- george's pov -
laying on my side, i jolted up from my bed and gasped for air from a bad nightmare. as i was sitting up on my mattress, i moved my duvet off my sweaty body while scanning my surroundings in the dark. taking in my environment, i realized that i was safe in my bedroom. then, i yawned loudly as began to wake up after startling myself. i reached over to the right side of my bed to grab my phone which was charging on my nightstand. after unplugging the charger cord from its slot, i lifted the device to my face. as i held my phone up, i let the bright light shine into my eyes. i wasn't fazed by my beaming screen since i was merely half asleep before waking up from my nightmare. instead, i was more shocked by the time. it was 4:13am on a wednesday morning, indicating that two whole days have passed from my last encounter with angel. every night since that monday sunrise, i have had vivid nightmares around 4am; the hour where i felt angel walk away from me. whether the bad dreams varied from childhood fears all the way to angel slipping away from my grasp, i always woke up in the middle of the night filled with trepidation.
to be completely honest, i was an absolute mess without my girlfriend. every day after monday morning began to feel the same, all the days passing by gradually became a routine. i would sob in sadness over the loss of my girlfriend from sunrise to sunset. i haven't left my room since the last morning i visited her. i haven't texted, called, nor responded to any tweets or messages my friends have sent me. i haven't opened discord nor teamspeak since the incident. i haven't been active on any social media. i haven't streamed on twitch in five days. i haven't showered. i barely went downstairs to greet my mother and enjoy her daily cooked meals. yet, to top it all off, i haven't gone one minute of my day without missing angel. i decided to go off the grid for awhile while i continued to sulk in sadness from angel's absence in my life. i never went to pick up my phone unless it was a dire attempt to call angel, in which i was always left straight to voicemail from my past 67 attempted calls.
however, i never gave up on her or the idea of her. i knew that the universe brought us together to begin with, so i only hoped that fate would pull us back together again. i knew it was a long shot, but the small amount of hope left within me gave me slight motivation to go day by day. although, i felt miserable without her. walking away from angel on her porch step that one morning physically and mentally tore me apart. i knew i disappointed her after i walked away, but what was i supposed to do? i cannot control every movement or comment my fans make. plus, kate blocked me on instagram so i had no way to contact angel. in addition, with angel's voicebox always sending me straight to voicemail, it was apparent that my girlfriend wasn't active on social media either. but, i just wanted to see her; even if it was for a second. i simply wanted to stare into her kind, brown eyes out of admiration in hopes of feeling my heart pitter patter out of my chest once again. all i desired was to feel happy, but i knew that emotion was hard to achieve as angel, my main source of happiness, was gone.
as i began to overthink more thoughts and miss angel with all my being by the minute, i heard my phone ring loudly. since my thoughts continued to cloud around my girlfriend, i made the quick and irrational assumption of thinking the phone call was angel. i answered the phone without hesitation, clearing my throat, before pulling my device up to my ear.
"hello?" i muttered. my voice was deeper than it usually was since it was early in the morning.
"george! holy crap, i didn't think you would ever pick up!" a manly voice chimed in my ear. i immediately frowned as i recognized that the speaker across the phone line wasn't angel, but it was dream.
"w- what could you possibly want at this hour?" i quizzed while lying back down in bed out of defeat, with my expectations of conversing with angel crushed.
"i just wanted to check in on you. after what happened, none of us have heard from you and-" dream began with a considerate tone.
i rudely cut off his statement by snarling, "well, of course no one has heard from me. what was i supposed to do? jump up and down with glee after my girlfriend abandons me over a dumb picture? all i wanted to do was to showcase how beautiful she was, yet my world starts crumbling apart. angel left me, you know. she hasn't responded to any of my messages or calls. i have no way to reach her. christ! even her damn roommate blocked me so that i can't contact her! i'm dying here, dream! mentally and physically deteriorating by the second! i just wanted to be there for her. i wanted to explain to her that it was all a mistake, that i would gladly quit youtube and streaming altogether for her as long as she was happy. i wanted to confess how much i loved her and how we could get through this together. i wanted to profess my true intentions with the tweet, elaborate on how i never wanted her to get doxxed - but that my intentions were to show my girl off into the world. i... i just want to hold her." i began choking from holding back my sobs while i rambled. i haven't vented out loud before, so saying everything verbally made me more emotional than ever.
"george. i- i'm so sorry to hear that. but... you know what. let me facetime you," dream remarked. before i could object, my phone rang again, indicating a video call with dream. i sighed before hovering over the green button and pressing, "accept". as i watched dream's tired face arise on my screen, i turned on a lamp so that he could see my face as well.
"hmm, you look like crap," dream snickered firsthandedly as i answered his call. i chuckled at his dumb comment, only my best friend could make me smile during these dark hours. it was weird to see myself smiling in the reflection, which was on the top right corner of the facetime call camera. i haven't smiled since my last night with angel, so it was nice to feel my lips curl upward.
"i know," i simply quipped after rubbing my smile off my face.
"your hair looks gross and unwashed. and did you even shave?" dream asked me with his eyebrows furrowed.
"mmm, no. i've been in bed the past two days nearly drowning out my sorrows," i uttered dramatically as i looked downward into my lap. i tried to speak with a teasing tone to make it seem like i was okay, but it was hard to fake a smile in front of my best friend.
dream easily read through my sarcastic tone. "okay. tell me everything. start to finish. let me help," dream consolidated.
so of course, that's just what i did. from beginning with my reaction to when dream first called me that monday morning, i vented to him about my encounter at angel's front porch. i told him everything from kate standing in the middle of angel and i at the doorway to me crying into my driver's steering wheel after walking away from her. after i let all of my emotions out, i felt the bottom of my eyelids get heavy before feeling the need to cry. i sniffled deeply and rubbed my index finger across my nose before finishing my story. i knew dream was a good person to vent all my feelings toward, he let me put my guard down and be vulnerable in front of him. it's hard to find an individual that would stick with you to the end like this. not only was he my best friend for years, but he always listened attentively to whatever i had to say.
"okay, okay. from what you're telling me, you really love this girl and you want to do something to fix what you lost right?" dream began theorizing after he listened to my ranting. i simply nodded my head in response, while still on the verge of tears. "then, do something about it, stupid! you cannot just sit and mope around for two days and expect angel to come running back into your arms! dude, you have to show her you still love her! i don't know, find a way to email her and confess your love! or show up at her workplace again with more roses than before! or go back to her apartment and sweep her off her feet with another kind gesture! george, if she's the one, she'll come back to you - but you have to make a move first," dream concluded with his eyes fixated on me.
"then what? what if she turns me down? what if i just spill my emotions on a platter and she just stands there in silence? what if she officially breaks up with me? what if she finally tells me it's all over..." i mumbled. after hearing myself state that angel could officially end us made my heart tear into two; i knew couldn't bear it if she did.
"well... are you gonna to know if you don't make a move in the first place? think of it like this, what if you tell her how you feel and she runs back into your arms? what if you told angel the truth about the tweet and she forgives you then gives you a kiss on the cheek? what if you show up and she confesses how much she misses you too? george, there's so many different outcomes. however, you won't know which path you both will take if you don't take one at all!" dream urged.
i sighed heavily, my best friend did have a point. "fine," i began to bellow. "i'll go to her apartment tonight. i- i'll bring roses and one of those cadbury chocolates she likes... but if she says no-" my mood automatically changed from fairly hopeful to strong melancholy within seconds, i didn't want angel to turn me down.
dream interrupted me by stating, "but if she says yes... you both will have your happily ever after."
i smiled once again to his kind words before giving in, "fine, fine! i'll do it. i'll prepare everything this afternoon and i'll go to her flat," i proclaimed.
"yeah, george!!" dream gushed. "oh! well... if you're okay now, we have something to discuss," dream concluded.
"why? what's up?" i chimed back, looking at him with eager eyes.
"just... just check twitter, okay? and shower for christ's sake. i feel like i can smell your stench all the way here in florida! just call me later and tell me how everything goes with your girl, okay?" dream finalized as he looked at me with a worrisome expression, it was clear that he cared about me and only wanted the best for me.
"yeah, of course. i'll update you. and, uh, i'll check twitter i guess," i replied softly.
"good! i'll call you later then. get some rest soon," dream stated before ending the facetime call.
as i watched my phone screen turn black after dream ended the call, i leaned over to my right side. correspondingly, i turned off the bedside lamp next to me before doing what i was instructed, checking twitter. slouching back into bed as i leaned on my right side, i inhaled sharply with hesitation before clicking over the blue app. i knew that this moment, where i had to check my social medias, would come around sooner than later. i prepared myself for the worst as i hovered over the blue box with a white bird in the middle. before i knew it, my screen glowed light blue and my home page tweets started rolling in.
dream @/dream • 3 days ago
(1/2) in NO WAY, SHAPE, or FORM, is it ever okay to intrude on someone's privacy like many have done tonight. the fact that others have the intention to put someone else in danger is never okay, and i hope many of these culprits recognize how disgusting it is.
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dream @/dream • 3 days ago
(2/2) if i see any other tweets about angel, or even george, in a non respectful manner, i will not hesitate to block and report you. what some people do is absolutely repulsive.
12:38am • 21/12/2020 • twitter for iphone
4,836 retweets | 223 quote tweets | 391K likes
↳ karl :) @/karljacobs • 3 days ago
absolute vouch. be careful what you spread online guys. double check to make sure you aren't hurting anyone!!
tommyinnit @/tommyinnit • 2 days ago
it has come to my surprise that a few individuals have exploited a friend of mine, which i just want to point out that it is not okay. everyone should respect women, such as the queen or angel!!!!! #angelandthequeensupremacy
2,906 retweets | 330 quote tweets | 190K likes
↳ tubbo @/tubbolive • 2 days ago
like angel, like da bee. u hurt angel, u hurt da bee.
quackity @/quackity • 2 days ago
guys, i hope yk that when you decide to dox someone, that's not popping off. but on a more srs note, my heart goes out to george and angel; no one deserves to be put in a circumstance like this. ❤️
6,137 retweets | 1,011 quote tweets | 248K likes
wilbur soot @/wilbursoot • 20 hours ago
if you dox, you're a little bitch and an anteater is going to nom on your head tonight. i don't make the rules!
4,895 retweets | 488 quote tweets | 195K likes
↳ niki @/nihaachu • 18 hours ago
people need to learn to be kind and treat others with respect. ❤️
technoblade @/technothepig • 16 hours ago
everybody, technoblade needs your help. i need to recruit a new army of orphans to assist me in demolishing anyone and everyone that doxxes. we meet at dawn.
3,552 retweets | 201 quote tweets | 150k likes
sapnap @/sapnap • 10 hours ago
being on such a big platform is always a blessing and a curse. so i want to emphasize that intruding one's privacy or exposing ppl is never the way to go. if i see someone do so on me or any of my friends' pages, i'll block you. :D
3,121 retweets | 157 quote tweets | 141K likes
badboyhalo @/badboyhalo • 8 hours ago
let's all be happy by respecting each other's isolation/privacy ❤️_❤️
922 retweets | 93 quote tweets | 49.8K likes
↳ skeppy @/skeppy • 1 hour ago
ily bad. thank you for spreading this message that needed to be said ❤️
after reading all of the tweets my friends sent out of love, i couldn't help but smile from their abundant amount of support. i felt so lucky to be surrounded by friends that would always stick by my side. however, as the happy emotions only lasted a short amount of time, i knew i wouldn't feel complete without angel.
finally, i hoisted myself off my bed to actually get started with the day. it felt weird to press my feet against the cold carpet of my bedroom, but i shook it off and decided to get ready. i finally gathered up enough energy to properly shower, shave, and get dressed. to be frank, my only motivation to be going on with my day was to the thought of possibly seeing angel later. before i knew it, i was out of the house on a mission - i had to apologize to angel and tell her how much she means to me.
by noon, i drove into the city to buy angel a dozen red roses, with the help of the florist of course; who picked the best roses she supposedly had. in addition, i went into the shop to pick up the purple wrapped cadbury dairy milk chocolates angel adored. i gushed at the memory of angel and i's first date under the stars. that evening, angel was blabbering about why this specific cadbury chocolate was the best; so of course i remembered that it was her favorite. after finishing my small run of errands, i walked out of the store with a smile, elated to be on my way to angel's apartment.
as i pulled up into kate and angel's driveway once again, i felt my body tense up from nervousness. my mind began to recap what happened the last time i was here. remembering angel's tears to the sight of me on monday morning made me hesitant to walk up to her front porch, but i knew that a proper apology was long overdue. once building up the courage to knock on the door, i was lucky enough to watch the front door open immediately. as my heart began to race, i looked down at the figure that stood along the door frame.
"george?" kate quizzed with her eyebrows furrowed. she looked exhausted as heavy bags were lining her under eyes.
"kate. listen, i know you don't want to see me. but i brought these for angel and i just-" i began to ramble.
kate interrupted me by bluntly replying, "she's not here. i made her go back to london with her parents. we both know she wasn't safe if she stayed here."
after hearing kate's words, i felt my heart sink to my stomach, she went to london? "uh... oh. well, do you know when she will be back?" i questioned with a small amount of hope in my tone of voice.
"no idea. she packed her bags and went off about an hour ago. i don't know when she'll be coming back to brighton. it will be whenever she's ready i guess," kate began to mutter. i could tell kate was sad over angel's absence, almost as sad as i was.
"well... please tell her i left these for her," i narrated as i stuck out the bouquet of flowers and the chocolates to angel's roommate.
"no. no, i won't," kate mumbled softly while crossing her arms. i watched her face sulk. kate's head laid low, facing the floor as she didn't even look up at me.
"wh- why?" i began to stammer. i knew kate didn't like me, but i assumed my gesture toward her best friend would at least let her leave me some mercy.
"i won't take these because you are going to see her yourself. give me your phone. i'll input her parent's address. the closest train leaves in 2 hours. from here, you'll make it to london in a little bit over an hour - before sunset at least," kate began to elaborate.
"thank y- you. y- you're letting me see her? wh- why? h- how are you being so nice to me?" i asked with a soft tone of voice. i was taken aback my kate's words, i thought she hated me.
"don't thank me. thank your friend named nick. now off! off you go! don't miss your train," kate quipped as she flashed me a half hearted smile and moved her hands rapidly, gesturing for me to leave.
i looked down at the bouquet roses i was holding in my right hand. impulsively, i picked one rose out of the dozen and handed it to kate with a small smile. "no, i genuinely thank you," i chimed as i held the rose out in front of her.
kate took the rose with a smile back, "don't mess this one up. this is your last chance or i'll have you gone for good," she lectured.
i nodded my head in response as i unlocked and held out my phone to kate, so that she could input the address. once that was acquired, i thanked her one last time and dashed off her front porch. i needed to see angel. before i knew it, i sped to the train station in hopes of purchasing a ride to london in time. lucky enough, i was able to buy a ticket and wait at the inter-city train station one hour early. i got a lot of looks for holding a bouquet of roses and chocolates in public; but i didn't mind, my only priority was seeing my girlfriend. as i waited, i pulled out my phone to text sapnap; i had many questions to ask.
text messages (18)
sapmap 🐼
george
did u by any chance talk to someone named kate?
sapmap 🐼
ya, i did. dream told me about ur guys' call from earlier this morning. i thought that the best thing i could do for u was contact kate prior to letting u see angel. but once she told me that angel left, i made sure to persuade her into letting u go to london with her :)
george
how?? i thought kate hated me. i mean i cannot thank u enough for persuading her, but how did u do it?
sapmap 🐼
ur asking that question to the biggest chad around? 🙈 but no lol, it wasn't hard. kate is also hella cute too. idk maybe i scored one, so you+angel and kate+i can go on a double date ;)
george
ur so dumb. but thanks again. i owe u a ton. my train to c angel is almost here. i'll talk soon :]
i smiled down at my phone once again. i truly did not deserve my friends and all that they did for me. from sending out tweets for support, to dream's motivational speech to spontaneously see angel, all the way to nick's persuasion to kate, i tried to take it all in. all my friends dropped everything to ensure my happiness, i didn't deserve them. i continued to beam with happiness as my train was called. i boarded the rail way system with excitement as i had my stomach twist and turn from elation. i was going to see the love of my life.