I wore the outfit, that would've definitely enraged Draco. It went to my mid-thigh and the skirt perfectly gripping my curves. I had changed my hair to blonde unlike I had before my curse broke. My wavy hair now flowed and went till my waist, making it look like a river of gold was flowing on my back. I had a winged eyeliner on, some blush and lipstick on. The makeup hiding my dark circles and puffy eyes, perfectly.
I entered the train not wanting to sit with the trio, but ended up sitting, as I didn't have anywhere else to sit.
"So, what was Draco doing with that weird looking cabinet?" Harry asked while I was reading.
"What cabinet?" I asked looking up at them.
"In Borgin & Burke, he was touching some cabinet" Ron replied and I went back to reading.
"And who were all those people?" he asked again.
Death Eaters.
"Don't you see? It was a ceremony, an initiation" Harry completed, I was about to blow up again, when Hermione chimed in. I folded my hands into fists, nails digging into my palm.
"Stop it Harry. I know where this is going" she said shaking her head and I looked up from my book.
"It's happened. He's one of them" Harry said and I looked at him with wide eyes.
How does he know?
"One of what?" Ron asked from beside Hermione.
"Harry is under the impression that Draco Malfoy is now a Death Eater" Hermione said looking at me.
"W-Why would you think that?" I asked swallowing thickly.
"What would You-Know-Who want with a bloke like Malfoy?" Ron said sarcastically and I rolled my eyes.
"Then what was he doing in Borgin & Burkes? Browsing for furniture?" Harry said sarcastically and I was about to speak when Ron cut me off.
"He's a creepy bloke and it's a creepy shop" Ron said while I was totally distracted.
"Liv, you might know something. You met him yesterday" Harry said looking at me, while I stared into oblivion.
"Liv" Ron said shaking me.
"Yes?" I asked snapping out of my thoughts.
"Do you know what he was doing there?" Harry asked and I shook my head.
At least I wasn't lying. I actually had no idea what he was doing there.
"Look, his father is a Death Eater. It only makes sense" Harry said and I lost it.
"Oh, so now you're judging him on the basis of what his father did? It will not take you long enough to get to mine, would it?" I said angrily. The nails digging the flesh off of my palms, blood seeping through it.
"You're still defending him?" Ron asked in disbelief.
No one knew what was happening under the book.
"You all don't know Draco like I do, so-" I said and Harry cut me off.
"I need some air" he got up and left.
"Liv-" Hermione said and I stopped her with my palm in the air. Her eyes went wide, when she saw my hand.
"Not a word" I said staring at the door.
"I need to use the loo" I said with tears in my eyes. I got up and went the same direction Harry did.
I needed to get it out. All of it. Maybe I should just see him. He has seen me at my worst. He has seen me vulnerable. He is not new to all of this.
I sighed and opened the window of the door I was standing near and peeked my head out of the window, just a little.
The warm breeze hitting my face and the sun shining above me. I looked at the scenery that was in front of my eyes. Mountains and mountains covered with green and a lake sitting peacefully at the edge of it.
Sometimes, I get lost in the deep blue sea,
My mind searching for a green forest.
Little did I know,
That my eyes were the sea,
While yours were a deep green forest.
Draco's words rang through my head and made me smile. I closed the window and headed towards his compartment. I reached the door to see Draco's head in the lap of Pansy.
My eyes quickly watered seeing the sight. But I noticed something different. While Parkinson played with Draco's hair and he laid in her lap, calmly. That was different. Parkinson didn't look at him with the look she had over the years. She was just being there for her friend. She was trying to compose herself, so that he could stay calm.
It had been months since I had seen him smile, genuinely. I'm glad that he had a few people left in his life that would care about him. Even if he wasn't happy with me, he was with her. I didn't mind, at this point, all that mattered was, he was calm and a little happy.
I opened the door and Blaise and Theo appeared in front of me, making me startle.
"Hey, Olive" Blaise said sweetly and I teared my gaze away from Draco and laid my eyes on him.
"Blaise!" I exclaimed a little too loud for Draco to hear me and went on my tip toes to hug him. I placed a light kiss on his cheek.
Draco hadn't still been accustomed to me being affectionate like this to anyone. But since he dumped me, it doesn't matter.
"Theodore" I said as I did the same with him.
We were still standing at the door and talking to each other.
"How you've been?" Blaise asked placing a hand on my shoulder.
"You know, your good old Olivia Montgomery" I said chuckling a little.
"Doing good at hiding the marks, eh, Montgomery?" Theo said looking at my outfit and I shrugged in a like in 'you-know-how-it-is'.
"Better than Malfoy, at least" I heard Blaise mumble under his breath and I now knew that he was indeed a Death Eater.
"So, what are you doing here?" Blaise asked and I smiled lightly.
"Just using the facilities" I answered honestly.
"No, no, no. You were here to see Malfoy, weren't you?" Theo asked as we sat down at an empty seat.
"Why would I be here to see Draco?" I asked and they looked at each other.
"Oh, I reckon Draco didn't tell you guys" I said and then pointed in the direction of Draco, who was still in Parkinson's lap.
"We guys broke up" I said as I stood up.
"We're-" Blaise said but I cut him off.
"I'm fine, Blaise" I said as I headed towards the end of the compartment, the boys following behind.
"This Gryffindor Queen doesn't need no king to tell her that she is nothing without him. She is just perfectly fine without a king, let alone a Prince" I said a little loudly making sure that Draco would listen to what I was saying.
"Damn girl" I heard Blaise say and I smirked.
He was still in her lap and his legs rested on the ground, so I accidently stomped on his foot.
"Ow!" he said sitting up straight and rubbing his foot, I turned around and looked at him. It took everything in me not to run to him and hug him.
I smirked lightly and said, "Oops"
I went to the lavatory and sighed. I didn't want to be mean to him. I had to. Whatever he did, he had a reason. But maybe, just maybe, we could see past this and I could understand him.
I opened the door to see an angry looking Draco standing at the door frame. He grabbed me by my neck and pushed me against the wall, closing the door behind him.
I looked straight into his eyes, trying to be intimidating. He looked at me and said, "You think..." and his eyes flickered to my lips, he gulped and looked back up and said, "You think you can come into my compartment and humiliate me? And what the hell are you wearing? I could practically see your ass"
I scoffed at him and said, "You can't tell me-" and he cut me off. He kissed my lips, the familiar taste of mint and green apples on my lips once again. He had his hand around my neck, not gripping tightly, it was just there, but possessively. And for a second, I gave in.
Just a second.
Before I or him could slip a tongue in each other's mouths, I pulled away and looked to the side, not meeting his eyes. His lips lightly brushing my cheek. He looked at me for a minute and placed a kiss on my temple.
I felt calm, so calm, that I haven't felt in ages. What kind of magic did this boy have over me? Just by the contact of lips, I was serene. Just by his touch, I was buoyant.
He continued the kiss for a few seconds and left without saying a word. I locked the door behind him and cried. I cried till I heard the train stop. We had reached Hogwarts.
I waited for a few minutes, so that the train would clear out and I could go unseen.
I opened the door and was about to enter Draco's compartment when I heard him talk to someone. I quickly pulled the door back and kept it open, just a little, so I could hear what he was saying.
"Didn't Mummy ever tell you it was rude to eavesdrop, Potter?" he said closing the other door.
Harry? What the hell is that boy doing here?
"Petrificus Totalus" he shot a spell and I heard a thud.
"Oh yeah... She was dead before you could wipe the drool off of your chin" Draco said and I peeked a little.
I wish I didn't.
I saw him kick Harry right in the face. I gasped and quickly got off the train from the exit that was at the end of the train.
I was in shock, I knew Draco was witty and snarky, but violent. I never even thought he could do that.
Did that mark change him that much? Was he no longer the Draco I had fallen in love with?
Maybe the person I had fallen in love with never existed. Maybe it was all just a façade. Maybe he just made me believe that he had the same feelings. Maybe it was never about me.
But maybe, just maybe, I wanted to think that all of this was not true.
I was standing at the platform, when I heard Draco call me.
"Montgomery!" he said and was coming towards me. I looked at him, like I had never. With fear. I was terrified of Draco. The only one thing I thought I would never be, was now true.
Before he could come any closer, I ran in the other direction. I was late so I couldn't find any carriages. I was walking alone, when I heard Harry and Luna walk behind me. I quickly wiped away my tears.
"Hello, Olivia" Luna said in her sweet voice.
"Hey, Luna" I said in a sore voice, which Harry was quick to notice.
"What happened, Liv?" he asked placing a hand on my back.
"N-Nothing" I said giving a half-hearted smile.
"I'm sorry Harry. I shouldn't have behaved the way I did with you in the compartment" I said putting my hand through Luna's and rested my head on her shoulder.
Luna was always, always, very comforting. She and I had grown pretty close over the years. Everyone thought that she was weird and freaky, whereas to me, she was a total sweetheart.
"You don't have a good vibe passing, Liv" she said placing a hand on my cheek.
"I'm sorry for Draco too" I said and Harry looked at me.
"I was using the facilities when I heard you guys" I said and he nodded.
"You don't have to apologize for him being a git" he said as he rubbed my back.
"Sorry Luna, I made you miss your carriages" he said to Luna.
"That's alright. It was like being with a friend" she said sweetly and I zoned out their conversation, when I heard Draco quarrel with Filch.
"There you three are!" Professor Flitwick said and I tore my gaze away from Draco.
"Names?" the professor asked and I furrowed my eyebrows at him.
"Sir, you've known me for five years" Harry said and I added.
"And I'm the lead for your choir for about 2 years now"
"No exceptions, Mr. Potter and Miss. Montgomery" he said as he searched our names on the list.
"Who are those people?" Luna asked pointing at someone.
"Aurors. For security" Flitwick said and I looked at Filch.
"What's this cane here, then?" he asked picking up the cane and it was of Draco's father.
"It's not a crane, you cretin. It's a walking stick" Draco said snatching it off of his hands. They continued to quarrel for a bit, but Snape came for his rescue.
"Nice face, Potter" Draco said looking at Harry and he in turn, gave Draco a sarcastic smile.
"Would you like me to fix it for you?" Luna asked pulling out her wand.
"Say yes, Harry. She's good with spells. I'm gonna look for my luggage" I said and went over to the piles of luggage that was already there.
We went over to our dorms. Harry and I changed and went to the Great Hall.
"Here, let me help you" I said taking the cloth from Harry's hand and cleaning the blood.
"You don't have to-"
"It's the least I could do, given the fact that my ex-boyfriend just broke the nose of my best friend" I said and he chuckled.
"Luna did a great job fixing you" I said handing him the cloth back.
"Yeah, she did" he said and we sat down at our table.
"Where have you two been? And what happened to your face?" Hermione asked as I sat down next to her.
"Later" Harry said as he started sipping his pumpkin juice.
I zoned out again, ignoring all of the conversation that happened between my friends and the speech of Dumbledore.
I was playing with my spoon, when Hermione nudged me and said, "Really?"
"What?" I asked placing the spoon down and ending up not eating anything.
"Snape is the new DADA teacher" Harry said and I looked at Draco.
He was unbothered by the news, he had his elbow resting on the table, while his head rested on his palm.
I looked at his plate. Even he didn't eat anything.
"Now, as you all know, you were searched at your arrival. You have the right to know why" Dumbledore continued with his speech.
"You see, there was a young man, just like you. He sat in this very hall, walked this castle's corridors, slept under its roof. He seemed to all the world a student just like you. His name?" he said and my hands turning into fists.
He took a long pause and continued, "Tom Riddle"
I closed my eyes when everyone in the hall looked at me. Hermione's hand went around my arm and rubbed it. I opened my eyes and looked at her.
"I'm always there" she said opening my fists, that had already started bleeding.
"Today, he's known by a different name. Which is why, as I stand looking out upon you all tonight, I'm reminded of a sobering fact"
"Every day, every hour, this very minute perhaps, dark forces attempt to penetrate this castle's walls. But in the end, their greatest weapon is you" he said completing his speech.
"Yeah right, the dark force has already penetrated the castle's walls" I heard someone say and I looked up.
"Olivia, can I talk to you?" Draco asked and I looked at Hermione.
"Go on, we'll wait for you in the common room" she said and before the boys could protest, she pushed me and I walked outside.
Everyone was still in the hall eating dessert, when Draco and I found a secluded corner.
For the first time, I didn't feel safe with Draco. In the train, when his touch made me sane, after what happened minutes later, here I was, scared to be in his presence.
He was about to grab my arm, when I flinched. He looked at me with furrowed eyebrows and said, "Why did you flinch?"
"N-Nothing" I said quickly.
"That motherfucker told you" he said angrily and punched the wall that was behind me, barely missing me.
That's it.
"No!" I yelled and pushed him from his chest.
"I saw it!" I said with tears in my eyes.
"How could you?" I said angrily.
Another push.
"How could you turn so violent?"
Another push.
"What has happened to you?"
Another push.
"For the first time, Draco. I am not feeling safe to be here with you. And you should be ashamed for that"
Another push.
"Where is the Draco that I fell in love with?"
Before I could push him again, he grabbed my wrist. And I realized what I said. For the first time, I told him that I love him.
He grabbed my face and kissed me.
"No" I said and freed myself from his grip.
"No, you can't just kiss me and think you're gonna make it all go away. That's not how it works" I said looking him in the eye, with a single tear dropping from my eyes.
"No, I can't. You're a totally different person to me now. I cannot see you the way I did, just yesterday night. I used to think of you as somebody that would never hurt me, little did I know, that it was just a game to you" I said closing me eyes.
I looked at him and waited for him. I don't know for what. Maybe for an apology? Or the truth? Or just consolation?
Nothing.
He just stood there, staring at me. I sighed and left for my dorm.
Who do you turn to when the only person in the world that can stop you from crying, is how exactly the one making you cry?
I went to the music room and sat down beside the piano.
A/N – Please play 'The one that got away' by Katy Perry (The one that I have attached at the top. Just the best one I heard)
Summer after high school when we first met
We'd make out in your Mustang to Radiohead
And on my 18th birthday we got matching tattoos
Used to steal your parents' liquor and climb to the roof
Talk about our future like we had a clue
Never planned that one day I'd be losing you
In another life I would be your girl
We'd keep all our promises
Be us against the world
In another life
I would make you stay
So I don't have to say you were
The one that got away
The one that got away
I was June and you were my Johnny Cash
Never one without the other, we made a pact
Sometimes when I miss you I put those records on
Someone said you had your tattoo removed
Saw you downtown singing the blues
Never planned that one day I'd be losing you
But in another life
I would be your girl
We'd keep all our promises
Be us against the world
In another life
I would make you stay
So I don't have to say you were
The one that got away
The one that got away
All this money can't buy me a time machine, no
Can't replace you with a million rings, no
I should've told you what you meant to me, no
'Cause now I pay the price
In another life
I would be your girl
We'd keep all our promises
Be us against the world
In another life
I would make you stay
So I don't have to say you were
The one that got away
The one that got away
The one that got away
The one that got away
I stopped playing. And that's when I realized that I will never unlove Draco Malfoy and that no one could ever hold the place he held in my heart. That no one will ever make me feel like he did. That no matter he was a Death Eater, my heart will always crave for that heart and my soul for his.
Little did she know, that Draco heard her sing the song and quietly sobbed at the lyrics.
A/N - Ohh, it broke my heart to write this chapter. Hope you guys liked it.