I woke up on my bed the next day.
Did Wilbur and I really almost kiss? Did I really reject Nick?! Ugh. I have so many problems. Like no, actually. I have a abusive ex boyfriend who tried to light me on fire once, and did many other.. things.. I have a love triangle between Wilbur, Sapnap, and I. But who knows if Wilbur likes me? I don't. So is it really a love triangle? Ugh. I have an abusive mom. My dad left-
I need to just stop ranting.
I got ready for the day and went downstairs to see everyone.
Wilbur and Tommy were having a pillow fight. At this point it wasn't pillows, it. Was. A. FEATHER FUCKIN FIGHT.
"YOU GUYS- I- YOU DESTROYED THE LIVING ROOM." I yelled.
"WE CAN BREAK IT IN CREATIVE BITCH" Tommy yelled back.
"Clean it up when your done. Children." I laughed.
I saw Tubbo in the kitchen.
"Hey tubs!" I exclaimed.
"Hey y/n! How did you sleep?" He asked.
"I um.. I slept fine. How about you?" I asked....
< flashback to the dream you had >
I woke up in a house. Carter's house.
"You know you couldn't run from me forever." He said in the mist.
I looked around aimlessly trying to see a face, a light, a tiny piece of hope.
Nothing.
I stayed silent.
"Your friends would be better off without you." He said again, his voice more echoed then the last.
I started to panic. I moved around in the chair I was tied to.
"No use." He repeated, 7 times. Counted.
"What do you want from me?!" I yelled.
"I want you! I love you!" He screamed.
I stayed quiet.
"You do not love me. What your doing to me is not love. And even if you did love me, I will never love you. Where am I?" I asked.
"YOU DO LOVE ME!" He yelled.
I heard a click. A beam of light flashed around me. He stepped into the light.
"Please.. please keep the light off. It hurts my eyes goddamn it." I said.
"You said you were afraid of the darkness. Why do you find comfort in it now?" He asked.
I knew why.. I knew. But I couldn't tell him. Wilbur made the dark not so scary, when he's there he's like a light, guiding me through.
"I don't."
Do I? Wilbur helps me.. but does that really take away my fear? Does someone or something take away my fear? Or am I the only one who can do that?
"Mhm." He lit a match and walked towards me.
I tried to scooch away. Didn't work.
"You are afraid. You said you weren't." He whispered.
I stayed in silence.
He locked eyes with me.
"How.. how romantic. You and I here, sitting here, like the old times. We can have that back." He persuaded.
"No we can't. And we never will." I said firmly.
"I will find you. I will." He whispered.
He set the match down on the gasoline. A huge fire started.
He walked over to me and looked me in the eyes.
"You can't run from your own mistakes."
Am I running from them?! Yes. Yes I am. And that's okay! That's okay to do if it's bad. He was the biggest mistake I ever made. I- I-
He slapped me and it went pitch black.
I'm not running from them.. am I?
How do I fix them?
...
Do I need to fix them?
What if I just need to find..
Somebody else.
Or what if I need to find.. Myself.
I woke up.
^End of dream^
"Um. I slept fine. What about you?" I asked.
"I had a dream about bees trying to carry some potatoes but failed and then I helped them :D" he explained.
"Aw! That's nice!" I said. It made me happier to hear Tubbo.
"What about you?" He asked.
"What about me?" I asked.
"Did you have a Dream?" He asked.
I looked over at the light, then back at him.
"No. Haha. I wish though!" I lied.
"Y/n? Why are you shaking?" He asked.
Wilbur must of heard so he walked over.
"I'm only shaking a tiny bit. I'll be okay!" I said.
"From what?" Wilbur asked.
"C- can you please.. put the matches somewhere else?" I asked.. with hesitation.
"Why?" Tommy asked. He walked over to us.
Tubbo picked up the matches and walked over to me.
I flinched.
"Oh my gosh! I didn't even realize! Y/n! I'm terribly sorry! I'm so sorry!" He yelled. He threw the matches in the garbage can.
"I-its okay. It's okay." I whispered.
I breathed fast.
Wilbur looked worried. He looked at Tubbo and Tommy.
"Can y/n and I maybe have some alone time?" He asked.
"Of course." Tubbo said. He smirked.
"Hmm... Kay." Tommy smiled.
They walked out of the room. Wilbur came up in front of me.
"Y/n. Are you okay.. were you okay in your room?" He asked.
"I'm okay. I'm okay." I repeated.
"Y/n. If you don't mind me asking. What did he do to you..? It's okay if your not ready. I understand. Just- why are you afraid of matches." He asked.
"Hetriedtosetmeonfire" I said quickly.
"What?!" He said.
"Back when we were together." I answered.
"oh my gosh! Oh my gosh!" He yelled.
He gave me a bigger hug then what he has ever given me before.
"Why is this just coming up now?" He whispered.
"I had.. I had a Dream." I replied.
"I'm all ears." He said.
I explained the dream to him.
"You aren't running from your mistakes." He stopped hugging me and held my hands.
He looked into my eyes.
"Your moving on from them."
I started to cry.
"Aw.. y/n stop! Stop!" He said.
I hugged him even tighter.
"Thank you." I said into his ear.
"Don't thank me.. thank you." He said.
"OKAY YOU BITCHES DONE YET WE WANNA WATCH OUR FUCKING MOVIE" Tommy yelled.
Wilbur and I laughed.
His smile was huge. I knew right then, that he will always be my best friend. No matter what comes between us. I- I think I like him. Maybe? Ugh. It's complicated.
*THIS CHAPTER MAY DISCUSS R*PE, AB*SE, ANY FORM OF AS*ULT, and MAYBE more. Sorry for um. Yeah okay- also r*pe or anything like that is not a joke to me. It is very serious.*
"Guys. COME OVER HERE AND TELL US TO BE DONE TALKING INSEAD OF SCREAMING." Wilbur yelled at them.
They both ran over to us.
"BE DONE BIT- wait- y/n are you crying?" Tommy asked.
I smiled faintly.
"Y- well yeah." I said. I giggled a tiny bit.
"What's wrong? Did Carter do something to you?" Tommy asked.
"Okay since we are having this conversation apparently.. what did Carter do to you in the past? If you don't mind me asking." Tubbo added.
"Yeah- what did he do.." Tommy said quietly.
"He tried to set me on fire, he hit me, he uh mentally and physically abused me, um. He-" I stopped myself before I could make any more words come out.
"He what?" Tubbo asked.
"It's nothing. I- I." I said.
"It's okay if they are not ready guys. It's okay." Wilbur assured me.
I smiled.
"Okay fuck the movie I'm not iN tHe MoOd aNyMoRe. I'm going to the mall." Tommy said.
"You can't drive!" Wilbur yelled.
"And? Bitch I'll teach myself. Cmon Tubbo." Tommy replied.
Tubbo followed Tommy out to the car.
"You coming?" Will asked.
"Sure." I answered.
We all drove off to the mall.
The first thing we did when we walked in is to get food.
"MMMM STARBUCKSSS GIRLS LIKE THAT RIGHT." Tommy said.
"Not all, I personally do not." I replied.
"YOU WERE WRONG TOMMYYY" Tubbo shot back at Tommy, mocking him.
We went to McDonald's.
"I don't like this place either." I said.
"I'll get you ice cream." Wilbur said.
"WHY. Why must you make decisions so hard!! Okay go pick a table." I said.
Wilbur chuckled.
I have this odd feeling, like someone watching me. Hmm. Weird.
I sat by Tommy and Tubbo.
"Did you guys order?" I asked.
"Yeah. So... what did you and Will talk about.. Ay??" Tommy asked. He smiled. Like a 'oh you guys must've kissed or did something back there' type of smile.
"I told him about this dream I had. Oh and then we talked some things out. Like stuff about Carter." I explained.
"You said you slept fine!" Tubbo exclaimed.
"I didn't want to make you worried." I apologized.
He accepted the apology.
Wilbur came over to us and sat down with our food.
"I really don't like this place." I said.
"What?" Wilbur asked.
"Guys I feel as if someone is watching me." I explained.
"Well Wilbur's checking you out." Tommy said quickly.
"I just feel like- what" I stopped.
"Nothing. Tommy said nothing." Tubbo covered up.
"Hm. Okay." I heard EVERYTHING Tommy said. That blonde son of a fuck thinks I can't hear shit. Doesn't he.
"Go on." Wilbur said.
"Okay well that's just it. I feel like someone is watching us." I said.
"Might be a fan?" Tubbo asked.
"Probably." I said.
We finished up our food and walked out of McDonald's.
"Hey Tommy." I whispered.
Wilbur and Tubbo were talking ahead of us.
"That was smooth." I told him.
"What? The thing where I said Will was checking you out?" He asked.
"Yeah. Yeah. I gotta say, I did not expect that." I laughed.
"Ay. Just sayin what I see." Tommy replied. He walked faster to go stand by Tubbo.
What.
Was Will- okay. Nope. Not right now. He was not checking me out. Or was he?
We decided to leave the mall a bit earlier then we had planned because we got an alert saying 'Severe thunderstorm. Stay indoors.' We walked out of the mall but we immediately stopped.
"Go." Tubbo said.
Tubbo grabbed my arm and dragged Tommy and I faster.
"Where are you all going?" Carter asked.
We turned around. Slowly.
"Oh my fucking gosh not the dipshit again." Tommy sighed.
"What are you doing here?" Wilbur asked.
"What does it look like, pony boy? This is a fucking store. I'm hear to buy things." He paused. "And watch y/n." He said quickly.
"So you were the one watching me... ahh.. should've expected that." I said.
"I see your finally talkin. I missed your voice, doll." Carter exclaimed.
Shivers went down my spine.
"Why the fuck would you just call them doll? Their a human." Tubbo asked.
"Well look at her. One hot doll." Carter answered.
Wilbur's face dropped.
"What?" Tommy asked.
"One hot doll. Right there. What? Don't tell me you haven't seen them for yourself ay?" Carter explained.
Tubbo and Tommy looked at each other and got angry at the fact that we were talking to him.
"Lock them up for one whole day, give them a pill, and wait for them to fall asleep. Then that's where the magic happens." He continued.
Tears were in my eyes. Why was he talking about this?! Why?!
"WHAT THE FUCK!" Tubbo yelled.
"WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU" Tommy screamed.
"A lot of things." He answered.
"What.. did you do to them?" Wilbur asked.
He looked angry.
"Well what does it sound like pony boy? Hmm? Best day of my life? Best day they will ever see?" Carter answered.
"You son of a bitch." Wilbur told Carter.
Tubbo put his hands on my shoulders.
A tear went down my cheek. The tear so heavy it could pull me down.
"Are you kidding me?! Crying again! You did this so many times grow up! It's not like doing that to you hurt!-" he was stopped by the swing of a hand.
"Go. I'm calling the police." Nina said from behind him.
"Okay." Tubbo said. He guided me to the car.
The car began to move.
I curled up in a ball and tears flowed through my eyes and down my cheeks.
I didnt want to be reminded of that. I didn't want them to know.
I was shaking the worst I ever had around them.
I felt the car stop.
We were home that quick?
I ran into the house and onto the couch. I burried my face in my hands.
I heard footsteps approaching.
"Y/n.." I heard Wilbur say. His voice, shaking itself.
I opened my eyes. They were almost blurry.
"Y/n.. I didn't know. I- I'm sorry. I-" A tear went down his cheek.
I hugged him.
"How could anyone ever do that to you?" He asked, his voice trembling. "I promise I'll be here. I'm sorry. I am so sorry." He continued.
I just hugged him. Sure, I was going through a lot. But, it's hard finding out what your friend went through.
"Wilbur.. it's not your fault." I whispered.
"I am sorry. I'm so sorry. He won't ever touch you again, as long as I'm here. I'll protect you." He ranted on.
We heard the front door open and then close.
"We should give them some space." Tubbo whispered to Tommy.
"No. No. Not this time." Tommy replied.
They walked over to us and we had a group hug. The biggest one I have ever had. The safest one I could ever be in.
"I love you guys." I said.
"I love you to.." Wilbur and Tubbo said.
"Well I don't love any of you bitches." Tommy broke the heartfelt moment.
"I'm joking.. just joking." He chuckled.
"I love you guys too" Tommy finally said.
We stopped hugging after a while and turned on a movie to distract us from the thing that happened today.
I sat next to Wilbur on one couch, Tommy and Tubbo sat together on the other.
Wilbur laid down against the back of the couch. I laid next to him and slowly fell asleep.
Until.. I heard a click.
{} I HOPE YOU ENJOYED THIS CHAPTER!! Go eat and drink something if you haven't! Go. Go. Go now, I'm telling you. Now or else I'll throw a potato at you. YEAH. You heard me right. NOW SCRAM AND GO EAT AND DRINK. I will cry if you don't. <3 have an amazing day/night. {}