!TW! blood, starvation, passing out, and cutting !TW!
"Ranboo I- I feel dizzy" i felt dizzy before everything went black, right before i passed out i heard Ranboo scream my name,
"Ranboo," i tried to say but all that came out was a mumble, that's went i passed out, i woke up to a noise i looked around to see me still on my bedroom floor, i looked around for the noise to see it was coming from my phone right in front of my dominant hand, i grabbed it saw it was Ranboo, he was crying, was it because of me, i perched my phone on one of the legs of my bed, i tried to get up to look at my phone, i really couldn't though my hair was in my face,
"Ranboo?" i said softly struggling to get up,
"Y/N, y/n please lay back down, then point the camera at your face for me please," he asked so gently, i did what he asked, i layed down, grabbed my phone and showed my face, that's then i saw some blood running down my temple and some blood running down my lip, great my head busted open and i had a nose bleed,
"Y/N, Y/N, ARE YOU OKAY?" Ranboo yelled struggling to hold back tears,
"Fuck," i mumbled, i struggled to get up for a little bit and sorta ran to my bathroom, i set my phone down on my counter, I grabbed some hydrogen peroxide, and put it on cloth and held it to my head, i grabbed tissue and stuck it in my nose, then leaned my head back, once i didn't feel the blood running down my throat, i lifted my head back up and looked in the mirror, i lifted my shirt to see my empty stomach, i haven't eaten in about 2-3 weeks i looked scrawny, i liked it, Ranboo must of saw because he screamed my name crying,
"Y/N, H-HAVE YO-YOU BEEN E-E-EATING?" He screamed choking back tears, i wanted to cry seeing him in pain hurt me so much, i couldn't deal with it and i didn't want him to see more so i hung up on him, i put my phone on silent and turned it off, i cried, i hate to be mean to him, but i didn't want to do it in front of him, i opened my drawer and then opened the secret compartment, i grabbed the razor and shoved it into my wrist, it cut so smoothly, so i just kept cutting and cutting, i eventually broke down and stopped, i cleaned up my mess and hid my razor and shut my drawer, i put on a oversized hoodie, then i heard a knock on my door, i plastered a fake smile on, i opened the door to see Ranboo, his eyes were bloodshot and you could see his tears, i froze and my smile dropped, he hugged me and pulled me close to him, he pulled us inside and closed the door, he lifted up my hoodie and saw my stomach, i hopped he wouldn't see my wrist that's when he saw the blood on my hoodie and lifted my sleeve up to see the cuts, tears started rolling down his face faster, i yanked my hand out of his grasp, i fell to the ground and put my head down, he kneeled down next to me, he pulled my head up, pushed my hair away, and kissed me, i sat there in shock before i melted into the kiss, i pulled away and wrapped my arms around him, i hugged him as tightly as possible, he hugged me back, everything seemed to stop, i really and i mean I REALLY FUCKED UP,