Reincarnated Love written by Aki Noppanut

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"Bakit ka ba talaga nandito, Hia? Ilang beses na naming sinabi sayo na you're not belong here because as far as I remember, you're poor. I wonder how did you entered this school. Tama ba talaga ang pinasukan mo?" My seatmate asked and half of my classmates laughed.

I ignored them at yumuko.Yes, he's right, I'm poor. I don't have enough money to entered this university but luckily, one of the teachers here saw that I have talent or let's just say that I'm smart. I'm a scholar and as a scholar, I need to maintain my grades and I have to do my works in the library because they gave me tasks there and I need to obey them because if not, I will lose my scholarship. I'm a medical student and its my first year here. It's been three months since the class started but they're always bully me dahil sabi ko nga kanina, mahirap ako and big deal sa kanila 'yon.

Napatingin kaming lahat ng bumukas ang pinto at iniluwa no'n si professor.

"Goodmorning students or should I say, future doctors." Bahagya siyang natawa and I smiled. I hope so, prof.

"Today, I have an announcement... We have a transferee so treat him nicely... Please come in."

The door opened and a man with a chubby cheeks entered. For some unknown reason, bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko and I can't breathe properly. This man,I... I think I saw him somewhere. He's familiar...

My heartbeat stopped when I remembered something... siya... siyang ang lalaking nasa panaginip ko. My chest tightened when our eyes met, mas lalong bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko and it seems like.... I'm about to cry. Why do I feel this kind of feeling? Why does it feel like I'm hurting when I saw him? Why does it feel like my heart aches when I saw his face?Why... Why do I feel that I know him?Bakit ako nasasaktan?!Bakit?!I heard myself sobbing. I hold my cheeks and it's wet. I don't even know that I'm crying. Why am I crying?! Bakit parang pinipiga ang puso ko habang tinitingnan siya? Bakit ko ba nararamdaman 'to?!Good thing that I'm at the back and no one knows that I'm crying for some unknown reason.

"Hi, I'm Pao Warut and nice to meet you all." He said with a smile.

Fuck! Those smiles, those chubby cheeks and his voice. He remind me of someone that I don't know. Shit! What is happening to me? I'm starting to cry again at sobrang sikip ng dibdib ko. It hurts so bad. I stand up at dali daling lumabas ng classroom. Dinala ako ng mga paa ko sa cr. I looked at my reflection on the mirror. My cheeks are wet. My eyes are red and my tears didn't stop. "Bakit ko ba nararamdaman 'to?! Bakit ako nasasaktan nang makita ko siya?.... Bakit?" I covered my face using my both hands and cried again. Ngayon ko lang naramdaman ang ganitong sakit. All my life I know that there's something or.... someone missing. I always try to find it but I couldn't. Alam kong may mali, alam kong may nawawala at until now, hinahanap hanap ko pa rin 'yon but when I saw him, I think I found what's missing on my life. I think he's the answer for all my questions. Whenever I will go to the hospital, my chest always tightened when I will see injections and medicines. Hindi ko alam pero lagi akong nasasaktan. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ako naging interesado sa pagiging doktor dahil pakiramdam ko may isang tao akong gustong gamutin and I don't know him. I.... I really don't know him. And what's with Pao? Bakit parang kilala ko siya? No. Parang kilalang kilala ko siya. ARGH! WHAT'S HAPPENING TO ME?!

"Class, do you believe in reincarnation?"Agad akong napatingin kay prof.

Reincarnation?

"What's with the reincarnation, sir?" One of my classmate asked.

"It is said in a THEORY that each soul has 13 physical lives, you die and reincarnate your essence, but without remembering anything about your past lives."

My heart aches again.

"Until you die 13 times and your soul disappears from this world, because the light of your energy has reached its final cycle. It is also said that not in these 13 lives you can repeat your mistakes again past lives, for it is a condemnation that your soul lives in order to reach the final rise in certain cases are born with marks of violent past deaths."

Sa hindi malamang dahilan, napatingin ako kay Pao. The transferee. The one who makes my heart fluttered and hurt. The one who makes me cry. The one who makes me feel weird. When I looked at him, bumalik na naman ang naramdaman ko kanina. Sumikip ang dibdib ko na para bang hindi ako makahinga. My chest seems to explode when he looked at me and.... he's crying and I don't know but I'm starting to cry.

"Reincarnation, is said to be nonphysical essence of a living being, a person or an animal starts a new life in a different physical form or body after death," He paused.

We cried even more. Hindi pa rin maalis alis ang tingin namin sa isa't-isa. I'm happy and at the same time, hurt. I'm happy and I don't know why.

"Rebirth, muling pagkabuhay pero sa ibang katawan, ibang katauhan." Parang nagwawala ang puso ko nang marinig iyon. Are we... are we reincarnated? Hindi ko alam pero bigla akong nahilo. I felt my body fell on my desk before I lost my consciousness.

Nagising ako nang may naramdaman akong patak ng tubig sa kamay ko. I immediately opened my eyes and I saw Pao. Nag-angat siya ng tingin nang mapansin niyang bumibilis ang paghinga ko. Fuck! I can clearly see his face and I don't but I miss him. I miss him so much but I just saw him today. I don't know him but why does it feel that I know him for a long time? Fuck! Why?!

"B-boun..." Natigilan ako sa narinig ko.

That name... I always heard that when the man in my dreams called my name. Am I Boun? So this is....

"Prem...."

Humigpit ang paghawak niya sa kamay ko. This scene is familiar to me but I'm not who's lying. He is. Nagulat ako nang bigla niya akong niyakap.

"I'm sorry for leaving you, Boun. I'm so sorry. I'm sorry if I didn't tell you that I have cancer before. I'm so sorry. Forgive me, Boun." He said while crying.

I hugged him back. I'm so hurt when he said those words. Hindi ko alam pero naintindihan ko ang mga sinabi niya. The pain returned when I heard what he said, yeah, he left me alone and hurt. He doesn't know how much I suffered when he left me before but now, I'm happy. I'm so happy because he's with me again. I cried in joy. Nasa tabi ko na ngayon. Ang tagal kong naghintay at hindi ko aakalaing narito na siya. The same man that I know.I caressed his hair.

"It's okay, you're forgiven but please don't leave me again, hindi mo alam kung anong paghihirap ang naranasan ko nang iniwan mo ako and it's our fifth anniversary before. I'm really really hurt, Prem but now, you're here, again, in my arms. I took a very long time until I found you. I will never let go of you again and please don't leave me again, hindi ko na kakayanin."

We stared at each other's eyes. We're both crying in joy but at the same time, we're crying because we're hurt. Now, we will make our future better. It's the fate who bring us here and we will never let go of each other's hand. I hope that the past will never happen again.

"It's good to know that you both are together again."

Napalingon kami nang may nagsalita sa harap namin. Bigla akong napaupo galing sa pagkakahiga.It's our prof. in history, he's smiling like a proud father.

"Kahit ilang taon ang lumipas alam kong magkikita kayo ulit. It's so sad that you both has a tragic past. I wish that it will never happen again and please if you have problems, tell it to each other para hindi mangyari ulit ang nagyari noon." Sabi nito habang papalapit sa amin.

He hold our shoulders and smiled again.

"You... Who are-" Hindi ko pa natatapos ang tanong ko nang magsalita siya.

"I'm the beggar that you helped infront of the convenient store, Boun."

Our jaw dropped. He's that beggar? Paano? Bakit? His eyes widened when he looked at his watch.

"I'm late for my third class. Aalis na ako and good luck to the both of you." He tapped our shoulder while smiling and left us. We remaimed silent for a while but he's the one who broke the silence.

"Boun- I mean Hia, do you want to start over again?" Tanong nito at hinawakan ang magkabila kong pisngi .Ngumiti ako at tumango.

"Yes, let's start again, Prem- Pao." His eyes twinkled in delight.

"It's 27th of September, same as our anniversary and my death but today, it's the day that we will start again. I love you."Hindi ko maipaliwanag ang nararamdaman kong saya ngayon. Word is not enough to explain how happy I am. "I love you too." I hold the back of his neck, leaned him towards me and pressed his lips on mine as we started to make our new story.

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