Sorry for the mistakes
Xander's Pov
" Ok then, come over " I said to Cole on the call
Kyle and Cole are coming over as its been long since the three of us met.
Its been two weeks, since I changed the house, I tried every possible way I could think of to talk with Sia, but I don't have any courage. Forget about talking I'm not able to see her in eyes
The past two weeks, I've drown myself in work and only work, so that somehow I could decrease the amount of guilt I feel but nothing is working.
Everytime I close my eyes, her crying face flash infront of me pleading to don't do this with her
I'm still trying to figure out how should I correct all this?
Yesterday, I was looking for something in the walk-in closet and I don't know how my gaze fell on a file which was tucked under something.
Thinking that the file is mine, I picked up and opened it only to get another dreadful shock. It was Sia's report which said that she is suffering from a severe depression, and she is in a dire need of therapy.
It also said that this kind of depression is so rare and serious that before people could even try to understand that what's going on, it eats you up from inside leaving no room of improvement.
This wasn't enough, the report is of one and half years with a prescription of anti depressant pills which is to take for 20 days only.
'What if she is still taking it? ' I thought.
I looked here and there, not knowing what to do, I searched her stuffs and found the pills.
Fuck!
She is taking Anti depressant pills from one and half years. She is killing herself and reducing the chances of getting better.
Although I did saw her taking the pills earlier but I thought its for normal things like headaches and stuffs
'Thanks to you' my inner self mocked me
I felt weak, ashamed, disgusted and angry by me But somehow I calm myself and clicked pictures of her reports with the pills.
I was thinking about whatever happened yesterday, just then Kyle's voice brings me out of my thoughts. Looking up I saw both my friends giving me strange look
I raised my eyebrows but they just shrugged and came to sit beside me. We were talking about random stuffs, I know they are just trying to cheer me up but its not helping.
After some more talk Cole ask " so, did you talk to her "
I shooked my head negatively
" I am not able to look at her, how am I gonna talk to her? Looking at her reminds me of all the things I've done" I said lowly
There was a silence of one minute after that Kyle said " Umm.."
" Umm X, don't mind me asking this but how come you've suddenly got soft, very soft spot for her " Kyle asked
" I mean as much as I know you, you don't feel guilty not even when you're wrong, you never care about anyone " He further added
Why my friends have to care this much?
Frankly speaking I don't have any answers to his question, even I don't know why I'm feeling guilty to this extent
Whenever I used to humiliate her or call her burden, I felt satisfied but somewhere there was always a little, very very little part of me who wants to be with her.
From the night I abandoned her, I started finding reasons to talk about her, obviously not in a good way.
I don't know how and when my hatred turned into obsession
" X, X? " Cole shooks my arms with bring me out of my thoughts
" Umm no, its just that her life got ruined because of me " I said looking away
Looking at both of their faces, I knew they aren't satisfied with my answer, not even a little bit but thankfully they didn't ask further.
" Fine, its been long till we hang-" Cole said but stopped in the middle and looked behind me
I turned around only to see Sia with a tray in her hands, before we could say anything she came and put the tray on the table.
" Sorry Sir, I didn't knew that you have guests " she said and left
No one said a word for a good two minutes and after that Kyle asked " Sir??"
"I-I ordered her to call me that only af-after our wedding " I said looking here and there
"Fuck, you really need to sort this out" Kyle said while Cole was looking at me unbelievably
After a few more talks, both of them bid bye, not before giving me some much needed motivation.
I closed my eyes for a second and decided to do anything to bring the old Sia back who had dreams to fulfill and a life to live
With this thought, I went upstairs to our room.
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She was there sitting on the bed with her laptop on her lap, but her whole concentration was on her phone. She was staring in her phone.
Although she wasn't smiling but her face looks different at the very moment
what is so interesting in her phone?
Taking a deep sigh, I cleared my throat but she didn't respond instead she put the phone away and started working on her laptop
" Umm Sia? " I said but she didn't replied like always
"Sia?" I again said and the result was still the same, no reply
I know that she won't reply until and unless I call her 'bitch'
" Sia Evans?" I said, again no reply
" Mrs. Black " I said and no reply
" Mrs. Xander Black" I again called and still no reply
Sighing, I went towards her and closed her laptop.
" Ok, I got it. You're following each and every rules but as far as I remember I can add or remove it " I said
" So, from now on you won't be calling me Sir and second you would reply to me everytime I talk with you " I said but she didn't reacted.
All she did was to get up from the bed and started going towards the door but I was fast enough to pull her
" You understand? " I asked
" No, I didn't Sir " She said looking straight in my eyes and I looked away
She is one hell of a stubborn girl!
I knew she won't listen to me so, I decided to hold the topic for sometime.
" Get Ready, we are going somewhere. Now " I said and left
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I was sitting downstairs when I heard footsteps, turning back I saw her coming
I could never deny that she is the cutest girl I've ever seen, not even when I was taking the wicked revenge.
Sia's outfit
Standing up from my place, we both left without a word
Xander's outfit
After reaching to our destination, I looked towards her, she was lost somewhere in her thoughts that she didn't realise we have already reached.
"Sia? Sia? " I said and she came out of her thoughts
" Come, we are here " I said and thats when she looked outside and saw where are we
For few seconds, she stared at me plainly and then left the car
She wasn't reacting or saying anything. Her face had no emotions, she just stayed beside me at the door while I knocked
The door opened and revealed her Aunt who looks surprised and then happy seeing us
" Oh my gosh, Sia and X " she said and hugged Sia tightly and then me
From the corner of my eyes I saw Sia giving her best fake smile
We went inside and meet Sia's Uncle who was equally happy as her Aunt
Apparently her mum was still at work, so we sat there talking about random stuffs
" Mom! Where are you? " A voice shouted from the door
I knew exactly who it was! Sia's brother who hit me on my wedding day infront of my bodyguards
That day I decided to destroy his career but now I know that I deserve much more than that blow
" Mom, liste- Siaaaa! " He whined first and then seeing Sia he screamed with excitement
Sia stood up and Kevin took her in a bear hug, he kissed her forehead
" I've missed you soo much. You know what these women in our family are going to make me mad " he complaint like a child
I know that Kevin and Sia are very close. Sia told me all about their happy and sad moments when she used to adore me, and when I used to humiliate her.
" How are- " Kevi said but stopped in the middle after seeing me
His whole expression changed from happy and excited to furious and anger
He was glaring me while I didn't know what should I do
Awkward!
After few minutes, he sit on one of the couches but still his eyes were on me.
This kid has something, he hit me on my wedding day, infront of my bodyguards, didn't gave me a chance to speak and the top of all he threatened me that he is going to kill me and ruin me for whatever I did with his sister.
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" Hello " Sia's mum said coming
Seeing both of us, she smiled widely, and hugged Sia by kissing multiple times on her forehead. She was crying and telling Sia how much she missed her?
I also stood up out of courtesy, and bring my hands forward
"Good Evening, Miss Evans " I said with a small smile
She looked at me for a sec and shooed my hand away, coming forward she hugged me and said smilingly " Call me Mum, just Like Sia you're also my child "
Mum!
Lump form in my throat but somehow I controlled myself and said " Ok, M-mum"
She smiled and then start asking questions to us
Sia was smiling all the time, but I knew its fake. In all this talks I could feel Kevin glares on me all the time
After some more talks and dinner, we bid bye to all of them.
Mum was happy, so happy seeing us. when we were coming she kissed my forehead and blessed me with all the happiness.
Why did she has to be this good?
I don't deserve all this care and blessings.
I went and sit inside the car just then Kevin came, I rolled the windows down and raised my eyebrows
" You fucker, don't think for a second that I forgot what you did " he said loathingly
I sighed looking away and said " yes, I know and I'll be sorry for that my whole life "
" Take your fucking sorry with your Fucking self " he said and left
After few minutes, Sia came and sit beside me and I drove towards our house
The whole ride I thought about Sia's Mum, how will she react when she will know that I destroyed her daughter?
Today when she asked me to call her mum, I felt different.
I loved my mother the most, she was my everything but she left me alone and after that I had only one aim to take my revenge.
I don't know how does it feel like to have a mother, who pester you to do something, who always stick by your side, who loves you immensely, who scolds you when you're wrong and who wants to always see you the happiest.
Thinking about all this, we finally reached.
Without saying anything, Sia just left the car while I sit there for a while thinking what should I do.
I have to mend her
Not for me, but for her
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Its way too hard to find Niti's serious pics.
Xoxo,
Marbil