Only our pillow knows the amount of emotion and hurt we hide from the world...
Flora's Pov
The thunderous storm from outside woke me up and I slowly opened my eyes
I looked around and looked at the time to only see that it was past two in the morning
Ohh
And I suddenly remembered all the events that took place yesterday and my heart drowned again
I was wearing my yesterday's clothes so I went to my bathroom and stood in front of my mirror
And my face was swollen...so swollen and I was pale...my eyes were puffy and dangerously red
I then washed my face before taking a cold shower and changing into sweatpant and hoodie
I then went outside to the balcony were there are only two wood chairs
The rain was thunderous so and I felt so numb and I slowly started walking outside the rain
The rain was pouring down heavily on me but I still continued walking slowly
I guess this is life....the rain pours down heavily on the most innocent and naive people who should have sunshine instead of rain
And by this time...I was crying...what is wrong in wanting to be his Friend
What is so wrong...God tell me...am I not fucking good enough to be his freaking friend
Am i not worth it...am I that worthless and use less...can't i get anything Good in my life
Why am I this stupid and dumb...don't I have all the qualities it takes to be his friend
I don't want anything from him...just to be his fucking friend
I wish I was aborted because their world is too cruel from me to be in
I wish I died as soon as mom gave birth to me
I wish I died in mom's stomach and I freaking wish that I never existed
It hurts so much and it freaking hurts here...in my fucking heart and I don't know why
It hurts so much God...it hurts so much...please take it away from me
Why does it hurt this much...whyyyy
Wait I can escape this hurt by killing myself right...yes that is a good idea
I can escape all this right...I looked around and saw a knife and I quickly took it
Remember your mother...she will not be proud of you if you do this...she will be ashamed to call you her daughter! !
And with trembling hands the knife slowly left ,you hands and fell on the grass
And I fell down and cried my heart out...I cried bitterly and the rain poured down heavily
I cried and cried till I cried no more and I felt nothing...I felt no emotion inside
I...I felt cold inside before I slowly gathered my self and went back k to the house
I went inside and slept >>>
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I woke up slowly because of the birds continous chippings..I slowly got up and look at the time
It was past 5..so I looked outside the widow for some minutes before I heard the door open
To see Andrew and he looked at me "Good morning flora" "Morning " I said sadly
And he sat next to me "how was your night " and I looked at him before forcing a fake smile
I hid so many emotions behind it...so many
"He returned the smile slowly "I made breakfast...you want some "
"No I'm good Andrew "
"Please'" "Andrew please...I'm good " "okay well get ready for work"
And he went outside slowly before I went to my bathroom and showered
I wore black hoodie and black sweatpants before wearing a black Nike sneakers and a black cap. ..I left my hair falling down my back
The black represents my emotions right now..and I went outside
I saw that they were all ready and was now waiting for me and we went to the villa
We reached but my mind was far away...I just heard my door open
"Were here " and I nod before coming down only to see Andrew looking at me
"I know you're not okay " before he hugged me and I hugged him back
We stayed like that for over ten minutes "Be good and take care of ourself "
Before I nod and took aria out of the car and we went inside To see the lights are all on
And he was on the dining table typing on his laptop and I felt numb
I went to him "Good morning sir " I said and he looked at me "Good morning "
And I went into the kitchen and prepared breakfast and by the time I was done the place was clear
I made his coffee and went outside to meet him fully dressed in his suit
I gave him his coffee and set the table before going upstairs and waking up aria
I woke her up and dressed her before coming down for breakfast
They ate breakfast quietly before I went there and cleaned everywhere up
I I prepared lunch and they ate and I'm now preparing dinner and he is here
I'm now done preparing dinner and prepared the dinning table and they are now eating
I was taking something from Dana's side and something pierced through me
"Ahhh" I shouted and I looked down to see it was a pin...Ahhhhhhhhh
It pierced through my fresh wound yesterday and water settled in my eyes
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Blood was flowing rapidly and it hurts like hell "i...I'm so-rry " dana said her voice trembling
"How many times have I told you to stop playing with dangerous things " a thunderous voice said
And Dana turned to her daddy "da...ddy I'm so.r.ry" and he just sighed and he rubbed his read
"Just go to your room " "dadd-" "dana go to your room" "I'm sorry flo "
And then she went upstairs and both of us were the only one left
And I turned to leave the kitchen "can I treat it " and I turned around
"Sir i can do it for myself " " I know you can do it for yourself but my daughter did that so the least I can do is treat it"
"Okay" "okay...follow me" and I followed him and we reached up to his room
We went inside and I stood up "You can sit" and I sat down before he went into his bathroom and came out with a first aid kit
He then knelt down and slowly took my hand he then put spirit there
"Ahhh" I tried to withdraw my hands but he held it tighter "Shh,.it's okay"
And he bandaged my hand and as I wanted withdraw my hand he held on it tighter
But i ignored...it tried to withdraw it again but he held on even tighter
He was holding and it to tight and it was hurting "S-ir my ha-nd"
"I'm sorry" and he released my hand but it seems like that sorry had a different meaning but I ignored
And it got up "Thank you sir and good bye" I didn't even wait for his reply before I walked out
I took aria and went outside to see no one there and my phone buzzed
And It was a message from Andrew that he is still working And so on
So I took the bus home...we did our night routine and we slept but after thinking about how my day went.....