𝗦𝗼𝗺𝗲𝗱𝗮𝘆, 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝘆𝗼𝘂 (Ongoing)

𝗣𝗥𝗢𝗟𝗢𝗚𝗨𝗘

"Let's end this" CK said as he went to our room. Sinundan ko s'ya ro'n.

"What?! What do you mean let's end this? May problema ba? Hey, ano 'to--what are you doing? Saan ka pupunta?" I quickly said because I could see him packing his clothes. Hindi s'ya sumagot. "CK, ano ba?!" I shouted, because I was confused by what he was doing. Humarap s'ya sa'kin, seryoso ang mukha.

"Ayoko na, klare! Okay? Wala ka bang naintindihan do'n?" His face was serious as he said the words that crushed my heart. Masakit. Ayaw na n'ya? Bakit? Naguguluhan ako.

Tears welled up in my eyes as I stared at his face, "Why?" That's all I said because I don't know what to say anymore, because it hurts. It hurts to know that the person you love is giving up on you.

"Basta, ayoko nalang. I'm done with you!" I felt the bang in my chest when he said that words right in my face. And he left with his belongings and clothes, I heard the loud opening and closing of the door.

Gusto ko s'yang habulin at magmakaawa na 'wag na s'yang umalis at 'wag na n'ya akong iwan. Pero hindi ko magawa dahil nanghihina ako sa lahat ng narinig ko mula sa kan'ya, napa-upo nalang ako sa sahig habang umiiyak.

I cried and cried inside my room until I got tired. Wala na, he left me for no valid reason. I was confused and hurt. Sobrang sakit. But I could do nothing. Sino ba naman ako para pigilan pa 'yung taong gusto nang kumawala sa pagkakakapit ko?

Naalala ko, hindi nga pala ako ang tipo ng tao na maghahabol. Mahal ko s'ya, pero hindi ko s'ya hahabulin. Hahayaan ko s'ya sa gusto n'ya. Masakit, sobra. Pero hindi ako maghahabol.

I just can't quite imagine that he left me like that. For nothing. We've been together for two fucking years, tangina.

But I just think that I can fix myself even without him. I will be fine. I keep telling myself that I can do it because I am strong. Kaya ko, at kakayanin ko.

Tumayo ako at pumunta sa CR para maghilamos. Umaasa na sana matanggal na ang pamamaga ng mata ko galing sa pag iyak. I looked at myself in the mirror. I smiled.

"Kaya mo 'yan" I said to myself as my tears began to flow again. Agad kong pinunasan 'yun at naghilamos ulit. Huminga ako ng malalim bago lumabas ng CR.

Naglinis ako ng buong bahay para mawala sa isip ko ang nangyari kanina. Wala naman akong pasok dahil Sunday ngayon.

Pagkatapos kong maglinis, naisipan kong mag-grocery. I really want to divert my attention to something else. I don't want to think about him anymore. Maybe I'll just move on from what happened and don't think about it anymore. Nakaka tangina lang eh. Ang gago. Ang gago gago n'yang tao.

Habang namimili ng can goods, I heard the familiar voice of a woman, "So, we're going to states, for good?" Shanine, and she's with CK. Tangina! So, he left me for that woman? I feel like my tears are about to drip again, kaya inalis ko na ang paningin ko sa kanilang dalawa.

"Klareyyy!" I was nervous when Aera suddenly called me. Agad akong tumingin sa direksyon nila shanine at CK, I caught them already looking at us.

Agad akong umiwas ng tingin. "Mygosh! Klarey! Kamusta ka na? Kamusta si Cal-Hey! You're here and with--wait--what's happening?" Aera said confused because she saw CK with shanine who I was jealous of.

I immediately pulled Aera away "Huy! Ano 'yon?" Aera asked still wondering as we went to the counter.

"Mamaya ko na ipapaliwanag, okay?" Mabilis kong sabi dahil naiiyak na naman ako kapag nagsasalita.

Habang nasa byahe, hindi ko maiwasang isipin ang itsura nilang dalawa. Aalis sila. Kaya pala. Tears welled up in my eyes once again, as I looked at the vehicles that were accompanying the car I was riding in.

"Are you okay?" Aera asked because she saw that I was wiping my cheek because of the tears.

"No" I honestly said. Because that's the truth. I'm not okay. Galit ako, nasasaktan ako.

Instead of hugging, dahil nagd-drive s'ya. Aera just reached out my hand to let me know that I would be okay. She smiled at me and I smiled back. Then, another tear fell from my eyes. Again. Kelan ba matatapos 'to?