I was sleeping in my dorm when Hermione woke me up.
"Liv" she said shaking me and I opened my eyes, the vision still blurry.
"What?" I asked her once I sat up, blinking my eyes, so that my vision could get clear.
"It's Draco!" Pansy said from the door.
"Again?" I got up and left the room with her.
"What is it this time, Parkinson?" I asked her running to the dungeons.
"Nightmare" she said, "A bad one" she added sadly and that only made me run to the dungeons at a faster pace.
I opened the door and saw him whimpering, his eyelids were moving and he was shifting uncomfortably. He was crying as well this time. My heart broke to see him like that.
"No, no, no, no"
"Don't do anything to her"
"She's all I got"
I rested my forehead on his sweaty one and tried to get the words out. I couldn't. I couldn't say anything. It broke me to see him like that. I started breathing heavily. Instead of calming him down, I got tensed. I got up and left the room, Blaise following behind.
"Olive-" he said and I cut him off.
"What, Blaise?" I said yelling a little.
"This is too much. I've seen too much. He is in a lot of pain, way too much. More than he can handle, more than he deserves" I said breathing heavily and pacing outside his room.
"How – How am I supposed to help him after I see him like that?" I said as Pansy came out of his room and closed the door behind her. I could still hear his cries.
"He was my rock, for 6 years, Blaise. 6 fucking years. Even when I thought I was a muggleborn, even then he was there. How am I suppose to see my rock, break down in front of me?" I said holding my head in my hands.
"Hey, hey, hey" Blaise said removing my hands and holding them in his.
"Take a deep breath" he said and I followed.
"Another" and I inhaled once more.
He helped me calm down and said, "If he has been your rock for 6 years, then don't you think now it's time to repay him?" and I sighed loudly and looked at Pansy, who was listening to the conversation with her hands folded over her chest.
"The fact that I know what he has become, comes out tomorrow, one way or the other" I said angrily and went back to his room.
"Relinquo" I said and he calmed down. I left the room without acknowledging Blaise or Pansy's calls for me.
The next day went by quickly and I saw less of Draco but when I saw him, I tried to ignore him, as tonight he was gonna find out that I knew about him.
I was getting ready for the party that was organized for the students to lighten up the mood and before they would leave for the break. I wore a black dress that had a slit on the right leg. I put on winged eyeliner and black high heels.
I headed to the Great Hall to check on the sound system as I was going to sing. The hall looked totally different. Round tables with chairs around it were set up for eating and a stage was prepared for performances. It was more like a formal dinner for students up Year 4.
Students gathered in looking all happy and chirped about. The girls in magnificent gowns and dresses that showed their curves and boys in tuxedos, making them look like men. A few sat down on the tables while the others stood, holding glasses of un - alcoholic wine, that would only set the mood for a formal, classy and lovely evening.
I was on the stage playing slow piano and waiting for the hall to fill in and the doors to be closed.
"Very well, Miss Montgomery" McGonagall said and started giving her welcome speech and how we should enjoy ourselves and be brave and all that stuff.
"Now, I'll hand over the show to our lovely lead of the choir" she said and I got up to sing.
I held on the mic with both hands and looked for one particular person in the crowd. When my eyes met his for a spilt second, I smiled and the music began playing.
A/N – Please play 'Secrets & Lies' by Ruelle
You got a cold, cold heart
Do you feel at all?
You build a house of cards
But it's gonna fall
You think I don't see who you really are
I got news coming
I've seen it all from the start
I was staring at Draco while he looked at me in shock, like he knew what I was talking about.
I know all your secrets
He looked at me wide eyes.
I know all your lies
I know where you keep 'em
Buried deep inside
No, you can't hide your secrets and lies
Secrets and lies
I lowered my gaze to his forearm and scoffed just a little.
I closed my eyes and continued with the song.
Wish on your lucky stars
'Cause it's all you got
Won't get you very far
When the music stops
You think I don't see who you really are
I got news coming
I've seen it all from the start
I opened my eyes to look at him again.
I know all your secrets
I know all your lies
I know where you keep 'em
Buried deep inside
No, you can't hide your secrets and lies
Your secrets and lies
Your secrets and lies
Your secrets and lies
I closed my eyes once again because of tears filling in. The music stopped for just a moment and began again at a very slow sound, so that my voice was more audible.
You got a cold, cold heart
You build a house of cards
I know all your secrets
I know all your lies
I know where you keep 'em
Buried deep inside
No, you can't hide your secrets and lies
I opened my eyes and looked at Draco who looked a mixture of enraged and sad and disappointed and hate.
The whole crowd erupted in applause while Draco left the room loosening his tie. I wanted to go behind him, letting him know that I was okay with whatever he had, not ashamed, that I would love him no matter what.
But this time, he needed to come to me.
At his own pace, at his own time.
I continued to sing a few more songs and got off the stage to have dinner with the others. I couldn't get a single piece of food in my mouth as I saw that Draco's seat was still empty.
"Hey, pretty lady" a voice said from behind me.
"Raf!" I exclaimed as I got up.
"You were incredible" he said hugging me and I placed a haste kiss on his cheeks.
"Would you like to dance?" he asked offering a hand and I took it.
We were dancing to the slow song, along with a few more couples when he said, "So, how have you been?"
"I know in what context you're asking, Rafael" I said as we continued to sway to the music.
The night went by quickly and then we headed to the after party in the Gryffindor Common room for our year.
We were mingling and finally got our hands on the good stuff.
Fire whiskey.
Draco hadn't arrived yet. I was talking to Theo when Blaise came in with Draco.
"Let's play 'Truth and Dare'" a Ravenclaw girl said and we all formed a circle.
I was sitting next to Hermione and Ginny and on my left was Luna. The game went on and now it was my turn.
"Olivia, Truth or Dare" Luna asked and I smiled, "Truth"
"How many times did you and Draco do it?" Daphne blurted out totally oblivious of the company.
"I-I don't know" I said shyly and looked at Draco, he didn't look angry, thank Merlin.
"We lost count, didn't we, darling?" he said and smirked at me. He knew calling me 'darling' would get me over the edge and would enrage Ron and Harry.
"Alright, Harry. Truth or Dare" I asked and he tore his angry gaze from Draco and said, "Dare"
"Fine, you brought this on yourself" I said and smirked, "I dare you to kiss Ginny"
"What?" Harry, Ginny and Ron said in unison.
"It's just a game, jeez" I said rolling my eyes.
Harry and Ginny quickly pecked their lips and the game continued for another round.
"Truth or dare, Parkinson" Theo said smirking.
"Truth" she said rolling her eyes at his smirk.
"Alright, do you have a crush on someone, other than your obvious infatuation with Malfoy, and is that person in this room?" he asked and I giggled.
Draco looked at me and then at Pansy.
"Yes and yes" she said blushing furiously.
It was my turn again and I didn't want to take dare, so truth it is.
"Truth or Dare, Olive" Blaise asked from beside Draco.
"Truth" I said smiling lightly.
"Reveal all the details of your first kiss" Blaise said knowing well that Draco was my first.
"Er, I will except the boy's name" I said and Blaise rolled his eyes.
"No-"
"Fine then, change the question" I said but Draco cut him off before he could speak, "No, go on"
"Alright, it was in third year, during Christmas" I said this and Draco's face lit up.
"Erm, I was spending the holidays at his house and erm, we were in his balcony, he had just shown me a wonderful view of the sky that night, guess he knew that I-"
"YOU LOVE THE SKY" they all said in unison, few rolling their eyes. I chuckled and continued.
"Yeah, er, then he asked me if I liked the surprise and I was speaking when he cut me off mid-sentence and kissed me. Nothing too much, nothing too little. Just the perfect amount" I said blushing and looking over at Draco.
The circle went on and said their awws and oohs.
"Alright, who's next?" I asked clapping my hand together.
"Raf, truth or dare?" I asked looking at him.
"Truth, I guess" he replied shrugging.
"How-" I was about to say when Luna cut me off.
"Do you like Olivia?" she said in her soft voice making him choke on his drink.
"Yes" he answered quickly and blushed. I looked at Draco and his grip around the glass got tighter, if he applied anymore pressure, it would break.
I laughed awkwardly and said, "Daph, it's your turn"
The game went on for another round and it was my turn again.
"Truth or Dare"
"T-"
"You have already taken truth twice, now you have to do a dare" Ginny said and I nodded.
"Alright then, dare" I said looking around.
"I dare you to kiss Rafael" Harry said smirking at me and I said, "What?"
"It's just a game, jeez" he said mocking me from earlier.
"Alright" I said softly and looked at Draco.
Oh, he was angry now. He looked at me with a raised eyebrow like I shouldn't oblige and that I was his and his only.
I wanted him bad, I knew that if I kissed another boy, it would drive him over the edge.
I needed to get railed.
I shrugged a little and pursed my lips in a thin line and crawled to the center of the circle and so did Rafael.
"You don't have to-"
"Just, let's get this over with" I said and pecked him on his lips. We continued the kiss and I pulled away when I felt Draco's eyes burning at me.
The game came to an end finally after two more rounds. We all went back to mingling. I had enough drinks to make me drunk. Pretty much all the students had headed back to their common rooms, so did my Slytherin friends.
"So, you like Rafael?" Hermione asked from beside Harry.
"No" I said bluntly. They all seemed to have left since they were black out drunk, everyone except Mione.
I had a fire whiskey bottle in my hand and my legs taking me somewhere. They didn't stop until I knocked on a familiar door.
The door opened revealing a beautiful blonde half asleep. He was shirtless - only in his boxers. His hair was all over the place while he was blinking to look at me.
"You!" I yelled a little causing him to open his eyes widely and pull me in.
"I was perfectly happy before you came along" I said stumbling a little and sitting on his bed.
"You know I love you, but you still don't say it back" I took a sip from the bottle. He tried to snatch it away but no luck.
"And I know you smelled someone in potions"
Another sip.
"It was Parkinson, wasn't it?"
Another sip.
"I may be drunk, but I know that much, that I am better than her" I said gulping the whole drink down my throat.
"Alright, let's get you back to your common room" he said taking the empty bottle from my hand and placing it on his table.
"I don't wanna go there" I whined, my words slurring.
"You don't have a choice" he said pulling me up. I stumbled into his arms and looked at him.
"Oops" I said giggling a little. He sighed and shook his head at my childishness.
He put me over his shoulder and led me out of the dungeons.
"Hey!" I said hitting his back lightly and telling him to put me down.
We reached the common room and he walked up to my room. He knocked on my door and Hermione opened it.
"Granger" he said and placed me on the bed. I fell asleep mumbling a 'I love you' to him.
The next morning, I woke up with a bloody bad hangover.
"Here" Hermione said handing me some potion and a glass of water.
"Thanks, Mione" I said smiling at her.
"Let's go, we still have classes on" she said pulling me out of bed.
The day went on and I could hardly focus because of the lack of sleep. I was heading to dinner alone, when one hand covered my mouth and the other around my waist and pulled me in an empty classroom.
Why do I always get kidnapped like this?
Warning - Smut
"Draco!" I yelled when I realized it was him.
He closed the door behind me and locked it and put a muting spell.
"What-" I said and he cut me off by pushing me against the wall.
"You had to kiss him, didn't you?" he sneered in my ear.
"You had to be this needy slut, who's desperate for my cock" he dirty talked making me wet already.
"I don't know what you're talking about" I said with fake innocence.
"Strip" he commanded and I refused just for the fun of it, not because I didn't want him.
Oh, I needed him. Badly.
"No" I said and he turned around.
He scoffed and said, "What? I think I didn't hear you correctly" and came closer to me and choked me.
"Now, strip" he said and his authoritative voice turning me on to the maximum.
"Ok, Daddy" I said and stripped.
"Lean over the table" he said and I did. He unbuckled his belt and tied it around my hands. He rubbed my ass before smacking it, harshly.
"Count, slut" he said squeezing my ass.
"One" I whimpered.
"This was for going blackout drunk last night"
Smack.
"Two"
"This was for not obeying me"
Smack.
"Three"
"This was for kissing someone else"
Smack.
"Four"
"This was for wearing such a revealing dress"
Smack.
"Five"
"This was for lying that you don't know how many times I've fucked you"
This went all till thirty this time and my ass all red because of the smacking.
"Do you know how many times we've had sex?" he asked again and I nodded.
"17"
"Good girl" he said before smacking me again.
"Get on your knees" he said and I obliged.
"All you get to do is see" he said as he stroked himself. Ungodly moans and grunts left his mouth when he started masturbating in front of me and I couldn't do anything. I stared at him, with my mouth open slightly and drooling at the sight.
"Fuck it" he said as he picked me up and laid me on the desk.
He thrusted into me without warning and pumped himself in and out at a faster pace.
"Faster" I moaned and he did as I asked.
"Who makes you feel this good?" he asked in between thrusts.
"Y-You" I said and he smacked me across the face.
"You what, slut?" he said placing my legs over his shoulder and hitting the right spot for me.
"F-Fuck, mhm, You, Daddy" I said after moaning loudly.
"I own this pussy" he said as his mouth fiddled with my nipples and his tongue swirled around it.
"Right there" I begged again.
His dick twitched in me, indicating he was close. He pulled out and I gasped at his sudden movement.
"Now, do you deserve to cum?" he asked smirking as my body ached for a desperate release.
"Yes, Daddy. I will behave from now on" I knew that I had to give in. I knew how much he loved when I would say all stuff like that.
"If you don't, we will need to revisit our old shiny sharp friend" he said as he thrusted back into me and kissed me.
He bit my lip as we both came undone. He pulled away and looked at me.
"Okay, I get it why you disobey me" he said and looked at my lips.
"What?" I asked as I touched it. I looked at my fingertips. Blood.
"What is with you and biting my lips so hardly?" I asked as we wore our clothes, lisping a little.
He laughed and I glared at him. "You're cute when you lisp"
"What am I gonna tell the others?" I said as I looked at the glass of the cupboard that showed a little reflection of mine.
"Then you shouldn't have teased me like that last night" he said and I rolled my eyes.
"Go on" I said as I wiped the blood with my handkerchief, "It'll look suspicious if we go together"
He left and headed to the Great Hall for dinner. And I followed behind within minutes. He was sitting in close proximity to us. He could listen to what we were talking about.
"What happened to you?" Ron asked as he saw my bloodied lip.
"I, erm..." I said thinking for a reason.
I bit myself.
How the fuck does a person bit themselves so hardly?
I accidently cut myself. Papercut.
No, papercuts aren't so deep. Plus, what were you doing with a paper so close to your lip?
Think, think, Olivia.
"Liv?" he asked again taking the cloth off of my hand and rubbing it.
"I, erm, I fell down" I said and Draco snickered behind me.
"Alright, go to Madam Pomfrey later" he said and we continued with dinner.
This boy is gonna be the death of me.
We finished dinner and I went for patrolling. I was checking the seventh floor, when I bumped into someone.
"Shit!" I said as I rubbed my head, "Sorry, I wasn't-"
"Draco?" I asked as I realized it was him.
"What are you doing here?" I asked and he looked at me with wide eyes.
"Just- just walking" he said stuttering and I nodded.
"Okay" I cooed and headed to my common room.
"What were you doing here?" he asked and I turned around still walking.
"Prefect duties" I shouted pointing at my badge. He chuckled a little and headed in the other direction.
I walked to my common room, where I saw an angry looking Ron waiting for me with his hands folded over his chest.
"What?" I asked as I saw Harry stand up from behind him and Hermione seated at the couch.
"What have you been doing going to Malfoy's dorm in the middle of the nights?" Ron encountered harshly.
"What?" I asked again and looked at Hermione.
"You told them?" I asked in disbelief.
"You were just – just going a lot and wouldn't return for hours, so I thought-" she said with guilt in her eyes but I cut her off.
"So, you thought you would snitch on me" I said angrily.
"No matter what she did" Harry said and I looked at him, "What do you do for hours?" he asked and I furrowed my eyebrows at him.
"That's none of your business" I said gritting my teeth.
"Well then why don't you just ask the Sorting Hat to sort you again, you'll get sorted into Slytherin, like the one you are. It isn't like we'd be losing a valuable Gryffindor" Ron said and I gasped at his statement.
"Ronald!" Hermione said in shock and stood up from the couch and walked over to me.
I raised my hand in mid air and she stopped dead in her tracks.
With tears in my eyes, I said, "What I am doing is none of your business. But still, if you wanna act like a 'protective' brother, which you are not being right now, no matter how much you wanna act, then you should know I know what I am doing and that is helping someone out of their misery"
With that I turned around and stopped, "Sometimes, Ronald, I think why did I ever accept living at the Burrow with you as your sister. And you are the one to blame" I said and ran out of the common room, ignoring Hermione's calls for me.
I ran up to the Astronomy Tower and broke down. It was too much. I sat near the railing staring at the dark sky and playing with my Patronus. The lioness was playing around the balcony and would jump at me, and climb into my lap and dance around me, making me smile.
I was laughing when a voice said, "What is that?"
"Draco!" I exclaimed when I saw him and my Patronus vanished.
"Where did she go?" he asked pouting a little.
"That was my Patronus" I said as he sat down beside me.
"You can conjure one?" he asked and I nodded.
"Expecto Patronum" I said and the lioness flew out of my wand and started running around the room.
"Huh, a lioness for the Gryffindor Queen, isn't that fitting?" he said making me smile. He said exactly what I thought he would when he would see it, a year ago in the DA.
"What are you doing here?" I asked and he sighed loudly.
"Couldn't sleep" he said and looked at me.
"Why were you crying?" he asked and before I could ask how he knew, he cut me off.
"I know, I can always tell" he said and I smiled.
"I'm just tired" I said and sighed loudly.
"Of everything. Of Harry. Of Ron. Of even Hermione. Even life itself" I said which made Draco come closer to me as I indirectly said I had given up on my life.
With tears in my eyes, I looked at him. "Never ever say that" he said sternly.
"Had a stupid fight with Ron" I completed as the lioness sat in my lap.
"Why?"
What should I tell him? I can't tell that I come by his dorm almost every night and relieve him from his nightmares.
"Erm, he thinks that I spend a lot of time with Slytherins, that maybe I should ask the hat to re-sort me and I'd be put into Slytherin and that they wouldn't lose a valuable Gryffindor" I said looking at the sky with tears in my eyes.
"Well, they aren't wrong" he said and I looked at him.
"I mean not the valuable part, but I do believe that you would've been great in Slytherin or even Hufflepuff, considering you're so kind, but of course you are brave and have all the Gryffindor qualities, I still think that you would've done better in Slytherin" he said putting a hand on my thigh.
"Well..." I said and looked back at the sky, "You know, at the time of my sorting, I was more of a Slytherin than I was a Gryffindor"
"WHAT?" Draco yelled making me flinch.
"Jeez, Draco. Calm down. We're out after curfew" I said and he squeezed my thigh.
"You're telling me after 6 years, that you could've been in the most prestigious house and we would've been together way before we actually did and that I could've seen more of you and touched more of you and would have all the classes together and would've sat next to you in lessons and would've sat in the Great Hall together and would've been in the Quidditch team and-"
I cut him off by putting my lips onto his. He cupped my cheek in response and I knew he didn't wanna pull away. I placed myself in his lap, still continuing the kiss.
"Damn you, Montgomery" he said and I pulled away.
"Well, if you hadn't been such a jerk to me in the first place, I would've considered saying yes to Slytherin" I said putting my arms around his neck, while his went around my waist.
"What do you mean?" he asked furrowing his eyebrows.
"Well, the Sorting Hat asked me, well not like asked me, but it told me that I was 39% Slytherin and 38% Gryffindor, so I whispered, 'not Slytherin' and then it placed me in Gryffindor" I said playing with his hair a little and then looked at him.
"If you hadn't been a jerk in the train and at the platform and in the hallway, I would've considered Slytherin" I said and smiled.
He pulled me in for another kiss.
"Can you teach me?" he asked after pulling away.
"Teach you what, love?" I asked sweetly and he smiled.
"The Patronus Charm" he said and I got off of his lap.
"Alright, this is advanced stuff, Draco. Very, very advanced. But it shouldn't be a problem for you, Mr. Outstanding-in-every-OWLs" I said making him chuckle and roll his eyes.
"Alright, firstly, the Patronus charm helps you defend yourself from dementors and other dark stuff. Let's start with incorporeal Patronus. The hand movement is like a circle. You have to think of a happy memory" I said and he nodded.
"Expecto Patronum" he said and with a flick of his wand, a blue-silver light emerged from his wand but it vanished away quickly.
"A stronger memory, Draco" I said holding his arm and he tried again. A huge blue-silver light emerged from his wand and stayed for a while.
"That's great!" I exclaimed at his effort.
"Now, for the corporeal or the full bodied Patronus. You need to allow your body to fill up with the happiest memory you have. Can you do that?" I asked as I knew he had been drained of any happy memory he had.
"Yes" he said looking at me, "Expecto Patronum" he cast the spell still looking at me. A roaring dragon emerged from his wand and flew around the room. Him and I both looked at it in awe.
"That's wonderful, Draco!" I said still looking at the dragon.
"Thank you, darling" he said breaking his concentration and looking at me.
"Anything for you" I said as I snuggled into his arms.