21. Drivers license pt2
A notification popped up on Alex's phone, he glanced at it quickly not really giving it much thought.
Reyadoessing has gone live!
He did a double take seeing who was currently streaming. He was in shock, she hadn't streamed for months. She hadn't even been on social media, not even to announce this stream. He could tell something was off when he clicked the little button sending him to her live. She was sat on her bed quite far from her set up. She had a guitar propped on her knee and a notebook open infront of her. She glued her eyes to it taking deep breaths. Her nerves were radiating through his screen. His eyebrows furrowed as she began to pluck the strings. He wasn't expecting her to sing, especially on her first stream back. He saw the chat going crazy, half cheering that's she's back and asking if she's okay, the other half noticing Alex was there. Reya couldn't see the chat so she didn't know he was watching. However she hoped he was. He needed to hear this to know how she's hurting, how she still cares about him.
She briefly looked at the camera. Her dark circles and blotched cheeks on full display. Alex gasped lightly in complete concern. The chat one again we're going crazy wondering what was going on, worried for Reya. Elias was still in the room, he was sat just out of view just listening as she was playing.
I got my drivers license last week, just like we always talked about.
Reya's voice was shaky after all she had been crying. Her voice was raspy too. However she kept going. She kept going, the lyrics brought back memories over the past couple months. The months she had spend with Alex.
You were so excited for me to finally drive up to your house.
Like the first time she met up with Alex. She drove to his house to do a stream with him. A media share stream. Spent hours laughing at the stupid videos the chat would pick. Even if they weren't funny, just the pure stupidity made them cry laughing. She will never forget the first time she met Alex. It was permanently engraved in her mind. In her heart.
But today I drove through the suburbs, crying because you weren't around.
Like all the times they would go in late night car drives. Screaming to Taylor swift until their voices were gone. She wanted nothing more than to go back to those times. When everything was easy, simple. When everything was perfect. Well not quite perfect. But close enough.
You're probably with that blonde girl, who always made me doubt.
Alex was sat in confusion. First stage of grief. Shock.
Eyes glued to the screen and he watched tears roll down Reya's cheek. He couldn't help but think this was about someone. Not just anyone though.
He refused to admit it though. Second stage of grief. Denial.
Shes so much older than me, she's everything I'm insecure about.
Everything was falling into place. The viewers started to speculate what this song was about. Alex knew full well what it was about. His first reaction was to be angry. Third stage of grief. Anger. Why would she put this into a song? This isn't fair she broke up with me first! It's none of her business who I date anymore. He thought to himself.
Reya started to think about the picture. The horrible picture. No. It was a perfect picture really. Ask anyone they would've said they were a perfect couple. How she wished the photo was horrible. How she wished she could just stop them. How she wished it was her.
Yeah today I drove through the suburbs, because how could I ever love someone else.
Her emotions started to get the better of her. Her voice cracked ever so slightly and her eyes watered.
And I know we weren't perfect but I've never felt this way for no one.
And I just can't imagine how you could be so okay now that I've gone.
She couldn't help but think back to the day she was at the beach, and Alex had found her. Seeing how much he cared broke her heart to a million pieces, knowing that he doesn't care like that anymore. He was so sincere, so calming. He was truly the only one who made her feel safe. Especially after what happened, when she thought she was at her lowest, he brought her straight back up. He was there when she really needed it but now where was he? She needed him and he was off with some other girl. She was angry, upset too and she wanted to show him that.
She also remembered the other beach day. The happiest day of her life. Their first kiss. The day they became a couple. Reya had never felt this way about anyone ever. And it hurt her so much to have to leave him. She didn't want to. It was torture. She wanted to stop right there end then stream and drive to his house. Ask for him back. Ask for his forgiveness. If he still even cared. He had someone new so probably not.
I guess you didn't mean what you wrote in that song about me, yeah you said forever now I drive alone past your street.
Alex had no words. He was rendered speechless. He looked over at the chat. They figured it out. Heat raised to his cheeks leaving them a bright shade of red. He was ashamed. Embarrassed. He didn't know how to feel. He could see how Reya would hurting. She was struggling to get the words out will trying now to choke on her own sobs. He wanted more than anything to jump through the screen and comfort her. He missed her. He really did. He didn't think she missed him. The number of times he was left of read, call denied, messages not even read. He was worried but was losing hope. Then the blow to the heart. We can't be together anymore. He needed a distraction. Someone to take him away.
Red lights.
At red lights Alex and Reya would burst into full dance mode. Going crazy until the light changed green before pretending it never happened.
Stop signs.
The amount of times Reya would miss a stop sign due to vibing with the music too much.
I still see your face in the white cars.
Reya's car was white.
Front yards.
Alex's front yard where they had their first meet, first hug.
Cant drive past the places we used to go to.
Just the thought of all the places they had been together made her heart crumble. How simple places of happiness changed to places of pain and bad memories.
'Cause I still fucking love you babe.
She loved him.
She loved him and now he knew.
Alex's heart stopped. Did he hear that right? She loved him? All this time she loved him? She broke up with him but still loves him?
Sidewalks we crossed.
Sidewalks they'd walk on together by the coast, laughing or just walking in a comfortable silence.
I still hear your voice in the traffic.
The memories haunted her everywhere she went. Cars would drive past her window and she'd be flooded of all the times they spent together.
We're laughing. Over all the noise.
His laugh was so pure, loud but pure. Contagious too. His laugh made others laugh. His laugh was perfect.
God I'm so blue now we're through.
The memories made her knees weak, her body ache. She was in a permanent state of sadness without him.
'Cause I still fucking love you babe.
There it was again. She really did love him. The chat were in shock. They had got #Reya trending on Twitter. Series of tweets rolled in asking if she was okay. By now the whole chat knew what was going on. They figured it out, pieced all the pieces together. Other streamers got it too jumping to message Reya with their condolences.
I know we weren't perfect but I've never felt this way for no one.
And I just can't imagine how you could be so okay now that I've gone.
Cause you didn't mean what you wrote in the song about me.
Cause you said forever now I drive alone past your street.
Alex had tears starting to spill as he heard her voice shake as she went to a whisper. She was so broken. He was angry but couldn't help but want to comfort her. he had accepted the break up now this? His screen went black as the stream ended. He was left in silence and darkness. He didn't know what to do. Did he speak to Reya? Does he pretend he didn't see it? What is he supposed to do?
He wanted to go over and speak to her. Ask what it meant. Ask if it was true. Did she really still love him. If she did why would she break up with him with barely any explanation. Honestly he just wanted his best friend back. But it wasn't that simple.
Reya sighed as Elias ended the stream. He too was crying silently. She looked at him with a pained look.
"I'm proud of you Reya." Was all he said as he sat next to her. She rested her head upon his shoulder letting the tears splash onto his sweater. Soon enough she drifted into a light sleep.
Yeah you said forever now I drive alone past your street.
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