I Said
" Yes you can. You are strong and you can get through it." He said looking into my eyes.
" I have to go to the hospital.. " I said
" Alright.. Message me when you get back and I'll come over." He said
" Alright. Oh and Austin. " I said before he started to walk away.
" Hm ?" He asked
I stood on my tip toes and kissed him.
" Thank you." I said then grabbed my keys and ran to my car.