Sana's POV
Another month has passed after the time I spent day whole day with her.
The same day I realized that I was falling for her.
And was it wrong?
What should I do?
"Sakura, you haven't been out of your room in weeks. You have been eating all your meals inside your room. Did something happen?" A voice from the other side of the door was heard.
It was father.
I opened the door and gave him a smile.
"I'm fine, father. I've been busy these past days," I said.
"Well, Dianne has been asking these past weeks if you were sick. She's really worried," He said as I was in shock.
She was worried?
About me?
Of course she would be. We're friends.
But why am I overthinking this?
Or maybe was it because of me not being able to spend time with her? It's been a month since I tried to avoid her.
"You've become that close to her. Why not spend time with her today?" He suggested.
Should I? It would be weird to approach her after actually avoiding her for almost a month now.
"N-not now, father. I'm b-busy," I said.
"I'll just tell her, she's downstairs by the way," He said, along with my heartbeat suddenly circulating quickly.
"Y-yeah, I-I'll go with her n-next time," I said and quickly closed the door then took a deep breath.
"Okay then, I'll tell her," He said then left.
I closed the door and sat on the edge of my bed.
I wanted to talk to Dianne, but something was stopping me.
I just couldn't figure out what it was.
Was it fear? Or the risks?
Maybe it was our friendship?
The fact that everything that we've gone through would just disappear like the wind once she finds out about this.
The fact that the once so comfortable chill of that wind becomes something much colder, empty, and alone.
Like, who would want that to happen?
A broken friendship because of one's feelings.
And what's worse is that she might leave me in the friendzone.
It's like both people would still be friends but, cold.
And awkward, hard to express, and difficult to move on from.
Well, that's what my friends told me before.
It hurts them, but at least they would still be friends.
But I won't risk it.
Then I suddenly got it.
I was afraid of taking risks.
I always was.
I want to tell her everything.
But I decided to avoid her.
I got her worried.
And now, I'm overthinking this.
I was falling.
Deeper than I had expected.
And it was hurting me.
Now the thought of her makes me blush.
Her scent was still stuck in my head.
Her monolid eyes. Simply breathtaking.
Her soft voice calling my name, captures my heart like she was taking a picture.
I seem to not find more words to describe her.
Imperfectly perfect.
She was the girl I slapped at a café.
The girl I used to hate.
The one who stood by me since we became friends despite of what I did.
I chuckled at the thought.
I remembered how she used to call me an arrogant person.
She also kept pushing me to do what I've always wanted to do.
She takes me to where the best food in town could be consumed.
I then fell for her.
Sounds weird.
I've never experienced it.
I had high standards ever since I was young.
And she was simple.
And I love her for that.
I should probably take my mind off this for the meantime.
I laid down the bed and just blankly stared at the ceiling.
Falling in love had always been this weird?
What would it be like if she would feel the same?
Are risks even worth it?
I suddenly drifted to sleep.
I woke up to see the moonlight above the night sky.
What time is it?
Maybe I need to walk around.
I prepared and went out of my room.
"Father, I'm going out for the meantime," I called out.
"It's already late, Sakura," He said.
"I can handle myself, father," I said in response.
"You used to be scared of going out alone at night. My little princess has grown now," He said and pretended to wipe tears on his face as I chuckled.
"I'll be fine father. Maybe I'll have a quick stroll around town," I said as he ruffled my hair.
"Fine, keep safe, princess," He said.
I smiled at him and left.
I rode our family carriage and went to town.
to be specific, our usual spot.
The lakeside where I realized things.
Where we watched the sunset disappear, as the moon replaces it.
Where the light turned into darkness.
And then I realized that the darkness of the night wasn't really dark.
You told me that there was the sun who gives the moon light to keep the night bright.
The moon needs it's sun, and so the sun was there.
It was not alone.
Yet here I am, I went here alone.
To a place so special to us, just to remember you without actually approaching you.
I closed my eyes, it helps me think.
And thinking of you makes me feel that you are here with me.
"Hey," A voice spoke.
It's weird that I even hear your voice. Do I think about you that much?
"Sakura Minatozaki," The voice called my name.
My imagination sure is weird. I also remember the exact tone of your voice.
Then I felt someone sat beside me.
I opened my eyes to see you with eyebrows furrowed.
"Hi," I said, starting to feel awkward once more.
"I thought you were sick. I was worried," She said as I chuckled.
"S-surprise, I guess," I said.
"Were you avoiding me? Did I do something wrong?" She asked.
"I-I'm not, y-you didn't," I simply answered as she suddenly leaned on me.
"This is weird, but I missed you," She softly said.
My heart started fluttering like I just drank five cups of coffee.
"Your heart is beating fast. What's on your mind, and heart?" She noticed then asked.
"I-I can't tell," I answered.
"Just tell me when you're ready," She said as I nodded.
Then the next weird thing happened.
Our hands were now intertwined.
Don't make me assume, Dianne.
"Your hand is cold," She said then chuckled.
"What are we Dianne?" I suddenly asked.
Shit.
Is this it?
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