* Ring....Ring....Ring....Ring *
I woke up from the sound of my phone.
Wilbur was awake next to me.
"Who's that?" He asked.
I picked up my phone and read the name in my head.
'Carter'
I thought I blocked him! What?!
"It's um.. it's no one." I said.
Wilbur turned the phone over and grabbed it.
He answered the phone.
"Hey. Listen, you need to stop calling this number or else. We will get the police involved. Stop terrorizing y/n and move on with your life. Now fuck off." Wilbur said, firmly.
Carter didn't get the chance to say anything because Wilbur hung up on him.
"What the fuck?!" I yelled.
"Y/n! He has to stop! He's already creepy as it is. I could tell he didn't expect it! So it's better. Hopefully." Wilbur said.
We stayed in silence for a couple seconds.
"Thank you." I mumbled.
He smiled. "Your welcome."
I checked the time on my phone.
"OH SHIT!" I yelled.
"WHAT?!" Wilbur exclaimed.
"I promised Tubbo I'd get him McDonald's! I have to go! I'll talk to you later!" I said, running past him and getting my shoes on.
"Are you coming back?" He asked as I opened the door.
"If you want me to." I replied.
I shut the door and ran to Tubbo's room.
"Tubbo! Lets go get your McDonald's before it closes!" I yelled.
He ran out immediately and we raced down the stairs.
"How was your date?" He asked as we ran up the hill.
"It was fun!" I replied.
We made it to the restaurants and went inside McDonald's. I got Tubbo his food and then we made our way out of there.
"Mm! Thanks y/n." Tubbo said, with his mouth full.
"No problem. I cannot wait to be back home." I said.
"Same." Tubbo said as he chewed his food.
"Anyways, I promised Tommy I'd be on his live for a little so I'll see you later." Tubbo said right as we got back into the lobby."
"Yep." I said my goodbyes and went back upstairs to Wilbur's room.
"Hey Will!" I exclaimed.
No answer.
"Uhhh- Will?" I said.
I put the drink down that I got for him and listened for him.
I put my ear against the bathroom door.
"Ohhh shower. Okay okay." I said to myself. I was relieved that he was still here.
I put on Tommy's stream to watch him and Tubbo do random funny things.
I checked Twitter.
Quackity's tweet
I am tired
Your reply
Then sleep
Karl
No he's on the phone with me how dare you Quackity
Badboyhalo
Be nice guys
I heard the door open of the bathroom and then close.
"HOLY" Wilbur said.
"Hey Will" I said. Chewing the fries I got from McDonald's
"What are you doing here?" He asked.
"Uhh you invited me?" I replied.
I looked over at him.
"Do you seriously have no tshirts clean?" I asked.
"I'm sorry! It's not my fault tommy ruins them all with his cokes."
I laughed.
He shook his hair as he walked to sit next to me.
"So are we watching the child?" He asked.
"I guess so." I said.
"These are really good." I told him. I took another fry.
"I can tell. Save some for me." He said.
He dug his hand in and ate a fry.
"These are really good. Except, I can't taste shit." Wilbur laughed.
"Oh yeah- SORRY" I said.
We both laughed.
"Yeah yeah. There's this girl that keeps chasing me around and she is trying to kill me" Tommy told the chat.
"Are you talking about y/n's cousin?" Tubbo asked.
"Yeah."
"Are you scared of her?" Tubbo asked.
"NO BITCH BUT I CANT HIT A GIRL"
"He's right." I said, laughing at the stream.
"Mmm... so. Dream and y/n's cousin. Huh?" Tubbo said.
Tommy and Tubbo both bursted out laughing.
The chat were saying things like, 'DREAM?' 'OMG dream and y/n's cousin?! What's her name?'
Sapnap walked into Tommy's room.
"Oh- are you streaming?" Sapnap asked.
"What does it look like bitch" Tommy answered.
Tubbo laughed.
"Kay. Well do you have any of those chocolates you had?" Sapnap asked.
"What?"
"The chocolates."
"Ohhh yeah. They're over there." Tommy said. He pointed to a place off camera.
"Thanks. Dream wants some. Also, make sure to pack." Sapnap reminded Tommy.
"Oh shit- I forgot. Okay." Tommy replied. Sapnap walked out of the room.
Wilbur turned off the stream.
"I'm sick of hearing his voice." He admitted.
I looked at him.
"Sorry." He said.
I giggled.
"Okay so, do you need help with packing?" Wilbur asked as he took out his suitcase from the closet.
"No, i should be okay." I answered.
"I'll talk to you later." He told me, he walked his suitcase over to the bed while I got on my shoes.
"Yep." I said.
I walked down the hallway, and into the elevator. I pressed my room floor and walked to my room.
I opened my door.
"Nina?" I said.
"Yeah?" She replied with her mouth full.
"What are you doing?" I asked.
"I stole Clay's chocolates. And I'm hiding."
"In my room?" I said. I laughed.
"Yeah! Also, you have a piece of paper on your balcony."
"Oh.. okay?" I walked out onto the balcony and picked up the piece of paper.
'I love you.' - it read.
I called Will.
"Hey Will?" I said.
"Hey." He replied.
"Did you leave any notes on my balcony?" I asked.
"Uhhh.. no." He answered.
I froze.
"Ohhkayyy.." I said.
"Why?" He asked.
"There was just a weird note on my balcony."
"What does it say?"
I didn't want to tell him because he would think I think he loves me. Because I asked him if he wrote it. This might be awkward.
"Uh- I-it said it love you" I told him.
There was a slight pause in our conversation.
"Oh." He said.
I was right, this was awkward.
"Not saying that I think you love me or anything-" I tried to save myself.
"Y/n-"
"Because you probably don't so it's completely fine and I just wanted to know if you wrote it because if you didn't it would be really awkward because-"
"Y/n. It's fine." He said. I could here his laugh through the phone.
I took a deep breath.
"I'm going to start packing." I said, finally.
"Okay. I'll call you later." He hung up.
I put everything into bags and put them in my suitcase.
I saw that Nina left all the wrappers in my room.
"Ugh." I said to myself. I threw them into the trash can.
I finished packing, surprisingly fast. I turned on the TV and watched a random show.
*time skip-1 hour*
"I should probably get up and go to Tubbo's room to see how he's doing." I said to myself.
I got up from off my bed and went out of my room.
I walked down the hallway and reached Tubbo's room.
I knocked on the door.
"Tubbo??" I said.
"Yeah?" He asked.
"How are you doing?" I asked.
He opened the door.
"Uhhh-"
His room was a MESS. there were snacks everywhere, and the light was tipped over.
"Oh my-"
"I can fix it! I can!" He assured me.
I chuckled and lifted the lamp up to its original position.
"Don't you have to pack?" He asked me.
"I finished a while ago." I replied.
Tubbo put all of his things in his suitcase and zipped it up.
"There." He said.
"Okay! So now we are both finished." I said.
"Yep! We should go check on Clay." Tubbo suggested.
"Yeah, feels like I haven't talked to him in forever." I laughed.
Tubbo agreed.
We walked over to the elevator and went to Dream's floor. We walked over to his room.
"Clay?" I said while Tubbo knocked on the door.
"Hey!" Clay said. He opened the door.
"Hello! We're done, so we just wanted to come check on you." Tubbo told him.
"I'm doing okay, I'm also almost done. It's like 10pm so I might actually go to sleep so I can wake up early." Dream explained.
"That's actually a really good idea.." Tubbo said.
I agreed with them both.
"Speaking of that, I probably will go get some sleep." I said.
I walked all the way down to my room once again.
I laid down, and fell asleep.
— the Dream —
"Suck. It. Up." Cater and Matt said in unison.
*dream ends immediately*
I sat up in panic.
"Suck up what Carter did to me?!" I guessed.
I sighed.
My heart was beating fast, trying to pump out of my chest.
Breathe in.. breathe out... breathe in... breathe out..
Suck it up. Suck it up. They were right! I just need to suck it up.. right? No.. I- do I?
Shivers went down my spine slowly.
I checked my phone to see what time it was.
12:01PM
"SHIT WE HAVE TO LEAVE IN THIRTY MINUTES!" I yelled to myself.
((Okay so, the dream was at the very end of y/n's sleeping thing. So they had two dreams while they were sleeping, but they obviously don't remember the first one. So I wanted to say that because it's the next day, so time just flew by quickly. Sorry if that doesn't make sense, but yeah it's just the next day.))
I shot up and grabbed the things I didn't pack yet. I shoved them in my bag.
I ran down to the lobby.
Everyone was there, except for Tommy.
"Where have you been?!" Nina asked.
"SLEEPING"
"Your always sleeping!" Sapnap laughed.
"WELL YEAH"
I looked around.
"Where's Tommy?" I asked.
"We thought he was with you!" Dream exclaimed.
I dropped my suitcase and ran back upstairs. I barged into his room.
"Your still streaming?!" I exclaimed.
"Uh, yeah?" Tommy laughed.
"TOMMY WE HAVE TO GO IN THIRTY MINUTES" I yelled.
I looked around.
"You haven't even started packing!!" I screamed.
"OH SHIT OKAY BYE CHAT" Tommy yelled.
He ended the stream and helped me put some stuff in his bag.
"Why didn't you come get me earlier?!?!" He asked.
"I WAS SLEEPING!" I replied.
We both finished.
"Two minutes!" I yelled.
"Okay SPEEDRUN THIS BITCH" he yelled.
We ran out of the room and ran to the elevator.
"DUDUDUDUDUD DUDUDUD" Tommy hummed.
"GO GO GO" I yelled.
We got into the elevator and slammed the lobby button.
"AHHHH GOOO" Tommy screamed at the elevator.
We got to the lobby just in time.
"YOU GUYS TOOK SO LONG! Like THIRTY SECONDS UNTIL-" Nina yelled. She got cut off by the cruise ship doors opened.
"YOU GUYS GOT LUCKY" Tubbo yelled.
We got into the cruise ship and just hung out at the top of it.
"Luckily we are taking the shorter route this time so we'll be home by tomorrow." Wilbur said.
"Yeah. I can't wait to be home" I agreed.
We sat down on the couches.
"So, y/n. Where did you and Wilbur run off too?" Nina asked out of no where.
"Huh?" I said, trying to think of something to say when she asked the question again.
"At the beach. When you and Wilbur ran off. Where did you guys go?" She asked.
"You better have not done drugs." Sapnap said.
"IM UNDERAGE" I yelled.
"YEAH- THATS WHY YOU SHOULDNT HAVE BEEN DOING IT." Sapnap replied.
"They weren't. Don't worry." Wilbur stuck up for me.
"What did you guys do?" Tommy asked.
"Tommy." Tubbo nudged Tommy's shoulder.
"We went to eat." Wilbur said.
"Just eat? Did you guys like talk? Was it like a date?" Nina asked.
"Nina, you don't have to get involved in everything." I laughed, I was joking.
"Oh cmon y/n.. suck it up." She said.
"Suck it up."
"Suck it up."
"Suck it up."
The words repeated in my head on loop. Over, and over, and over, and over-
"Yeah! Cmon! Suck it up and tell us what ya did! We knew you weren't in your room because-" Sapnap said.
I drained out his voice. I stared blankly.
"Suck it up?" I said to myself.
"Y/n?" Tubbo said. He grabbed my arm. I flinched a tiny bit.
"Sorry.. sorry." He said.
Wilbur looked at me with worry.
Suck it up.
Suck it up.
I tried to make it not obvious that I was having trouble processing words- they were just words! Just words.. just words that Nick, Nina, Matt, Carter, and my Mom said to me.
Just words.
I blinked.
Suck it up.
Ugh! Why won't it go away?!
"Okay guys. That's it. Just leave them alone. Maybe they went out to go get stuff for streaming." Tubbo said.
'You don't have to suck up anything—-" Tubbo's voice replayed through my head.
"Y/n..?" Tommy said.
I snapped out of it.
"Huh- wha?-" I said.
"Uh- you were just staring. Blankly. At the floor." Tommy explained.
"Oh- yeah.. sorry. I guess I just got lost in thought." I told him.
I could tell Wilbur and Tubbo were a little worried.
"Yeah. Um but anyways, to answer your question.. Wilbur and I went to go see if there was any good streaming stuff and then went out to eat." I told them.
"Oh! Okay, cool." Nina said.
There was an awkward silence.
"Here, y/n. Tubbo, Tommy, and I will take you to your room." Wilbur said.
I nodded my head.
I followed them all the way down to it.
"Suck it up."
"Suck it up."
The thoughts began to flood my head again.
"Y/n?? Y/n?" Tubbo said repeatedly.
I could not answer.
I was stuck in thought.
"Go away.." I said to myself.
"Oh- sorry." Tubbo said. He thought I was talking to him.
I snapped out of it again.
"Oh! No no Tubbo. I wasn't talking to you." I apologized.
"Then who were you talking too?" He asked.
Shit.
"Just- um." I tried to think of something.
I couldn't think of ANYTHING.
"Y/n. What's going on?" Tommy asked.
We reached my room.
"I- I think I just need sleep." I said.
"Okay, well if you need anything, our rooms are all in this hall." Tubbo reminded me.
I nodded and shut the door.
*Wilbur's POV*
I'm really worried about y/n.
Something's wrong and they aren't telling me!
They don't have to tell me. But it might be better if they do. Right? Ugh! Why am I so bad at relationships. Okay okay. We aren't even in a relationship! I'm overthinking this.
***
"Breathe" Y/n and Wilbur said in their mind in unison.
****
Okay. They need space. That's okay. It's okay.
"What do you think's going on with Y/n?" Tubbo asked.
I stayed quiet.
"Maybe they like I don't know, fell down the stairs and hit their head." Tommy replied.
A few moments past of silence.
"We got a call from Cater last night." I said out of the blue.
"Oh." Tubbo said.
"Yeah, maybe she just can't stop thinking about that." I suggested.
"Maybe." Tubbo replied.
"But I don't think we should assume. When they're ready, they might tell us. And if they don't- then it's okay. All we have to do is just be there for them." I told Tommy and Tubbo.
They agreed.
We walked back to our own rooms.
*Your POV*
What can distract me-
^Wilbur went live!^
I got a notification from my phone.
Okay. I'll just join his live! That always makes me feel better.
"And so chat then-" Wilbur stopped.
I looked in his hand.
Y/n: IS THAT MY GUITAR PICK
"How did he get that?!" I laughed to myself.
"You left it in my room!!" Wilbur laughed.
Y/n: Just don't break it pls
"I won't." Wilbur chuckled.
I felt a little better so I got off the live.
"Speaking of pick.." I grabbed my guitar.
I'll just play one of my favorite songs.. 'I'm sorry Boris.'
*Wilbur's POV*
"So chat what should we do?" I asked them.
'Go scare y/n!' 'Sing!'
There were so many options to choose from.
"Okay. Lets go scare y/n." I laughed.
Hopefully she was feeling better.
I took the camera and walked down the hall.
I knocked on the door, no reply.
I heard something inside.
I walked in.
"I'm sorry, but Boris.. I'm leaving." They said.
I admired their voice.
"I'm not good- for anyone.. here." They continued.
Their voice was so soothing, and angelic.
"We reach the end- of a decade." They sang before looking back.
"OH Wilbur!" They said.
"Go on." I laughed.
"What are you doing here?" They asked.
"Chat wanted me to scare you." I laughed.
They laughed as well.
'Oh my gosh how cute is that. Wilbur walking in on y/n singing HIS song' 'Awwww'
"Their all Awe-ing." I chuckled.
"Did you bring my pick?" They asked.
"Uh- no.." I said quietly.
"WILBURR" they whined.
"I'm sorry! I can go get it!" I exclaimed.
I reached for the doorknob.
"It's okay." They said. I looked back at them.
"I can use yours." They sighed.
They picked up my pick.
"Wha- how did you?" I said.
"Same way you got mine I guess." They laughed.
I set the camera down so chat could see both of us.
"I'm gonna go grab my guitar. I'll be back." I told them.
I ran to my room and grabbed the guitar, and the pick.
I ran back.
"What do you want to play?" I asked.
"Hmm.." they said.
"What about the song that we ma-" I suggested.
"Wilbur! They don't-" Y/n cut me off and pointed at the chat.
"Oh shit. Yeah. Okay, well is there anything else?" I asked.
"We've written two songs together. What about the first one? That we wrote at Tommy's house." They suggested, quietly.
"Okay." I replied.
We got our guitars ready and played the whole song.
Tubbo: POGCHAMP
Dream: woahh
User14273692047: POGGG IVE NEVER HEARD THIS SONG ITS SO GOOD
gamer17364729: pog
We finished the song.
I read one of the chats out loud.
'Who wrote this? I've never heard it! It's so good!' It said.
"Oh thanks! We wrote it, actually." I told the chat.
The chat was freaking out.
We talked to the chat for a while and eventually ended stream
"So how are you holding up?" I asked.
I grabbed their hand.
"I'm doing better.. with you here." They answered.
I got butterflies.
"I'm always here. You can tell me anything." I assured them.
They smiled. And hugged me.
It felt like I haven't hugged them in years. I sunk into the hug.
"I think I might be ready to talk about it." They said.
Oh my gosh.. they've never opened up to me like this.
"I'm all ears." I replied.
We let go of the hug, slowly.
"So, when I went to sleep last night. I had a really short and weird dream." They said.
I nodded, assuring them that I was still listening.
"And- please don't get mad." They interrupted themself.
"I promise I won't. I would never be mad at you for a Dream." I said to them.
I could see them take a deep breath.
"Carter was in the dream. Carter said one thing in the dream that stuck with me." They bursted out.
"What did he say?" I asked.
"Suck it up..." they replied quietly.
I remembered Nina and Nick both saying that earlier.
"Oh y/n." I said. I embraced them in another hug.
"I'm so sorry. I don't know why this is happening. I just want these dreams to stop." They ranted.
"It's okay. I want them to stop too." I agreed with them.
We sunk farther into the hug and eventually laid down.
They fell asleep.
I blushed and got up, slowly.
I grabbed a piece of paper and wrote a note.
"Went to go get dinner for us. Be back soon
-will"
I set it beside them in case they woke up.
I went downstairs to the lobby. I saw Sapnap and Dream there with Tommy and Tubbo.
I walked past them and ordered the food.
"Hey Will, wanna play a game with us?" Sapnap asked me.
"Hey Nick. No thank you." I replied.
I'm going to be honest. I was kind of mad at Nick. And at Nina! I mean sure, they didn't mean to make y/n upset.. but I didn't like to see y/n that way.
"Uh- you okay?" Dream asked.
"I'm fine. Thank you." I replied.
My food was ready. I got it and walked off.
"There's two things of food there, did you get the right order?" Nick asked.
"One is for Y/n. Please just fuck off." I begged.
I walked back to the room, placing the food on the side table.
I glanced over at y/n. They were slowly waking up.
"You sure were sleepy." I laughed.
"Yeah.." they laughed. They sat up.
"I got us dinner." I told them.
"Will- you didn't have too.." they replied.
They pulled out their wallet.
I placed my hand on top of it and pushed it down.
"No need for that." I said.
"Will- but you pay for almost all of my meals. It's the least I could do.." they said.
I smiled, because they cared. But it really wasn't a big deal. I love making them happy.
"Y/n. You being here is enough." I told them.
They blushed and put their wallet down.
I handed them the container with some food in it.
They kissed me on the cheek.
I chuckled.
We ate our food and talked and them finished.
"I'm so excited to be back home tomorrow." They told me.
"Same. I miss my bedroom." I laughed.
They agreed.
"And like, we haven't tried our some other things at our house yet, like the movie room. We just watch movies in the living room. And like the hot tub, and random trampoline in the back." They mentioned.
"Oh yeah! We should all try those out together." I smiled.
I threw away our containers and recycled the cups.
They rolled up their sleeves and was about to get something out of their bag.
Until I noticed something that I have never noticed.
** TW: Self harm mentions. For this chapter, and the next. **
I looked at their wrists..
"Y/n..——"
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