"Why didn't you come back to our room last night. I was worried" he always remained calm in the way he spoke he never got angry with me.
"I stayed with Sawyer, I really didn't want to be around Avery. He hurt me seb"
"Wait what did he do now?" He looked confused. He knows we fell out at the party but I guess Avery hasn't told him anything else
"Last night when we got back here. He started talking about all these feelings he had for me and- and then he kissed me in front of sawyer and now I don't know what to do. I don't want to lose him seb" I don't wanna cry again!
"He's a fucking idiot. He was wrong for that Emerson. But why does sawyer matter?" Now to tell Sebastian. I hope he doesn't hate me too
"Well we're kind of dating?" I said like it was a question because how rly I don't have a clue either
"He's 21" is all seb said
"I'm 18." He looked at me and continued to look at me
"Are you happy? Is he good to you?" awh he's so sweet to me
"Yes and yes. He's the best to me in every way"
"He doesn't force you into things does he? You haven't you know?" no no no no no I don't wanna talk about this with Sebastian he's like my dad
"No he doesn't force me into anything" just avoiding the other bit of the question
"So you have then?"
"Seb I don't not wanna talk about this with you" I rlly don't
"Em there's nothing you can't tell me. I just want want you safe. Are you being safe?"
No.
"Erm yes of course" LIESSSSSSS "now can we stop please" god this reminds me of having this talk with my mum when I started high school. Makes me cringe every-time
"Fuck your all grown up" he pulled me too him and messed my hair up "I love you angel. You and Avery will figure this out"
"I love you too Seb" I loved him so so so much
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Holly's plan was take us out on a boat for 2days! to go around the islands. It was a big fancy boat but really what did I expect? A kayak? Obviously not with the Cassidy's.
I couldn't imagine anything worse right now. Stuck on a boat in the middle of the sea with my best friend who loves me but hates me and my boyfriend??? Who loves me but hates my best friend. Oh the joys.
"Hey em, wanna jump in with me and Ethan?" Luke asked. I shook my head. No I don't wanna jump in the sea....sharks?
"Awh come onnnnnnn, your no fun" Luke said to me. Actually getting eaten by sharks sounds pretty fun right now
"no Luke I don't wan-" before I could Finish a big pair of arms wrapped around my torso and I was lifted off my feet
"Ethan get off me, get the fuck off me. Don't you dare!" But it was too late. I watched Luke jump in them I felt myself get thrown into the sea
Fuck you Ethan
I looked up to seem him diving in, followed by all the boys, even Avery. He started swimming over to me and I was panicking. I saw sawyer and he was swimming over to me too. They noticed each other and suddenly it was a race. A race that Avery won.
"Can we talk? Please Emerson?" I nodded and we swam back to the boat. I looked back to see a rather mad Sawyer starting at me. I looked away quickly and we walked into one of the bedroom on the lower deck
"Okay what the fuck is happening with us Avery? I don't understand"
"Listen em, Baby. I'm so so so sorry. What I did was stupid and immature. I have to realise your not mine to keep to myself. We're best friends but sometimes I find myself wanting more because I know I'll never find another girl like you. But those feelings I can keep away because nothing is worth losing you over. If you and I are meant to be then one day it'll happen but for now I want you to be happy. I'm so sorry Em"
Wow
"Your never going to lose me Avery but at this moment in time your my best friend and I can see it staying that way. I love you so so much and seeing you drunk kissing that girl hurt my feelings. I want us comfortable when it comes to dating. I know we're close and protective but it's just life. Best friends?" I held out my pinky finger and looked up at him
He smiled the most genuine smile I've seen from him in a while and linked his pinky with mine
"Best friends" always and forever he's gonna have to try harder than that to get rid of me
We hugged and decided to chill inside and watch something so we put in the vampire diaries and cuddled in bed
An hour or so passed and there was a knock on the door. "Come in" we said together and in walked sawyer who's face went straight at the sight of us
"What's going on ?" Uh oh grumpy sawyer alert
"We're just watching something. I'm not trying to steal your girl don't worry" Avery said. I slapped his leg lightly for being a tease to sawyer who didn't look particularly happy
"Can I join?" He asked surprising me. I thought he was about to throw a fit. I nodded and he came and sat down next to me. I was cuddled with Avery but now I felt bad for sawyer but I didn't wanna stop cuddling Avery because then if feel and for him.
Anyways I didn't have to make a decision because Avery gently took my arm from around him and put it by my side so I went and cuddled Sawyer who happily accepted.
Part way through and episode Avery had fallen asleep and sawyer looked down at me, I caught his eye and he kissed me lightly
I shook my head. I don't wanna do this around Avery
"Sawyer not here" he looked at me and kissed me again and of course I kissed back cus I can't resist but I broke it off
"No this isn't fair on Avery" i don't want him waking up to this
"He's asleep, just one more" so I pecked his lips but he pulled me back in firmly gripping my ass pulling me closer to his body.
"We can't. I don't want to do this here let's stop" and he pulled away and nodded. He needs to learn to respect Avery. I'm not doing anything that would make him uncomfortable.
Me and sawyer cuddle and watched some more but at some point I fell asleep and when I woke up the boys were torn from the room and I was alone.
I stood up and felt something gush out of me. You got it ladies and gentlemen. It's apparently my time if the month :) perfect I mean at least I'm not pregnant...right?
I looked through my stuff I brought on the boat but couldn't find a tampon and I was becoming frustrated fast. I went down to the deck where everyone was chilling
"Holly have you got any tampons?" I asked casually until I look up to see every boy staring at me with a weird look on. Except Avery.
"Awh no hun I'm sorry I didn't bring anything like that with me" Awh my only hope :/
"Don't worry baby I got you" Avery said before standing up. Growing up with Avery and Sebastian this was something they became accustomed too and apparently prepared for. It's kind of cute really.
"No way your that prepared?" I said in shock
"Im always prepared. Whenever we're together I bring an 'Emerson Kit' which has anything I know you could possibly need in it
"Awh Avery honey that's is thoughtful and mature" Holly said smiling at him before giving A look to all her funny faced boys
We walked to his room and he passed me a small bag filled with tampons, pads, aspirin, gum and chocolate?" Like wow that's dedication
"omg your the cutest. An absolute life saver" I hugged him and left to my room which was right next to his on the boat
I had a shower and when I got out sawyer was chilling on my bed looking as hot as ever
"Hey, how you feeling with you know?" mature lol
"You mean with my period? You can say the word sawyer it won't bite. Unlike me if you make me angry" I was an irritable one when it was my time of the month
"Yes sorry baby. How are you coping with your p-period. You need anything?" why is it actually so hard for boys to talk about, like is it that bad. If anything he should be relived ;)
"I'm alright Averys got me covered. Some cuddles would be nice though?" I asked as if he'd be able to resist me. He opened his arms and I dived in for a cuddle.
"So can we carry on what we were doing before?" He asked kissing my cheek. ugh did we have to I feel gross
He moves down and kisses my lips. Of course I accept it but after a while when he goes to get undressed I push him off
"Not tonight sawyer" I said snuggling deeper into the covers, he sat up and looked at me.
"I understand baby don't worry. Can you maybe do something for me though?" I knew exactly what he wanted but my cramps had me nauseated and I definitely did not want a dick down my throat or to be honest anywhere near me at this moment in time.
"No" keep it short and simple girls
"Awh come on?" He begged
"Nope. I'm not in the mood" I rolled over to my side tugging his arm so he'd get the idea to spoon me, which he did
"Alright baby, maybe some other time" yeahhh if your lucky
"Goodnight" I say
"Goodnight darling" - cute but why is that such a 'Chris' thing to say.