You walked into the BAU Monday morning at 7:45 like you always did, walking in after the weekend off like Aaron had promised the team. You had avoided your phone all weekend as you expected to be berated with texts from Garcia, but you really did not care.
You walked through the bullpen saying good morning to everyone and you hadn't noticed Garcia anywhere. As you paraded through the floor, you made your way to your desk and sat down.
"How was your weekend?" Emily turned to you in a sweet voice, "I didn't get a single text from you this whole time, I was at least expecting a wine night." she finished
"I was a little bit preoccupied catching up on sleep, which I really needed, I promise we can do another soon." You turned away from her looking at the pile of paperwork on your desk. You sighed before opening it up and tried to get started.
"You sneaky snake," you heard a voice behind you. "I know you are hiding from me." You turned around and saw Garcia standing right behind you, holding her octopus mug in hand. "I need you in the Batcave now, and there is no saying no." She finished speaking trying to remain as stern as she could, which was not really that stern at all.
"I'd hate to be on the receiving end of that one" Derek taunted you from his desk. "Watch your tone, egghead." you joked back at him and Reid laughed a bit too hard at your joke.
"That's funny, You know that doesn't mean what you think it means. Actually, the definition of an egghead is someone who is highly academic or studious. They're an intellectual. Not a bald man." Reid chimed in making a correction of your attempt at a burn. He laughed at himself.
"Fine" you paused and turned to Derek, "Humpty dumpty, go fall off your wall." You laughed as you walked away, "Oh it's on sweet cheeks." Derek spoke officiating a war between you two
You walked up to Garcia's door and just stood there for a second.
I am not ready to be grilled by Garcia. There is no way I can lie through her. She can't keep a secret though, so I am definitely not telling her.
You gently knocked a few times before a shriek came from her office, "Come in promiscuous girl. I've been expecting you." You sighed before opening the door. As you walked in her face lit up like she had a million questions. You had no interest in telling her any of this.
"Take a seat my dear" you sat in the chair that she rolled out for you and you just looked at her waiting for the questions that she so greatly wanted to ask.
She just looked at you expecting you to say something. There was a gleaming look in her eyes like a kid who was just given a gift.
"Tell me everything about you and Mr.Stern," She said, staring at you with her ears wide open ready to hear it all.
"Garcia," you sighed "I was drunk and so was Aa- Hotch, I kissed him and it was a mistake." you lied trying to get her to ignore the fact that you left the bar with your hand in his. Your phone buzzed and you shrugged your shoulders a little to try and shirk the situation.
"Oh y/n" she started "I am not a profiler, but that was the worst lie I have ever seen." she looked at you and laughed slightly. She turned away from you to her computer before she put her hands on the keyboard.
"Now tell me the truth, the whole truth" she emphasized her words, "before I use my magical fingers to hack into your text messages and see what the bossman just texted you." you sighed because you knew you were defeated.
"When I say this, I mean it in the nicest way possible," you began, knowing that your next words were going to be harsh, "You can't keep a secret," you paused regretting saying that, "but I'm telling you this expecting that you will not tell anyone." you finished
you stuck your finger out "Not even Derek, especially not Derek. Emily doesn't even know." That was also a lie but you felt it would make her keep the secret.
Her mouth went agape at your words, "I know something about y/n that Emily doesn't" she smiled big. "This is so exciting, nothing like that ever happens. I feel like a love genie." she giggled and patted your leg, "Now spill"
"Uh okay, um, I kind of started during that mother child abductor case in early December, We were in the same hotel room and we slept together, and then again that next night after." She gasped and was completely in shock.
"Woah Woah Woah stop talking, I was not expecting that, I thought u guys had just kissed or something oh my god. Y/n how... I-" she paused and was practically staring into your soul. "What... I don't even-" she was shocked
Fuck
"Um yeah... Uh so there's more, Garcia, I'm just getting started." you were embarrassed but you continued. You put your face in the palms of your hand and rubbed your eyes harshly. You looked back up at her.
"So then a couple of days passed and he invited me over for dinner at his house and we talked about what we were doing and we just somewhat agreed to be friends with benefits. Just something for the both of us." you looked at her and she nodded telling you to continue.
"That's really all it is, I go over to his house after cases and I normally leave after we are" you cleared your throat again uncomfortable, "um when we are finished."
She looked confused, "So you don't stay over? I feel like that's the best part, cuddles and stuff like that, it makes it all so better. Oh and breakfast in the morning, I love cooking for them." she was giddy talking about that and you agreed that it was a really good part, you kind of missed it but you would rather be having great sex.
"It helps me separate it from everything, I don't want this carrying into work, it's just sex, and it's really good, let me tell you that one," you said with a little smile forming on your face. It kind of felt like a stab in your chest when you put it that way though.
"Oh my sweet sweet sunflower," she giggled to herself and turned back to her computer.
"What? Did I say something wrong?" you looked at her confused.
"Oh, you'll catch on eventually." You were so lost. You just sat there looking at her but she wouldn't look back at you.
"You're dismissed from the Batcave, lovergirl." she waved her hand at you signaling you to get back to work. You were just confused.
"Uh okay, Garcia." you walked out of her office and closed the door behind you. You walked through the bullpen lost in your thoughts trying to figure out what she meant.
You sat at your desk and just looked at your paperwork. You were not doing anything, you were still stuck in your brain. The words she said just laced through you and there was nothing stopping them.
You'll catch on eventually
What did she mean about that? Does she mean that-
"You okay?" You were pulled out of your thoughts by Reid who was staring at you. You looked up at him, "Yeah why wouldn't I be?" you said back at him
"You have been looking at that same page for exactly eleven minutes and thirty-seven seconds, It never takes you longer than eight and a quarter." he was observing you as you reacted to his words.
"Why do you- I'm not even gonna ask" you paused for a second, "I had an odd conversation with Garcia, that's all." You avoided answering his question.
You opened your phone to see who you got a text from because you couldn't open it around Garcia, and not to your surprise, it was from Aaron. "You have plans tonight?" he said in a text.
He was going to ask you to come over like he always did. It was always his house, you two had never been to yours before but you liked it that way. you almost did not want him at your house. The absence of family photos and the very broken one would make him question your family situation. You did not want that.
"See you at your place ;)" you said before practically throwing your phone against your desk to hide it from JJ who walked behind you.
"Hey guys we have a case, forget your paperwork, this one is urgent," she announced to the group as a scurry to enter the conference room paraded into the bullpen. Before you moved though, you looked at your phone
You thought it best to change your contact info for Aaron to keep suspicion out if someone saw your text messages like JJ almost did. You looked at the contact realizing that you couldn't think of anything clever to put there.
Then it hit you, the one thing you decided would stick as a nickname for him since the night in the car. You deleted his name and replaced it with the new one and saved it.
Party Boy <3
You didn't know why you added that little heart thing after it but something was just yelling at you to do it. You thought it made it look nicer. You threw your phone into your pocket as you stood up and walked into the conference room.
JJ stood at the front of the room and shared what she had discovered, photos, case files, and a lot of bodies.
"Four women all in their teens have been showing up dead a day or two after they report parental abuse in their house on a 9-1-1 hotline."
You felt a brick hit your stomach as abuse rang through the room. These cases always hit you harder than most and with this one being all women it was like you were going to relive it all again.
"Abby Jacobs was beaten, had nine bones broken, two of which were broken a week before the 9-1-1 call, and had bruises that were older than the call as well."
Her words began to turn incoherent as the photos of girls with bruises around their faces and arms pulled you into memories.
You never do anything right. How can we be expected to love you when you act like this
The familiar sting hovered on your face as you remembered what it felt like to be slapped or punched by your parents.
They called it tough love, but that was their poor excuse of taking their anger out on you. But it never stopped there. The mental torment pegged your brain. The feeling of being not good enough and not loved by anyone. The hope that a 'we're proud of you' would be spoken rather than a 'that isn't enough'
Your brain vomited a forgotten memory into you again.
Go look in the mirror, give yourself a pep talk, and talk to me when you can handle your shit.
Something your dad would always tell you. Emotion was not present in your house as a kid, except when it was yelling. They called it being lawyerly, but they were just assholes.
You could feel your face heating up as you became wildly flustered at the thoughts that attacked you.
"Y/n"
"Huh" you were pulled out of your thoughts as Aaron called your name out
"We are going to be on the jet in 20. Are you okay? You are the only one who hasn't said anything." He gave you a strange look wondering why you were so silent
"Yeah no... uh- yeah" you shook your head trying to shake off the fluster in your actions.
"Yes sorry brain was in Jupiter, I'll be there." you promptly stood up and walked out of the conference room.
You were the first one to leave and you had no intentions of talking to anyone right now
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