You're the only one that makes me feel alive
I can't keep drowning in the shadows
You're the only one that matters
I don't wanna kill my time with somebody else
Kill my time by,
5 Seconds of Summer
y/n malfoy.
This manor is starting to get boring as fuck.
Everything is just the same. Sleep, eat, talk with the two buffoons i call friends, repeat.
So here i am, laying on my bed, as i conjure bubbles with my wand. It's what Harry used to do. And i find it extremely entertaining. Theo, Blaise and Draco are still here. They're probably going home tomorrow, i'm not sure. My father always calls them to keep me company, so the loneliness doesn't drive me insane, perhaps.
I actually appreciate their effort to cheer me up. Because let's be honest, if i didn't have them i'd probably be long gone. They always manage to keep my mind away from Harry, even if it's only for a minute. But it's nice to have friends to have fun with. Although i really miss Ron, Hermione, and the others too.
"Yo why is Theo's dad coming here?" Draco asks as he enters my room. His face looks confused, as he approaches my bed and lay down beside me. I shrug, not thinking much of it, "Probably to pick his child up? I don't know."
"No, mumsy said he wants to talk with you about something important," Draco tells me, as i instantly sit up, looking at my brother with furrowed eyebrows, "What?"
"Don't look at me like that," Draco shoots his arm up, looking confused as well. He shrugs, "I don't know what this is all about either, that's why i'm asking you."
I shake my head, as a scowl creeps up on my face. Quickly, i get up from my bed and puts some socks on, before stomping out of my bedroom. Leaving the confused Draco there. Although, he soon follows behind me.
As soon as i exit my bedroom and enter the foyer, i was greeted by my mother and father wearing formal wears. I suppose getting ready for Mr. Nott. I ask them confusedly, approaching them in my pajamas, "Why is Theo's dad coming here? What business does he have with me?"
"We have important matters to discuss with you and Theodore," My father replies. But that still doesn't cure my curiousity and confusion. "And that is?" I ask, lifting an eyebrow and crossing my arms.
"As both families have discussed, and have planned, Y/n, you will marry Theodore Nott. Only him do i trust my daughter with. Our families have known each other for decades, and he's a part of the sacred twenty eig-"
You've got to be fucking joking. Marriage? Theo? He's matchmaking me with Theo, out of everyone else, because he's a part of the sacred 28?
"Please don't tell me we're still on this. I thought we agreed that our pure blood status doesn't matter anymore," I interrupt my father. Ever since he apologized to me and tried to make amends, he promised that he wouldn't call me a "blood traitor" or make such a fuss about blood purity anymore.
"Theodore is a good match for you. He's a nice boy who comes from a great family," My father says, as my scowl goes deeper than it already was. "Why didn't you tell me?" I ask in both shock, and anger. My father simply shrugs, "I'm telling you right now."
"No, i mean beforehand!" I shout angrily, "You didn't think it was important to ask for my approval or my opinion before you went to Mr. Nott?" My father shakes his head dismissively, and sighs,
"It doesn't matter. Theodore will be able to protect and care for you, i can count on him."
"Protect me?" I scoff, rolling my eyes, before continuing, "I don't need a man for protection, but if you're looking for someone to protect me, I reckon the bloke who killed Voldemort can do that better."
"Potter, Potter, and Potter again," My father huffs in annoyance, before he shouts at me angrily, "It has been FOUR YEARS! FORGET HIM!"
"What if i don't want to?" I snap back, and shout back at him, "I don't want to forget him, or marry Theo. He's my best friend-- That's just weird." It really is. Imagine marrying your best friend who you already think of as family. Weird, 'innit?
"Harry Potter is bad news for you, Theodore isn't. End of discussion."
"But--" I try to argue again, but my father interrupts me sternly, "End of discussion."
I groan in annoyance as i stomp to the guest bedroom Theo's staying in. I open the door and slam it shut behind me, startling him who was reading yet another comic book, sitting on a chair.
But before he could say anything, i angrily ask, "Did you know about this? And did you just decide to not tell me?"
"Know about what? Tell you what?" Theo asks cluelessly. I roll my eyes as i plop myself down on his bed, "That our families arranged a fucking marriage for us!"
"Arranged a what?" Theo asks in confusion, furrowing his eyebrows, and i repeat myself, exclaiming, "A marriage!"
"A MARRIAGE?" Theo asks as his eyes widen, and his jaw drops to the floor. But then he chuckles, grabbing a glass near him and sipping on some water. He laughs out, "That's funny."
But he stops laughing when he notices my stern expression-- My face scowling. Theo's expression drops, as he part his lips, looking up at me with wide eyes, "Holy shit you're serious," He mutters, shocked.
"You think?" I exclaim angrily, as Theo's shocked expression stays on his face. He gulps, then mumbles, "I did not know that." Then Theo stands up, approaching me and says, "No, genuinely, Y/n. I didn't know. I'm just as shocked as you are right now."
"You didn't?" I ask him, lifting an eyebrow. Theo shakes his head, and tells me, "Well they haven't told me or mentioned anything of the sort."
"Your dad is literally in my living room," I say to him, and Theo widens his eyes. He hasn't spoken to his dad in a long time, and now he suddenly wants
him to get married. Theo's mother died when he was at a very young age. So he was left with his death eater father to raise him.
"He is?" Theo asks in panic, and he creaks the door open half way, peaking out to the living room. When he sees his dad, he closes the door and mumbles, "Fuck."
"I can't get married. Not right now, no. That's too much responsibility," Theo mutters breathlessly, flustered, as he paces around the room worriedly. I ask him, "What are we gonna do?"
"I don't know!" Theo shouts in stress, while running his fingers through his hair. He then asks, "Shit.. Okay, uh-- Did your dad tell you a specific date or something?"
"No, he just said and i quote 'You will marry Theodore Nott, only him do i trust my daughter with.' Bullshit," I reply, crossing my arms. And Theo agrees,
"Yeah, that is kind of weird. I mean, he can definitely rely on other people to protect you. Like the chosen one, for instance."
"I know!" I exclaim, and then continue asking, "So what are we gonna do?" Theo huffs, as he shrugs cluelessly,
"I dunno." I furrow my eyebrows, and question Theo angrily, "So we're just going to sit around and do nothing?"
"We'll do something, okay?" Theo reassures, "But i just don't know what yet. I have to figure it out. Tonight at least, i'll start thinking." I sigh, and nod,
"While you do that, i'm going to see Harry."
"See who?" He asks with furrowed eyebrows.
"Harry."
"Potter?"
"Harry James Potter."
"How are you supposed to do that? The charm's still on the manor," Theo asks and point out, as i start coming up with ideas in my head. I actually haven't figured out how i'm going to do this.
My father casted a charm on the manor so that i can't go out without parental consent. So i can't escape. That's why i rarely go outside, because usually my father wouldn't let me. And my mum's forced to follow what he says.
I shrug, sighing, "I'll manage."
"Y/n--"
"Look," I interrupt him, resting a hand on his shoulder, "I haven't seen him in a very long time and he doesn't even know that i'm alive. I just want to see him, and tell him about this. I feel like this is the right time-- I want to tell him i still love him and i don't want to be involved in a family's matchmaking program or whatever."
"So.. You're going because you want to tell him about us?" Theo asks, lifting an eyebrow. I huff, replying, "Mostly because i miss him but yes, our arranged marriage is also essential to discuss."
"Good luck with that," Theo says, petting my head. I order him, while walking towards his door, "Figure out a solution so we don't have to get married, please."
"Yes, ma'am."
Before i could even turn the door knob, the door creaks open. Revealing a shocked Draco. He probably just heard the news as well. Draco tells us, "The parents are waiting for you both."
Theo mumbles, covering his face with his hands, "Shit." We both walk out of Theo's room, finding my parents and Theo's father sitting at the long dining table. The older Nott man greets me,
"Miss Malfoy! How lovely it is to see you."
I throw on a fake smile, and say to Theo's dad as both of my hands rest on the table, "I'm sorry, Mr. Nott, i'm afraid i must disappoint you. I have no intention on marrying your son."
"Y/n--" My father tries to stop me, but i pay no attention to him.
"Why don't we just take it slow and steady for now," Theo suggests, chuckling awkwardly, "There's no need to rush marriage. Let Y/n and i figure some things out first.."
"I'm in love another man," I continue, "And i'm sure you know who he is." My father then whispers angrily to me,
"Stop embarrassing our family."
"The half blood?" Theo's dad asks, with a lifted eyebrow.
I quickly come into Harry's defense, boasting, "The chosen one. The boy who lived. The boy who defeated Voldemort. Twice. He isn't just a half blood."
"I'll be going now," I smile sarcastically, walking away from the dining area to my bedroom. Before i enter my room, i feel a firm grip on my wrist. I turn back, finding my scowling father. He barks, "You humiliated our family name!"
"Do you ever think about what you're doing to me? You're keeping me away from the people i love and you're trying to matchmake me with Theo?" I snap back, almost shouting at this point.
"I'm doing this because i care about you!" My father justifies his actions, exclaiming. And i shout back, quite loudly, "Well in that case, i like it better when you didn't give a fuck about me!"
Then i slam my door on his face.
I have to run away. I don't want this stupid pure blood marriage, i want Harry. Now is the right time to leave this manor, it's now or never. I can't be here anymore. If i stay, they'll force me to marry Theo. And what if he doesn't come up with a solution? I can't risk it.
I can't keep hiding anymore. Harry is the only one i love and the only person who matters to me. I don't want to be with anyone else. Not even Theo.
I have to run away.
When the night comes, i wrote a letter and addressed it to Harry Potter. Thank Merlin i got my owlery privilege back for my birthday last week. I sent it to Grimmauld Place, where Draco told me Harry lives now. I really hope he comes, because i can't survive another minute in this manor. I hope he can take me in again.
We have to meet tonight.
I sneak out of my bedroom, and carefully enter my parents room. I whisper to my mother, being very careful to not wake my father. "Mumsy," I quietly whisper, and after a few pokes on her shoulder, she opens her eyes. "What is it, darling?" My mother asks, and i quickly shush her.
I pull her out of bed to come and sneak out with me out of the room quietly, into the foyer. I need a parent's approval to be able to go out. And i know my father wouldn't give it to me, so mumsy's my only hope.
As soon as we reach the dark foyer, i straight up tell her, "I want to go outside." My mother's eyebrows furrowed, as she stuttered confusedly, "But Y/n-- Where are you going?" I shrug, and simply tell her, "Meeting Harry."
My mother sighs. She rests her hand on my shoulder and says, "Your father has--"
"Please, mum," I interrupt her, pleading with a soft voice, "I love him. I miss him and i want to go see that boy. I don't want to marry Theo! I can only go if you help me, you're my parent and the charm will wear off."
"If you truly love and care about me, you will do this. I know that you know my happiness is Harry. I know you want me to be happy," I continue, and i see my mother's expression softening."
"Alright. You can go."
"Thanks, mum," I smile, throwing myself onto her for a hug, "I'll be gone for a while. I'll be safe with the order of the phoenix. But please don't tell father."
"Be safe."
"I love you, mum."
"I love you too, darling."
Quickly, i head to the cemetery where my fake grave is. While wearing a mask, and a cap to cover myself. Almost everyone in the wizarding world know who Y/n Malfoy is. Harry Potter's famous girlfriend who died in the battle to protect him. And i don't want to creep people out seeing me alive and well wandering about the streets.
And then i arrive.
There he is, standing there. Looking perfect as ever.
My lips break into a grin when i see him. My heart feels warm, my stomach swarming with butterflies. I just missed him so much. More than you know.
"It's been a long time."
I speak up, as Harry turns back, and when he sees me, his eyes widen, his jaw slightly drops. As if he couldn't what, or who he's looking at. His voice trembles as he calls out,
"Y/n?"
It feels good to hear him saying my name again.
a/n;
i am having waaay too much fun with these cliffhangers