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* Present Day*
"I'm sorry I left the way I did but-"
"Oh yeah a letter explaining how we weren't real and we didn't mean anything to each other" he smiled but there was no humor behind it "You dropped off the face of the earth with no warning or anything just a stupid piece of paper sitting on my counter, you left just like my dad and just like Gideon. So I really don't feel like being friends with you"
"Spencer" you called out but it was too late. He had already walked away...
You followed him out into the bullpen. "Spencer can we please talk"
You lightly grazed his hand but he jerked himself away and turned to face you "I already said no so just fuck off"
You almost flinched at his words. It had been years, you expected for him to change but seeing him so upfront was surprising. You could feel the eyes staring at the both of you. It was the first day back and you had already fucked up.
Spencer looked around and brushed past you to exit. You just stood in the middle of the bullpen like an idiot and didn't know what to do until you felt a light tap on your shoulder.
"He's had it rough these past years" it was JJ
"I know"
"Trust me deep down I know he's glad that his best friend is back" JJ rubbed your shoulder before walking away again
"Right" you whispered and looked down at your feet. You had almost forgotten that no one knew about you and Spencer
"He wasn't just your friend was he" you heard a voice beside you. You looked down and it was Luke sitting in your old desk.
"You were just sitting there the whole time" you joked
"Deflecting I see" his smile was sweet and he was just trying to be a new friend
"Um" you looked around to see if anyone else you knew was listening "Yeah he was more than a friend"
"Wait you and Reid were a thing" your eyes widened when you heard another voice. It was Tara. She had snuck up behind you
"Well it looks like the BAU still loves it's gossip" you stepped to the side so Tara could join the conversation "Yeah we were a thing"
"So what happened" Luke grabbed the mug on his table and took a sip
"Uh" you smiled the most you could so you wouldn't start feeling guilty all over again "I sort of disappeared on everybody"
"Wait your that Agent" Tara pointed her finger at you
"What do you mean" you furrowed your brows
"There have been many agents these guys have talked about that we never met like Elle, Kate, Blake ect. but you were the most talked about"
You laughed nervously "I am not the same person I used to be so hopefully they weren't bad things"
"No they were all great things" Luke exclaimed "I'm surprised you came back after what you went through"
"And what did they say I went through"
"No one got into details but the kidnapping must have taken a huge toll if it caused you to leave"
"Yep" you sighed "Big toll"
"We don't have to talk about it I'm sorry" Tara gently rubbed your back "I'm glad we finally got to meet you"
"I'm happy to be back" you smiled "Well I should get back to Emily and finish up with the day"
"Okay"
"Okay"
"We should definitely get drinks together sometime" you called out before walking away
"Sounds great" they both said
...
You were finally settled into a desk and it was getting late. You were one of the last ones in the office and decided it was time to get going.
"Have a good night Luke" you waved at the only person left on your team that was here
"Night Y/n" he waved
You noticed that the elevator doors were about to close so you ran over and slipped inside before they closed. Once you were inside you noticed that it was Spencer who was in the elevator with you
"Great" he mumbled under his breath
You wanted to speak up but you didn't want to upset him. If he wanted space you were going to let him have it. So you wanted this ride to quickly end but the universe had other plans. The elevator started to violently shake and you panicked. Before you knew it Spencer's hands were wrapped around you and your head was buried into his chest.
Once it stopped you slowly looked up at him and he looked at you. It felt like no time had passed. He still had the beautiful glint in his eyes and his lips were a pink and plump. You cleared your throat and pushed him away gently. "Sorry"
He didn't say anything. He just walked over to the corner and pressed the emergency button. You walked over to the doors and banged on them "Hello!"
"I don't think that will accomplish anything" you turned your head and watched him slowly leaned against the side of elevator wall
"Y/n? Spencer?" it was Luke's voice
"Looks like it did" you grinned "Yeah we're stuck in here!"
"You are going to be in there for a while but don't worry help is on it's way" you could tell he was yelling but his voice sounded muffled and far away
"Okay!" you yelled back
You slowly turned around and leaned against the opposite wall to Spencer's. You both looked at each other for a moment before you decided to tilt your head up and stare at the ceiling. You decided to cut the tension.
"I just wanted to say that I was sorry for the way I left"
"I don't care" he tilted his head to the side and looked at the floor
"It wasn't an easy decision"
"Was your decision made the same day you left" he lifted his gaze from the ground to you
You opened your mouth to say something but no words came out.
"Then I guess it was a very easy decision" he shook his head
"We weren't working"
"So you just take off with no warning"
"We were not going to get help if I stayed"
"That's not true" he took a step closer to you "I was trying and you weren't"
"You told me to get help and so I did" you pushed yourself off the wall "Just not the way you wanted to"
"You could have at least called or something, anything" he began to raise his voice at you
"I couldn't face you, I still don't know how I mustered up the courage to actually come into work today" you stepped closer to him and gently pressed your palm against his cheek, the stubble tickled your skin "I knew that you would be okay, I knew that you would have been fine without me"
Spencer tensed up before relaxing into your touch. His hand traveled to your cheek and you felt his hand push away the hairs blocking your face. You were finally face to face, he slowly brushed the side of your arm before placing his hand on yours. He slowly removed your hand and placed it to your side.
"Well I wasn't okay after you left I wasn't anywhere near okay" he sighed
"I'm sorry" you whispered
His body was still pressed against yours and then the doors opened.
"Don't talk to me unless it's work related" his voice slightly cracked and then he walked out the elevator brushing past Luke
You sighed and wiped the tear that was threatening to fall down your face. You walked out the elevator to stand in front of Luke
"I'm guessing that wasn't friendly banter"
"Nope" you nervously laughed and watched Spencer disappear into the hallway
"Let me take you home"
You turned your head towards Luke "What"
"No one knows about your past with Reid, I bet your dying to talk about everything" he smiled "I'll be your vent buddy"
"Oh" you nodded slowly "Sure"
"Come on" he rested his hand on your upper back and guided you towards the stairwell
You slowly turned your head to look up at him "Thanks" you paused for a moment "Newbie"
He scoffed and playfully rolled his eyes then looked down at you
"Sorry Penny's orders" you shrugged
"Wouldn't you be the newbie" he laughed
"Mm" you pondered "Nope"
"This is going to be a long night"
"You offered yourself to me, too late" you giggled
"Fair enough"