Raj
She picks up an envelope and of course the name on top... Ram. She asks me to read it. This was going to be the moment I find out what was between these two. I read the letter. So it was all one-sided? That's got to be the absolute worst. I told her that she doesn't have to worry about him and she reassured me saying that she was totally over him but now there was a new problem. Why does there always have to be another problem? Why can't we be carefree and not have to worry? I asked her what?
"Well, there's this other guy..." "Do I need to talk to him? We should talk to Ram first. You two should still be friends. Tell me about this other one." I felt nervous and became very serious. "He's really sweet and he's been loving me for a while. He's even told me so. I didn't like him at first and now..." "Now we're married. What do you want to do? Should we go talk to him? Do you not like being with me? I can't stop your love..." I had no idea what she was trying to get at! First she tells me about Ram and now there's this other guy? I was shocked after our little moment when she said Ram instead of Raj and who's next? I can't believe it! And she likes him? Great! It looks like at this rate, I'm going to lose my wife and on top of that she was giving me one of those sweet irresistible smiles. Can she make it any worse?
"Raj, why are you getting so tensed for? Just relax. Let me tell you this. Slowly. I'm not sure how to say this." Her eyes were big and that smile had grown slightly. "Don't blink. Just keep staring at me." I was wondering what she was doing. Is she paagal? Did she have alcohol while I was gone? She blinks once and says "I". Blinks again, "Love". A third blink, "You." I. Love. You. She had just said those three words to me. My body began to relax. I couldn't help but start laughing picking her up and swinging her around. It was hilarious. We ended up in a hug before she pulled away telling me to take a shower so that we can have dinner. I smiled the whole time singing my heart out.
I went downstairs and she had our dinners ready and my show was on. I don't usually see her eating this much but I saw her reach for food more than a few times. That's kind of weird. I asked her if she had eaten today and she said, "Yes, I did but I felt a little sick and wasn't able to digest it well." I had told her not to drink the coffee from the roadside stop after her volunteer work. Her stomach must be very weak.
The episodes that go on TV are usually what had been shot a few days earlier and she asks me for updates every day but I rarely give out spoilers – I'm not supposed to either. Today she sat beside me, a lot closer than usual. I was glad to have her back and glad that we were on good terms. She grabbed the sweets box and one by one they disappeared and I asked her to feed me one. She held one gulab jamun between her teeth as she reached to grab another one but I grabbed the one in her mouth and popped it into my mouth tasting the sweet syrup which had oozed down my chin. Her eyes were wide but she had reached over to wipe the syrup off my chin and licked it off her finger. When she was full, I saw her get up to put the box away and there were only a few sweets left in the box. I should buy them more often if she likes them so much!
We went up to our bedroom. The stair case isn't that long but I noticed that she was a bit out of breath! Maybe because of that big problem solved and her body is de-stressing and all. I told her about the little shooting location we were going to. It was a bit far and we'll be leaving in two weeks. I asked her if she wanted to come. Of course she said yes. I told her we need to pack soon. She said it can wait because after that heavy meal, she wanted to sleep. I decided to go up with her tonight. It was still early. She had her arm hooked in mine. I asked her when she wants to talk to Ram and she said that she had already called telling him that he was an idiot but an amazing friend. I laughed over that one. She held my hand without feeling so shy right then. She was beautiful. Her face glowed. I can't stop admiring her.
The glow on her face brought back memories of that one night where we had touched and loved one another. The fire in me was burning away and I was hot for her. I needed her again but I knew it wouldn't happen. I need to control myself. Why does she have to be so beautiful?! Every part of my being wanted to be hers and I was willing to give up everything for her at this moment.
She took my hand and said "You know, I've seen stories about you and everyone around you on TV and heard about it. I never knew I would be here with you right now, married to you. Raj, I've seen all of it. Those lies, scandals, controversies, I know you can't hide it but I want you to not hide the way you feel about it. Raj, tell me about those things too. I trust you and I want you to trust me." I told her to ask me anything she wanted to because I was ready for her to take in every inch of my soul and let my thoughts be naked. She said "I want to know your truth and how you felt."
I can remember those rumours and gossip as if it was yesterday that they had come out. It always did bother me. I told her I hate it. I hated all of it and still do. It had been the reason I left that whole industry. All those heartbreaks. I had thought I'd marry an actress or someone in the industry. I was left heartbroken every time because of some new story. I poured out my feelings to her that night. She comforted me and hugged me. I buried my face in the crook of her neck, smelling her hair, her hands patting my back gently before I felt the gentle pull back. It was a nice feeling to have a hug returned but I wanted to hold her longer and I held as long as I could before she had pulled back.
I asked her "Why the sudden hug?" and she said "Just because." "I thought you were scared to come this close." "No, I'm not! What are you talking about?" I moved a bit closer, "How about now?" She shakes her head no and smiles at me playfully. I move forward another few inches and only a few inches were left between us, "How about now?" "No" she had a nervous smile on her face. I moved in until there's only enough space to breathe in, "How about now?" I whispered. Her eyes were really big and it was as if she couldn't move. She bit her lips blinking a few times. Then, she got jumpy and shifted over to lay her head on the pillow. "Good night Raj!" I reached out behind her giving her one final hug before laying my own head down and listening to her gentle breathing.
Two weeks later came around quickly. The whole crew is going to the area where we'll be shooting a few more episodes for another two weeks. Meera loves it out there. She gets along so well with the crew and it's as if she belongs with us. She says she needs the sea air anyways. The first day we arrived was a sleep and enjoy day. Work was to start the next day. As soon as we got to the hotel, I made sure everyone was settled into their rooms and Meera was with me the whole time. We got to our room and its setup was nice and cozy, not huge.
I ordered some lunch to be brought to our room and watched some TV as she used the shower. I heard her call me and she said that she had left her clothing on the dresser but forgot to bring it with her. "Can you leave it beside the sink?" I saw the bundle sitting there and got up to put it where she wanted it. There was a skirt and a nice blouse, and in the folds of it, some sexy red hot lingerie. I couldn't help imagining her in it. Nowadays, she wears jeans and t-shirts around and not sarees so much. I like it. I like her in anything she wears. And I would definitely like her in that hot red underwear.
I shook my head before going into the bathroom so that I'd stop getting those overwhelming feelings. I was about to step back out after leaving the stuff next to the sink but I saw her in the shower, putting something in her hair. Don't get me wrong. She wasn't naked because if she would have freaked out. She wore her towel wrap upto her chest and it went down to right above her knees. I decided to play a little prank on her.
I was dirty enough for my own clothes to be washed so I step into the shower without a sound. She turns around the water hitting her back and she has no idea that I'm in front of her. Her arms are raised and she's scrubbing soap away from her eyes. She turns back around to wash her face and I saw the skirt slide down slightly as the tie had become undone. I reach out tying it loosely and she whips around with a scream, her arms coming up around the top of the skirt covering her chest.
"Aaaah, what are you doing in here?" "Relax, it's just me, and it's not like I haven't seen any of this. You bathe in a towelskirt?" "Yes I do, and Raj, I'm sorry but I don't remember night that and you're getting wet!" I felt bad for bringing that up again but it's not like we can forget it because it did happen and there won't be a first ever again. I told her I needed to shower too. She replied with a worried tone "Was I taking too long? I'm almost done. Raj, please, come on." I could tell she was flustered. I chuckled and reluctantly stepped back out of the open shower stripping off my wet clothes. Her eyes became huge again and she was signalling me to leave. I walked towards her just to see her reaction and she had frozen before I grinned at her as I turned around to leave. Too funny.
That's when I heard knocking at the door. Our room service was here. She laughed as I walked out of the bathroom. I yelled five minutes before grabbing a bath robe and getting to the door. My assistant director who is a bit older than me was silently smirking, "How are you enjoying sir? Happy married life! Here's your food, I told the attendant I'll give it to you." I could only smile back slightly. "A bunch of us are going down to the beach later in the afternoon, wanted to know if you and Meera want to come. Jaan wouldn't stop bothering me about it." His wife, Jaan, was actually an actress in the show. She acts as the mother of one of the characters. I told him that I'll let him know as soon as Meera comes out. She was probably going to say yes.
She comes out a minute after I close the door and she gives me a dirty look before walking to the balcony. "Wow, the view from here is beautiful." She dries her hair flipping it to the other side. It makes me want to hold her tight and kiss her so hard. The things that turn me on! She gives me a questioning look. "Aren't you going to shower?" "Oh yes, almost forgot thanks, haha. Aman asked if we wanted to head to the beach later today with the rest of the crew.""Of course I do! You should've said yes." "I won't agree to anything for you unless I know you agree too." She gave me a sweet smile telling me to hurry and shower before I caught a cold from standing wet.
I take a quick shower and got ready to eat with my wife. She had gone to sleep. We came all the way here and she was so excited to do things but she's so tired that she has already slept. That too without eating! I let her sleep. I flipped open my laptop looking at my schedules, the times we need to go shooting and which scenes in what order. I went through e-mails, social networking, and I finished all that. I even started to unpack some of the clothes. We're here for two weeks so might as well. It had been four hours.
Aman came by and I told him we'll be there soon after. Meera wakes up about 10 minutes later. "Raj, what time is it? How long did I sleep?" I told her to get ready if she wants to go to the beach. Her eyes go big, "I actually slept for that long? Wow. Do we have any food? I'm ravenous." The food I ordered, earlier I had had to eat by myself. I left the samosas and the sweets because it was too much for me. I told her to eat up. She must've been really hungry.
She washed her face and brushed her teeth. She came back out wearing a beach dress. I had never seen her in anything but a saree, or a top and bottom but in a dress, she looked extraordinary. Wow. I asked her what was new. She said that there were other things than just sarees in her wardrobe. This area was a bit chillier than where we lived so we had to get our jackets on too. She looked less like the Meera I was so used to seeing. We left soon and arrived at the party.
Everyone was happy to see us. They asked us to get in the water but Meera and I took a nice romantic walk down the beach instead. Someone had handed her a water gun and soon everyone was getting wet. Just fun and jokes. We had some good dinner. A friend of Aman's invited us all over. We stood around eating the food. It wasn't formal. You ate wherever you liked. Meera and I sat on the veranda with Aman and Jaanavi (aka Jaan). I can't help noticing but Meera seems to be eating more than me nowadays! I hope she can handle all that though. I'm not complaining. I don't mind if she's curvier. She was as thin as a stick when we married but she's rounding out a bit now. I thought she looked gorgeous. I was admiring her when Aman's hand began waving in front of my face. I snapped out of it. "Oy, Mr. director sir, won't you answer the question?" "Huh?" Everyone had a good laugh. We went back to our hotel to get some rest so that everyone was energized for our work day tomorrow.
Meera looked a bit pale. I asked her if she was okay. She was wearing a pyjama gown that stopped above the knees with her bare knees poking out. Why so sexy? Damn, too irresistible. She hadn't said a word and she ran to the bathroom, wretching like there was no tomorrow. I have a feeling the seafood doesn't suit her well. She came out 15 minutes later. I had a glass of water and some crackers prepared. We sat in bed watching TV as she chewed on the crackers. I asked her if she wanted to go to the doctor but she said she didn't want to. It was no big deal. She had come for vacation, if she wanted to see the doctor, she would've gone at home. I asked her if she was sure and she reassured me. I told her she's not allowed to come with me the next day because she was staying in bed until I said so. She grumbled for a bit into my chest. She had let me hold her after she had vomited. At some point she turned over and fell asleep.