Madi: The... the baby is gone...
You: I-It cant be
Madi: Theres no heartbeat y/n... your gonna need a c section to get it taken out...
You: NO! NO YOUR LYING! Madi tell me your lying
Madi: I wish I was
Madi hugs me and i bawl my eyes out. I hear her crying a little too
Madi: Baby-
You: Dont say that word... please
Madi: y/n... are you ready for the c section?
You: I- I... mhm.
A few hours later... its done.. my baby is gone...
You: M-Madi...
Madi: Sh- Sh its ok you need to rest.
You: What am I gonna tell Blake
Madi: Dont worry we'll sort it together
Its been a day
Madi told Sway I was staying at her house for the night because I felt sick.
You: Im scared
I say while gripping onto Madis hand standing outside Sway
Im gonna be wearing really oversized things for a while."
You: Lets go in...
I say taking a deep breath
We slowly walk in.
Blake: Baby!
You: Please... dont call me that...
Blake goes to hug me but I move away
You: Im sorry. I cant. Not right now. Im gonna go sleep.
I walk upstairs and go to sleep.
Hours later I wake up and hold my stomach.
You: I miss you little one.
Blake: sweetie? Who are you talking to?
You: Oh just myself!
Blake: im always here.
You: I know bab- blake. I know.
Babybabybabybabybabybaby is the thing on my mind.
I get up and go downstairs
Bryce: Hey y/n. You good? You didnt seem like yourself earlier
You: Just feeling sick
More like griefing.
Avani: You should really eat
You: Im not hungry I ate at Madis. When Im hungry I'll order something
Mom: y/n? Are you sure your ok?
You: Im FINE mom.
Madi thinks I ate at hers too. Little did she know I didnt. No one knows. The only reason I was eating was because of my son. Now hes is gone. I HATE THE FACT I ONLY FOUND OUT THE GENDER WHEN THEY DONE C-SECTION. There Blakes and I's son cold, blue, not... breathing. Im getting his ashes in a few days.
After everyone eats Bryce takes me upstairs into his room.