Dear Ross
I weighed myself today. The scale said that I weighed 80 lbs. I know that I don't weigh much, but I feel so huge. I wish you were here so I could hug you, but you are gone.
Ross, I really need you here. As stupid as it sounds you made me strong. You made me want to recover. But now that you are gone, I don't have anyone. I have no one who support me. Without you I don't have a reason to live. I know I sound pathetic, and like a clingy bitch. And I feel so stupid because it was I who broke up with you, It was me who choose razor blades and eating disorder over you.
You were my only friend, you were my first boyfriend and I screwed it up. If only I could go back in time
I wish I could tell you that I miss you, but I don't know were you are. But I hope you are happy, I really do Ross.
Yours truly
Iris x