I reached at hotel with absent minded. I didn't want to come hotel but went to Sid's home. I didn't want shlok knew in any case that I was in hotel. But Sid told me that Reema went to her parents' house and he is in hotel that's why there was nobody at his home. And I should come hotel. I told him I won't stay at hotel. After check up I will go back and don't book hotel room by my name. He agreed without asking any question because he already knew why I was doing it.
Sid told me he was busy that's why he couldn't come to welcome me and I didn't care about it. It's not that I ever ask him to do it but he does it by his heart and I respect his opinion that's why I never denied. As I entered, I noticed someone stood in front of me. I was exhausted that's why I didn't look at him and tried to go inside by side. But I noticed he again block my way. I was not mood to deal with anyone just now that's why I got a side but he came again in front of me. Was he doing it on purpose? I almost lost my temper and looked at his face with anger. I wanted to scold him but looking at his face nothing came out from my mouth. My mind stopped to think anything. Why was he here? I blinked my eyes and looked at him again. What if it's my illusion.
He was smiling. After noticing my expression, he came close to me, put his hand on my waist and pulled me towards him. I was really surprised to his behaviour. I put my both hands on his chest to keep the distance.
He told, "Rashmi, I miss you so much."
I also missed him but I couldn't say it. I chuckled and said softly, "Shlok, we met last evening. It's not that we didn't meet for long time."
He sighed, "I know but when you left me there it was like a long time for me."
I also felt it that's why I was not feeling weird to hear it. I noticed everyone looking with widened eyes. First because of our current standing position in public and second, he was owner of this hotel.
I pushed him lightly with my both hands and said with low voice, "Shlok, let me go. Everyone is looking at us." But he was strong than me or I liked our current closeness. It's reminded me that he was in front of me and it's not my illusion.
He chuckled and said with confident, "I don't care because I am hugging my fiancee?"
I felt warm inside my heart to hear it but I pretended to frown, "Who is fiance? We didn't get engaged till yet."
His holding got more tight on my waist and he said with serious expression, "Then let's go and get engaged now. Even, I have no problem to marry you now."
I knew if I didn't coax him, he will definitely marry me today. I smiled softly and said, "Shlok, I was just kidding. Don't be serious. Ok?"
He said with determined while looking at my eyes, "I am already serious."
I was speechless because I didn't know what to say him. I tried to change topic, "let's go inside. It's entrance we are blocking everyone."
He nodded with sigh, "yeah... by the way we need to talk."
I knew what he wanted to talk. I was not ready but I knew I couldn't escape and I needed to tell him everything. Then it's on him what he will take decision.
I nodded and we came into his suite. I looked inside and recalled when we were here last time, we decided to give our relationship a try.
Shlok closed the door behind us and told with smile, "I think this hotel is lucky for us." I looked at him for explaination and he continued, "Here I started to get know about you more. Here I started to have feelings for you and fall in love. Here we spend our relationship starting time. Here you accepted my feelings."
I recalled as he was saying. He was right. But I didn't notice he came to close me when he was saying it. I only felt when I felt his lips on mine. First time, his kiss was aggressive but I didn't mind it because I was feeling same. I responded him with same desire.
He lifted me and took me into bedroom. We sat on the bed and I put my head on his chest. My insecurity, my doubt, my tiredness everything went by his little action. I was feeling relax into his arm.
He was caressing my hairs and I was enjoying it then I heard his hurt voice, "Rashmi, why did you say I need time to think? And why did you leave me there without getting my response? And why did you come here?"
I looked at him and opened my mouth to say but he put his finger on my lips, "Let me finish first." I nodded. He continued, "I don't care what was your past. I don't care who you are or not. I love you and it will never change into any suitation. Rashmi, you are first girl for whom I have any feeling. I was admirer of Queen of kindness but I never met her. After meeting you, I forgot everything except you. You are only important for me. I care your present and future because I want to be part of it.
Rashmi, I won't hide from you anything. My mom didn't like you since you rejected my marriage proposal. According to her, you are arrogant but I told her I will only marry you otherwise I won't marry. That's why she also agreed. But she is really admirer of Queen of kindness. After knowing you are her, she will definitely like you.
That's why you don't need to overthink about any matter. And most importantly, remember I am always with you."
I didn't know how to response him. I wanted to cry but I controlled my tears. I took deep breath and said after thinking carefully, "Shlok, I will tell you everything." After he nodded, I continued, "I was not strong in childhood like now. Even, my classmates bullied me whenever they had chances. That time, Suhana saved me from that bullied classmates. I was week and unconfident.
Then I met Tushar. He helped me and what I am now because of him. He was my teacher, my ideal. He taught me to how to fight back, made me strong and confident. I was really impressed with me and I had trust him blindly that time." I smiled when I recalled that time. I told, "that time, if he asked me to go west, I would never go east even I knew there was dangerous in west but I didn't care. Everyone started to think I had feelings for him but I didn't care to explain except one person.... My cousin. She trusted me that's why everything was fine that time but we got adult and everything changed.
He left me and I was lonely. My family started to make distance with me and I lost everything in an blink. I started to hate that title. When I can't keep everyone together, what's the use of that title?
Then you came into my life. I knew from starting you have feelings for me but I decided to ignored you and that feeling. I thought I could avoid that feeling but I was wrong. I didn't know since when I started to have feelings for you and you became an important part of my life. I tried to push away that feeling but it's impossible.
When I am with you, I became selfish and I forgot any logic or reality."
He kissed on my forehead, "I am happy to hear it that you have same feeling like me. But I want to know if you have feelings for me, why would you want to push away the feeling? Did you ever have feelings for Tushar?" He asked last sentence with gritted his teeth.
I looked at his eyes because I wanted him to know what I was telling it's truth, "I told you he was my ideal. How can I have feelings for my ideal? Even when I knew my cousin loved him? She and I had discussion about it. She liked him and I would never come into her way. But when he left me and everything, I was exhausted. I lost. I wanted him to come back in any means. That time I was going to accept his feelings for me but something happened. And I knew I won't be with him forever. I didn't want him to give happiness then take away from him."
I didn't say further because I was thinking the words to tell him. I heard his trembling voice, "what happened, Rashmi? Is the same reason you wanted to pust away the feeling for me?"
I nodded with guilty. It was not my mistake but I was the reason for every mess. He asked again but this time with pressure every word, "What's it Rashmi?"
I took a deep breath and tried to stand up but he stopped me and asked with panic, "Where are you going?" I could see his expression like I will disappear in air if he would not held me.
I smiled and cupped his cheeks with my both hands, "I am not going anywhere but I want to show you something. After seeing it, you will get your all answers."
He hestitately let me go and I chuckled his childish behaviour. I went to my bag which was put on table and took out a file. I went back to shlok and sat beside him. I looked at file last time and raised towards him with pursing my lips. I knew he was looking my every moves.
He saw the file cover and looked at me with suspicious. I nodded and he took it with trembling hands. He opened the file and read every contents carefully. Even, he was taking his time with every page.
I was looking for his expression but there was no any expression on his face. I was worried what he was thinking.
After reading he put the file aside. I looked him for his response. I thought he will react my family but he didn't say anything that's why I felt nervous. I was waiting for his response. Every minute was like hours for me. At last, he opened his mouth, "so you came here for check up. When is the check up time?"
"actually,...." But I looked at him with stunned. I never thought he will be calm than me. I looked at him with questioning. He took me into his arms and said with sad voice, "if I overreact, who will handle you... Take care you?"
I gulped my saliva and called his name, "Shlok"
He said with trying smile, "I am fine Rashmi. I am sure we will pass this suitation soon. I will get old into your arms.... With you."
I nodded with teary eyes because there was no words to describe what I was feeling. I thought he would ask why didn't I tell him before? And many other questions but he didn't ask or say anything. He wants to be with me in any suitation as he said and I believed him now.
He asked me again, "What's your check up time?
I looked at clock and told, "after 30 minutes."
He held my hand and stood up, "Let's go now otherwise we will late."
I nodded and he called for arranging car and healthy snacks. When we reached at exit, the car was waiting for us.
We sat into car and the driver started to engine. He pulled me into his arms and kissed on my forehead. I was pleased but when I noticed driver gaze on us I was embrased. He really doesn't care about his public appearance. I pushed him away lightly and scolded, "Shlok, behave yourself."
He smiled cheekily, "I can't in front of you."
I rolled my eyes and looked outside from window. I knew there is no use to say anything to him.
He asked, "why isn't anyone with you when you come to check up?"
I pursed my lips, "I don't like anyone come with me. That's why I denied to my family. And Ramesh is busy because of restaurant business."
He nodded with understanding, "then I will come with you every time and you are not allowed to deny me."
I nodded because I didn't like in past but now shlok was with me. I was feeling relaxed. I understood why every patient come with their family. Then I recalled something. I called him, "Shlok, I want to tell you something."
He nodded, "I am listening."
I opened my mouth after thinking how to tell him, "actually, you already know about my health condition that's why I gave the restaurant to Ramesh and Suhana. Ramesh is with me since starting restaurant. He never asked anything in return that's why he deserved it and suhana.... She knew very well what's the meaning of that restaurant for me and Tushar. That's why she will take care it like her children."
Shlok said with sincerity, "It's your restaurant. You can do anything what you want. Its enough for me you shared it with me."
I smiled and I was really wondering that what I did in past good deeds that I have him.
Shlok asked me with suspicious, "Rashmi, it means Suhana is your that cousin who liked....?" I understood what he wanted to ask and why he was worried. After all, Rohan is his cousin.
He will know about it one day that's why it's not use to lie to him and most importantly, Rohan already knew about it.
I nodded, "Yeah, but don't worry. Rohan already knew everything."
He said with jealousy, "it means only it's me who didn't know about you. Huh?"
I looked at him with guilty, "I am sorry shlok. But I was really nervous because of your reaction. Now, you knew everything. I promise, if you ask me anything, I will tell him truth."
He smiled immediately, "ok, I will have your promise. By the way, I am really worried for Rohan and his future. His opponent is really strong. He will have to do work hard."
I shook my head with smile and asked with teasing tone, "What if I had feelings for Tushar or anybody else."
When I saw his gloomy face, I knew I made big mistake.