I'm a very hopeless person. A typical " I got my heart broken so now I don't give a fuck " type of person. I'm known as player all over town because I choose to avoid any future heartbreaks that could possibly lead me to somewhere more empty then where my heart already is. So instead I cause others pain... *bzzz bzzz*
" Hello? ".
" KARMEN !!! You HAVE to come with me to the restaurant bar uptown ! One of my closest friend works there I haven't seen her in forever! "
" I'll think about it, when do you want to go? "
" Right now duh ! "
" What?! No way. Ari I just got home from work, I'm tired! "
" Please?!! I know you've been stressed and this place is also like a club so we can dance to and I just know it'll get your mind off of things! I promise you it will! "
" Alright fine.. imma go get dressed and I'll meet you there in 30 minutes. Send the address. "
" Yes !!! Okay bye, see you there !! "
" Bye Ari. " I giggled.
Ari is like a sister to me and she was always there for me since elementary school. She thinks that she'll eventually find the perfect person for me to fall in love with but I disagree. I'm not meant for things like that. I had to learn that the hard way. Ari never told me she had another close friend considering we both have the same trust issues with people, we usually hang out with people that we both already know about. Whatever, I just want to get wasted and forget about the world so why not just let go and have some fun you know? We walk into the bar that Ari had told me to meet her at and not even one minute after I walked in, I feel her grab my hand and drag me straight to the bar. I could feel myself push through a bunch of sweaty people, strongly disliking every second of this moment. That is until we make it to the bar table where I spot the beautiful barista which I'm guessing is Ari's friend.
" Ari ! What are you doing here? I've missed you! " she squealed.
" Hey P! I missed you to! Kendall told me you worked here so I wanted to come!! "
" Hey Karmen, this is my friend Peyton that I told you about! And P this is Karmen, a good friend of mine. " she continued.
" Hi Karmen, nice to meet you! " she said with the biggest smile on her face & her eyes sparkling.
" H-hi, nice to meet you to. " no way. Did I just stutter? Why does my face feel warm now.
" I'm gonna go to the bathroom for a second, I'll be right back. " I said before rushing out of sight.
What is wrong with me? Why the hell am I feeling like this?! I never feel like this, I usually feel.. numb and emotionless. I push past everybody heading towards the door to exit instead of the bathroom. I just need some air. I always keep a light and little, pre-rolled blunt on me just in case. I go to the alley behind the bar and I take a long and deep inhale. That had to be one of the most beautiful girls I have ever seen, not gonna lie. She had mid-length brunette silky hair that sat in contrast with her pale skin. She's a very small person to be working at a place like this. Her smile tho... that's what made me feel all weird inside. The way she looks at you with such compassion. Karmen what are you doing? You don't even like people that way to be thinking about someone like that. But why can't I stop then?
" Karmen right? What are you doing out here? I thought you were in the bathroom. "
My heart dropped down to my stomach as soon as i heard her voice. I froze for a second with her eyes watching me carefully.
" I- I needed some air so I came back here.. " I stuttered, getting nervous by the second.
" Oh okay- wait is that.. " she said but then paused with a distant look on her face.
" Oh yeah it is.. um. wa- was I not allowed to smoke over here? "
She looked at me with such a serious expression on her face, the complete opposite of what saw before when we were introduced. I felt like I had made her uncomfortable and I assumed it was because maybe she didn't want to pick a fight with someone her friend was close to so I just put out the blunt.
" Everyone does it here.." She says. I was confused because I had thought that I wasn't allowed to do it here.
" But I don't think you should do it. " She said looking at me intensely. I was a little confused.
" I- well I mean I don't think anyone should do it you know? " she stuttered while she shyly looked away. I smirked at her. Thinking to myself how adorable she was. Wait. Oh hell no. Did I just say she was adorable- I'm probably high already because there's no way.
Before I could answer she turns around to go back inside.
" I have to go back to work, see you later. " I didn't say anything back. I didn't even know what to say at all but I did know that I wasn't about to embarrass myself in front of this girl by being intoxicated so I tried to avoid any alcohol as best s I could.
This place is great because it's a bar, club, and grill in one place. I ended up asking one of the waiters there for the menu and I had this amazing cheeseburger. One of the best I had ever tasted if I'm being honest. The whole rest of the night I caught myself staring at Peyton. Ari was drunk out of her ass so I drove her to my place afterwards. When I left, I left as fast as I could because I didn't want to encounter Peyton because there is something about her that gets me weird inside and I most definitely didn't want that feeling to continue.
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It's been few months and it is now January. Ari, Peyton, and I have hung out a few times since I met Peyton. Peyton's sister and our friend Kendall was there a lot of the times because apparently Kendall was always friends with Peyton as well. But we haven't hung out since November. I've been with a few girls here and there but my mind always ran back to the thought of Peyton. I don't think it's anything to worry bout anymore because I probably won't see her again since I'm not friends with Kendall anymore due to a problem we umm.. came across. I'll just leave it at that :)