Author pov:
After feeding hand full of lies to siddharth Amrutha left to the old building in the city outskirts
She called someone and informed about her arrival
Handling her bag carefully with a bouquet in her other hand
She pressed calling bell
Within few seconds someone opened the door
After entering the person closed the door
She handed the bouquet to the person
It's too dark let me open the windows
With that Amrutha went towards the windows and opened
Person shivered little as scratches filled over her body shocked Amrutha alot
What happened
Person who did not even voiced now looked at Amrutha with different motives running in the eyes
The sudden lighting brought her into limelight
Sukanya???
Wh..What are these scratches?
Fallen down from the stairs
She answered monotonously
Amrutha nodded her head satisfied with her answer
I want to talk to you.
Talk
Again a single word answer
Sighing
Sukanya!!I know everything but I want to give him a chance.Now we both got married I want to give him a chance I can see his love to me.I can't believe him to be a playboy
What do you mean you can't?Huh??!!he is a cheater get that into your mind
No Sukanya it's been 2 months I met him after our breakup.I didn't find him with any of the girls forget flirting he is like a puppy always follows me
Then what about past Amrutha?
See one thing is to be clarified that we both were in love at that time.Still he never crossed his limits.Whatever you might have faced because of him.I ...I....don't know.Everytime my heart only says go to him but I never payed attention. For once I want to listen to my heart.I don't want to listen to anyone atleast I will be happy if I do what I wanted
With that Amrutha looked into daze where as Sukanya giving all angry and hatred expression towards her
Flashback:
Amrutha pov:
Sid dropped me near the hostel
I entered the hostel without any one notice
I entered my room to find some of the girls from my college were in my room talking with my roomie
No one noticed my presence there
Hey where is your roommate Amrutha?
She went to her boyfriend why?
Who??That sid??
Yeah!!Why??
Ask your roommate to be careful with her boyfriend. He uses girls like a tissue paper
My blood boiled with their statements about sid
I know him he is not that type
My roommate opposed the statements of those bitches
No you know Sukanya these days we found him too close with eachother.Many gossips like they crossed all the limits
Sukanya??Sid didn't say anything to me
Anyhow don't pay attention to them Amrutha believe your man
I went back to the stairs and made sounds like someone is coming and slowly knocked the room
I don't want them to speak such things with me
By looking at them I glared them
They bid bye and left the room
I had some conversation with my roomie
Then suddenly my phone notification alerted me
I checked it to find it from my uncle whom I consider as my god father
I love him alot.He is in vizag for some work.Im planning to meet him
A huge age difference between my father and uncle so he is in his 40's
Happily married with his love but my family did not accept their marriage
Many times he narrated his love story when I used to meet him without anyone notice
I used to laugh at him for blushing even after 10 years of their marriage
I played the video where my roommate went out
In which uncle looked so stressed
Oh god!!Uncle how long you work, your charming face got wrinkles,carry bags under your eyes
What happened to you?
I must complain aunty
He started talking
Hey Amrutha!!
How are you child?
I want to meet you but now I can't
Do you remember how naughty you were in childhood always your mum used to scold for your antics I used to laugh and admire my little princess thinking what she will do when she becomes a young lady
You are my little princess. I always want you to be happy ma.
Everytime when I say my love story you will put your face in awe asking for a prince for you.I promised you to bring but now I can't fulfill the promise ma.
I loved your aunt more than anything that I have forgotten about everything in this world.I even left the house for marrying her in spite of warnings.My father got bed ridden with the deed of mine.Now karma started hitting me back I don't have strength to play back with it
I recently lost my business.Our income didn't meet our expenditures. Your aunt got irritated with my laziness and started working for a company.On a fine day I went to her company to take her out where I have seen her so intimate with her boss in the car which broke my heart.I can't believe my eyes I quickly ran to her and asked her about it
She released herself from my grip and shouted at me for interfering and insulted me saying I'm not suitable for her and I don't deserve her.She wanted to divorce me.She insulted infront of everyone.Her boss thrown me out of the office parking slot.I waited for her to come home but she didn't then again putting my self respect aside I went there only to find her leaving with her boss
By observing me on the road she had thrown some money on my face and left. I died there I loved her wholeheartedly where she just left with other man for money.I looked into mirror to find myself incapacitated. I cried over days for leading such a life where I lost everything my family,friends everything for her.Now even I lost my self respect.I can't live anymore with this guilt ma.I can't....I insist you never lose your self respect for sake of love or anything. Sorry for leaving you my ammu papa(baby)
Good bye!!!Always be happy
Video ended with the last line cutting his wrist
Uncleeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!
I closed my eyes with uncontrollable tears forming in my eyes
Uncle!!!
Uncle!!!
Amrutha what happened?
I looked at my roommate who is very concerned about my scream so I barged into the washroom
I cried there for an hour and I wanted to see him for the last time
I checked the news in my mobile to find the hospital address about the suicide victim
I found the hospital name and informed my warden
I quickly went into the hospital
I informed my parents about his condition
Doctors told he is in critical condition
I was in a daze to grasp anything my mind stuck at the point where he said good bye.
Walking like a lifeless women I hit the nurse who is having some forms in her hand and murmured something
Can't you see young lady?
These days kids were not in their senses too.Very high on themselves but irresponsible.Not just you every child of this generation spoiled. They don't think once doing it before marriage now pressing everyone legs for abortions.Generations upbringing is too bad
I looked at her in confusion where she is busy in scolding our generation while collecting the papers fallen down
I tried to help her by collecting it but the name on the form grabbed my pluffy eyes
Mr.Siddhartha Roy
That too in the place of father's name
I checked the mothers name to find
Sukanya
Signed for abortion
My heart pierced at the names on the form
What happened lady?
Nurse scrunched her nose
Siddhartha Roy!!!!
I answered her with horrified expressions
Yes he is the one who want his girlfriend to abort the child
She pointed me towards sid who is talking to doctor
Girlfriend??
Are you mad?Everything a question to you
Irritated with my questions she left by taking the form from my hands
I looked at the form for the last time confirm if I read the same and looked at sid in disbelief
With no strength in my body I started taking my steps towards sid once again to confirm if I am correct or not
I heard his voice
Doctor!!!What happened?
See Mr.Siddhartha you should use protection before this all but you did not.Now asking me about abortion
Sid hung his head down
Does this mean he he.....
No..No...
Are you sure you want abortion?You will lose your baby!!If you think it's fine to loose your baby then fine we will go but have some complications with her
Sid stood silent
I'm okay in loosing baby please abort it.
He left to the corridor with doctor
I want to ask him that's when I remember my uncle who did the same and got insulted by my aunt.There is nothing to ask.
I can't see anything with his statement
My eyes blurred with tears.I lost my balance and fell on the floor where everyone looked at me for acting like mad person.I hit my head hard for believing him.I want to die right now for behaving as a blind girl.I cannot live this life I cannot
I ran to the balcony to jump
I looked at my uncle whom is in critical condition because of love
Now again I failed in love
I looked at my father who is pouring his tears for a huge loss in his life
He never met my father after his marriage as my grandpa is so angry on him for doing it
I don't want to give him another pain.So I stopped myself to go for a suicide
I decided whatever it might be I will not leave my self respect and question him for it
I wrote a letter for that cheater sid
And informed my parents I can't stay here anymore
I quickly went to the warden and told her I'm leaving
I know the deceiver will come for me afterall I didn't reach his bed.I had given it to my roommate to pass the letter
I left the college and went to the hospital
I saw my mom crying endlessly
I looked at my father but no one is answering my questions
Please take body with all the formalities
What body?Whose?
Your uncle dear.He is no more
Doctor said with pity in his eyes
Everything went like a movie reel
Crimination got completed by evening and I left to the Hyderabad
I already asked aarnav to search a room for me
I went to the room and met some of the aarnav friends who are medical students
After 2 days I joined in the college there
I distanced myself from everyone
Neha a girl who is very good looking,funny and impressive girl helped me in notes as there is some syllabus difference.
I only used to speak with her
Nights I couldn't sleep thinking about sid
I look so dull and my eyes were red and week
My food quantity had fallen down
I only shed tears for my foolishness
Sometimes I scream so high that the next day I couldn't utter a word
Even if I try to sleep nightmares of the incident didnt leave me
On a fine day after reading for my exams I started watching the show where the heroine gets cheated by her boyfriend
Everything again disturbed me
I changed the channel to where they are covering one of the business party and I spotted sid standing with Nivedhitha holding her hands
Reporters stating
Rich kids and their relationships were more interesting right??!!
Again I started crying for him then I vomited saliva and felt hard to breathe seeing him with Nivedhitha dancing it means that brother and sister is also a drama
Slowly I fell down and when I opened my eyes I saw myself in a hospital
After sometime aarnav reached me and started crying
What happened aarnav?
Why you never shared anything?I thought you are hurt and after sometime you will share it to me but you went into depression.
Depression??
I don't know Amrutha but listen to me don't think of someone and spoil your health. You are my bestie you can't go into the shit just because someone cheated you
I loved him aarnav
Fuck your love if the feelings don't reciprocate why you are still in the so called love
You are stronger than what you think
Don't be weak
Aarnav recommended a doctor
I never told anyone about the reason why I left sid
My parents thought I'm in the sadness of my uncle death so much that I'm into depression
I know I'm too sad because of my uncle but sid I loved him like he is my life where he wanted to use me
Days passed still I'm in state of trauma
Without my notice sometimes I will loose my conscious
Sometimes thoughts like suicide disturbed me but aarnav and my parents supported me.
Even though my parents don't know anything they still wanted me to help
Arnav asked me alot but i never answered him
At a point I went to a state where I can't believe aarnav too
That's when I started crying more for not even believing my bestie
Aarnav got hurt but he understood my situation
I prepared myself to answer every question of the doctor to get out of the shit.I want my parents to be proud.They should love me
I lost my one year academics
Now I don't want to loose myself for a selfish man
I want to prove myself I need to come out of this depression
Doctor took counseling sessions and tablets made my hair fall but I gained my confidence alot that I learnt beauty is nothing which matters is our confidence
In all the up's and down's aarnav helped me alot
After one year they told I'm doing fine and prescribed medicines for my health in case of emergency
Soon I started concentrating on my studies and passed with flying colors
In campus recruitment I got selected to Ansole's one of the top M.N.C's
Whatever might be the situation or time something is constant in my mind is siddhartha roy
He never left my thoughts
But I learnt what is life in all the phase
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Flashback end:
Present:
Amrutha pov:
Days were too tough to handle
I learned believing people by my treatment but somewhere I still have phobia
Even that horrible night I have a chance of getting back to depression but the earlier counselings with my doctor and aarnav asked that doctor to prescribe medicines by keeping my depression in his mind
But now I want to get back my sid
I met Sukanya few days ago while travelling for some company work
I met her she looked so pale
I saw sid marriage videos with pooja so I know now they are not together.I don't want her to remember about her past but she herself told me sid is still in love with her
I got shocked as sid is having an affair with her that's why I again hated him at that time
Later I told her about my marriage then she started crying saying that I lied to you Amrutha as you may laugh at me but sid ditched me
Again it came as a shocker to me
My head started spinning at her revelation.I tried to distance myself from sid on her advise.But somewhere I'm happy he is not in relationship. She asked me to divorce him but I don't have guts as I know I still love him.
Everytime I got closed to him she calls me to warn about his nature.I know she got affected but something is off which I don't know
Sukanya!!I don't know exactly what happened between you and sid.But I'm pretty sure about my feelings towards him it's better if I take a move and you too start a new life with someone who deserves you
Its not that easy how it sounds but you must try.I will be a friend who always support you. Don't worry
With that I completely told her my opinion and I got relieved
But her silence is making me panic
I looked at her to find red eyes staring me with hatred
What did you say Amrutha?
Move on huh?
You wanted to get back sid right let me clear one thing you will not get back to anyone.I will kill you now.You can't go to my sid
Sid is mine only mine
She digged her nails into my shoulder making me hiss in pain
Sukanya...What are you doing?Why are you behaving as psycho?
You called me psycho????You want my sid right. I will kill you.Sid is mine.He is my love.Got it
She slapped me so hard that I hit my head to the table and started bleeding
My head started spinning and eyes got blurred
Again she moved towards me with evil laugh
I will kill you....I will kill you.Remeber sid is mine
She held my neck in her hands and pressed it tightly unabling me to breathe
I pushed her and started running out but she pulled me back
I started searching for my mobile to call sid for help
I tried calling him but its switched off
Sukanya is attacking like an animal
She is acting as psycho
I love you sid
I couldn't tell you but my love is true
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