That's what's going on, nothing's fine I'm torn, I'm all out of faith and this is how I feel.//
Dear Diary,
Today, I was asking the lads what would've happened if I didn't audition for the x-factor. Lou's comment stood out he told me not worry, he would've found me anyways. It made me happy hearing those words slide off his tongue to the open, he's never said anything like that in front of others before. I went to go see my psychiatrist today, she said I should give him time, maybe even the rumors will clear up but to really be honest it doesn't bother me anymore, but it bothers management and Lou. Half of the time I don't understand, all the conversations me and him had, he says he loves me. She told me that time heals, he will change, he will want me.
~Sincerely, Harold E. Styles