The next few days pass by slowly.
I've gotten used to the idea of motherhood. The thought doesn't scare me as much anymore.
Although things are not the way I imagined them to be or hoped for them to be, I have a feeling that everything was going to turn out okay, or at least I hoped so.
I started buying books, doing research, and reading about classes and mom groups. I want to be prepared for it all and educated about it all.
As soon as I got home I told Maria everything. She made me a nutella strawberry wrap, congratulating me. She told me that motherhood is one of the greatest gifts life has to offer. She wanted me to know that she will also be here to help out in any way I needed.
I then immediately made an appointment with my new OBGYN. I booked it the day after the ball, just in case everything goes well with Elliot and he decided to come.
But I wasn't going to get my hopes up.
"Fuck" I screamed, tripping over one of Chris's boxes. He moved in some of his stuff the day after my visit to the hospital.
"Chris move your fucking boxes before I throw them on the street."
My mood swings have been absolutely horrendous. I go from zero to one hundred in a matter of seconds. I feel terrible about it but I honestly can't help it.
"Sorry Mads." he says, giving me a sleepy smile. "We have a lot of shit to do today. Lily will be here in a couple of minutes, I need you to call the caterers and the planner while I go pick up our clothes ."
I know today is going to be a stressful day, all things considered but these charity events are important to me so I wanted and needed to give my all regardless.
"Yeah I know but, can you do me a favor and ask Lily to bring me a burger with lettuce, tomatoes, mustard, and pickles. Oh, add fries and a milkshake too." I say smiling widely at him .
He looked at me with pure disgust as I described my order. "I guess this is the cravings talking so yes, I'll let her know.." He says pulling his phone out of his sweats.
I was glad that I had Chris while going through this. I've never been one for friends but, what I had with Chris was different . He was easily one of the most important people in my life
My smile was quickly wiped off my face as the feeling of my severe nausea had me rushing to the bathroom. I emptied out all my contents in the toilet, thanking god that my hair was pulled back into a messy bun.
Chris came in right behind me rubbing my back and leading me forwards to the sink so I could rinse my mouth.
"You alright there?" He asked before handing me my toothbrush
"Yeah, I might as well get used to this." I said shrugging my shoulders. Here I was thinking I was lucky.
"Where the hell is everyone? Madison don't tell me you're still in bed". I rolled my eyes hearing my sister's voice in the distance. I continued to brush my teeth, trying my very hardest to ignore my sister's loud and boisterous voice.
"Babe stop screaming". Aubrey whispered at her. It wasn't hard for me to like Aubrey since we were very similar when it came to our personalities.
"Madsss!" Lily screamed, completely ignoring Aubrey's suggestion.
"LILIAN SHUT THE HELL UP BEFORE I KICK YOU THE FUCK OUT." I growled at her, after wiping my mouth.
"You wouldn't do that dear sissy. I've come bearing your food requests". I could feel her smirk from a mile away.
I rushed into the living room following her voice. A smile instantly making its way onto my face after seeing her hold a brown bag labeled "Burger Fl" in bold light green letters.
"Won't be kicking me out now? huh?" she smirked at me
"Shut up" I mumbled, grabbing the bag, taking a seat by the kitchen counter.
"Lily told me good news Mads. Congratulations, that baby is a lucky one." Aubrey said, pulling me into a bear hug
"Thanks Aubrey, it means a lot" I say smiling up at her.
Although I am confident that I can raise a child-because I practically raised Lily- it makes me feel better to know that there are people who have my back and will love my kid unconditionally.
"Mads are you planning on living here when you have the baby" Lily asked, setting down her purse, before pulling out her notebook.
"Uh no, not really. I want to get a house. I don't really want my kid growing up in a penthouse. I want a house with a backyard, maybe even a pool. I just want a home" I replied smiling trying to imagine a mini me running around the backyard.
"I get it. We can go house hunting next week"
My mouth was stuffed with food so I just nodded.
I didn't even realize Chris left until he came out of my room dressed in black jeans and a white button down top with his chest slightly exposed.
"Alright, I'm going to pick up your dresses and my tux. I'll be back in a little while." He said eyeing my food
"Don't even think about it Christopher." I snapped at him. Knowing he was thinking about taking some of my food. He knew better than anyone that I didn't have an appreciation for sharing.
He huffed, kissing me on the forehead before making his way out of the building.
After I finished eating, the three of us got to work.
I called the planner, caterer and florist, making sure they all knew what time they were expected to arrive.
We soon made our way to the venue to meet them, so I could supervise.
Forty-five minutes after arriving, the planner had still not shown up on time. I was beginning to lose my patience.
I called her for the fifth time only to receive her voicemail.
"Brooklyn, you are now forty-five minutes late. I do not tolerate tardiness, especially when you have the audacity to not answer your phone. If you are not in front of me in the next ten minutes, you along with your career are ruined. And that is me being generous. So I suggest you answer your phone or get your ass here now." I growled into the phone, hoping for the sake of my company and her that she showed up.
Ten minutes later she arrived and every since then everything has been running smoothly. Chis then showed up with our dresses since we decided to just get ready here. He came in his tux, looking ass handsome as ever.
Nobody could deny that Chris was attractive. His personality and his looks really made him a good catch.
"Chris can you zip this up for me please?"
I didn't receive an answer so I turned around to find him on the couch on his phone. He was completely concentrated on his screen. He was most likely looking at the nudes random chicks sent him on the daily.
I picked up the nearest thing next to me and chucked it at him.
"Chrisss" I whined
His head shot up as my makeup case hit him in the head. "Ow. what the fuck." he said pouting his lips
I rolled my eyes at his attempted pout. "Zip me please"
After zipping me up he put his hands on my shoulders, giving them a little squeeze.
"You look absolutely stunning Princess. I know tonight might be a little stressful but youre going to be fine. You have me, Lily, and Aubrey here for you. If at any time you feel uncomfortable, just let me know and we will call it a night." he said kissing me on the side of my head.
I was wearing a light pink dress that was covered in sparkles. It hugged my curves but flared out at the bottom almost like a wedding dress trail. Two slits ran up the front of the dress, showing off the front of my legs as I walked. It showed the perfect amount of cleavage but also was nothing less that professional. I straightened my hair, letting it fall down on my back. I wore little to no makeup, only some mascara and lip gloss. Topping it all off with dangling diamond earrings and a three stone diamond necklace.
"Thank you." I smiled up at him.
I tried to keep myself busy today with preparations so I didn't have to think about what is to come. I knew there was a seventy-five percent chance that Elliot might reject me and his child. Hell, it wouldn't even bother me if he didn't want me, it would just break my heart to know that he wouldn't want anything to do with this kid.
"Okay people are starting to show up, I think it's time to show our faces." Chris joked.
"Mhmm" I responded suddenly starting to feel my nerves set in.
I grabbed my clutch, and looped my arm around Chris's.
We walked out of the dressing room and down to the entrance of the ball room.
"You ready?" Chris asked as he stopped in front of the entrance. The double doors looked back at me as if they were taunting me.
I closed my eyes trying to calm down my breathing. "Do I have a choice?" I joked
"Nope not really" he laughed, squeezing my arm as a sign of comfort.
I blew out a breath, "Let's do this."