SIMS.
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I’m still on the floor crying my eyes out for this man that I love who’s my husband and my everything. I thought my marriage was strong, that no one can come between me and my husband. I thought our love and trust for each other was enough for both of us. Clearly I was wrong cause everything I thought was going on with him was because of his mom and everything but it wasn’t. He was having an affair with someone for the whole 6 months. He was making love to her while I got fucked like I was a piece of trash. I will never forget the picture of them together like that. Bonga broke me, he destroyed everything I believe in. My hopes and dreams. My trust for him and our marriage. My all and everything I have ever given this man wasn’t enough cause he saw fit to give and seek comfort in the arms of another woman.
I wipe my tears then get up and go to my bedroom. I take my phone then send luh a message that the breakfast picnic went great with bonga and I’ll see her tomorrow. I take off my clothes, wear my swim suit then go downstairs to the basement, open the cellar and take the wine bottles then leave. I hear a car pulling up and I look outside the window and it’s him. I turn and go outside the back yard put everything on the table then jump in the pool. I let the water caress my body as I swim lap, after lap after lap until I feel exhausted. I drag my tired body out of the water and see him sitting there watching me. I ignore him dry myself, open the bottle of wine, pour it and drink. I gulp down three glasses then leave. I have to wash the chlorine off my skin.
Deciding not to have a housekeeper was the best decision I have ever made cause right now they would know that something is going on between me and my husband. It is just the two of us in the house. The kids are not here to see what is going on and by Sunday when they come back I’ll make sure that I have put myself back together again. I don’t want anyone to know what is going in my marriage cause everyone will be up in my business and I also don’t want this to affect the others marriages.I guess that’s gojng to be my life right now. Pretending that everything is okay in our marriage.
I stand in front of the mirror and look at myself taking off the swimsuit. What is wrong with me that made my husband cheat on me?. Was it because I’m not skinny?, more beautiful enough? Not spontaneous cause I thought I was. I thought being open with our sex life he would resist the temptation to cheat because he is getting everything from me but obviously I was wrong and not spontaneous enough. Just when I think I have everything I have ever wanted then boom it all blows up in my face. My life is not as perfect as I thought. I wish these stupid tears would stop falling and I would stop feeling the way I’m feeling. My heart hurts so bad and it feels like my life is over and it has ended. God give me strength. I see his reflection in the mirror and our eyes lock. I look away
“ There’s nothing wrong with you. You are absolutely perfect in every way.” He’s a mind reader now?.
“ wasn’t I enough for you? ” he sighs and walks in and stands behind me. He’s big, taller and stronger than me. I used to love it when he would stand behind, pull me closer to his chest then turn my head and kiss me senseless. But now I hate him standing behind me like that. I hate that I want to fall apart and let him comfort me knowing very well that he’s the reason I’m feeling this way.
“ You’ve always been enough for me. You’re everything to me simphiwe I know I hurt you but it was never my intention. ”
“ why did you do it then? ”
“ Because I was selfish and I wasn’t thinking about how it is going to destroy my family. ” I shake my head.
“ You mean you didn’t think I was going to find out right?. If luh didn’t… . You know what I’m done talking about this. For the whole 6 months you’ve been having an relationship with another woman. An affair and while I was here waiting for you, begging you to talk to me but you weren’t interested cause you wanted to be somewhere else away from me!.You fucked me like I was a piece of trash!. Do you know how how dirty you made me feel?. ”
“ Baby no!. Please… . ”
“ baby? Is that what you called her too?. Baby when you made love to her? God the sounds you made… . You were enjoying her!. You gave her the pleasure you failed to give me! Wasn’t I enough for bonga? Tell me!. ”
“ you are everything to me. You and our boys are everything to me baby. I wish I could take back everything wr6ing I did to you. I wish I didn’t cheat on you baby. ”
“ should I be worried about STDs and HIV? ”
“ what no!. I could never put your life in danger like that. I used a condom every time. ”
“ And that is suppose to make me feel better right?. ”
“ No. ” he sighs and sits down in the toilet seat and covers his face. “ I am so ashamed for what I did to you. I am so ashamed that I treated you so bad and made you think that my behaviour was your fault when it wasn’t. ”
“ did I push you to cheat bonga? ”
“ Please stop saying this. I am the one who’s in the wrong here and not too. You love me, you support me. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me and I took you for granted. You do everything to make me happy baby and I fucked it all up. ”
“ I thought we were on the same page. No one cheats. If you feel like you want to do something, we talk about it and agree like how we did with the threesome. Did you agree to the threesome cause you wanted to ease your guilty conscience?. Is that it? ”
“ No baby I didn’t ask you because I was feeling guilty. We both agreed cause it’s what we both wanted. I don’t regret what we shared together with him. Baby what you gave me when you agreed to the threesome is something both at I will never forget. You were concentrating on me the whole entire time. I enjoyed watching him fucked you and you watching me. He respected you and treated you like the beautiful woman you are. ” he gets up, comes towards me and his front touches my back. I take a deep breath.
“ yes we agreed on that, what I didn’t agree on was you fucking another woman. We don’t have an open marriage and we never will. You hurt me in ways I never thought were possible and I hate you right now. I hate looking at you, I hate that you’re standing behind me still smelling like that piece of trash you fucked. I hate that you made me question myself worth but what I hate the most is that you didn’t just hurt me. You hurt the boys too. Tell me how are we going to explain all this to them? ”
“ they don’t have to know baby. Just tell me what to do so I can fix this.”
“ I didn’t send you out to cheat so why must I tell you how to fix what you broke?. You fix this whole mess you created… .. ” I take a deep breath. “ the boys aw re coming back on Sunday and you are right. I don’t want to disappoint my kids on another failed relationship because for the first time in a long time they have everything they have ever wanted. A dad who loves them unconditionally who’s always there for them. We are a family and I don’t want to take that away from them. They are deserve to have a happy and loving home but I’m not happy now bonga. ” I sniff.
“ Just give me a chance to fix our marriage and I promise I’ll make everything better between us. Just don’t tell me you want us to separate cause that will kill me baby please… . ” I take a step away from him.
“ My family didn’t allow you to marry me so you can lie, cheat on me and break my heart bonga. I didn’t sign up for this. ”
“ You’re my wife simphiwe in every way and I don’t want to lose my family too. I don’t want the boys to know cause that is going to hurt them and they are going to be very disappointed in me. I will make all of this right between us I promise you. ”
“ you are going to be sleeping in the couch here cause I don’t want the boys to know or even suspect anything is wrong between us. I don’t want anyone to know that you cheated on me because I don’t want luh and less go to think that maybe mouse and scelo might cheat on them too. I want you to give me space and deal with everything. ”
“ You can take all the time you need and I will gain your trust and prove my loyalty and love to you. ”
“ I’ve heard that before. ”
“ Baby… . ”
“ was she the only one you cheated on me with for 6 months? ” he sighs.
“ She’s the only one and she’s lying. It’s not 6 months. ”
“ Oh really? Why would she lie about that? ”
“ She has been my client for 6 months only and we… I slept with her only four times. That’s all. ”
“ you want to fix things between us but you’re already lying to me about her? ”
“ I’m not lying baby I swear. ”
“ How did she become your client? ”
“ she came to my office because she wanted me to make her a house plan. They bought land so they are planning to build their home. ”
“ She’s married? ”
“ She is married. ” hmmm
“ you have people who work for you, so why would she personally want you to make her a house plan cause you don’t that anymore? ”
“ I think maybe because her husband is a politician that’s why. ”
“ Who’s her husband? ”
“ Vukani Buthelezi. ”
“ the minister of finance? You fucked his wife? Oh my God bonga? ”
“ What if he finds out? ”
“ I don’t care about them. She ruined her marriage Just like I ruined mine. ”
“ you are going to drop her as a client. I don’t want her anywhere near the company. If I find out that you are talking to her again or lying to protect her and keeping other lies concerning her or anyone else that you were cheated on me with?. You will regret the day you decided to cross me. I’m not one to be messed with bonga cause I don’t just get mad I get even. I leave him there looking at me shocked.
I get in the bathroom and take my time and shower. I come out when I’m done and find him sitting on the bed with his head in his shoulder and I feel irritated that he is still here. I moisturize my body then look for something to wear cause I have something I have to be at. I wear my matching bra and underwear then look for my jeans and T-shirt, do a little make up then wear my curly weave. Even though I feel like shit inside but in the outside I look damn hot. I have done this before and I can do it again. Pretend to be fine while I’m not. It’s not something knew.
“ Where are you going? ”
“ Away from you. ” I look for my hand bag then remember I left it in the car.
“ what did you mean when you said you get even? ”
“ I meant exactly that!. ” he gets up trying to intimidate me and it’s nit going to work.
“ Are you planning on cheating on me? ”
“ if I do then you would know how it feels and how I’m feeling. ”
“ you better be not thinking of doing something stupid. ”
“ Maybe I want to be stupid on my terms cause you and the men I’ve been with see it fit to treat me like I am stupid. ”
“ You are a mother sims, you can’t go and do stupid and reckless things!. ”
“ save that fact and opinion when I have done something stupid!. ”
“ don’t talk to me like that sims. I’m still your husband!. ”
“ Oh yes, you’re my husband when it suits you right? ” he sighs and walks close to me and I take step back.
“ baby you are angry right now and not thinking straight. I don’t want you to do something that you’ll regret later and put your life in danger. ” I walk around him to leave but he blocks my way.
“ get out of my bonga! I asked you to give me time and stay out of my way and you agreed!. ”
“ No!. You’re not leaving this house cause I know you are going to get drunk and hurt yourself. ”
“ what I do is none of your business. A few hours you didn’t care about where I go and what I do so don’t start now!. ”
“ if you want to get drunk then get drunk in this house. I’ll stay away from you just don’t leave please baby don’t.”
“ I don’t want to be in this house right now. I want to go somewhere and be able to breath away from you. You’re suffocating me!. ”
“ ohk fine. Let me call luh and lesego to come here so you won’t be alone. ”
“ no!. You keep them out of your dirty mess. I don’t want them to see me like this or you want them to know what you did to me huh? ”
“ Of course not but you need them baby. ”
“ What I need is to be away from you cause I can’t look at you without feeling disgusted!. ” I scream at him and he winces. I walk to the bed and burst into tears and cry hysterically. The bed dips and he wraps his arms around me, pulling me close so I can cry on his chest. I fight him off and keep hitting him but he doesn’t let go instead he holds me tight.
BONGA
I remove her shoes, cover her with a throw blanket then go to the bathroom and take one of her facial wipes and wipe her beautiful face. She curls her body like a foetus and sniffs and I watch her until her breathing gets even and she falls asleep. I leave our bedroom and go downstairs and sit on the couch. How could I be so stupid and cheat on her?. The look on her face when she saw me with her will haunt me forever. It keeps playing over and over my mind and I took feel sick and disgusted with myself. I knew she wanted me to fucked her and at the end I gave in and fucked her. It wasn’t suppose to happen but I let it happen and it was like I couldn’t help myself. Fuck!.
I take the decadent and drink the whisky inside. What if she decides she doesn’t want to be with me anymore? What will I do cause I can’t live without her and our kids? What the hell did I do and how am I going to fix this whole mess I created?. Sima is a very strong woman who doesn’t let anything get in her way. She’s a determines person who does what she wants, when she wants that’s one of the things I love about her and scare me to. She told me straight to my face that she doesn’t just get mad she also gets even and that scares the shot out of me to think that’s she might decide to cheat on me. I will kill any man who dares to touch her. I’ll kill all of them. My phone rings and Its in the kitchen counter. I look at it and it’s that damn bitch.
“ Didn’t I tell you to never contact me again? ”
“ we have a good thing going between us and it’s good now that your wife knows. We ain’t have to sneak around anymore bonga. ”
“ bitch you’re fucken crazy. We have nothing going on. I was just fuxking you taking my frustrations out on you. Don’t you dare act like we were lovers cause we were fucken not! ”
“ I am ready to leave my husband for you bonga, you can’t just dump me like that?!. I won’t let you!. ”
“ let me? You the duck do you think you’re talking to bitch! ”
“ you bonga!. I won’t let you fuck me like that then throw me on the side. Look I’m willing to be your second wife cause I loveyouu and want to be with you!. ”
“ Listen to me and listen very carefully. I am married to one woman and one wants only. I don’t want you or anyone else for that matter. I used you like how you used me to scratch your itch now get over it and find someone else to fuck you. ”
“ No! No! No!. I want you!. ”
“ you don’t want to piss me off khensani I’m warning you!. ”
“ I’m going to go to the police and tell them you raped me!. ” this twisted demented bitch!.
“I dare you to go!. Before you’re even done making your statement the whole world will know who’s the father of those kids that your husband thinks are his. He will know that he’s actually raising his grandkids not his kids. I will leak all videos of us fucking and those of the other ministers you have fucked in your home. ”
“ What? You don’t know what you’re talking about! “
“ I have proof bitch. I don’t get into business with just anyone. I have to know who am I getting in bed with and you are a very bad bitch. Your husband is not so squeaky clean too. His skeletons in the closet will kill you. Now do yourself a uge favour. Stay the fuck away from me and my wife. If I hear or see that you breathing in her direction I will leak everything to the media and ruin you!. Try me bitch! ” I hang up and throw the whole decadent in the wall and it breaks into pieces. Fuck this bitch!. I need a distraction before on go find that bitch and kill her. I take my phone and order food from mrD foods. Sims is going to wake up feeling hungry. I have to talk to mbuso and tell him what’s going on in case that bitch causes trouble for me. I dial his number and wait as it rings.
“ brother? ”
“ how far are you? ”
“ what’s wrong? ”
“ Nothing. How far are you? ”
“ we are going to be home in five hours. What is wrong bonga? ”
“ I messed up.. I really did. ”
“ Sims found out that you’re fucking that girl didn’t she? ”
“ What? You knew? ”
“ of course I knew! The moment you asked me to find something about her I knew!. I just knew it and I told you to stay away from that bitch and you didn’t listen to me bonga as always and now look what happened! ”
“ I’m sorry man!. ”
“ You are about to lose your family brother because of some piece of ass. How stupid can you be? ”
“ she’s going to cause problems for me and I can’t have that!. ”
“ on top of everything we are dealing with you go and decide to go and cheat on your wife brother why? ”
“ I don’t know! ”
“ Don’t fucken tell me that!. You know why you cheated so don’t bullshit me bonga!. ”
“ I was. scared okay! I was fucken scared that sims might betray me the way mom did but I ended up being the one to betray her!. ”
“ how cause sims doesn’t have a twin and there’s one her in this world so explain it to me? ”
“ What if she keeps some big secrets from me and I find out later in our marriage like how mom did
“ oh my fucken God!. ” mbuso says and I hear a gasp. I look up and it’s her fuck me!.
“ Baby I… . ”
“ I am not like your mother bonga and I would never betray you like that. Ever!. ” she says crying. Why do I keep adding more problems on top of the one’s I already have.
“ I have to go. We’ll talk. ”
“ I’ll have a talk with that bitch. Fix this bonga, sims doesn’t deserve this. ”
“ I know brother. I will. ” I hand up.