Sana's POV
"See you, my lifetime," She said and kissed my forehead.
"Goodnight. I love you," I said and gave her a quick peck on the cheek.
"What in the world is happening?" A distinct voice was heard from behind us.
Shit.
We went down the carriage, and turned to where the voice was heard
"F-Father," I whispered to myself, slowly letting go from Dianne's grip on my hands.
I don't know what I should do.
Why am I suddenly scared?
She looked at me before she went close to my ear to whisper the words, "Let's fight for us. Let's be brave for once."
I nodded at her as she tightly held my hand again, making me feel like she was saying that everything would be fine.
"Never let go, Sakura-chan. Please don't. I can't lose you," She said, almost whispering to herself.
I can't lose you, too.
I can't lose the person I love more than everything.
I can't let her go.
She was the girl I slapped the day we met.
The girl who understood me.
The woman I love.
"I-I won't," I answered, making her smile at me,
I suddenly felt nervousness rising through my body
"Tell me, what is happening?" He asked again.
Silence, again was around us. No one dared to talk.
It was scary. Father's clear and deep voice whenever he's mad was too intimidating.
Just like... Dad.
Is he mad?
"F-father, Dianne a-and were j-just bidding our g-goodbyes," I said, making an excuse.
That's what I'm simply good at, running away from things that may ruin me.
Avoiding problems, or simply the things that scare me.
I'm sorry, that's just me.
"Is that the case?" He asked as I slowly nodded as a response.
I saw Dianne who was about to open her mouth to speak.
I decided to stop her.
"Father, Dianne and I are really close friends. Is giving and receiving simple kisses on the cheeks a bad thing?" I asked him, removing my hands from Dianne's grasp.
"Is that true, Dianne?" He turned to Dianne.
I gulped. What if she tells the truth?
Would it be better to tell? Or to just hide?
I turned to Dianne who was still silent.
I'm sorry.
I really am.
"I-It is, sir. I'll get going now. Have a goodnight, S-Sakura," She answered and turned to go home.
"Y-Yeah, goodnight. See you," I said, yet she didn't respond.
What else could she do? She's disappointed.
I didn't fight.
I was afraid of what father could say. I was afraid of getting hurt.
And yet, here I am. Going through my breaking point because of my own mistake.
"Sakura, it's cold here. You should rest," Father said, now leading me inside the house.
I went straight to my room to release my emotions.
Tears then started to flow from my eyes. Unexplainable pain was found in my chest.
I just couldn't stop thinking about what happened.
It's hurting me that much.
How can I be brave when I can't even tell my parents about my hopes and dreams?
How can I be brave if I can't even face these situations?
And now, I can't calm down.
Well, who would calm down in this situation.
I told her that I'd fight.
And yet I turned my back on her when she needed me to be with her now.
I then noticed my phone again so I opened it to see that it was still not low on battery.
My fingers then unconsciously pressed this one song for me to listen to.
IU's Peach...
I love her songs so much, and I'm thankful that I downloaded songs beforehand
Speaks about someone who fell for the other at first sight..
It reminds me of Dianne.
How can I explain this feeling?When I see you,my heart becomes numb and sore.
Oh, with what word can I explain you?
All the words of the world is probably not enough
With those legs that are so pretty by just standing still
You walk toward me and you hug me.
Up until now, I still couldn't find words to describe you.
Just the sight of you makes me fine.
Your hugs give me warmth to face the coldest nights.
Your kisses on my forehead and hands, give me the courage to go through each day.
You were too precious, I can't lose you. But, little by little, I am losing you.
How am I supposed to handle life without you?
The song finished and I was now sobbing loudly though I shouldn't be heard.
I didn't know that love was this heartbreaking.
When will I make the right decision?
Maybe I should do it right away.
Yes, for you. I will be brave.
Starting from this night, I will be brave.
I will fight for us, Dianne.
I felt a bit calmer but tears still wouldn't stop flowing from my eyes.
Then the next thing I knew was everything went black.
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I slowly opened my eyes, looking around my room.
My head hurts.
The sun was now up, and so I slowly got up as well.
I checked myself in the mirror I saw in my room.
I look like shit.
Knowing that there's a bath room inside my room, I washed took a quick bath and changed clothes.
I fixed myself and went down to have breakfast.
I quickly prepared breakfast and ate.
"Good morning, Sakura. I have to inform you that Dianne is here," He said and slightly ruffled my hair.
Is this the right time?
"I'll be there after I eat, father," I said as he smiled and nodded.
"Sure, my princess. We'll be waiting at the lounge," He said and I just nodded.
He left the dining area and I proceeded to eat until there was nothing left on my plate.
I stood up to go to where they are.
My heart started beating fast, as if I ran kilometers from here.
Am I really that nervous?
I reached the lounge.
"H-hi, Dianne," I greeted as she just nodded.
"I have something to say, sir," She said as father's expression changed.
"I love your daughter, sir. And I would like you to know that, we are together," She continued.
The atmosphere became quiet. No one dared to talk again.
I guess Dianne telling the truth would be better for the two of us.
"This is not acceptable," Father answered.
"W-What? Father, I t-thought you'd a-accept us?" I asked him as he gritted his teeth, followed by his eyebrows furrowing.
"Leave now, Dianne. Stay away from us," He said and called the housemaids to lead Dianne outside.
"Please, give us a chance, sir," Dianne spoke as she was being pulled away.
And I couldn't do anything but stand still.
It hurts me to move. I couldn't even speak to my own father properly.
I can't lose you now, Dianne.
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