After the fight and at the point where everyone is getting on the air ship thingy because I can't write fight scenes that well
Also I have hange is she/they because I don't know their pronouns
I stood in the corridor of the air ship waiting for my friends and comrades.
Please tell they are still alive .
Levi arrives
"Oh thank god". I sigh walking up to him
He pats my head and smiles
"Glad your ok brat"
"You too Levi" I say
Armin goes to open the door with a emotionless face .
God how things changed
He reaches a hand out and Eren and Mikasa enter
Armin opens one of the doors and lets eren and mikasa in
I nodd at mikasa and she smiles back
"Damn you're a filthy sight." Levi snarls "you fall in a pile of shit? Eren ..."
"Captain ..." Eren mumbles looking up
Levi lifts his leg and kicks Eren harshly
Mikasa stand up and goes to stop Levi but Armin stops her
She freezes and gives in
Things are so different now
Two more scouts aim guns at Eren
"This brings back memories, you have such a kickable face Eren , after you're all tied up we'll have a chat" Levi states
"That's fine but I explained everything in my letters did you not understand" Eren snaps
I growl
"Cheer up everything happened like you wanted right" I snap
Eren looks up at me
"Lizzie I-" Eren starts
"Don't" I interrupt
"Just don't"
I walk off into the main steering Area and smile at hange and seek shortly after they all follow
Later the door opens and Jean walks in with two kids
I smile at him happy my lover is safe
He doesn't smile back
He looks so broken
"Gabi Falco?" Zeke asks
"You're alive , why did you let them capture you?" The girl who I guess is gabi asks
"Who are these kids?" Levi asks
"They killed lobov and used his gear to come aboard" jean says
That's probably why Jean looks so sad
"Sasha was shot by the girl" he states sadly
WAIT WHAT NO WHAT WHYYY I NOO I CANT OH GOD NO
" I don't think she's gonna make it ..."
No no no no no no no no
Armin and mikasa rush out to see her
I freeze then run out to find somewhere
Anywhere
I need to get out
It's getting harder to breath
Wait am I lost
Shit
Where am I
Why
Why her
She didn't do anything to deserve this
It's all that stupid child's fault
I can't breath
The room starts spinning
I see faint spots in my go pink and blue I collapse to the ground and sob
I need to try and breath
In and out
Stop struggling it's not hard
In and out
You're overreacting
Levi has lost everything and he isn't acting like this
Connie probably isn't doing this and he and Sasha and best friends
Jean isn't like this
Jean
WHERE IS HE
why does everything hurt
I grab onto a ledge and try to Stand
I fall
It get blurry again
I curl up and try and focus on something anything
Why does it hurt
I Want
I need
I need to go back
To when it was all ok
I was a cadet
And everyone was alive
Go back
Go back
PLEASE
GO BACK
CANT I GO TO RESET AND NEVER JOIN THE SCOUTS AND LIVE A LIFE A STUPID THEIF IN THE UNDERGROUND
ILL NEVER MEET SASHA AND LOOSE HER
ILL NEVER LOSE MARCO MARLO FARLAN ISABELLE JAMES KELLY
I WONT LOSE THEM
or meet them
I need them please
can't I just go back
It was so simple then
Kill titans and save humanity like it was that easy
It cold
Why can't I see anything
It's gone dark
It's warm
.......
"LIZZIE"
"HEY SNAP OUT OF IT"
"HEYYYY HEYYYY ITS ONLY ME"
Hange?
Everything goes back to focus I can see the small room I'm in
I can see hange
Hange
She's with me
We're alone in here
"I'm glad I found you we thought you were with mikasa and Armin" she sighs
"Where's .... Sasha." I ask slowly
"I'm sorry lizzie she didn't make it" hange whispers
She looked so sad she had tear stained cheeks
"No.." I whisper before breaking down into tears
Why does it hurt so badly
"Can I see her" I ask desperately
"I don't know" Hange sighs
"PLEASE" I beg
"Ok come on" they sigh helping me up
She puts one of my arms around their shoulder as we slowly leave the room
I lean on them for support
"Take your time you look pretty bad no offence" she smiles
"Thanks" I whisper not in any mood to smile
we enter a corridor and there she is
She is wrapped in bandages and covered in her own blood yet she looks perfect
I see mikasa crying in Armins arms even though he is a wreck aswell
A few scouts who I don't know are there aswell
Connie is cradling her
He looks broken
He is rocking her slowly
He's almost like a body with no soul no emotion on his face yet tears and still falling down his cheeks
I can't do this
I have to try not to scream
I'm not the only one who lost her ...
Hange pats my shoulder is if they understood. Did she feel like this after moblit?
I cry on her shoulder silently
"What where her last words" I ask them
"Meat" hange smiles
"Thanks" I say before slowly walking out
I'll visit her alone when we get back to paradise island..
I enter the room where Eren Levi Zeke and those two kids are
The blonde boy looks terrified and guilty
The brunette girl looks angry and proud of what she's done
Levi gives me a nod trying not to break his professional character appearance infront of the enemy's
"Where did Jean go?" I ask
"He'll be back in a minute" Levi says blankly whilst patting my shoulder
"Ok" I nod,
the girl glares at me and smirks
I stare at her and smile knowing that karma will hit her when she leasts expects it
the door open and Jean enters coldly
his face softens as I see him
he nods to the corridor as we walk outside there together and i get pulled into his embrace
"i'm sorry about sasha" i whisper holding him tightly
he needs someone to hold him
just like Hange held me earlier
"do me a favour" he asks
"ofcorse anything" I nod
" Dont die aswell"
soooook how was that
im not the best with these sort of chapters so any advice or opinions is greatly appreciated
i hope you all have a wonderful day/night