Hard to Love (Bucky Barnes fa...

By Hoe4BuckyBarnes

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A/N: first few chapters are a bit 'cringy' with spelling errors (I write this on my phone) but if you can get... More

Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
Chapter 23
Chapter 24
Chapter 25
Chapter 26
Chapter 27
Chapter 28
Chapter 29
Chapter 30
Chapter 31
Chapter 32
Chapter 33
Chapter 34
Chapter 35
Chapter 37
Chapter 38
Chapter 39
Chapter 40
Chapter 41
Chapter 42
Chapter 43
Chapter 44
Chapter 45
Chapter 46
Chapter 47
Chapter 48
Chapter 49
Chapter 50
Chapter 51
Chapter 52
Chapter 53
Chapter 54
Chapter 55
Chapter 56
Chapter 57
Chapter 58
Chapter 59
Chapter 60
Chapter 61
Chapter 62
Chapter 63
Chapter 64
Chapter 65
Chapter 66
Chapter 67
Chapter 68
Chapter 69
Chapter 70
Chapter 71
Chapter 72
Chapter 73
Chapter 74
Chapter 75
Chapter 76
Chapter 77
Chapter 78
Chapter 79
Chapter 80
Chapter 81
Chapter 82
Authors Note...
Chapter 83
Chapter 84
Chapter 85
Chapter 86
Chapter 87 (FINALE)

Chapter 36

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By Hoe4BuckyBarnes


"Barnes." I bite back towards the shadowed figure, the moonlight glinting against his exposed prosthetic arm as most of him is hidden

I only catch the glimmer from my peripherals since I'm keeping my back to him. Of course he'd be up here. He either wanted to get some air too or knew I would and decided to wait for me up here

A warm rough hand grabs my upper arm tightly and starts to turn me. "How could y-"

Bucky starts, his voice giving away that he was also peeved but I'm quick to turn on my heels and, without thinking, I reach forward and grab his throat, slamming him back against the wall and squeezing. Not enough to inflict any kind of damage but, enough to shut him up

"How could I? HOW COULD I?!" My voice rising with infuriation as I repeat the question. "How could YOU?" I step closer to him, almost pressing against him and seeing my reflection in his seemingly calm eyes

Noting how unfazed by my words he was made me that much more pissed off

"You went on a date with that- that bitch from the hangar while I was being tortured! So don't you dare 'how could you' me Barnes." I spoke with a snarl

"You've been a flirt with every guy here tonight and then, to top it all off, basically fucked Thor in front of me!" Bucky retorts, grabbing my wrist and yanking my hand off his neck. His usual sky blue icy orbs now ablaze with the flames of fury

In the blink of an eye, we had switched spots. My back was now against the wall and Bucky stood in front of me, his features more noticeable as the moonlight hit his front instead. He grabbed my jaw with his left hand and held my other arm firm to the brick behind me

"I barely touched him." I hiss through clenched teeth up at Bucky

Then he does the unexpected.

He kisses me

Smashing our lips together in a fury filled kiss, we pull our bodies together like magnets in an instant. We fought for dominance in a fit of clashing teeth. Buckys hands release my jaw and arm only to quickly glide down my thighs and lift me. I wrap my legs around his hips and fist my fingers through his hair, pulling him impossibly closer. He pushes me back against the cold wall, essentially squishing me between him and the building

Bucky grinds his hips against mine and I get a good feel for the erection quickly forming in his jeans. All our pent up anger, annoyance, and lust for the other showing through. We were finally claiming the other since we were denied that pleasantry all night with the audience around us

Now I know we should be talking things out like civil adults here but hey, if we have to angry fuck each other on the roof first I'm not gonna complain

"Take your fucking pants off." I growl into his mouth

He responds by biting down on my bottom lip rather harshly, but does as I say and reaches down between us to undo his pants, shoving the material halfway down his thighs. While he removes his heated cock from his briefs, I reach down and slide my panties to the side for him. Bucky glides his cock up and down my sex, coating it in my slick before pushing himself to the hilt into me without warning

I pull away from his lips and slam my head back into the wall as a groan rippled out of me. My walls clung to him in the most delicious way, like they were vacuum sealed to his dick. Without allowing me much time to adjust, Bucky starts trusting repeatedly

The small pain turned to wild pleasure with every hard thrust and snap of his hips, and I was moaning down Buckys throat in seconds. Bucky grunted between trusts while letting breathy curses brush past his swollen red lips and into my mouth

"I told you not to flirt with him." Bucky huffs out, pulling away from the aggressive kiss while still drilling into me

"I wasn't flirting with him!" I whisper yell as to not cause an echo. "I- fuck- I did a dare- god-" I moan as he swivels his hips against mine, applying the sweetest amount of friction to my clit

"You didn't have to do it!" Bucky retorts while removing me from the wall and dropping one of my legs, a frown on his face

In the matter of seconds, I push him out of me and place my other foot on the ground with a scowl before turning around to face the wall. As I turn, I quickly hike my dress up and over my ass as Bucky grabs my hips and pulls them to him, gliding back into me with ease. My walls fluttering around his throbbing cock as he pounds me from behind

"And you didn't have to go on that date!" I look over my shoulder at him as he dug his fingers into my hips, picking up speed

The sound of him panting and our skin slapping together was like music to my ears. In an effort to get Bucky deeper, I push myself back against him whenever he thrust forward. I swear every time we collided I thought my knees would give out from under me

"Sam n Tony-" Bucky starts but gets cut off to moan a profanity as I grind my ass against him. "Sam and Tony made me do it. Said I needed to loosen up- FUCK." He threw his head back with a snap of his hips

"Why didn't you tell me about it earlier?" I ask, starting to pant

Bucky leaned forward so his chest was pressed against my back and brought his bionic hand around me, drawing harsh circles on my clit. I bite down on my lip as another breathy moan wants to escape at his touch

"Because I wanted to explain myself in private and like an adult. But then you went and dry humped Thor like the brat you are." Buckys low voice starts to growl towards the end of his sentence as he spoke against the shell of my ear, his breath hot against my skin

"Oh fuck you," I growl back

"Aren't you already?" Bucky responds, a hint of humor now lacing his words. I roll my eyes at his remark

He releases my hip with his other hand and brings it up to my throat, wrapping his digits around and gently squeezing the sides. Almost simultaneously, Bucky recalibrates his arm and the vibrations on my clit send my body into maximum overdrive. My eyes instantly roll to the back of my head and an embarrassing whimper rolls out of me at the stimulation

"You- you had a threesome-" I stutter out, trying to focus on not coming while his cock and fingers work their devils magic on me

Bucky let's out a low chuckle before placing wet kisses on my shoulder blades, recalibrating his arm again and sending me into a fit of gasping moans. "Nothing and nobody compares to you babydoll."

His words brought me slight comfort and I could feel my anger subsiding. Now, I was still upset with him obviously but I think we've thoroughly fucked the jealousy out of one another. Buckys thrusts slowed and weren't as aggressive as before but enough to keep me climbing for my release

"Keep going doll, touch yourself for me." He lulls against my spine before removing his hands from my body and standing up straight

I whisper a profanity at the departure of his touch but continue to bounce myself backwards on his pulsing shaft and reach a hand down, swirling my abused clit. My eyes flutter shut as I moan, my orgasm coming closer and closer. I hear something jingle, like a belt buckle, before something cold and thin like a wire gets placed around my neck. I go to reach for the foreign object but Bucky grabs my free wrist and pulls it behind me, resting it on the small of my back

"Cum for me babydoll." Bucky huffs behind me, snapping his hips against me. He reaches around me and grabs the thin metal material around my neck and pulls it back, essentially choking me once more

I decide to ignore whatever it was Bucky put on me, probably a locket I can admire later, and focus on my fingers and the feel of Bucky rearranging my guts from behind. The oh so familiar ball of tension growing with every rotation of our hips and hard slam into me until I felt it all about to snap

"Fuck Bucky I'm- ahhh - I'm-" I breathe out heavily, unable to finish my sentence as my mind begins to blank from euphoria

Bucky took this as a hint to pick up his pace again. And unsurprisingly, my orgasm hit me as soon as he did. The line inside me shattering and coiling in a fit of blissful ecstasy. I feel my walls constrict around Buckys pulsating cock with a vice grip to which Bucky huffs out a profanity and mumbling 'so tight' as his own orgasm hit him. I get the familiar sensation of being filled to the brim with Buckys cum, painting my insides with his hot white strands

We take a moment to catch our breaths before Bucky releases the necklace and allowing the heavier part to fall and hang between my breasts. He slowly removes himself from me and I shutter at the emptiness, my body recuperating from the welcomed beating it just took. I straighten myself to stand up, readjusting my panties, and turn to face Bucky just as he zips his jeans. When he looks back down at me, a smug grin cracks his features and I can't help but to mimic it

"So, now that we got the anger out, explain the date." I cross my arms over my chest, feeling the necklace press against my exposed skin and shiver at the large cool metal

Wait, large metal?

I draw my brows together in confusion, looking down at whatever was around my neck, uncrossing my arms to view it better. It's hard to see the small object in the dark but a glint of moonlight catches the flat silver pieces, revealing the true item to me

"Your dog tags?" I run my thumb over the little grooves of each letter and number on them

Warmth spread throughout my body as I looked from the tags back up to Bucky who couldn't take his eyes off his tags in my fingers. I smile at him, still confused as ever

"Happy birthday Amelia.." Bucky half whispers, eyes still on the tags resting perfectly between the rounds of my breasts

"Baby I-" I shake my head. "No no, I'll get to these in a moment. You still need to explain yourself mister." I clutch the tags, finally locking eyes with Bucky who sighs at my words, giving me a 'seriously?' expression

"Tony and Sam thought I needed some.. relief.. while we were looking for you and set up the dinner. I couldn't say no. We grabbed dinner, she tried getting me to go back to her place afterwards, I declined, that was all. I swear." Bucky grabs my hands while he spoke, taking a step towards me

I bite my lip, debating if I should believe his words. But why shouldn't I? He's never lied to me before. There's absolutely no reason to doubt him. Plus, I love him and he loves me. He'd never do anything to hurt me. So why, why am I doubting him?

"Swear on my life that's all that happened?" I ask, giving his hands a gentle squeeze. I say my life because Bucky would do everything in his power to protect me

Bucky brings one of my hands to his lips, pressing a soft kiss to my knuckles. "I swear doll." He kisses the back of my hand, flicking his gaze to mine as he spoke

I let out a sigh, pushing all my irrational doubts away and give him a nod. "And why'd you give me your tags?" I give him a questioning look. Bucky smirks, dropping one of my hands only to grab the metal pieces in his fingertips

"I was going to give them to you on your actual birthday but..." he trails off and we exchange a knowing look before he continues. "I love you Amelia, and I want you to have them. As a reminder."

"A reminder?" I chuckle but furrow my brows at his last words. Bucky grips the tags in his hand, gently pulling them and causing me to take a step closer to him

"That you're mine as much as I'm yours." He spoke in a hushed gravelly tone, tilting his head just enough for the moonlight to glimmer off his eyes

I bite my lip as I gaze up at him. I didn't think this man could look more desirable but the way the moonlight is shining off of him is just... mmm chefs kiss a thousand times

"And what do I tell the team when they see me wearing them?" I brush my nose against his

Bucky shrugs, letting go of the tags but place his hand on my ribs. "Make up something like they help bring you back to reality whenever you start to spiral I guess."

Hm, that's not a bad idea honestly

Man we sure are milking this whole 'tortured by HYDRA' thing for all it's worth

"That could work." I breathe against his plump lips, wanting to taste them again. Bucky seems to catch onto my thinking because he lets out a small chuckle before leaning away

"Come on, you'll catch a cold if we're out here any longer." He tightens his grip on my hand as he starts for the door, pulling me behind him

I giggle as Bucky opens the door for me and swats my butt as I walk past him. I give him a playful glare over my shoulder as we descend the steps back into the building. Bucky decides to walk me back to my room, both of us silent the entire way but it was a comfortable silence. I plug in my entry code and turn to Bucky as the door slid open

"See you for breakfast?" I ask quietly, leaning against my doorframe. Bucky nods, stuffing his hands in the front pockets of his jeans

"Goodnight doll." He half whispers. I quickly glance around the halls before leaning up and pressing my lips to his

"Goodnight James." I flash him a mischievous smirk before stepping into my room fully

As my door slid shut, Bucky cracks a smile and let's out a small huff of amusement. I place my hand on my now closed door, listening to Buckys steps fade away and can't help but to smile to myself

It might be hard to love him now but god dammit it's gonna be worth all the secrets one day.

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