♣ I can't do this anymore
I'm losing my will to survive ~
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Yn's pov :
"I-IT CAN'T BE--"
The first polaroid was a family picture.
A man around his thirties with brown hair and a gentle smile printed on his face is holding a women on his right. The women is also smiling while her blonde hair is slightly moving because of the air.
In front of them there are two little kids. One boy was showing a 'v sign' with his baby fingers while grinning. And beside him was a little girl who was also showing a warm smile while holding his father's right hand.
And this..is really familiar to me..
I mean how I cannot recognise it..
It's my family!
I can still remember that sunny day vividly. We went on a picnic. The picnic was so fun.
And that was the last picnic we had as a family before I lost them..
My parents...
Tears rolled down from my eyes as I looked at the picture.
Appa and eomma...I miss them..I miss them too much..
And it really hurts.
To be alone here...without them..
I mouthed a 'I love you ' while wiping off my tears.
And then I looked at the other polaroids.
There are some pictures of jungkook and mine wearing school uniforms and smiling brightly at the camera in the annual function.
But most of them was mine.
One was clicked when I was reading a book while leaning on a tree, one was clicked when I was running at the school marathon, one was clicked when I was busy in drawing at the art class.
But then. One pic caught my eye.
It was me again in a school uniform was giggling while holding a bottle of blue ink.
And beside of me was a boy.
Around Jungkook's age.
He was wearing big round glasses and smiling uncomfortably because his school shirt was drenched completely with that blue ink I was holding at the picture.
It was obvious that I purposely ruined his school uniform.
Then suddenly some memories flashed into my mind-
-flashback-
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I was swinging at the play ground when suddenly that boy with round glasses came running to me.
He called me, "Yn! "
I jumped down from that swing and came near to him, "Yes? "
He showed me a certificate and grinned brightly, "Look, look! What I got? I got the first prize at the English competition today!!"
He jumped excitedly while showing of his certificate to me.
I showed him a face of not-interested and said , "Yeah yeah, it's usual now. Don't need to show off ok?"
He smirked at that, "Why, cause our small yn can't get first position? "
I replied with an annoyance , "Huh, who want that position of yours anyways! "
He again smirked and said , "tsk, tsk... such a pity."
His taunt fueled anger in me.
I screamed, "You !you! Nerdy pants!! Shut up! "
"Wait, what did you call me ?"
This time I smirked, "heh, you are a 'NeRdY pAnTs' and it suits you "
I said as I ran away. He quickly ran after me, "Yn! Get back here! "
I ran as I looked behind and teased him, "catch me if you can!"
-flashback end-
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A lot of things are going on my mind.
I know this boy! I definitely know him!
But who is he, why I don't remember him?
I was so busy in thinking that I didn't even realise that someone entered the room and stood behind me.
And all of a sudden a strong hand came out from behind me and snatched those photos from my hand.
I heard a loud growl behind me, "YN! "
Out of instinct when I turned around. I saw namjoon standing behind me.
And his eyes were dark black. He stood there with his jaw clenched and a furious look.
And I knew by that.
He isn't the least happy now..
Again he turned into that form...his monster form..
He screamed at me, " WHY THE FUCK YOU HAVE THIS IN YOUR HANDS? "
I shivered with fear, "joon I was-"
"DIDN'T I TOLD YOU NOT TO TOUCH ANYTHING WITHOUT MY PERMISSION? ? WHO THE HECK DO YOU THINK YOU ARE TO TOUCH MY THINGS??!"
I started again, "I'm sorry joon-"
He grabbed my wrist tightly and made me stand up from the couch.
"SHUT UP! JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP!!"
There's he again...
He won't listen to me now.
He's fueled with too much anger now.
'Now what will happen to you, yn?'
My inner mind spoke to me.
I stood there quietly as he started again.
"You don't really understand your position right ? I can just kill you and throw you like a garbage. No one will know. But you're just don't learn at all!!
I told you several times already don't test my fucking patience. But you just don't listen at all!!"
I looked at him with fear.
His eyes...his mesmerising eyes are now just deep black.
And I hated that..it made me think always that
It's the end of my life...
"FINE ! IF YOU DON'T WANT TO LEARN BY YOUR OWN, THEN I'LL MAKE YOU LEARN THIS TIME !"
He roughly pulled me and started walking out from the library.
Oh no, where's he taking me?
He crossed the hallways and then stopped his tracks in front of a room.
He opened the room. It smelled like a suffocating air.
He pushed me into the room and I fell onto the floor.
Then he walked out and locked the room.
Suddenly a wave of shiver rolled down from my spine.
He locked me in a dark room.
I can't see anything now!
And darkness...I really fear darkness...
I somehow got up and stumbled towards the door, "Joon! Please !! Please open the door! !"
He replied from the other side, "No yn, you'll stay there until you don't learn from your mistakes."
Tears formed in my eyes, " Please, I beg you! Open the door! I promise I've learned from my mistakes. It won't happen again. I'm really afraid of darkness. Please open the door Namjoon!"
He just scoffed and said, "your lies won't melt my heart yn. Make sure to have an enjoy full night."
He turned and walked away. The sound of his footsteps are fading away until it's gone completely.
He locked me and left me in this dark unused room.
I still tried and banged the door. But no one opened the door no matter how much I begged.
Suddenly this darkness started to consume me.
It felt like it's gonna swallow me alive.
When I stood up and started to walk, I trippled over something-
And landed on some hard base.
A loud 'bang' echoed the room.
My head started to hurt like hell.
I touched my head and felt something liquid.
It's blood.
My vision started to get blurry as I whispered one last time-
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"I'm sorry, but I don't wanna die yet.
P-PLEASE S-SAVE ME.."
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Author's Note :
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