chapter fifty-one
❛⠀TRAP THE BOY⠀❜
messages between
→ dave and axel
axel
This is getting too hard
Like really hard
dave
The secret situation?
axel
Yeah.
I know she's keeping something from me and i can't get the idea that she's cheating out of my mind
But i feel sick at the thought of confronting her
How could i do that?? After a cheating ex ruined her life, how could I accuse her of that?
dave
If you think she's doing it, though, there's nothing else to do
You have to ask her
axel
If i ask and she isn't, god knows what'll happen
I cant afford to be wrong man
She's everything
dave
Axel I get it
But you cannot keep going on like this
axel
smfh
dave
dude, I know for a fact this is stressing you out so much it's starting to get to your illness
i've known you for years
and I bet you felt better today when you were being normal on the stream
axel
Uh
dave
Don't try and deny it, I heard it in your voice
axel
You're right
It felt like when we first started talking, you know?
carefree and no-pressure even though there were tens of thousands of people watching
it reminded me of what made me fall in love with her
the fact that we can talk about anything and everything
dave
How you two always understand each other, no matter what?
axel
It sure hasn't felt like that lately
She's always texting someone else or calling someone else (Frankie) whenever we're together and it's exhausting
It feels like there's a third person in this relationship
dave
talk to her.
I cannot stress it enough, Axel.
TALK. TO. HER.
axel
I cant lose her
I don't know what i'd do if i lost her
dave
come on
would you rather keep her and live in constant stress, or lose her and miss her for a while, but get over it?
axel
That's the thing, I don't think I would get over it
Living without her would quite literally be like living without the light, happy part of your soul
I know I sound dramatic, but after being with Rosie I don't think I could ever be alone again
It would be too dark and suffocating without her
She's everything
dave
she really loves you, you know?
She literally said it
axel
In an instagram comment that she didn't tag me in and I had no guarantee of seeing
dave
Doesn't mean she meant it any less
Listen
If she's as much of your soulmate as you're making her out to be, talk to her. She'll understand. If you can't talk to her and even things out because you're afraid you'll lose her, then maybe she isn't the one
axel
She is the one
dave
Then talk to her
axel
I'm scared, dave
dave
good. it just means that you'll try even harder to work your stuff out.
messages between
→ rospleen, poopi, imowhen
rospleen
do you think corpse and i are moving too fast?
like, we've been dating for three weeks and we already live together
i thought it was fine since it was what we both wanted, but i'm not so sure anymore
poopi
what made you change your mind?
rospleen
i haven't changed my mind
i'm worried that corpse has
imowhen
??????
rospleen
he's been very closed off with me recently
like i'd try and give him a massage or help him with his pain and he'd shrug me off
he never did that before
poopi
maybe it's bruising his ego?
rospleen
he's not the type of guy to give a fuck about looking masculine
especially around me
but maybe that is the case, either that or he thinks we moved too fast and he wants to take a few steps back
poopi
what if you do take two steps back?
what's so bad about that?
rospleen
nothing!! i just loved where we were and i love him and i hate moving backwards
imowhen
but if it's what he wants....
rospleen
then i'll definitely do it
i'd rather have a little less of him then have none at all
poopi
you guys are the real deal tbh
rospleen
fingers crossed he thinks so too
he never responded to my ily comment
and he never gave any indication that he saw it
it's like it never happened
imowhen
maybe you should tell him you love him in person
because he might have not even seen the comment
poopi
tell him you love him<3
rospleen
he'd have to be around me for more than ten seconds for me to do that, and that's a rare occurance
poopi
when can you corner him
imowhen
TRAP THE BOY
poopi
TRAP THE BOY
rospleen
i'm not trapping my boy
i need to run some errands tomorrow so i can lure him in with a gift and then tell him
imowhen
luring, but trapping is where you draw the line
rospleen
yes.
poopi
you got it girlie
tell us how it goes
rospleen
if i call you in tears, you can bet it didn't go well
if i don't answer your calls...
i'm.. busy
imowhen
GROSS
poopi
👁👄👁
rospleen
IM JOKING ALRIGHT NOW PISS OFF
BOTH OF YOU
messages between
→ frankie and raisin
frankie
guess what
raisin
what??????
frankie
i came out to my therapist this morning
raisin
FRANKIE THAT'S FUCKING HUGE
THATS H U G E
I'M SO PROUD OF YOU
frankie
THANKS RO
it felt like a weight was pushing me into the floor, but then he smiled at me and gave me a hug
and it was like i was floating
god i felt so FREE
raisin
isnt it the best
frankie
THE BEST
i'm sorry your coming out to the internet didn't go how you wanted
raisin
being outed wasn't my first choice, but my sexuality has luckily never been a point of insecurity for me
add it to the list of fucked things olyvia has done
but i genuinely don't care
frankie
i'm happy for you!
rosie i really feel like something's changed in me and
i don't know
it wouldn't have happened if it wasn't for you
raisin
personal growth, frank. take credit where credit is due
frankie
but you pushed me to get better, you made me realise how shitty i was
i'm trying to say thank you
i owe you everything
raisin
it's okay frankie
i'd do it all over again if you needed me to
frankie
you're too good for this world
raisin
get a grip
frankie
LMFAOOO
hey are you free tomorrow?
raisin
got a few errands to run
we can do it together if you wanted to talk in person??????
but i have something urgent afterwards
frankie
that would be amazing
i need to catch you up on dr geralt's great tips and tricks
raisin
PLEASE DO
alright honey i'll text you tomorrow
frankie
i love you :)
raisin
i love you!!